All right, you wanted it, so here's more!!! I've actually decided to make what you could call a small mini series out of this story. It's going to follow Hiei and Kurama's relationship from beginning to end. I warn you now to have tissues ready people, this one's going to be a tear jerker!!!
The song lyrics for this chapter are from the song "Let Him Know" by Bryan Adams. It's a really sweet song and I think, if you like any of Bryan Adam's other works, you'll like this song.
Let Him Know
*Another day goes by
and still you
wonder what happened*
One month seemed too long, time seeming to drag its feet as it trudged uselessly forward. Another meeting was coming up. They had agreed to meet at his house this time, for his mother would be gone and the other had predicted rain. And he had been right. The small rain droplets pelted the window for all they were worth. They slammed into the glass, ending their brief life with moist plops, kissing the pane before trickling down into nothingness.
How the weather seemed to mirror his mood. A dreary gray with no light to pierce even the darkest of parts. His heart had formed into a ball of lead, weighing down in the bottom of his stomach. What had happened to him? Normally he was trembling with the anticipation of this upcoming meeting. Being able to talk to his little fire demon again, sitting so close to him, breathing the same air as him. It was what he lived for.
So why was he seeming to dread his monthly moment of bliss?
*You'd give the world
for one more try
But you're too shy to ask him*
Kurama sighed and settled his warmed forehead on the cool glass. He knew exactly what his problem was. No matter how close he was to Hiei he could never tell him the things he really meant to say. The things that filled his heart and weighed it down like it was at that moment. He'd give anything to be able to pull the fire demon close, whisper sweet nothings in his ear and plead with him never to leave again.
A tear ran down his cheek, living its life with the rain drops that pelted the window in a sad chorus. He knew that would never happen. He was too afraid to tell the fire demon all that lay with in his heart. How could he ever expect Hiei to return the feelings he felt any where near as strongly? The fear of rejection ran rampant in him, blocking out the emotions that told him to throw sensibility away and live by his heart rather then his mind. Pain was too obvious an outcome for him to throw caution to the wind and blurt out all he felt.
*You don't wanna ask him now
I know your heart will pull you through*
He could feel Hiei's energy drawing closer as the war continued to rage in his mind. The little fire demon was peering at him from the tree just outside his window, his black hair drooping as the rain soaked him. Kurama jumped back, his heart suddenly coming to life. His fingers fumbled on the latch the first few times before he was able to pull the window open for his secret love. Hiei darted in and shook himself like a dog, spraying water droplets everywhere. But the fox wasn't worried about that. His eyes were locked on Hiei's every movement, memorizing them so he could torture his bruised heart with them later.
"Thank for taking so long fox." The fire demon growled, not noticing the way he was captivating his long time friend.
Kurama could find any words. The last month in Makai had done the fire demon good. He could see the rippling movement of Hiei's strengthened muscles under his drenched cloak. His heart was now hammering in his chest. Maybe he could tell him…
*If he means that much
to you -
you gotta let him know*
Hiei turned and finally saw the way the kitsune's green eyes were locked on him, yet seemed to be looking at something far away. Pain was clearly etched in his elegant features, a look he thought didn't suite the fox. He felt his heart begin to beat faster as he remembered their last meeting and the forlorn look Kurama had given him when he thought he wasn't there.
The fox was deeply in love with, as he was with the fox. Kurama had always been there for him, saved his ass when he allowed his pride to cloud his better judgment. And now he knew of the kitsune's darkest secret, deepest desire, and felt as though he couldn't act upon it.
But Kurama meant too much to him for him to let another chance at true love to slip away again.
*Let him know that you
love him
You gotta let him know*
"Kurama," Hiei's deep voice shattered the kitsune's thoughts and his jade orbs snapped back to alertness. He glanced at the fire demon, his cheeks reddened in the obvious embarrassment of getting caught gawking. Fear suddenly paled his features and he turned swiftly away. Hiei felt his entire heart clench. Had one month changed the fox's feelings?
