~*~
I feel like my life is falling apart, and there is nothing I can do about it. My son would rather be with someone he has known for three months then someone who has been there and loved him his whole life. I guess I resent Carter for this. Its not his fault Bryce adores him, but I can't help but have a bit of hate for this man. Maybe a lot of hate. He hurt me too. I really thought I was falling for him. I thought he was the one. That's the last time I listen to my gut. It felt so nice being held by him tonight, but I just can't let down my guard for him. Not anymore. Not after, I felt I gave him the best of me, and he jut ripped out my heart put it on the barbeque and served it to a pack of wild dogs. I just need a way to deal with all this stress, just get it all out. I sigh and flop back onto the couch thinking of ways to release my anger. Cigarettes? No, I'm quitting, again. This time for Bryce, I don't want him to pick up that filthy habit. Alcohol? Same reason as above. I chew my bottom lip and think of the only alternative option. I pick up my cordless off the coffee table, and dial the number I know off by heart. "Hello" I hear a tired voice say.
"Hey..." I smile slightly at the sound of his voice.
"Abby?" He seems some what interested in this conversation now.
"Hey." My smile widens. God I need a friendly person who doesn't know about these last couple of months right now. "How- how have you been?" He seems quite perky right now. "Uh- good, a lot of stuff has been going on. How have you been?"
"Good, missed you but good." This conversation comforts me, but makes me feel guilty, because I know I would rather be talking to someone else right now. "I've missed you too Ted, its been awhile." I nod my head as I say this.
"Yeah... Too long." He says in deep thought, possibly reminiscing. "Uh- how's Bryce?" He seems uncomfortable right now. "Um, ha well, lately. He's... He is attached to this guy." I sigh.
"A guy?" He laughs.
"Ha, well um- This guy, Carter. I use to date him. Bryce loves him..." I scratch my forehead, "We dated for awhile, I don't know two months, Bryce- He I don't know why he is attached to this one in particular but he is."
"He never liked me." Ted seems somewhat disappointed. Ted was my only real boyfriend, other then Carter of course since the divorce. He was sweet, great, perfect. Everything a girl could want for herself and her son, but Bryce he didn't like him, and I guess Ted wasn't the kind we needed. We need imperfect. Maybe that's why Bryce is so attached to Carter, he's not perfect. "He liked you..." Ted starts to laugh, he has this laugh, that is just so I don't know sexy? Can a laugh be sexy? If it can his is. It's deep, and quiet, but not too quiet. "Don't lie Abby... We dated for over a year and I thought he was going to kill me in my sleep that one night I slept over." I can't argue with that. Sometimes Bryce can get a little well, out of hand. He needs to learn that he is not going to like everyone or thing. "So this Carter guy, is he still around?" Ted asks nonchalantly.
"Nah- he loves me though." I sigh, playing with my hair.
"And you..."
"I don't know, I just don't." I sigh. I can tell Ted is relieved by this, Ted was like Carter in the sense he would tell me he loved me over and over, and I think he still does. "Abby, you want to get some coffee tomorrow?" Ted asks out of the blue. "Yeah, yeah I would."
~*~
"You want to go for some lunch?" I look up at Susan, who throws at chart at me...
Crabs? Yuck, thanks Susan. "Uh- I can't, not that the description of this women's crabs didn't get me hungry, but I have plans."
"Oh?" Susan seems very curious and Sam walks up just in time to get in on this.
"What are we ohing about?" She also hands me a chart. Foot fungus? Yummy.
"Abby has a date!" Susan beams.
"Oh?" Sam says just as enthusiastically as Susan.
"It's not a date." I can feel my cheeks get very hot.
"With Carter?" Susan pushes. I flip through each chart and walk around to the drop off for the charts, and dump both of them in the bin. "No, my ex boyfriend, Ted." I smile, walking away to go on my 'date' leaving them in awe. Ted and I decided we would meet at Ike's, he was curious as to what the hospital I was now working at was like. Ted's a doctor too. A surgeon actually, he's a very smart guy. I run through harsh winds, and make it to Ike's with only a runny nose. I whip into the washroom quickly to freshen up, when I emerge I see Ted, he's seated by the window. His jet black hair is spiked up, he's Italian and so sexy. I am not sure to this day as to why we really broke up. He spots me, I walk towards him, as he pulls me into a big hug, rocking me gently back and forth. "It's been too long." He comments pulling away. I nod at him, tucking my hair behind my ears nervously. "I know."
"You- you look great." He smiles widely.
"So do you," I sit down across from him. The restaurant is nice and quiet.
"So you're single right?" He laughs.
