Chapter 13 (Gordon)
Oh my god. Words could not convey what I was feeling. Too many things in place for none of it to be real. Sam was a friend, how could he do that?
He couldn't.
But why did the Ellimist decide to show us that? Was that so important that we were supposed to kill Sam? No, it couldn't be. The questions were flying around in my head all too much. I didn't know what the hell to do about them.
But I didn't have much time to think, right after sam saved himself, we were almost instantly transported back to the real world. I was at my home, nobody else was. Instead of waiting around for them, I shed my outer clothing and morphed to peregrine falcon.
I didn't waste any time, I just left. I didn't want to discuss it any further. Nobody was going to listen to me. Even though it was as real as the Ellimist said it would be.
But when it all came down to it, I really needed to get away. It would just be better for me mentally. I needed some time to think about stuff. There was too much going on.
It was a nice, warm day, the sun was still up and it was nearing set. All that time in the future messed me up, I thought it was night. So I flew, not knowing where I was headed, or where I would end up.
So I just flew in no apparent direction. Over the city I went. As I flew, I pondered some of the thing we already knew. We knew little to nothing.
Well, let me rephrase that, the rest of the group knows the Ellimist is trying to save us, I know he isn't. But for what reason, I didn't know...
So instead of stewing over the same questions,. I decided to go to the tallest building in town. I would relax, and nobody would notice me there. As I got there, I flew down and demorphed.
The thing that scared me was I was a really good morpher. With the others, the morphs are like hideous genetic experiments. But with me and Cassie, we could make it an art. I was just as good as her, but not quite as fast. For most, the process takes as much as two and a half minutes. For cassie and I, we are disappointed if it takes one whole minute....you know...
But that wasn't the point. The point was what I figured out before. Before we went earlier, I figured something out, and the Ellimist confirmed it. What was it.
'His presence changed time, and so he decided to give it a boost. He gave me the other half of the power, so that future doesn't exist!' oh, right. That entire demonstration...
It was all fake. He said he was still going to show the future, even though I had already figured it out. That future was fake, and so was the more recent one. One Intervention.
I get it now, that future was what was going to happen unless he intervened. But what would he have done differently? And what would him giving me power make different. I still couldn't control it....or could I?
I was completely demorphed, so I closed my eyes and concentrated. When I opened them, I saw blue. Just a light tinge of it, but enough to notice. I took a few deep breaths and concentrated on a small handful of the pebbles.
The pebbles each began to glow like little Christmas lights on a tree. A soft, but solid sky blue covered them. I then thought I wanted to make them come to me, and low and behold, the rose towards my hand.
I grabbed them out of the air and the blue faded. I dropped them in shock. He really did give me a boost.....a boost?
Did that mean I was as good as Sam? I hoped so, but considering I was on a tall building, I decided to leave it for a while. We would all be just fine as it was. But it was so cool to be able to do stuff like that.
But still, I don't think that me having the same power was going to change that future, maybe make it not as harsh, but not stop it. But I think I needed to think things over. First of all, I think the Ellimist showed Sam saving himself to give it a sense of realism. But why. Why wouldn't he just tell us? Was there some sort of law to obey? I would never know, but oh well.
And Sam was able to hold up an entire building and stop cruise missiles at the same time. Did this mean he got really good? I hoped not, not if that was the path he chose.
And Will, why was he there? He didn't say anything, and he didn't make himself known, but he was there. Something big was going to happen, and it involved will. Did he play a big role. Did my honesty with him mean something was going to be drastically changed? But why Will? What made him such a big influence? Man, I made some bad decisions.
But there was still one huge problem with it all. My dream. The Ellimist said the dreams were premonitions. All of them. So if he was intervening to stop that future, than why did I have the dream. The one where Sam said there was an entire species about to need a leader. That was what confused me the most. They were too close to not have some sort of connection.
But maybe the Ellimist once again made that as a way to show me it was real. But I was able to figure it all out.
Damn it! Why did this seem so difficult? The equation was simple. The Ellimist intervention =/=(does not equal.) the future he has shown us, so what was it he wanted us to do? There must have been something he wanted us to do.
In the yeerk pool, he showed us an exit by making us go into the main pool. When we were in the future world, I saw three different towers. All very important towers. One was the Water tower. The one on the outskirts of uptown, powering the main city. In the city of the future, it was covered by something interesting. Same with the radio tower and the EGS tower. The three biggest towers in that apart of town, and all in a neat little triangle. What were they?
Instead of dwelling on it, I morphed to falcon again and flew off. Maybe some flying would help ease my mind. Over the world I flew, trying to keep to myself, hoping nobody would recognize me, not realizing that was not the problem.
As a falcon, I was flying over the city, and I saw the worst possible thing I could at this time in my life. It was my dad.
You see, when I was first taken, my dad was out of town for the week on business. So they didn't immediately take him. At this point, I wasn't sure if he had been taken yet. I figured he wouldn't be taken, either. He was gone too much and he didn't, and wouldn't know anything.
But nonetheless, seeing him in his truck on main street was kind of heartbreaking. I didn't know and wouldn't know whether or not he was one of them I really hoped he wasn't a controller.
I will admit, though, I was tempted to go down and talk to him. Common sense made sure I didn't. I have learned my lesson by saying too much to Will. Somehow I knew for a fact that it was going to jump up and bite me in the ass.
I decided the city wasn't going to help me. Only hurt me. I turned around and headed for the forest, to my home.
On the way, I swung past the water tower. I thought, just maybe....
But I decided to not jump to conclusions. On to home I went. With all fear of Sam gone, I had decided what I could do, the options were vast, and that is good.
But of course, I had to talk to Tobias and Ax first.
