CHAT

-jenn

18.1

~:~Frustration~:~







BleedingPhoenix: what about you? What about your life?
peoplesay: why are you interested?

She bites her lip.

She knows now.

She just isn't sure if she wants to admit it.

BleedingPhoenix: because your saving me.
peoplesay: you spelled "you're" wrong by the way.

BleedingPhoenix:... you're so anal.
peoplesay: that would be the correct use of the word "you're"

She laughs, shakes her head.

BleedingPhoenix: shut up.
BleedingPhoenix: you're just changing the subject. what do you have to hide?
peoplesay: what? me? I'm not hiding anything~
peoplesay: I lived in Ecuador until i was around fifteen, moved here, met you... those are basically the highlights.

There is a moment then when she feels as if the entire world stopped just for this moment. Because even though she had never consciously entertained the possibility that this man might be... could possibly be Vaughn... and had even been glad in her heart that this man would be someone totally different... there was still a sense of disappointment.

She can still see every plane of his face when she closes her eyes. She can see the grief in his eyes as his voice penetrated her system, kissing her softly, begging her to wake up.

She can remember the tone of his voice as the words "I'll never leave you again" erupt from his mouth... can hear the absolute sincerity with which the words had been said.

He had believed them.

She had believed him.

And now here was the dissapation of fiction.

And she wasn't sure how she felt. She had hated him for what he had done for so long... had loved him even longer than that... was glad that she had seemingly found someone else, was sorry that it hadn't been the man who already held her heart...

broken though it is

.

BleedingPhoenix: are you serious?

She bites her lip, waiting for the answer.

She doesn't know what she wants, doesn't know what she thinks, doesn't know what she feels.

Or maybe the weird thing is that she does.


peoplesay: haha, no.

If this were a television show, there were be some sort of zipping noise and then utter and complete silence right about now.

All the thought, the tension, the memories... were for something that he had not been serious about?

BleedingPhoenix: What?
peoplesay: i was just joking... why... are you frustrated ?

She smiles a little, uncertainly, a little of the humor seeping through.

BleedingPhoenix: umm.. yeah I guess...
peoplesay: serves you right then. No you know what I feel.
Bleedingphoenix: what are you talking about?
peoplesay: do you know how long I've wanted to know everything about you only to be blocked at every turn?

















okay~ there should be more to this chapter but there isn't because i have to go and this was the first semi-okay stopping point.

is it explained now?

I'll post the rest later... be it today or tomorrow i don't know though

hope you liked it at least a little~

tbc... more?

-jenn

R/R please!