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Summary: Years of hidden passion and lies finally come to the eyes of the public and life as she knows it is ruined for Bulma Briefs. And while she may be putting on a brave face on the outside, is she dying on the inside?
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AN:
YAY! I'm getting reviews! ^_______^ ::is very happi:: Thank you all for taking the time to read this story and most of all to review it. Not much else to say about this chapter. Just enjoy it as always and leave meeh some luv. ^__^ Every lil bit helps.
~LadyB AKA Bulma Briefs
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Pages of Veiled Desire
Rated: R
Chapter Three
Written by: The Brilliant Lady Bulma *formally known as LadyBulma24*
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-October 21, 2003 4:59 PM-
I'm back. I'm back from a day that could possibly be the most important day of my life, for it will leave an imprint in my life and touch those all around me. Where am I? I am with the man I love, in a clearing far from the house located in the forest. Before us is a stream where you would swear heaven meets Earth; its perfection. It is something about the way the rays of sun dance across each drop of water in the stream or perhaps the way the wind gently kisses every blade of grass before storming off again. I cannot say for sure but I do know that this place, be whatever it is, is enchanted. I feel completely at peace here. And I am thankful for having been brought here.
A few feet behind me lies the man I adore. He is sleeping I now realize as I turn back to check on him momentarily prying my eyes away from the screen. His manly chest rises and falls with each breath he takes into his lungs as he sleeps, the wind blows at the loose bangs framing his face, and the sun softly plants gentle kisses on his already tan-cinnamon skin. I could not ask Kami himself for a more perfect being. So power and yet so gentle was the same time. I can feel tears of what I assume to be joy filling my eyes before I am forced to turn back to my laptop. After today I can safely say that I love him and I do not know what would become of me if he were to be taken out of my life once more.
Today he popped into my life unexpectedly. Someone wished him back and I have yet to thank them for returning him to me. But a part of me knows that after word of what happened today gets out no one will want to even hear my name let alone speak to me. A voice in my head mocks me, it taunts me asking me how could he have been returned to me when he really wasn't mind in the first place? It's a voice that never seems to shut up, no matter what I through at it. I guess I have grown accustomed to it, for it has been badgering me since earlier today. But I don't care what it says. I don't care if I have done a world of sin. Because finally after living my life for everyone else, for Trunks, for Bra, for Lianna, and even for Vegeta, I am doing something for me. Finally the emptiness in my soul is starting to fill and I do not feel quiet as vacant and meaningless as I did before. Even his very first words to me today seemed to lift the weight of the world off of my shoulders. I sigh happily as I come to the conclusion that today is a day that I will not easily forget.
As you have probably guessed by now I was at my computer when I received my visitor. His voice rang out to me like a familiar song that had the power to stop me in my tracks. My hands lifted from the black plastic keys of my laptop as I turned to face him. He stood in the doorway of my lab, his muscular arms to his side, and his well-built body clothed in his casual orange fighting GI. I felt my breath catch in my chest.
"Hey Bulma-Kun..."
I could not bring myself to even think of how to reply to him, it was as if I was frozen. So without any words escaping my lips, I glanced up at him, gave him a small modest smile then ran towards him, flinging my arms around his neck and hiding my face in his chest. A few minutes later I hear him laugh and it's pure music to my ears. It's so warm and reassuring. It makes me feel as if no harm can come to me. And as I was wrapped up in the haven of his arms I knew that no harm would ever come to me, not as long as he was by my side.
"I've missed you too!" His voice was filled with is carefree laughter and easy nature, it made my heart sore. I could feel his arms wrap tighter around me and I welcomed it.
For a moment we just looked at each other. I leaned up to look into his eyes as they scanned me in a manner much like I was scanning him. It was as if we were seeing each other for the first time in years and in a way that is exactly what it felt like. I wanted to memorize everything about this moment. The look on his face, the shine in his eye, and the way his arms felt around my body while his chest pressed against mine. I took in a deep shaky breath as I tried to stop tears from filling into my eyes. Tear of sorrow and at the same time joy. I was exultant to know that he was alive once more and yet...at the same time...a little voice in the back of my head rang out to me. 'Let go of him Bulma, he's not yours. It's not right. Let him go....' I knew that voice was right. He was not mine, he was just my friend. And the fact that that voice was right only made things harder on me.
"Bulma? Is something wrong?"
