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***** Threats and Responses
Chapter 6: Reminisce
*****
My father gave me this ring. It's so beautiful, so simple yet exquisite. I love it. The softness of the gold texture, and the pretty wings that make the ring look like it's about to fly away. It's so unique and beautiful... The ring is my new precious treasure...something that I have that was once my mother's...
Bringing her up is painful, not just for me, but for Daddy also. I can't help but wonder why she left...Did she not want me? Did she not love Daddy enough? Was I a bad child? I can't help but ponder. All I know is that I will NEVER ever blame Daddy, because he is a good man, and he has raised me proper. If anything, it might be me...
I can't help but twirl the endless circle on my finger. The lights shines nicely on the ring....I could see the wings. My Daddy always told me, 'Those with Wings, fly to your dreams...' Maybe Tomoyo (I refuse to call her Mom) wanted to chase after her dreams also... Tomoyo seems to be doing so fine though, maybe she's done with her flight.
I really wish life wasn't so hard. Daddy doesn't deserve all this pressure. I don't want to live with Tomoyo, I want to live with Daddy. He's the one who was there for me on my birthday, he was there when I got a boo-boo, and he was there when I got my first skateboard. He was THERE, and that's all that counts. Tomoyo has done nothing for me except give me life. That's it. See's off living her life, and left ours alone, so why bother it now? Why interupt the peace the was brought among us? Is there a purpose? Is there an explanation? Does this have anything to do with love, or is it revenge?
But maybe I'm being a hypocrite. I could understand that Tomoyo WOULD want me back in her life, depending on the situation. She COULD have wanted me, but maybe things in her life weren't going too well...But I wouldn't know....I wouldn't know at all.... There isn't much I can do at this age. After I'm done with this entry, I'll go comfort Daddy. He needs me just like I need him....but do I need Tomoyo? Does Daddy need her? Do WE need her?
Maybe I should give her a chance. Could it actually hurt? But I might hurt Daddy....Does her still love her? A bit, at all? So many unansered questions....
I don't know what I want anymore.....
I'm lost.
I'm confused.
I'm stuck.
I guess I'll just let destiny take its course....
But I"m not sure I like the results....
I give up.
For now, I'll just let it go. All this pondering causes headaches (ITAI!)
But I can't help but reflect back to the ring... Wasn't Daddy's love enough? Wasn't MINE enough? Must not have been since this material object was left behind...
I will fly away for now, to get lost in those starry night skies. Maybe I'll find my answer deep in the clouds....I have the wings, now all I need to do is use them....
Ai Zutto,
Liao
***** Threats and Responses
Chapter 6: Reminisce
*****
My father gave me this ring. It's so beautiful, so simple yet exquisite. I love it. The softness of the gold texture, and the pretty wings that make the ring look like it's about to fly away. It's so unique and beautiful... The ring is my new precious treasure...something that I have that was once my mother's...
Bringing her up is painful, not just for me, but for Daddy also. I can't help but wonder why she left...Did she not want me? Did she not love Daddy enough? Was I a bad child? I can't help but ponder. All I know is that I will NEVER ever blame Daddy, because he is a good man, and he has raised me proper. If anything, it might be me...
I can't help but twirl the endless circle on my finger. The lights shines nicely on the ring....I could see the wings. My Daddy always told me, 'Those with Wings, fly to your dreams...' Maybe Tomoyo (I refuse to call her Mom) wanted to chase after her dreams also... Tomoyo seems to be doing so fine though, maybe she's done with her flight.
I really wish life wasn't so hard. Daddy doesn't deserve all this pressure. I don't want to live with Tomoyo, I want to live with Daddy. He's the one who was there for me on my birthday, he was there when I got a boo-boo, and he was there when I got my first skateboard. He was THERE, and that's all that counts. Tomoyo has done nothing for me except give me life. That's it. See's off living her life, and left ours alone, so why bother it now? Why interupt the peace the was brought among us? Is there a purpose? Is there an explanation? Does this have anything to do with love, or is it revenge?
But maybe I'm being a hypocrite. I could understand that Tomoyo WOULD want me back in her life, depending on the situation. She COULD have wanted me, but maybe things in her life weren't going too well...But I wouldn't know....I wouldn't know at all.... There isn't much I can do at this age. After I'm done with this entry, I'll go comfort Daddy. He needs me just like I need him....but do I need Tomoyo? Does Daddy need her? Do WE need her?
Maybe I should give her a chance. Could it actually hurt? But I might hurt Daddy....Does her still love her? A bit, at all? So many unansered questions....
I don't know what I want anymore.....
I'm lost.
I'm confused.
I'm stuck.
I guess I'll just let destiny take its course....
But I"m not sure I like the results....
I give up.
For now, I'll just let it go. All this pondering causes headaches (ITAI!)
But I can't help but reflect back to the ring... Wasn't Daddy's love enough? Wasn't MINE enough? Must not have been since this material object was left behind...
I will fly away for now, to get lost in those starry night skies. Maybe I'll find my answer deep in the clouds....I have the wings, now all I need to do is use them....
Ai Zutto,
Liao