Time for some "thank you's"!! :)

Nepeace: Don't worry… it'll come down eventually!

Brianna: Yep! I loved the song for Mulder and Scully, too! I really miss that show… Well, the earlier seasons… I didn't like the last few much. Oh well! LoL

MissyJane: Thanks for keeping me company while I write! And thanks for the continued support! Tub Love Rules!

oceanwave1: *tap, tap, tap* Hehe! I cracked up when I read your review. "Oh thank God!" Hehe!

EmmyMik: Again, thanks for the help with Getting to Know You!

pdhtgal: Yes, very emotional… That's what I was shootin' for! LoL

PeTiTeCaT: Sara's a very stubborn chick, but don't worry… She'll see the *light* soon! :-)

PassionatePapist: I absolutely LOVE your review! Very funny! Thanks so much!

oOoOo: So, sorry I took a few days… I'm slow… :( Hehe!

Countryfreak: Nope, he didn't get married… Not yet anyways… ;-)

Okay… On with the chapter!!

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Sara finally pulled herself together twenty minutes later, and was able to drive herself home, albeit slowly. She pulled into the parking lot, and shut off the engine. She sat in silence for a minute before getting out of the car, and heading up to her empty apartment.  Letting herself inside, she threw her keys and purse down on the small table that sat beside the door. She stood for another moment replaying the day's events over and over in her head….

"I love you. I want a life with you……I don't care what it takes……I need you…..Don't walk away from me, please. I need you."

Sara closed her eyes, and leaned back up against the door.

She sits at the window
All dressed in white
Been a long time since she's cried
Tears called ....tumbling down
She remembers her childhood brown
She's afraid it's too late

She steps out on the porch
Takes a minute from her day
Just like when she was a child
To listen what the wind would say
She was carefree like the children are today
Say, ?? loves you, won't you come out and play
She's afraid it's too late

Sara's mind was filled with images of Nick… How sad his face was… The look in his eyes… The sheer desperation…. Then she pictured Nick with Monica, and the baby…. She pictured them hugging. Kissing. She opened her eyes and rubbed them with her hands, trying to get the images out of her head. She dragged herself over to the couch and slumped down, letting her head rest against the back, hoping to get all the images of Nick, Monica, and their future child out of her head.

When she was a child
She had crowns hiding gold
With such awe, each flower she did hold
And she...the grass beneath her feet
How she hated things that were already late

They took away her laughter
They took away her crown
They said "hey girl, you gotta keep your feet on the ground"
She said "oh, but they are"
They say "Well laughter won't pay your bills"
A flower fell from her hand, falling still
They taught her to be respectable
Responsible somehow
They taught her to be in every....
She forgot how it felt to have leaves of grass beneath her feet
Now every thought screams to return to her childhood royalty
She's afraid it's too late

Sara could feel the tears sliding down her cheeks again. She didn't think it was possible for one person to cry so much, but now she knew. She didn't bother wiping them away. She didn't bother with the mascara that was now staining her cheeks either. She didn't care. She missed Nick so much it hurt. It hurt to breathe. It hurt to cry. She needed him to hold her and tell her it would all be okay, but she knew she couldn't let that happen. She wasn't what he needed, no matter what he said. She made herself believe that she wasn't good enough. He needed Monica. And that's all that mattered now.

She takes one last moment
Before going inside
She takes a coat
To dry her eye
She ... and it all becomes clear
It's probably laughter that gets you what you need
....More than here
She's afraid it's too late

Sara looked over at her clock. It was now 4:30pm. She had to be to work in four and a half hours. She didn't think she'd be able to sleep, but with how emotionally exhausted she was, she knew she better try. So she went into her bedroom, and quickly changed from her dress into a pair of sweatpants, and a tank top. She wiped the mascara off her face, and climbed into bed, soon drifting off to a not so peaceful sleep.

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Four hours and just as many cups of coffee later, Sara was all ready to begin her next shift. She was sitting alone in the break room. Nick had the night off for a honeymoon, which was now not happening, so she hoped he wouldn't show up at work. She didn't think she could handle seeing the hurt in his eyes anymore. She looked down at her watch: thirty minutes until 9:00pm. Thirty minutes to make sure she wouldn't break down at the mention of Nick's name, or the wedding that everyone attended earlier in the day.

Sara was brought out of her thoughts when Warrick came into the room, and sat down across the table from her. "Hey, Sara."

She offered up a small smile.

"Do you wanna talk about it?"

She shrugged her shoulders.

"Are you going to talk at all?"

Sara gave him another small smile and shook her head.

"Why not?"

