Lily sat at a small kitchen table. Chairs had been drawn up around it. Lily
was resting her head on one arm, which was propped up on the table; the
other was clutching a warm mug of butter beer. Butter beer, usually made
her feel good, but tonight it was having no affect. Beside her, Sirius had
his head on the table. His eyes were closed, but he was rubbing her knee,
so he hadn't fallen asleep yet. Peter who had finally woken up was looking
very sullen sitting at the end of the table. Remus was on the opposite
side, rubbing his temples and staring at the fireplace with his red rimmed
eyes. Remus's parents were both sitting silently beside him, looking at
each other helplessly.
Lily closed her own green eyes. He head raced.
"Just let me die God, please, I want to be with them." James conscience whispered.
"I can't believe they are gone, wonder how James is?" Remus thought oddly.
"James......Lily............" Sirius's mind was in jumbles.
"JODY!" A man screamed again.
"James?" Lily's own voice cried out.
"Dead," Snarled another.
"No, please," Lily cried.
"This is goodbye," Lily wept.
"Lily, why?" Sirius cried.
"I hate to ask you to do this," Dumbledore fussed.
Lily's head shot up. Sirius had fallen asleep. Lily got up quietly. She made her way over to the stairs. She tiptoed up. She walked over to the door. Grasping the cold doorknob, Lily took a deep breath and opened it.
"Go away," James muttered.
Lily walked in anyway, and sat down beside him. He didn't look at her.
"I didn't ask to see what I saw James, I didn't ask to be born with this gift, if that's what you want to call it. It is a burden; I see things I don't want to see."
James continued to stare ahead,
"Look I know you hate me, but I am still going to be here for you, even if we aren't and haven't been friends. I am sorry that I saw your parents dying, and I am sorry that I saw you in your animagus form, but I didn't ask to!" Lily's voice began to rise.
"How did they die?" James's voice was different from normal.
"Well James...I ..."
"Just tell me," he whispered.
"The house blew up,"
"Did you see them?"
"Yes,"
"Where they happy,"
"They were, they were talking about how proud of you they were," Lily told him.
He brought his knees up to his chest and folded his arms around them. They sat there in silence for a long time.
The August heat blew around Lily and Sirius as they lay on a blanket in the forest behind Remus's house. A week had passed since the Potters deaths. James still wouldn't talk to anybody. Remus, Sirius and Peter had given up. Mrs. Lupin was the only one who entered the bedroom, force feeding James.
Sirius and Lily lay on their backs looking up at the cloudless sky.
"So what about us?" Sirius asked suddenly.
"What about us?" Lily asked sitting up and looking down at him.
"Well, we love each other right?" Sirius asked.
"We've discussed this before," Lily said a little bit impatiently. She was busy thinking about James, and what Dumbledore had written in his letter. Help him, but how?
"Well I don't want to scare you Lily, but I've been thinking about what happened, with Mr. and Mrs. Potter. I don't know what I'd do if I woke up one day and you were gone. That thought scares the shit out of me." Sirius told her.
"Why?"
"Because you are the only person in the world who loves me, and whom I love back," Sirius said stroking her face, "I need you."
Lily smiled at him.
"Which is why, I decided to get you this." He said sweetly. He reached into his pocket and pulled out a box.
"Sirius!" Lily cried.
"It's not an engagement ring don't worry," he laughed.
She let out a sigh of relief.
"In honor of our sixth month anniversary, I got you a promise ring. I care about you a lot Lily, I think that you are the woman for me, the one I want to spend the rest of my life with. So this ring is your promise that I will marry you sometime in the future. I can't imagine life without the sweet smell of your hair, or your soft skin, or beautiful smile, or lavishly green eyes. Lily Evans I love you." Sirius whispered taking the gold ring out of the box and slipping it on her finger.
"Sirius," she gasped admiring the way the gold sparkled in the sunlight. She looked up at him, here eyes shinning and threw her arms around his neck.
"Thank-you," she whispered in his ear, "Thank-you for everything,"
With that Sirius drew her face close and kissed her hard. She kissed him back softly.
"Do it now while nobody can stop you," James whispered far away in her mind.
Lily broke away sharply. Sirius looked up at her scrunching his eyebrows.
"Sorry," She smiled, closed her eyes and kissed him again.
"Remus and Peter are playing Quidditch,"
Lily opened her eyes and glanced sideways toward the small quidditch pitch that was visible through the trees. Sirius continued to kiss her. There was Remus and Peter flying around carelessly in the sun.
"Mr. and Mrs. Lupin are just leaving for work,"
Sirius moved his kisses to her neck. Lily moaned softly.
"Carl!" Mrs. Lupin could be heard calling her husband, "We're going to be late!"
"Coming hunny," Mr. Lupin called back moments later. The front door slammed shut.
"Sirius is with Lily....Lily..." James's thoughts rested on her for a minute.
Lily brought Sirius's lips from her shoulder to her mouth. She could feel his hands sliding up the back of her shirt slowly.
Pain lashed out from inside of her. She pushed Sirius away with a cry. She scrambled to her feet and began running through the trees towards the house.
"Lily?" Sirius called after her, "Did I hurt you? Lily!" his voice echoed far away.
Lily had made her way to the side entrance of the house. She threw open the screen door.
"Lily!" Sirius shouted emerging from the forest. She dashed across the kitchen and up the stairs. She paused in the hallway. she was standing in front of James' bedroom door. She could hear Sirius making his way up the stairs.