I guess the breath was not as quiet as I had originally hoped for. I had drawn Goku's attention and he was now looking down on me with his big ebony eyes, I could feel my breath chock up in my throat all over again. As I turned away for a moment from his intense gaze I managed to shake my head from side to side indicating to him that nothing was wrong with me. When the truth of the matter was that my very insides were shaking to the core from his stare. I do not know what he was doing to me but he was doing it well. I had not felt this way since I was a teenager. He was giving me that feeling, the feeling that only when your high school crush would look at you and smile could top. Here I stood in my laboratory in the embrace of my best friend getting feelings reawakened that had lay dormant for well over 20 years.
"Bulma?"
Again, it was his voice that sliced through my thoughts. I took a deep breath once more and gulped down a sensation that could have passed for fear in any other situation. But not now, now it was just a misplaced emotion that I would later deal with. All that mattered to me now was Goku, and the way he looked at me.
"H-hai?"
Maybe I should have given my voice a bit more time. It shook as if I were running and speaking at the same time.
"What's wrong?" He eyed me carefully and tenderly. "Is there something wrong."
I shook my head back and forth. "No." No matter how convincing I had thought my lie to be, it was not enough to through Goku off of my trail. He was still dead set that there was something going on in me. And he had a point; he was making me feel a way that no one had ever sparked in me. It was lust, and love at the same time. I wanted to be with him, jump into his arms and kiss him. I wanted to do so much more....
Goku leaned down and took my face in his hand; automatically my body yearned for his touch where it still softly lingered along the contours of my waist. "What's going on? What are you feeling?"
Finally, after a few minutes of thinking of what to say to him, I formed the words in my mouth. My lips parted and I replied, "Every time I look at you, into your eyes, I feel like... I just can't explain it. I get a feeling here." I placed my hand over my shirt right above my heart. "And...I just don't know what it means." It was the truth; I did not know what it meant. Was it really love or was I just confused? I wanted so much to know the truth about my feelings. Sadly, I could not decipher them for myself.
"I get that same feeling...but I don't know if your ready to know what it is..." Answered Goku, his hand still on either side of my face and his ebony eyes staring deep into my blue orbs. My heart leaped into my throat, he knew what the feeling was! I could feel a smile tugging at my lips...he even felt the same.
I did not want to waist anymore time. "Please Goku... I want to know what you think this feeling is."
He sighed and dropped both of his hands from my face; they limply fell between us as he spoke. "This feeling...its...complicated...there is only one word to describe it..." He then moved one of his arms and took a hold of my hand, once more he looked deep into my eyes. "...Love..." He muttered so softly I thought for a moment I had imagined the whole thing.
"You...love me....?" I asked him in the same tone of voice he had used on me.
In response, he signed heavily, almost as if he were avoiding the question. I blinked a couple of times; perhaps I shouldn't have asked him if he loved me. Maybe that was one of those things that are always better left unsaid. "...Tell me how you felt when you saw me just now?" I was right, he avoided the question even further with his words, then pulled me closer until my head was resting on his powerful chest. I could feel every breath that he took; I could even hear the soft cadence of his heart beat every so often. He stroked the back of my head with his hand gently.
While I might have not seen the relevance of his question, I knew I had to answer. I had no problem answering him, and I had full intentions on answering. I just had to find a way to put my feelings into words. "I felt this feeling...in my heart...for a minute it felt like my heart would explode...and then it kind of stopped." I sighed, I was probably rambling and my words most likely did not make any sense. "I just felt like being in your arms." I mumbled before looking at the wall blankly.
When I did finally manage to look back up at Goku he was smiling. Before I could lower my eyes once more he did something that shocked me...he leaned towards me and planted the softest of kisses on my forehead. I felt like I was going to melt. "I think that's love..." Mumbled Goku in a hushed tone.
I suddenly felt a million questions popping into my mind. Did that mean that he loved me? If so, for how long? Why had he waited this long? What was he waiting for? Who was he scared of? My mind was a blur racing at 80 miles per hour in all four different directions.
"W-Why didn't you tell me anything?" I even shocked myself at the bluntness of my inquiry.
There was a moment of silence before Goku spoke. This time, he did not avoid my question. "Because you were with Yamcha...I saw you were happy...that was enough for me...then I met Chi-Chi and buried it completely. And then you found Vegeta..."
I looked at him directly, only Kami knew the source of my new found boldness but I planned on using it as much as I could. I was not going to let this opportunity pass me by. "If you told me we won't be in this situation right now...."
