I've been feeling so much better lately. End of the term is always the most stressful (no free time at all) but after the terms over its like the weight is lifted. And I got my new Clay Aiken CD to calm me down. Clay haters... just go away now :P

Okay for this chapter it's getting to the point where the story intersects with the movie. I'm not going to go through every scene of the movie or anything but I need some movie scenes to develop the plot and give the story more feeling. But forgive me if I get some of the movie script incorrect, you can tell me if I screwed up a line or a scene in a review or an email. Also tell me if it gets uninteresting or there is too much from the movie. I may or may not change it. But I'd love to know. I am sticking to the movie, so there will not be any alterations in anything that Jack does. But I know the pirate names are correct.


Also, a big thing that I have trouble doing is sticking to one tense. I always find myself switching from present to past and back. PLEASE correct me if you find a tense mistake, especially in Jack's section which is supposed to be in present tense.


Again, I love your reviews! They make you feel like your work is really appreciated:) I'm expecting there's gonna be three more chapters including this one, but it's not set. It's been a while since I've written unfortunately, but I'm excited to keep this story going and hopefully finish it soon. I'm aiming for the end of the month but before I said I wanted it to be done by the end of October so you never know. And thank you so much for pointing out stupid typos etc. It's really helpful.





Chapter 6: Standing on the Edge


The rock was cold in my hand and it dug into my skin as I held onto it. I clasped the blunt end in my hand and even then it was splitting the skin. The sharp end had a more important purpose. For one last time I struggled to free my captured arm. As always it was to no avail. My gaze stayed on my arm, for the first time wondering if it was worth the trouble to be free.


But that thought passed through my head in a heartbeat as I remembered who I would see if I escaped. I remembered, and memories washed over my body. I remembered brown eyes, a soft touch, hushed whispers, the warmth of flesh on flesh, the scent of the sea. How could I have been so lucky to get a man like Jack? That perfection only comes around once in a lifetime. Once in a lifetime, and I may have expired my time. Please let him take me back. I don't know what I would do without him.


But what if he doesn't love me anymore? How could I manage to breathe? I don't think I could. If I got out and was able to see him again, I think my life would be complete. Even if I could never really love him again. I could never really touch him, be touched by him. This curse is so dark to be able to stop something so light and pure as love.


Okay I have to stop this. If I'm going to find the courage to do this I've got to do it soon. I look at the flesh on my arm. I know there is nothing but bones underneath, and I know that I will feel no pain, but I can't imagine losing a part of myself.


I remember the warm embrace and how I used to find myself only when I was wrapped up in the safety of his arms. With his breath on my neck and my head nuzzled next to his I knew there was good in the world. As long as I can remember...


I split the skin. I actually physically harmed myself. I would never have thought I would be doing that unless I lost Jack. Now I'm doing it to return to him. Ironic. But everything is ironic I this life. When I find what I need to live, it is taken away. And even my ability to die without it is taken away.


I dig the rock in deeper. I can hear the sound of empty bones cracking. I cringe. I don't know if I can "live" with myself like this. Will Jack still accept me? What if he still loves me, and I come back, but he pushes me away because of this. I don't know what I would do. I don't think I could be a pirate anymore either. Hell, if I wasn't with him I couldn't be anything.


But there should be nothing stopping me. Anything is an improvement to this. Another snap. I could breathe air again. I could see the sun. And the moon. The moon that watched over us when we made love. It could watch over me again. Over us again.


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Since I got to Port Royal life has been pretty much uneventful. I got there before my makeshift ship sank, tried to commandeer a new speedy boat, almost got caught, escaped, fought with a man who looked shockingly like Bill (I won of course), and then I was caught and brought to jail to be killed in a matter of days

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So that's where I am now. When I was put behind bars, my life seemed to slow down. Every hour I'm here seems like a day. Although I know I will escape somehow because I always do mind you, there is a worry in the back of my head that my life will end here. I wonder how he does it. I wonder how Bill survives like this. I mean it has been years for him, and I'm almost going crazy after being imprisoned for two days! But Bill's always been stronger than me in the sanity department. He'll make it through. He always has. He has to.


I look out the window. The sun is setting, and a mist is rolling over the city like a blanket of foreboding. Something is going to happen, I can feel it. Most likely it won't have to do with me though. I'm just a heartbroken old pirate in a jail cell waiting for his life to end. Quite uplifting isn't it?