"Ha- um yeah." I blush some more. Maybe I really am meant to be with Ted, not Carter. If so why do I keep thinking of Carter? I'm so stupid.... I just have to enjoy this moment.
"Good... So am I!" He wiggles his eye brows. What a chump. "Bryce is staying out of trouble?" He always goes back to Bryce, its like he thinks that talking about him will make Bryce like him even though he is not around. "Yeah, for the most part. Just running away. Going to Doctors houses that I don't really know or like." I laugh.
"Yeah, he's a good kid though." He keeps looking at me, never breaking eye contact.
"Yeah he is." Sometimes it feels as though I am I saying it to reassure myself not other people. I look around the restaurant, as the waitress approached us. "Would you like anything to drink?" She munches on her gum and looks at us bored.
"Uh- just a coke." I say.
"Make that two." Ted adds. The waitress leaves us and my eyes dart around the restaurant, I look at the take out centre and lift my menu up to shadow my face from an unwelcome visitor. "Wh- what are you doing?" Ted is laughing hard.
"SHHH!" He looks at me weirdly. "Do you know that guy?" He asks pointing at Carter. Ted slowly reaches over and takes my menu away, I see Carter look over at us, just as Ted does this. Why do I feel like I am doing something wrong right now? A look of hurt washes over his face. He walks over slowly, I am quite frightened as to what he might say. "Hey Abby." Carter is always polite, so he probably won't freak out on me, but one can never know. "Hey John." His eyes meet Ted's I can feel the tension, both of their jaws clench. "John this is my friend Ted." Ted stands up and extends his hand to Carter. Carter takes it, they have an evil look on their faces. "I use to work with and date Abby." Ted laugh uncomfortably. Carter nods. "Yeah, well..." He doesn't know what to say. This is so uncomfortable. "Order 13." The lady calls from the counter. "That's me." Carter says turning to walk away, but before he does... "I'll pick Bryce up at eight." He spits, he shakes his head, and looks upset as he leaves the restaurant.
***PREVIEW***
"What happened between you and mom?"
"If I knew, I would have fixed it already."
"So... Do you think..." (refering if his mom and Carter will get back together)
"I don't know, Bryce. Your mom looked pretty happy today with Ted."
I whisper the last words of my statement, somehow hoping they weren't true.
"But I don't want Ted. I want you."
I feel like my life is falling apart, and there is nothing I can do about it. My son would rather be with someone he has known for three months then someone who has been there and loved him his whole life. I guess I resent Carter for this. Its not his fault Bryce adores him, but I can't help but have a bit of hate for this man. Maybe a lot of hate. He hurt me too. I really thought I was falling for him. I thought he was the one. That's the last time I listen to my gut. It felt so nice being held by him tonight, but I just can't let down my guard for him. Not anymore. Not after, I felt I gave him the best of me, and he jut ripped out my heart put it on the barbeque and served it to a pack of wild dogs. I just need a way to deal with all this stress, just get it all out. I sigh and flop back onto the couch thinking of ways to release my anger. Cigarettes? No, I'm quitting, again. This time for Bryce, I don't want him to pick up that filthy habit. Alcohol? Same reason as above. I chew my bottom lip and think of the only alternative option. I pick up my cordless off the coffee table, and dial the number I know off by heart. "Hello" I hear a tired voice say.
"Hey..." I smile slightly at the sound of his voice.
"Abby?" He seems some what interested in this conversation now.
"Hey." My smile widens. God I need a friendly person who doesn't know about these last couple of months right now. "How- how have you been?" He seems quite perky right now. "Uh- good, a lot of stuff has been going on. How have you been?"
"Good, missed you but good." This conversation comforts me, but makes me feel guilty, because I know I would rather be talking to someone else right now. "I've missed you too Ted, its been awhile." I nod my head as I say this.
"Yeah... Too long." He says in deep thought, possibly reminiscing. "Uh- how's Bryce?" He seems uncomfortable right now. "Um, ha well, lately. He's... He is attached to this guy." I sigh.
"A guy?" He laughs.
"Ha, well um- This guy, Carter. I use to date him. Bryce loves him..." I scratch my forehead, "We dated for awhile, I don't know two months, Bryce- He I don't know why he is attached to this one in particular but he is."