He pulled away from me and looked away. "Bulma, I couldn't..." I knew that this was making him his fair share of uncomfortable so I did my best to try and put him at ease. I placed my hands on his face like he had before, it had calmed me down and maybe it would work for him. Right now he just needed some reassurance.
"I'd've dropped Yamcha in a minute." I said, never once wavering my voice.
"I wouldn't be with Chi-Chi if I told you..." He never once looked in my direction.
That's when I knew what was holding him back. Chi-Chi. Not just the fact that he was married to her, a divorce was just a few words away. But he developed feelings for her...just how I had for Vegeta. I dropped my hands softly and turned away biting down on my lip lightly. I was determined not to cry. "I see...." I spilled quietly.
Surprisingly enough that was enough to get him to look at me. I could feel his eyes roaming over my face even when I was turned away. It was both a welcome and strange feeling. "I...I'm sorry...I shouldn't have told you..."
"No...you should have. At least now I know I let all of my life passed me by not just some." I spat a bit more remorsefully than I had intended.
I was shocked when he turned and looked at me and replied to me in the same tone of voice, it was obvious he hadn't taken the comment too kindly. "How do you think I feel?" It was rare a time when Goku snapped.
I never answered him; my silence was the best I could offer. "I feel like my feelings have gone to waste..." He said to me seriously. "I was in love with you since I met you and only now I'm telling you." I felt my voice leave me all over again. I forced myself to speak.
"Then don't let it be a waste." I got as close to him as possible and found myself leaning up toward him, until we were more leveled to one another. "Please... You owe it to yourself..."
Goku shook his head back and forth as he looked at me as if I had lost my mind. "W-what are you saying?
With a heavy sigh, I also shook my head however I did not lower myself from my current height. "At least...tell me fully."
"I cant...you have Vegeta.." Came his reply, followed by another shake of the head, a far more serious one this time.
I looked down at the floor and returned to my normal stature on the floor. "You married Chi-Chi for one reason and I married him for the same." I muttered under my breath. Goku was at a loss for words again, he sighed. I laughed bitterly. "Still can't just...say it can you?"
After a pause that I thought lasted forever, Goku parted his lips and spoke the words I had been dying to hear since I was 16 years old. Suddenly the world stopped spinning, the clock ceased to tick in the background; everything but the two of us remained perfectly still. "...I...love you Bulma Briefs..."
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Summary: Years of hidden passion and lies finally come to the eyes of the public and life as she knows it is ruined for Bulma Briefs. And while she may be putting on a brave face on the outside, is she dying on the inside?
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AN:
YAY! I'm getting reviews! ^_______^ ::is very happi:: Thank you all for taking the time to read this story and most of all to review it. Not much else to say about this chapter. Just enjoy it as always and leave meeh some luv. ^__^ Every lil bit helps.
~LadyB AKA Bulma Briefs
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Pages of Veiled Desire
Rated: R
Chapter Three
Written by: The Brilliant Lady Bulma *formally known as LadyBulma24*
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-October 21, 2003 4:59 PM-
I'm back. I'm back from a day that could possibly be the most important day of my life, for it will leave an imprint in my life and touch those all around me. Where am I? I am with the man I love, in a clearing far from the house located in the forest. Before us is a stream where you would swear heaven meets Earth; its perfection. It is something about the way the rays of sun dance across each drop of water in the stream or perhaps the way the wind gently kisses every blade of grass before storming off again. I cannot say for sure but I do know that this place, be whatever it is, is enchanted. I feel completely at peace here. And I am thankful for having been brought here.
A few feet behind me lies the man I adore. He is sleeping I now realize as I turn back to check on him momentarily prying my eyes away from the screen. His manly chest rises and falls with each breath he takes into his lungs as he sleeps, the wind blows at the loose bangs framing his face, and the sun softly plants gentle kisses on his already tan-cinnamon skin. I could not ask Kami himself for a more perfect being. So power and yet so gentle was the same time. I can feel tears of what I assume to be joy filling my eyes before I am forced to turn back to my laptop. After today I can safely say that I love him and I do not know what would become of me if he were to be taken out of my life once more.
Today he popped into my life unexpectedly. Someone wished him back and I have yet to thank them for returning him to me. But a part of me knows that after word of what happened today gets out no one will want to even hear my name let alone speak to me. A voice in my head mocks me, it taunts me asking me how could he have been returned to me when he really wasn't mind in the first place? It's a voice that never seems to shut up, no matter what I through at it. I guess I have grown accustomed to it, for it has been badgering me since earlier today. But I don't care what it says. I don't care if I have done a world of sin. Because finally after living my life for everyone else, for Trunks, for Bra, for Lianna, and even for Vegeta, I am doing something for me. Finally the emptiness in my soul is starting to fill and I do not feel quiet as vacant and meaningless as I did before. Even his very first words to me today seemed to lift the weight of the world off of my shoulders. I sigh happily as I come to the conclusion that today is a day that I will not easily forget.