"Lily?" he called to her. She took a deep breath and opened the door. Lily gasped and fell back against the wall for support. There sprawled on the floor was James, both his wrists were slit. She was too late.
"Lily?" Sirius came into the room, "Oh my God,"
Lily closed her own green eyes. He head raced.
"Just let me die God, please, I want to be with them." James conscience whispered.
"I can't believe they are gone, wonder how James is?" Remus thought oddly.
"James......Lily............" Sirius's mind was in jumbles.
"JODY!" A man screamed again.
"James?" Lily's own voice cried out.
"Dead," Snarled another.
"No, please," Lily cried.
"This is goodbye," Lily wept.
"Lily, why?" Sirius cried.
"I hate to ask you to do this," Dumbledore fussed.
Lily's head shot up. Sirius had fallen asleep. Lily got up quietly. She made her way over to the stairs. She tiptoed up. She walked over to the door. Grasping the cold doorknob, Lily took a deep breath and opened it.
"Go away," James muttered.
Lily walked in anyway, and sat down beside him. He didn't look at her.
"I didn't ask to see what I saw James, I didn't ask to be born with this gift, if that's what you want to call it. It is a burden; I see things I don't want to see."
James continued to stare ahead,
"Look I know you hate me, but I am still going to be here for you, even if we aren't and haven't been friends. I am sorry that I saw your parents dying, and I am sorry that I saw you in your animagus form, but I didn't ask to!" Lily's voice began to rise.
"How did they die?" James's voice was different from normal.
"Well James...I ..."
"Just tell me," he whispered.
"The house blew up,"
"Did you see them?"
"Yes,"
"Where they happy,"
"They were, they were talking about how proud of you they were," Lily told him.
He brought his knees up to his chest and folded his arms around them. They sat there in silence for a long time.
The August heat blew around Lily and Sirius as they lay on a blanket in the forest behind Remus's house. A week had passed since the Potters deaths. James still wouldn't talk to anybody. Remus, Sirius and Peter had given up. Mrs. Lupin was the only one who entered the bedroom, force feeding James.
Sirius and Lily lay on their backs looking up at the cloudless sky.
"So what about us?" Sirius asked suddenly.
"What about us?" Lily asked sitting up and looking down at him.
"Well, we love each other right?" Sirius asked.
"We've discussed this before," Lily said a little bit impatiently. She was busy thinking about James, and what Dumbledore had written in his letter. Help him, but how?
"Well I don't want to scare you Lily, but I've been thinking about what happened, with Mr. and Mrs. Potter. I don't know what I'd do if I woke up one day and you were gone. That thought scares the shit out of me." Sirius told her.
"Why?"
"Because you are the only person in the world who loves me, and whom I love back," Sirius said stroking her face, "I need you."
Lily smiled at him.
"Which is why, I decided to get you this." He said sweetly. He reached into his pocket and pulled out a box.
"Sirius!" Lily cried.
"It's not an engagement ring don't worry," he laughed.
She let out a sigh of relief.
"In honor of our sixth month anniversary, I got you a promise ring. I care about you a lot Lily, I think that you are the woman for me, the one I want to spend the rest of my life with. So this ring is your promise that I will marry you sometime in the future. I can't imagine life without the sweet smell of your hair, or your soft skin, or beautiful smile, or lavishly green eyes. Lily Evans I love you." Sirius whispered taking the gold ring out of the box and slipping it on her finger.
"Sirius," she gasped admiring the way the gold sparkled in the sunlight. She looked up at him, here eyes shinning and threw her arms around his neck.
"Thank-you," she whispered in his ear, "Thank-you for everything,"
With that Sirius drew her face close and kissed her hard. She kissed him back softly.
"Do it now while nobody can stop you," James whispered far away in her mind.
Lily broke away sharply. Sirius looked up at her scrunching his eyebrows.
"Sorry," She smiled, closed her eyes and kissed him again.
"Remus and Peter are playing Quidditch,"
Lily opened her eyes and glanced sideways toward the small quidditch pitch that was visible through the trees. Sirius continued to kiss her. There was Remus and Peter flying around carelessly in the sun.
"Mr. and Mrs. Lupin are just leaving for work,"
Sirius moved his kisses to her neck. Lily moaned softly.
"Carl!" Mrs. Lupin could be heard calling her husband, "We're going to be late!"
"Coming hunny," Mr. Lupin called back moments later. The front door slammed shut.
"Sirius is with Lily....Lily..." James's thoughts rested on her for a minute.
Lily brought Sirius's lips from her shoulder to her mouth. She could feel his hands sliding up the back of her shirt slowly.
Pain lashed out from inside of her. She pushed Sirius away with a cry. She scrambled to her feet and began running through the trees towards the house.
"Lily?" Sirius called after her, "Did I hurt you? Lily!" his voice echoed far away.
Lily had made her way to the side entrance of the house. She threw open the screen door.
"Lily!" Sirius shouted emerging from the forest. She dashed across the kitchen and up the stairs. She paused in the hallway. she was standing in front of James' bedroom door. She could hear Sirius making his way up the stairs.
"Lily?" he called to her. She took a deep breath and opened the door. Lily gasped and fell back against the wall for support. There sprawled on the floor was James, both his wrists were slit. She was too late.
"Lily?" Sirius came into the room, "Oh my God,"