Sirius's lower lip began to tremble as he looked down at Lily. Why was she
doing this to him? Hadn't he shown her his love? Had he not proven to her?
She looked up at him with her big green eyes.
"Sirius, no never," She whispered moving her hands from his hair and stroking his cheek lovingly, "I promised you we would be together forever remember?"
Sirius smiled, "Yes I do,"
"I promise, you will never leave my heart," she whispered leaning forward and leaning her forehead on his chin.
Sirius reached down and grabbed both of her hands in his,
"What's wrong then Lily?" Sirius asked her.
"I-I have to save Harry," Lily whispered not looking at him, her eyes full of tears.
"Who's Harry?" Sirius spat angrily.
"My child," She whispered, "James's child."
"You and James have a child?" Sirius yelled pushing her away.
"No, but we will, look Sirius listen to me please," Lily pleaded wringing her hands.
"Lily, what are you saying?" Sirius asked violently.
"If you would just listen you would know!" She shouted back. His face filled with anger but after a moment that placid look returned.
"I am listening," he muttered.
"Voldemort is my father," Sirius opened his mouth to protest but she put a finger to his lips, "James is the heir of Gryffindor, and I must be with him, it is the only way to save mankind, the only way to save us, If I don't do this, me and you will be dead before we even got the chance to marry,"
"I don't get it!" Sirius yelled but his voice caught as he chocked back a sob, "Lily, you are leaving me for my best friend? To save mankind? What the hell are you talking about?"
"Lord Voldemort is after James because he is the heir of Gryffindor, and he must have a son to carry on his blood, and that son will be the only one who can defeat Voldemort and save the world from perishing under his malice, don't you see Sirius?"
"But why you," he whispered running his hands through her rich red hair.
" Harry needs Voldemort's blood," Lily told him, "And my gift must be passed on, that horrible gift Sirius, its torn apart families and now its tearing us apart,"
"I need you," Sirius whispered as rested his forehead on hers and his tears fell to her cheeks, "Please don't leave me this way,"
"Sirius," she wept, "I have to, I really don't want to, I love you so much,"
"Don't leave," he whispered.
She blinked many times and reached into her bag pulling out the Time- Turner.
"How am I going to endure seeing you with James, "he whispered kissing her forehead.
"You won't have to," Lily explained bringing her lips by his, but he pulled away.
"What do you mean?"
"I am going to modify you're memory so that you can't remember we ever existed, and then send you back in time to before you ever started talking to me," Lily replied.
"I don't want to loose memory of what we have, I don't want you away from my mind," Sirius sobbed.
"I will always be in you're heart," Lily told him, "And I promise you that is where we will be together, even though I will be with James, It will always be you I love,"
"I don't want James to touch you, I don't want him to love you the way I do,"
"He never will," Lily comforted, "Can I please kiss you, just one more time."
Sirius blinked back his tears and lowered his trembling lips onto her cold ones. She kissed him with every emotion that ran through her, caressing his skin. It was a slow and tender kiss, and neither of them wanted to end it, because ending it would be ending them. Sirius deepened the kiss wrapping his arms around her tightly, as she let her hands trace up his neck and get entangled in his hair. When Sirius finally pulled away, Lily gasped with fresh tears. She looked up at the ceiling trying to calm her self.
"Lily," he whispered as she pulled her wand out of her robes. His deep eyes that drove her wild bore into hers.
"Sirius," she whispered back, touching his face for one last time. She pointed her wand at him closing her eyes. She felt the familiar whirl, and he heart beating in her ears.
"I love you Lily Evans," Sirius's voice filled her thoughts.
"Forever," Lily promised her eyes springing open to reveal a frightened looking Sirius.
"Stupefy!" She cried. Sirius caught her eyes for a split second before the spell hit him, and Lily felt her heart break. When Sirius crumpled to the ground, Lily fell down beside him crying into his chest.
"I had to do that," she whispered to him kissing his pale lips and smoothing out his hair, "You can't remember me sending you back in time."
She pointed her wand at him again and wept
"This guess this is goodbye,"
Then she erased all memory of their love from his mind. Sitting the hall beside him she slipped the promise ring off her finger, enlarged it and slipped it on his hand. She placed his hand on the time turner and slowly turned the hourglass twenty-six times before jumping back from him. A large black whole had opened beside them, and her robes blew around her as he was transported back in time. She closed her eyes leaning against the wall and sank down it slowly her wails filling the hall. An odd feeling came over her. It was only a few moments before she heard four lively voices from the end of the hall. She wiped her tears hastily and busied herself by looking at a large portrait of a wizard.
"What would Dumbledore want with us?" Peter's small voice echoed.
"You don't think he noticed that you guys weren't in class last week during the full moon?" Remus asked worriedly.
"Nah, Sirius's vomiting was really impressive this time, and I pretended I was still injured from the quidditch match," James told him. Lily turned her back to them as they walked by not noticing her.
"Hey Evans," Sirius's voice boomed down the hall. Lily froze, but turned around calmly.
"Yes Mr. Black?"
"You know you look almost normal without that long nose of yours pressed into a book," he smiled cruelly, the devilish glint that was hanging in his eyes danced. Remus and Peter choked back laughter, but James stepped forward.
"You know Padfoot, I wouldn't mess with her," he tugged on his robes.
Lily looked at Sirius a moment longer before the crack in her heart completed breaking and she ran away sobbing.
"Well done Sirius," Remus patted him on the arm, as the four finished making thier way to Dumbledore's office.
Nobody noticed, but James kept looking back at the fiery red head that had run away wondering whether she was going to be okay or not.
