Authors Note- Hey everyone, this is yet another chapter for today. I hope you enjoy it please don't hate us for everything that is going on in the story right now, we loved writing this and at the end we might be doing a one week post thinggy, anyways I'll tell you about it once we get started and start to post.
"Can I get a computer?" I look up from the dinner I am cooking and look at my son, a computer? "Why?"
"I need one, want one, I need one. Puh-LEASE" He begs walking over to me and leaning on my shoulder. "Bryce-" I nudge him off and walk over to my broccoli. "We don't have money for that right now, we are especially pressed for cash at this point in time, and you know that." He looks at me and throws his hands in the air I know he understands, well somewhat. "Have you got another letter from Carter?" I ask sifting through the drawers for a measuring spoon. "Nah, its been like a month since he wrote the other one." He sighs, his chin resting up against his hand. "Oh, sorry." I look him the eye.
"Nah, mom don't be." We have been getting along great lately, I think things have only gotten better since Carter left, we have been able to work out our problems with one another, and he has learned that I love him regardless of anything that may happen. He looks at me smiling, "what?" He is about to say something when the phone rings interrupting his thoughts. He quickly grabs it and hits talk. "Yellow?" He asks goofily. He suddenly gets very serious and looks angry. "No!" He says firmly. "I am- " He rubs his forehead "I gotta go, just- bye." He hangs up the phone, slamming it onto the receiver. "Who was that?" I ask suspiciously, he just shakes his head at me, takes a deep breath then smiles widely. "Wrong number." I don't believe him. He walks towards his bed room and thrusts his face into the pillow. "Bryce." I say softly, walking over to his bed.
"Sorry mom," He looks at me, "I just want to be alone right now, okay?" I nod rubbing his back then head for the kitchen.
~*~
"You okay?" I look down at Bryce, ever since we got that 'mysterious' call he has been acting funny. "Yeah, I'm just going to lie down in the lounge." He shrugs then leaves me at admit. I have been really worried about him lately, I don't know what to do or say to him to make him feel better, or tell me what is wrong. "You okay?" Luka comes up from behind me and leans down on the counter next to me. I nod my head, still staring at the lounge door, hoping Bryce will pop out of it with a big smile on his face. "Bryce is acting weird." I explain, Luka's eyes immediately go to a busy Alex, who is working on his homework a couple feet away. "What?" His hands fly into the air, watching both of us.
"What's he upset about?" Luka presses, Alex shakes his head then walks over to us, "Ask him." He suggests.
"Is it about Dylan?" I frown. He shakes his head no. As far as I know they are still together, as together as ten year olds can be. "Um- Carter?" Luka guesses, Alex's face freezes up, then walks back over to his desk. "It was Carter on the phone wasn't it?" I am shocked, Carter hasn't written or called in a month. I walk towards the lounge, to find Bryce lying on the couch. "Why didn't you tell me?" I ask sitting down at the end of the couch. "ALEX!" He shrieks, I rub his hand, kissing it.
"Why didn't you speak to him?" He looks at me, tears threatening to fall.
"Because I hate him." He cries, he leans in a grabs me furiously crying into my shoulder, his body shakes. "I hate him for what he did to you, I hate him for how he left us, for how- for how he is such a jerk, and how he lied to me. He was going to be here forever." He wipes his nose with his sleeve. "He- he, told me he loves you." He sniffles that looks at me. "He does baby, we just- we aren't meant to be." I rub his small shoulders and he shakes his head. "Nah, if he loved you he wouldn't be with her." A tear comes rolling down his cheek, her? What her? There is a her? "Huh?" I ask dumbfounded.
"When he called, I heard the voice of another women, I heard her saying something like, is that him? Is that Bryce? I hate her." He gets up and walks over to the table, picking up a chair then slamming it onto the floor. "I HATE HIM!" He screeches before falling to the floor. Knees at chest. "He never intended to stay around mom, he's just like dad." He looks up at me with sad eyes. "I wish we never met him. I wish you stayed with Ted." He cries, the tears fall down his face and he doesn't stop them. I walk over to him, wrap my arms around his small frame and rock him back and forth. "I know sweetie. I- I love you so much, and Carter loves you too, just because he doesn't-" Bryce pushes me off him and stands up. "DON'T SAY THAT! HE DOES NOT LOVE ME! IF HE LOVED ME HE WOULDN'T HAVE LEFT!" He stomps his foot, the lounge door opens and in walks Luka, "Everything alright here?" Bryce runs out by him and down the hall, I can hear his angry footsteps echoing through the corridors. Luka smiles sadly at me. "I am going to get him." I push past Luka.