As you have probably guessed by now I was at my computer when I received my visitor. His voice rang out to me like a familiar song that had the power to stop me in my tracks. My hands lifted from the black plastic keys of my laptop as I turned to face him. He stood in the doorway of my lab, his muscular arms to his side, and his well-built body clothed in his casual orange fighting GI. I felt my breath catch in my chest.
"Hey Bulma-Kun..."
I could not bring myself to even think of how to reply to him, it was as if I was frozen. So without any words escaping my lips, I glanced up at him, gave him a small modest smile then ran towards him, flinging my arms around his neck and hiding my face in his chest. A few minutes later I hear him laugh and it's pure music to my ears. It's so warm and reassuring. It makes me feel as if no harm can come to me. And as I was wrapped up in the haven of his arms I knew that no harm would ever come to me, not as long as he was by my side.
"I've missed you too!" His voice was filled with is carefree laughter and easy nature, it made my heart sore. I could feel his arms wrap tighter around me and I welcomed it.
For a moment we just looked at each other. I leaned up to look into his eyes as they scanned me in a manner much like I was scanning him. It was as if we were seeing each other for the first time in years and in a way that is exactly what it felt like. I wanted to memorize everything about this moment. The look on his face, the shine in his eye, and the way his arms felt around my body while his chest pressed against mine. I took in a deep shaky breath as I tried to stop tears from filling into my eyes. Tear of sorrow and at the same time joy. I was exultant to know that he was alive once more and yet...at the same time...a little voice in the back of my head rang out to me. 'Let go of him Bulma, he's not yours. It's not right. Let him go....' I knew that voice was right. He was not mine, he was just my friend. And the fact that that voice was right only made things harder on me.
"Bulma? Is something wrong?"
I guess the breath was not as quiet as I had originally hoped for. I had drawn Goku's attention and he was now looking down on me with his big ebony eyes, I could feel my breath chock up in my throat all over again. As I turned away for a moment from his intense gaze I managed to shake my head from side to side indicating to him that nothing was wrong with me. When the truth of the matter was that my very insides were shaking to the core from his stare. I do not know what he was doing to me but he was doing it well. I had not felt this way since I was a teenager. He was giving me that feeling, the feeling that only when your high school crush would look at you and smile could top. Here I stood in my laboratory in the embrace of my best friend getting feelings reawakened that had lay dormant for well over 20 years.
"Bulma?"
Again, it was his voice that sliced through my thoughts. I took a deep breath once more and gulped down a sensation that could have passed for fear in any other situation. But not now, now it was just a misplaced emotion that I would later deal with. All that mattered to me now was Goku, and the way he looked at me.
"H-hai?"
Maybe I should have given my voice a bit more time. It shook as if I were running and speaking at the same time.
"What's wrong?" He eyed me carefully and tenderly. "Is there something wrong."
I shook my head back and forth. "No." No matter how convincing I had thought my lie to be, it was not enough to through Goku off of my trail. He was still dead set that there was something going on in me. And he had a point; he was making me feel a way that no one had ever sparked in me. It was lust, and love at the same time. I wanted to be with him, jump into his arms and kiss him. I wanted to do so much more....
Goku leaned down and took my face in his hand; automatically my body yearned for his touch where it still softly lingered along the contours of my waist. "What's going on? What are you feeling?"
Finally, after a few minutes of thinking of what to say to him, I formed the words in my mouth. My lips parted and I replied, "Every time I look at you, into your eyes, I feel like... I just can't explain it. I get a feeling here." I placed my hand over my shirt right above my heart. "And...I just don't know what it means." It was the truth; I did not know what it meant. Was it really love or was I just confused? I wanted so much to know the truth about my feelings. Sadly, I could not decipher them for myself.
"I get that same feeling...but I don't know if your ready to know what it is..." Answered Goku, his hand still on either side of my face and his ebony eyes staring deep into my blue orbs. My heart leaped into my throat, he knew what the feeling was! I could feel a smile tugging at my lips...he even felt the same.
I did not want to waist anymore time. "Please Goku... I want to know what you think this feeling is."