"He never liked me." Ted seems somewhat disappointed. Ted was my only real boyfriend, other then Carter of course since the divorce. He was sweet, great, perfect. Everything a girl could want for herself and her son, but Bryce he didn't like him, and I guess Ted wasn't the kind we needed. We need imperfect. Maybe that's why Bryce is so attached to Carter, he's not perfect. "He liked you..." Ted starts to laugh, he has this laugh, that is just so I don't know sexy? Can a laugh be sexy? If it can his is. It's deep, and quiet, but not too quiet. "Don't lie Abby... We dated for over a year and I thought he was going to kill me in my sleep that one night I slept over." I can't argue with that. Sometimes Bryce can get a little well, out of hand. He needs to learn that he is not going to like everyone or thing. "So this Carter guy, is he still around?" Ted asks nonchalantly.
"Nah- he loves me though." I sigh, playing with my hair.
"And you..."
"I don't know, I just don't." I sigh. I can tell Ted is relieved by this, Ted was like Carter in the sense he would tell me he loved me over and over, and I think he still does. "Abby, you want to get some coffee tomorrow?" Ted asks out of the blue. "Yeah, yeah I would."
~*~
"You want to go for some lunch?" I look up at Susan, who throws at chart at me...
Crabs? Yuck, thanks Susan. "Uh- I can't, not that the description of this women's crabs didn't get me hungry, but I have plans."
"Oh?" Susan seems very curious and Sam walks up just in time to get in on this.
"What are we ohing about?" She also hands me a chart. Foot fungus? Yummy.
"Abby has a date!" Susan beams.
"Oh?" Sam says just as enthusiastically as Susan.
"It's not a date." I can feel my cheeks get very hot.
"With Carter?" Susan pushes. I flip through each chart and walk around to the drop off for the charts, and dump both of them in the bin. "No, my ex boyfriend, Ted." I smile, walking away to go on my 'date' leaving them in awe. Ted and I decided we would meet at Ike's, he was curious as to what the hospital I was now working at was like. Ted's a doctor too. A surgeon actually, he's a very smart guy. I run through harsh winds, and make it to Ike's with only a runny nose. I whip into the washroom quickly to freshen up, when I emerge I see Ted, he's seated by the window. His jet black hair is spiked up, he's Italian and so sexy. I am not sure to this day as to why we really broke up. He spots me, I walk towards him, as he pulls me into a big hug, rocking me gently back and forth. "It's been too long." He comments pulling away. I nod at him, tucking my hair behind my ears nervously. "I know."
"You- you look great." He smiles widely.
"So do you," I sit down across from him. The restaurant is nice and quiet.
"So you're single right?" He laughs.
"Ha- um yeah." I blush some more. Maybe I really am meant to be with Ted, not Carter. If so why do I keep thinking of Carter? I'm so stupid.... I just have to enjoy this moment.
"Good... So am I!" He wiggles his eye brows. What a chump. "Bryce is staying out of trouble?" He always goes back to Bryce, its like he thinks that talking about him will make Bryce like him even though he is not around. "Yeah, for the most part. Just running away. Going to Doctors houses that I don't really know or like." I laugh.
"Yeah, he's a good kid though." He keeps looking at me, never breaking eye contact.
"Yeah he is." Sometimes it feels as though I am I saying it to reassure myself not other people. I look around the restaurant, as the waitress approached us. "Would you like anything to drink?" She munches on her gum and looks at us bored.
"Uh- just a coke." I say.
"Make that two." Ted adds. The waitress leaves us and my eyes dart around the restaurant, I look at the take out centre and lift my menu up to shadow my face from an unwelcome visitor. "Wh- what are you doing?" Ted is laughing hard.
"SHHH!" He looks at me weirdly. "Do you know that guy?" He asks pointing at Carter. Ted slowly reaches over and takes my menu away, I see Carter look over at us, just as Ted does this. Why do I feel like I am doing something wrong right now? A look of hurt washes over his face. He walks over slowly, I am quite frightened as to what he might say. "Hey Abby." Carter is always polite, so he probably won't freak out on me, but one can never know. "Hey John." His eyes meet Ted's I can feel the tension, both of their jaws clench. "John this is my friend Ted." Ted stands up and extends his hand to Carter. Carter takes it, they have an evil look on their faces. "I use to work with and date Abby." Ted laugh uncomfortably. Carter nods. "Yeah, well..." He doesn't know what to say. This is so uncomfortable. "Order 13." The lady calls from the counter. "That's me." Carter says turning to walk away, but before he does... "I'll pick Bryce up at eight." He spits, he shakes his head, and looks upset as he leaves the restaurant.
***PREVIEW***
"What happened between you and mom?"
"If I knew, I would have fixed it already."
"So... Do you think..." (refering if his mom and Carter will get back together)
"I don't know, Bryce. Your mom looked pretty happy today with Ted."
I whisper the last words of my statement, somehow hoping they weren't true.
"But I don't want Ted. I want you."