I go to the spot where I know Bryce is, the roof. Carter introduced him to this spot and ever since he can't seem to get away from it. He loves it. There is something about the roof that is so peaceful, so nice. It takes away all your worries and your pains, it lets you sift through everything. I pus the big heavy door, and find him facing the city, his hair being gently blown by the wind. "Sorry." He says in a barley audible whisper. I rest against the brick beside him and watch as he looks out over everything. He's so mature for his age, so smart. His hair is blond, but I am afraid the way I am raising him it will be grey by the time he is 20, or so. He smiles at me weakly. "I just thought Carter was a really cool guy, you know? From the first day I met him, he was awesome." He pauses to lick his lips. "He hated you." Bryce laughs. "Which at the time was a bonus, cause I though you were the worst mom ever, you're not though, you are amazing. What you do for me is just amazing. I thought he was different you know? I thought we could be friends no matter what. That he'd be here for me, even if you guys broke up, that I'd be okay with you two not being together, I could set all that aside." He turns and looks at me. "I'm not okay with it. I'm not okay with the way he treated you, I know he hit you mom, well not hit, but push or shove or whatever you want to call it." He reaches over and hugs me tightly. "I hate that guy, he's a druggie and we don't want that." Bryce pulls away from me. "Bryce, I'm an alcoholic, sure I haven't drank in four months, but its been hard, and I couldn't have survived without you, you were my strength, and I think you are the same thing to Carter. Although he did some pretty awful things, that wasn't him who did it. That wasn't the Carter you got to know, the Carter you loved. It was a different possessed crazy Carter." He sighs, wiping his face.
"Yeah, its just hard to forget." He looks at me.
"Maybe you could try calling him, when you are ready of course. You don't have to talk for long, but you could just see how he is. He loves you with everything he is, and I'm sure he would love to hear from you."
"Maybe I could ask him for a computer." Bryce laughs.
"I'd wait on that one." I joke back. Its nice to see that he is in a lighter mood, I know this whole situation was taking a toll on him, but he was doing an excellent job holding up the fort. "Maybe talk to him about school and how you made the basketball team." Bryce smiles when hearing this. "Yeah, he helped me play. He was pretty good too, not bad for an old guy."
"Yeah," I rub his arm. "He's a good guy."
"Are you going to call him?" Bryce asks looking at me.
"Um- no." I bite my bottom lip. I can't call him, last time I talked to John he hated me, and I am sure that if he really wanted to talk to me, he would have called.
"Are you sure?" I nod at Bryce.
"Okay, can I at least tell him that you are dating a firemen?" His eyes widen.
"NO!" I wrap my arm around his shoulders as we walk towards the big metal door preparing to leave the cool roof. "Aw, come on. He'd be so jealous."
"Bryce, don't you dare." I laugh.
"Can I at least tell him something else."
"What." I turn to him, and he looks at me smiling.
"You know." He gestures at me.
"Don't you dare, that is a very serious situation."
"Mom- Don't you think he deserves to know?" I shake my head at him, John does deserve to know to an extent, but at the moment I would rather it just be between me and my closest friends, meaning the fine people at county general.
"Bryce, I will tell him when the time is right." I start to walk again.
"So, you'll call him up in 30 years or so and say-" I look at Bryce again.
"I know, I know. I will tell him. Do you want him to know?" I smile at him, I thought Bryce was mad at him now all the sudden he wants him to know this big thing.
"I want him to know, because like you said Carter is a good guy, and I think the baby would be happy with him, well at least when he is sober, and because I want my little brother or sister to have a dad, because I didn't really, not until I met Carter. I want him or her to experience all the growing up with a dad. You know?" I nod at him.
"Okay, I'll tell him... before the baby is born." I laugh.
"Aw MOM!" We walk in to the hospital together, me and my children.
***PREVIEW***
"You two are just absolutely precious."
We both look up at an older woman sitting in a bed across from us. We really should pay more attention to our surroundings.
"We're sorry."
Annette forwards it and gives the woman an apologetic glace.
"Nah. Don't worry about it. It's great to know that true love still exists."
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CamilaC- heh, I can't exactly promise anytihng with annette :S sorry.
kate- I heard that a lot in reviews, that we got people in a good mood until they read the story... hehe
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CamilaC- Carters a crazy for a bit he will get better
"Can I get a computer?" I look up from the dinner I am cooking and look at my son, a computer? "Why?"