Sara opened her mouth, but she didn't recognize the tiny voice that came out. "Because every time I try to talk…" She felt the lump beginning to form in her throat, and a few tears escaped her eyes, and cascaded down her cheeks.

Don't be so hard on yourself.
Those tears are for someone else.
I hear your voice on the phone.
I hear you feel so alone.
My baby.

Ohh my baby.

Please my baby,

My baby,

Warrick reached up and wiped the tears away from her cheeks. "Why don't you just talk to him?"

She closed her eyes, and shook her head again.

"Look, Sara, I don't want to push you, but isn't this what you wanted?"

Now she opened her eyes, and looked at him. "I want him to be happy, yeah, but-"

"But nothing, Sara. Being with you would make him happy. Why can't you see that?"

This just caused her to cry a little more. Warrick reached over and wrapped his arms around her. Sara buried her face in his chest.

When we were young,
And truth was paramount.
We were older then,
And we lived a life without any doubt.
Those memories,
They seem so long ago.

"I do love him. More than anything. But I can't let him…." Sara trailed off when she saw Nick standing in the hallway, staring at her with sadness in his eyes. The same sadness she never wanted to see. She closed her eyes.

Warrick turned his head and noticed Nick, also. "Sara…"

She pulled away and leaned back in her chair, wiping her eyes. Warrick stood up, and bent down to kiss her forehead. "Thanks" she mumbled as she left the room, allowing Nick to enter.

What's become of them? When you feel like me I want you to know.
...They've all gone for sure...

Don't cry.
Not alone.
Don't cry,
Tonight, my baby.
Don't cry,
You'll always be loved.
Don't cry,
Tonight.
My baby.

Nick took the seat that Warrick had occupied just a few short minutes ago. He didn't say anything for a while, just stared at the woman before him. The same woman who had waltzed into his place of work three years prior, and slowly begun to steal his heart right from under his nose. She had always been so strong. Even when a case got to her, she never let it show for long, and even when it did, not many people even noticed.

He noticed.

Just like he noticed now. Noticed her walls crumbling around her. Noticed the pain and confusion in her eyes.

He noticed how much he needed her.

Today I dreamed,
Of friends I had before.
And I wonder why.
The ones who care don't call anymore.
My feelings hurt.
But you know I overcome the pain.
And I'm stronger now,
There can't be a fire unless there's a flame.

Don't cry.
Your not alone.
Don't cry,
Tonight, my baby.
Don't cry.
You'll always be loved.
Don't cry oh...
Limousines and sycophants,
Don't leave me now,
'Cause I'm afraid what you've done to me.
Is now the wolf.
In my bed,

In my head.
In my head.
In my head.

Sara raised her head to look at him, and took in a shaky breath. She rested her hands on her knees, and stared into his brown eyes. She had always been able to tell what he was thinking just by looking into those eyes.

But not now.

She was confused, and she knew that he knew it, too.

She knew that they were going to go through something major. A baby is a big deal. Especially when it's not even hers.

But she would try her best to learn to love it as her own.

He knew that.

The challenges, we took were hard enough.
They get harder now.
Even when we think that we've had enough.
Don't feel alone,
'Cause it's I you understand.
I'm your sedative,
Take a piece of me whenever you can.

Don't cry.... you're not alone.
...don't be so hard on yourself...

Don't cry.... tonight my baby
...These tears are for.....someone else...

Don't cry.... you'll always be loved
...I hear your voice on the phone...

"Sara-"

"Nick-"

"Okay! Time to go! Sara, you got a 419 with Warrick. He's outside waiting for you," Grissom said not even bothering to notice his two CSI's. Not even bothering to notice the expressions on their faces, or their tear stained cheeks.

He didn't care.

There was work to be done.

"Nick, go home. We'll call you if we need you." And with that he was gone.

Sara stood and walked to the door.

"Sara?"

"I have to work, Nick."

Don't cry.... tonight sweet baby
...I hear you fear... so alone.

Don't cry... don't cry... don't cry... don't you cry...
..my baby
Cry... Don't cry...
'Cause you still be loved
Don't cry
Don't cry tonight
Ohh..

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TBC

Hehe! You thought they were going to get together didn't you? Ha! Like I'd make it that easy! Oh, I know, they've been through a lot already. Don't worry there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Sorry to you Grissom fans for making him seem like an ass, but you know how he is about work….

The first song was "Afraid It's Too Late" by Jewel, and the second song was "Don't Cry" by Seal.

Please don't hate me for all the drama/angst of this chapter. Stick with it! I promise it should be good!! (I hope)

Well, you know what to do now. Hit that purple button and let me know what you think!!