He sighed and dropped both of his hands from my face; they limply fell between us as he spoke. "This feeling...its...complicated...there is only one word to describe it..." He then moved one of his arms and took a hold of my hand, once more he looked deep into my eyes. "...Love..." He muttered so softly I thought for a moment I had imagined the whole thing.
"You...love me....?" I asked him in the same tone of voice he had used on me.
In response, he signed heavily, almost as if he were avoiding the question. I blinked a couple of times; perhaps I shouldn't have asked him if he loved me. Maybe that was one of those things that are always better left unsaid. "...Tell me how you felt when you saw me just now?" I was right, he avoided the question even further with his words, then pulled me closer until my head was resting on his powerful chest. I could feel every breath that he took; I could even hear the soft cadence of his heart beat every so often. He stroked the back of my head with his hand gently.
While I might have not seen the relevance of his question, I knew I had to answer. I had no problem answering him, and I had full intentions on answering. I just had to find a way to put my feelings into words. "I felt this feeling...in my heart...for a minute it felt like my heart would explode...and then it kind of stopped." I sighed, I was probably rambling and my words most likely did not make any sense. "I just felt like being in your arms." I mumbled before looking at the wall blankly.
When I did finally manage to look back up at Goku he was smiling. Before I could lower my eyes once more he did something that shocked me...he leaned towards me and planted the softest of kisses on my forehead. I felt like I was going to melt. "I think that's love..." Mumbled Goku in a hushed tone.
I suddenly felt a million questions popping into my mind. Did that mean that he loved me? If so, for how long? Why had he waited this long? What was he waiting for? Who was he scared of? My mind was a blur racing at 80 miles per hour in all four different directions.
"W-Why didn't you tell me anything?" I even shocked myself at the bluntness of my inquiry.
There was a moment of silence before Goku spoke. This time, he did not avoid my question. "Because you were with Yamcha...I saw you were happy...that was enough for me...then I met Chi-Chi and buried it completely. And then you found Vegeta..."
I looked at him directly, only Kami knew the source of my new found boldness but I planned on using it as much as I could. I was not going to let this opportunity pass me by. "If you told me we won't be in this situation right now...."
He pulled away from me and looked away. "Bulma, I couldn't..." I knew that this was making him his fair share of uncomfortable so I did my best to try and put him at ease. I placed my hands on his face like he had before, it had calmed me down and maybe it would work for him. Right now he just needed some reassurance.
"I'd've dropped Yamcha in a minute." I said, never once wavering my voice.
"I wouldn't be with Chi-Chi if I told you..." He never once looked in my direction.
That's when I knew what was holding him back. Chi-Chi. Not just the fact that he was married to her, a divorce was just a few words away. But he developed feelings for her...just how I had for Vegeta. I dropped my hands softly and turned away biting down on my lip lightly. I was determined not to cry. "I see...." I spilled quietly.
Surprisingly enough that was enough to get him to look at me. I could feel his eyes roaming over my face even when I was turned away. It was both a welcome and strange feeling. "I...I'm sorry...I shouldn't have told you..."
"No...you should have. At least now I know I let all of my life passed me by not just some." I spat a bit more remorsefully than I had intended.
I was shocked when he turned and looked at me and replied to me in the same tone of voice, it was obvious he hadn't taken the comment too kindly. "How do you think I feel?" It was rare a time when Goku snapped.
I never answered him; my silence was the best I could offer. "I feel like my feelings have gone to waste..." He said to me seriously. "I was in love with you since I met you and only now I'm telling you." I felt my voice leave me all over again. I forced myself to speak.
"Then don't let it be a waste." I got as close to him as possible and found myself leaning up toward him, until we were more leveled to one another. "Please... You owe it to yourself..."
Goku shook his head back and forth as he looked at me as if I had lost my mind. "W-what are you saying?
With a heavy sigh, I also shook my head however I did not lower myself from my current height. "At least...tell me fully."
"I cant...you have Vegeta.." Came his reply, followed by another shake of the head, a far more serious one this time.
I looked down at the floor and returned to my normal stature on the floor. "You married Chi-Chi for one reason and I married him for the same." I muttered under my breath. Goku was at a loss for words again, he sighed. I laughed bitterly. "Still can't just...say it can you?"
After a pause that I thought lasted forever, Goku parted his lips and spoke the words I had been dying to hear since I was 16 years old. Suddenly the world stopped spinning, the clock ceased to tick in the background; everything but the two of us remained perfectly still. "...I...love you Bulma Briefs..."
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