"I need one, want one, I need one. Puh-LEASE" He begs walking over to me and leaning on my shoulder. "Bryce-" I nudge him off and walk over to my broccoli. "We don't have money for that right now, we are especially pressed for cash at this point in time, and you know that." He looks at me and throws his hands in the air I know he understands, well somewhat. "Have you got another letter from Carter?" I ask sifting through the drawers for a measuring spoon. "Nah, its been like a month since he wrote the other one." He sighs, his chin resting up against his hand. "Oh, sorry." I look him the eye.
"Nah, mom don't be." We have been getting along great lately, I think things have only gotten better since Carter left, we have been able to work out our problems with one another, and he has learned that I love him regardless of anything that may happen. He looks at me smiling, "what?" He is about to say something when the phone rings interrupting his thoughts. He quickly grabs it and hits talk. "Yellow?" He asks goofily. He suddenly gets very serious and looks angry. "No!" He says firmly. "I am- " He rubs his forehead "I gotta go, just- bye." He hangs up the phone, slamming it onto the receiver. "Who was that?" I ask suspiciously, he just shakes his head at me, takes a deep breath then smiles widely. "Wrong number." I don't believe him. He walks towards his bed room and thrusts his face into the pillow. "Bryce." I say softly, walking over to his bed.
"Sorry mom," He looks at me, "I just want to be alone right now, okay?" I nod rubbing his back then head for the kitchen.
~*~
"You okay?" I look down at Bryce, ever since we got that 'mysterious' call he has been acting funny. "Yeah, I'm just going to lie down in the lounge." He shrugs then leaves me at admit. I have been really worried about him lately, I don't know what to do or say to him to make him feel better, or tell me what is wrong. "You okay?" Luka comes up from behind me and leans down on the counter next to me. I nod my head, still staring at the lounge door, hoping Bryce will pop out of it with a big smile on his face. "Bryce is acting weird." I explain, Luka's eyes immediately go to a busy Alex, who is working on his homework a couple feet away. "What?" His hands fly into the air, watching both of us.
"What's he upset about?" Luka presses, Alex shakes his head then walks over to us, "Ask him." He suggests.
"Is it about Dylan?" I frown. He shakes his head no. As far as I know they are still together, as together as ten year olds can be. "Um- Carter?" Luka guesses, Alex's face freezes up, then walks back over to his desk. "It was Carter on the phone wasn't it?" I am shocked, Carter hasn't written or called in a month. I walk towards the lounge, to find Bryce lying on the couch. "Why didn't you tell me?" I ask sitting down at the end of the couch. "ALEX!" He shrieks, I rub his hand, kissing it.
"Why didn't you speak to him?" He looks at me, tears threatening to fall.
"Because I hate him." He cries, he leans in a grabs me furiously crying into my shoulder, his body shakes. "I hate him for what he did to you, I hate him for how he left us, for how- for how he is such a jerk, and how he lied to me. He was going to be here forever." He wipes his nose with his sleeve. "He- he, told me he loves you." He sniffles that looks at me. "He does baby, we just- we aren't meant to be." I rub his small shoulders and he shakes his head. "Nah, if he loved you he wouldn't be with her." A tear comes rolling down his cheek, her? What her? There is a her? "Huh?" I ask dumbfounded.
"When he called, I heard the voice of another women, I heard her saying something like, is that him? Is that Bryce? I hate her." He gets up and walks over to the table, picking up a chair then slamming it onto the floor. "I HATE HIM!" He screeches before falling to the floor. Knees at chest. "He never intended to stay around mom, he's just like dad." He looks up at me with sad eyes. "I wish we never met him. I wish you stayed with Ted." He cries, the tears fall down his face and he doesn't stop them. I walk over to him, wrap my arms around his small frame and rock him back and forth. "I know sweetie. I- I love you so much, and Carter loves you too, just because he doesn't-" Bryce pushes me off him and stands up. "DON'T SAY THAT! HE DOES NOT LOVE ME! IF HE LOVED ME HE WOULDN'T HAVE LEFT!" He stomps his foot, the lounge door opens and in walks Luka, "Everything alright here?" Bryce runs out by him and down the hall, I can hear his angry footsteps echoing through the corridors. Luka smiles sadly at me. "I am going to get him." I push past Luka.