"I-I'm sorry Hiei." Kurama spoke softly. "I didn't mean to faze out. I've…I've just had a lot on my mine lately. Do you wish to tell me of your latest adventures, or should I bore you with my ningen lifestyle first?"
Hiei allowed a small grin to grace his lips. Kurama was his same old self. That lightened the fire demon's heart and gave him the courage to step towards his fox, closing the distance between them. To Hiei, and space between their bodies was too much.
"Actually I wanted to tell you something that I forgot to last time we meet." Hiei decided there was no approach like the direct approach.
He saw Kurama stiffen and knew that horrible thoughts were running through the fox's head. With an unspoken gentleness, he reached out and took one of Kurama's hands in his own. A spark flashed through him at the contact. The fox's hands were soft, like the petals of his beloved rose. Hiei felt his insides melting as he placed the trembling hand on his smooth cheek, tracing the fox's fingers down the place where his tear had flowed only a month before.
"Kurama," He whispered, "I forgot to tell you, I love you."
*What can I say it's
up to you
You gotta make up your own
mind*
Kurama's whole body went stiff and his hand curled into a fist against Hiei's cheek. The fire demon closed his eyes, waiting for the blow he thought would come. He had taken the first step, put his heart out on the line. Now it was all up to the kitsune. Whatever happened between them would all depend on what Kurama's mind and heart decided.
*Well it's your life it's up to
you
Cause you didn't believe me*
"W-what did you say?" Kurama pulled his hand away from Hiei's face.
The fire demon's heart cried out at the sudden loss of contact, but he kept himself under check. It was obvious the fox didn't believe him, but that was something he couldn't control. If Kurama truly wanted his love he would tell him. But this was the kitsunes choice, and he couldn't make up his mind for him. All he could do was stand there with his heart open wide.
But he could…
*You still don't believe me
Now you're gonna see it's all comin'
true*
Hiei closed the space between them quickly. Reaching up, he grabbed Kurama by the side locks and pulled him down into a soft kiss. He poured his heart into the action, licking gently at Kurama's shocked lips.
Kurama gasped into the fire demon's mouth. He was in total disbelief over what was happening. Just minutes ago he was tearing himself up over this, trying to tell himself he had to learn to live with this kind of intimacy from Hiei. And here was the very same fire demon, begging for entrance into his mouth. Could it possible that all his greatest desires were coming true?
*That's why I'm leavin' it up to you
Yeah you gotta let him know*
Kurama finally gave into the kiss, moaning when Hiei's tongue ran over his teeth before stroking his own tongue, coaxing it into a passionate dance. He dropped to his knees, causing the fire demon to stand about a head taller them him. Kurama wanted to feel as though Hiei was bigger then, someone who could pull him into his arms and protect him from all that was out there against him. He brought his arms up and wrapped them around Hiei's neck, bringing himself up tight against the fire demon's body.
Finally, after a few heated moments, they pulled apart, breaking the kiss that would forever be burned into both their memories.
*The news is out I guess you heard
I shouldn't breathe a single word*
Hiei took a step back and pinned Kurama into place with his ruby eyes. He was breathing heavy when he finally spoke.
"You know how I feel." He murmured. "Our future is up to you."
Hiei, turned slightly, not sure he'd be able to look Kurama in the eye if rejection was what lay before him. His heart was hammering in his chest, the blood pounding in his ears. Never before had silence seemed so deafening.
*The bottom line is nothing's gonna stop you now*
Suddenly he felt Kurama's hands on his face, the petal soft fingers tracing the many faded scars. He felt a shiver run down as he turned his face and was locked once more in a passionate kiss. When they pulled apart this time, Kurama's eyes were moist with unshed tears. Hiei felt his heart leap into his throat as tears burned his own eyes and dripped into black pearl tear gems on Kurama's floor. His deepest desire was about to come true.
*You gotta let him know...*
"Hiei," Kurama whispered, his voice shaking as all his pent up emotions broke free. "I love you."
*Let him know that you love him*
And there, amongst scattered black tear gems and rose petals, an unbreakable love was born.
Look for the next chapter (hopefully coming soon). As for now I hope you enjoyed this chapter.
Please review!! n.n