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
You used to captivate me
By your resonating life
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
-Evanesance
"Sirius, no never," She whispered moving her hands from his hair and stroking his cheek lovingly, "I promised you we would be together forever remember?"
Sirius smiled, "Yes I do,"
"I promise, you will never leave my heart," she whispered leaning forward and leaning her forehead on his chin.
Sirius reached down and grabbed both of her hands in his,
"What's wrong then Lily?" Sirius asked her.
"I-I have to save Harry," Lily whispered not looking at him, her eyes full of tears.
"Who's Harry?" Sirius spat angrily.
"My child," She whispered, "James's child."
"You and James have a child?" Sirius yelled pushing her away.
"No, but we will, look Sirius listen to me please," Lily pleaded wringing her hands.
"Lily, what are you saying?" Sirius asked violently.
"If you would just listen you would know!" She shouted back. His face filled with anger but after a moment that placid look returned.
"I am listening," he muttered.
"Voldemort is my father," Sirius opened his mouth to protest but she put a finger to his lips, "James is the heir of Gryffindor, and I must be with him, it is the only way to save mankind, the only way to save us, If I don't do this, me and you will be dead before we even got the chance to marry,"
"I don't get it!" Sirius yelled but his voice caught as he chocked back a sob, "Lily, you are leaving me for my best friend? To save mankind? What the hell are you talking about?"
"Lord Voldemort is after James because he is the heir of Gryffindor, and he must have a son to carry on his blood, and that son will be the only one who can defeat Voldemort and save the world from perishing under his malice, don't you see Sirius?"
"But why you," he whispered running his hands through her rich red hair.
" Harry needs Voldemort's blood," Lily told him, "And my gift must be passed on, that horrible gift Sirius, its torn apart families and now its tearing us apart,"
"I need you," Sirius whispered as rested his forehead on hers and his tears fell to her cheeks, "Please don't leave me this way,"
"Sirius," she wept, "I have to, I really don't want to, I love you so much,"
"Don't leave," he whispered.
She blinked many times and reached into her bag pulling out the Time- Turner.
"How am I going to endure seeing you with James, "he whispered kissing her forehead.
"You won't have to," Lily explained bringing her lips by his, but he pulled away.
"What do you mean?"
"I am going to modify you're memory so that you can't remember we ever existed, and then send you back in time to before you ever started talking to me," Lily replied.
"I don't want to loose memory of what we have, I don't want you away from my mind," Sirius sobbed.
"I will always be in you're heart," Lily told him, "And I promise you that is where we will be together, even though I will be with James, It will always be you I love,"
"I don't want James to touch you, I don't want him to love you the way I do,"
"He never will," Lily comforted, "Can I please kiss you, just one more time."
Sirius blinked back his tears and lowered his trembling lips onto her cold ones. She kissed him with every emotion that ran through her, caressing his skin. It was a slow and tender kiss, and neither of them wanted to end it, because ending it would be ending them. Sirius deepened the kiss wrapping his arms around her tightly, as she let her hands trace up his neck and get entangled in his hair. When Sirius finally pulled away, Lily gasped with fresh tears. She looked up at the ceiling trying to calm her self.
"Lily," he whispered as she pulled her wand out of her robes. His deep eyes that drove her wild bore into hers.
"Sirius," she whispered back, touching his face for one last time. She pointed her wand at him closing her eyes. She felt the familiar whirl, and he heart beating in her ears.
"I love you Lily Evans," Sirius's voice filled her thoughts.
"Forever," Lily promised her eyes springing open to reveal a frightened looking Sirius.
"Stupefy!" She cried. Sirius caught her eyes for a split second before the spell hit him, and Lily felt her heart break. When Sirius crumpled to the ground, Lily fell down beside him crying into his chest.
"I had to do that," she whispered to him kissing his pale lips and smoothing out his hair, "You can't remember me sending you back in time."
She pointed her wand at him again and wept
"This guess this is goodbye,"
Then she erased all memory of their love from his mind. Sitting the hall beside him she slipped the promise ring off her finger, enlarged it and slipped it on his hand. She placed his hand on the time turner and slowly turned the hourglass twenty-six times before jumping back from him. A large black whole had opened beside them, and her robes blew around her as he was transported back in time. She closed her eyes leaning against the wall and sank down it slowly her wails filling the hall. An odd feeling came over her. It was only a few moments before she heard four lively voices from the end of the hall. She wiped her tears hastily and busied herself by looking at a large portrait of a wizard.
"What would Dumbledore want with us?" Peter's small voice echoed.
"You don't think he noticed that you guys weren't in class last week during the full moon?" Remus asked worriedly.
"Nah, Sirius's vomiting was really impressive this time, and I pretended I was still injured from the quidditch match," James told him. Lily turned her back to them as they walked by not noticing her.
"Hey Evans," Sirius's voice boomed down the hall. Lily froze, but turned around calmly.
"Yes Mr. Black?"
"You know you look almost normal without that long nose of yours pressed into a book," he smiled cruelly, the devilish glint that was hanging in his eyes danced. Remus and Peter choked back laughter, but James stepped forward.
"You know Padfoot, I wouldn't mess with her," he tugged on his robes.
Lily looked at Sirius a moment longer before the crack in her heart completed breaking and she ran away sobbing.
"Well done Sirius," Remus patted him on the arm, as the four finished making thier way to Dumbledore's office.
Nobody noticed, but James kept looking back at the fiery red head that had run away wondering whether she was going to be okay or not.
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
You used to captivate me
By your resonating life
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
-Evanesance