Oh my god. Words could not convey what I was feeling. Too many things in place for none of it to be real. Sam was a friend, how could he do that?
He couldn't.
But why did the Ellimist decide to show us that? Was that so important that we were supposed to kill Sam? No, it couldn't be. The questions were flying around in my head all too much. I didn't know what the hell to do about them.
But I didn't have much time to think, right after sam saved himself, we were almost instantly transported back to the real world. I was at my home, nobody else was. Instead of waiting around for them, I shed my outer clothing and morphed to peregrine falcon.
I didn't waste any time, I just left. I didn't want to discuss it any further. Nobody was going to listen to me. Even though it was as real as the Ellimist said it would be.
But when it all came down to it, I really needed to get away. It would just be better for me mentally. I needed some time to think about stuff. There was too much going on.
It was a nice, warm day, the sun was still up and it was nearing set. All that time in the future messed me up, I thought it was night. So I flew, not knowing where I was headed, or where I would end up.
So I just flew in no apparent direction. Over the city I went. As I flew, I pondered some of the thing we already knew. We knew little to nothing.
Well, let me rephrase that, the rest of the group knows the Ellimist is trying to save us, I know he isn't. But for what reason, I didn't know...
So instead of stewing over the same questions,. I decided to go to the tallest building in town. I would relax, and nobody would notice me there. As I got there, I flew down and demorphed.
The thing that scared me was I was a really good morpher. With the others, the morphs are like hideous genetic experiments. But with me and Cassie, we could make it an art. I was just as good as her, but not quite as fast. For most, the process takes as much as two and a half minutes. For cassie and I, we are disappointed if it takes one whole minute....you know...
But that wasn't the point. The point was what I figured out before. Before we went earlier, I figured something out, and the Ellimist confirmed it. What was it.
'His presence changed time, and so he decided to give it a boost. He gave me the other half of the power, so that future doesn't exist!' oh, right. That entire demonstration...
It was all fake. He said he was still going to show the future, even though I had already figured it out. That future was fake, and so was the more recent one. One Intervention.
I get it now, that future was what was going to happen unless he intervened. But what would he have done differently? And what would him giving me power make different. I still couldn't control it....or could I?
I was completely demorphed, so I closed my eyes and concentrated. When I opened them, I saw blue. Just a light tinge of it, but enough to notice. I took a few deep breaths and concentrated on a small handful of the pebbles.
The pebbles each began to glow like little Christmas lights on a tree. A soft, but solid sky blue covered them. I then thought I wanted to make them come to me, and low and behold, the rose towards my hand.
I grabbed them out of the air and the blue faded. I dropped them in shock. He really did give me a boost.....a boost?
Did that mean I was as good as Sam? I hoped so, but considering I was on a tall building, I decided to leave it for a while. We would all be just fine as it was. But it was so cool to be able to do stuff like that.
But still, I don't think that me having the same power was going to change that future, maybe make it not as harsh, but not stop it. But I think I needed to think things over. First of all, I think the Ellimist showed Sam saving himself to give it a sense of realism. But why. Why wouldn't he just tell us? Was there some sort of law to obey? I would never know, but oh well.
And Sam was able to hold up an entire building and stop cruise missiles at the same time. Did this mean he got really good? I hoped not, not if that was the path he chose.
And Will, why was he there? He didn't say anything, and he didn't make himself known, but he was there. Something big was going to happen, and it involved will. Did he play a big role. Did my honesty with him mean something was going to be drastically changed? But why Will? What made him such a big influence? Man, I made some bad decisions.
But there was still one huge problem with it all. My dream. The Ellimist said the dreams were premonitions. All of them. So if he was intervening to stop that future, than why did I have the dream. The one where Sam said there was an entire species about to need a leader. That was what confused me the most. They were too close to not have some sort of connection.
But maybe the Ellimist once again made that as a way to show me it was real. But I was able to figure it all out.
Damn it! Why did this seem so difficult? The equation was simple. The Ellimist intervention =/=(does not equal.) the future he has shown us, so what was it he wanted us to do? There must have been something he wanted us to do.
In the yeerk pool, he showed us an exit by making us go into the main pool. When we were in the future world, I saw three different towers. All very important towers. One was the Water tower. The one on the outskirts of uptown, powering the main city. In the city of the future, it was covered by something interesting. Same with the radio tower and the EGS tower. The three biggest towers in that apart of town, and all in a neat little triangle. What were they?
Instead of dwelling on it, I morphed to falcon again and flew off. Maybe some flying would help ease my mind. Over the world I flew, trying to keep to myself, hoping nobody would recognize me, not realizing that was not the problem.
As a falcon, I was flying over the city, and I saw the worst possible thing I could at this time in my life. It was my dad.
You see, when I was first taken, my dad was out of town for the week on business. So they didn't immediately take him. At this point, I wasn't sure if he had been taken yet. I figured he wouldn't be taken, either. He was gone too much and he didn't, and wouldn't know anything.
But nonetheless, seeing him in his truck on main street was kind of heartbreaking. I didn't know and wouldn't know whether or not he was one of them I really hoped he wasn't a controller.
I will admit, though, I was tempted to go down and talk to him. Common sense made sure I didn't. I have learned my lesson by saying too much to Will. Somehow I knew for a fact that it was going to jump up and bite me in the ass.
I decided the city wasn't going to help me. Only hurt me. I turned around and headed for the forest, to my home.
On the way, I swung past the water tower. I thought, just maybe....
But I decided to not jump to conclusions. On to home I went. With all fear of Sam gone, I had decided what I could do, the options were vast, and that is good.
But of course, I had to talk to Tobias and Ax first.