Okay I shouldn't be thinking like that. What is Bill doing right now to stay sane? He's probably occupying himself somehow. Thinking, most likely. He always loved to think so much. Maybe he's thinking of me. He does remember me, doesn't he? Oh of course he does you're doing it again. Think of something good. Memories. Of him. That's so very good. I can't believe I ever had someone as perfect as him. I should have realized what a gift he was to me while I could appreciate it. But I can still have him in my dreams. Memories never fade. God I remember these things like they happened yesterday.


As I drifted away into the memory of our first night together, I hear a sound like a thunderbolt ripping across the sky and tearing it in two. It caught me unaware. I went from a peaceful quiet to a deafening boom. And it doesn't stop after one. The more I hear it the more I realize it isn't thunder, but cannons on a ship. My cannons! It's gotta be the Black Pearl. Are they returning for me? Yeah right, I tell myself. First of all they don't even know that I'm here, second of all the Captain's fucking Barbossa who has probably brainwashed the entire crew into thinking I'm no better than the devil himself...


A sickening crash awakens me from my thoughts. The sound is so loud for a second I thought that the whole Port Royal had exploded. My own cell is beginning to crumble, and I know there was no way I can escape from being crushed. Except being Jack Sparrow I narrowly miss being crushed, and as I am regaining my footing I look around to see the damage and I realize that the men in the jail cell next to me are escaping.


I feel my heartbeat quicken in my chest and relief wash over me as the realization dawns on me that I can escape and resume my quest for Bill. I am about to run out into the streets when I notice something that sends my spirits down into the sea. Their cell was blasted open. Mine wasn't. I shrink to my knees and grab the bars of my cell. I shiver, for a feeling of dread falls over me and my feeling change as much as the light of day when the clouds cover the sun. I'm about to slide over to the corner and go to sleep hoping for a new day tomorrow, but I never do get my rest because I am startled by a slam of the prison door and the dead bodies of the guards falling down the stairs and forming a heap on the floor.


Soon following are two pirates. I recognize them almost immediately. They were part of my crew on the Pearl, and one of them I used to trust and was my closest mate. His name's Koehler if I remember correctly. Seeing him jogged some memories. Me and Bill always thought there was something going on with him and Barbossa. Well I'm glad he's one of the pirates here. It would be worse.


The two began to walk down the stairs and I let my eyes rest on Koehler. I scan his eyes with mine and all I see is a burning hatred pulsing through his eyes and radiating out towards me. I give him a confused glance, but he only intensifies his glare. This could be trouble. If this was one of my friends, then what are my enemies like?


"Well, well, well, look what he have here, Captain Jack Sparrow," he says. I cringe.


I don't really pay much attention to what they're saying. I don't need to be tormented anymore. I only look up when I hear Barbossa's name.


"Barbossa'd love to see him here now wouldn't he?" The other pirate says.



"No, no I know who'd love to see 'im here. Ol' Bootstap Bill," replies Koehler. I'm sure that he could feel me tense up at the sound of his words. It only encourages him. He makes an obscene gesture with his hands and it takes all I have in myself not to turn away, so I do the next best thing. I insult him right back.


"I'm pretty sure you and Barbossa had something goin' on." I swear he flinched. I could see it. But no way am I going to stop there. "But no matter. At least you know me and Bill won't end up in Hell. As you may know, the deepest circle of Hell is reserved for betrayers and mutineers." That got to him. He reaches his hand through the bars of my cell and grabs for my neck. In the process his hand is exposed to the moonlight which is filtering through the poor excuse of a window.


"You know nothing of Hell," he said, as I am beginning to see that his arm is no longer flesh. A skeleton of his hand is in its place. Is this Bill's fate too? Damn, and I though all he had to deal with was being trapped underwater.


With that he removes his hand and turns around, grabs his friend, and storms up the stairs, leaving me with some serious thinking to do. Bill needed to be freed, and Barbossa needed to be taught a lesson for what he did to Bill, and for turning my friends against me. My plan was already in motion. All I needed was a way out of here...


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Wow that took longer than I expected. I need a few more movie scenes for plot purposes, so you guys gotta tell me if they should be more like that, or if I should shorten them. Thanks again for reading and don't forget to review!


Also you might want to know that I have the rest of the story outlined, so for once I actually know what's gonna happen in detail. This should speed up writing considerably :)