I go to the spot where I know Bryce is, the roof. Carter introduced him to this spot and ever since he can't seem to get away from it. He loves it. There is something about the roof that is so peaceful, so nice. It takes away all your worries and your pains, it lets you sift through everything. I pus the big heavy door, and find him facing the city, his hair being gently blown by the wind. "Sorry." He says in a barley audible whisper. I rest against the brick beside him and watch as he looks out over everything. He's so mature for his age, so smart. His hair is blond, but I am afraid the way I am raising him it will be grey by the time he is 20, or so. He smiles at me weakly. "I just thought Carter was a really cool guy, you know? From the first day I met him, he was awesome." He pauses to lick his lips. "He hated you." Bryce laughs. "Which at the time was a bonus, cause I though you were the worst mom ever, you're not though, you are amazing. What you do for me is just amazing. I thought he was different you know? I thought we could be friends no matter what. That he'd be here for me, even if you guys broke up, that I'd be okay with you two not being together, I could set all that aside." He turns and looks at me. "I'm not okay with it. I'm not okay with the way he treated you, I know he hit you mom, well not hit, but push or shove or whatever you want to call it." He reaches over and hugs me tightly. "I hate that guy, he's a druggie and we don't want that." Bryce pulls away from me. "Bryce, I'm an alcoholic, sure I haven't drank in four months, but its been hard, and I couldn't have survived without you, you were my strength, and I think you are the same thing to Carter. Although he did some pretty awful things, that wasn't him who did it. That wasn't the Carter you got to know, the Carter you loved. It was a different possessed crazy Carter." He sighs, wiping his face.
"Yeah, its just hard to forget." He looks at me.
"Maybe you could try calling him, when you are ready of course. You don't have to talk for long, but you could just see how he is. He loves you with everything he is, and I'm sure he would love to hear from you."
"Maybe I could ask him for a computer." Bryce laughs.
"I'd wait on that one." I joke back. Its nice to see that he is in a lighter mood, I know this whole situation was taking a toll on him, but he was doing an excellent job holding up the fort. "Maybe talk to him about school and how you made the basketball team." Bryce smiles when hearing this. "Yeah, he helped me play. He was pretty good too, not bad for an old guy."
"Yeah," I rub his arm. "He's a good guy."
"Are you going to call him?" Bryce asks looking at me.
"Um- no." I bite my bottom lip. I can't call him, last time I talked to John he hated me, and I am sure that if he really wanted to talk to me, he would have called.
"Are you sure?" I nod at Bryce.
"Okay, can I at least tell him that you are dating a firemen?" His eyes widen.
"NO!" I wrap my arm around his shoulders as we walk towards the big metal door preparing to leave the cool roof. "Aw, come on. He'd be so jealous."
"Bryce, don't you dare." I laugh.
"Can I at least tell him something else."
"What." I turn to him, and he looks at me smiling.
"You know." He gestures at me.
"Don't you dare, that is a very serious situation."
"Mom- Don't you think he deserves to know?" I shake my head at him, John does deserve to know to an extent, but at the moment I would rather it just be between me and my closest friends, meaning the fine people at county general.
"Bryce, I will tell him when the time is right." I start to walk again.
"So, you'll call him up in 30 years or so and say-" I look at Bryce again.
"I know, I know. I will tell him. Do you want him to know?" I smile at him, I thought Bryce was mad at him now all the sudden he wants him to know this big thing.
"I want him to know, because like you said Carter is a good guy, and I think the baby would be happy with him, well at least when he is sober, and because I want my little brother or sister to have a dad, because I didn't really, not until I met Carter. I want him or her to experience all the growing up with a dad. You know?" I nod at him.
"Okay, I'll tell him... before the baby is born." I laugh.
"Aw MOM!" We walk in to the hospital together, me and my children.
***PREVIEW***
"You two are just absolutely precious."
We both look up at an older woman sitting in a bed across from us. We really should pay more attention to our surroundings.
"We're sorry."
Annette forwards it and gives the woman an apologetic glace.
"Nah. Don't worry about it. It's great to know that true love still exists."
***REVIEW RESPONSES***
smilez4eva- haha I'd join an "i can't deal wtih the ER writers they spend two damn years getting abby and carter together and then end it just like that" support group. Don't worry I'll make sure Thursdays chapter will make you feel better...
hyperpiper91- Dude, man if Carter was at my house right now I'd kick his ass and gladly send him to you so you could throw a few punches.
CamilaC- heh, I can't exactly promise anytihng with annette :S sorry.
kate- I heard that a lot in reviews, that we got people in a good mood until they read the story... hehe
CamilaC - I thought luby had some crazy great chemistry but I'm a carby at heart, I can't help it I just am a carby lol...
Amanda- review as many times as you like... we love reading reviews :D
CamilaC- hehehe
MrsWyle- sorry :(
Amanda- we tell all, ALL haha!!!
CamilaC- Carters a crazy for a bit he will get better