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CHAPTER 7

Hermione's POV

Well, our talk with Harry didn't quite go as planned, actually, we got what we wanted . . . just not in the way we wanted . . . let me fill you in . . .

I haven't written in here for the past two days because I've been awfully busy. You see, two days ago Ron brought up the subject of just how deep Harry's depression is. He asked me if I had seen the scars and fresh cuts on his wrists. What was really shocking about his question was that he had to have actually been observing Harry closely to have noticed that. That told me that he was seriously worried.

Ron is a . . . how to put this . . . a semi apathetic person regarding these kind of matters. He prefers to leave them alone. He thinks that problems like depression just disappear in time. Having him voice his concerns and ask me about mine was quite unexpected.

Anyway, we talked all about our observations of Harry's behaviour. After a long discussion where I even had to explain the meaning of 'reclusive' to Ron (how he's passed all these years is beyond me) we finally came to the conclusion that Harry was in need of some serious help. We both decided to see Professor Dumbledore about him. Since the end of fifth year Harry and Dumbledore have seemed much closer, almost like they share a Grandfather to Grandson relationship. Because of this we wanted to talk to him and try and find out if he knew what was wrong. So we did. I know the password to Dumbledore's office because I'm Head Girl so we had no trouble finding him. Finding out what was wrong was a different case though. Dumbledore obviously knew but the only thing he said was to ask Harry ourselves.

Well, that's just what Ron and I did. We waited in his room for him to come back from his Head Boy duties. When he got there he was clearly surprised to see us. He gave a twisted sort of half smile and all Ron and I could do was grimace back. That obviously tipped him off that something was wrong. And so he asked what was up and we told him.

You know, I don't think my heart has ever ached that much before.

He looked so tormented. There was a smouldering pain blazing in his eyes. It was scary.

He said some horrible things to us. He said that we didn't care and that we never noticed him. If only he knew that he's the centre of my sodding universe! I bloody love him more than life its bloody self! I love him so much that sometimes it actually hurts; it's like a smarting pain in my chest. It hurts because I know that he'll never love me back, well, not like I love him. I hate that. I hate it so much. If only he knew. If I only I had the bloody nerve to tell him. Maybe then he'd let me back in. I hate so much that he's shut us out. He needs us! We need him!

I need him.

And so, we argued with him about how we do care. And we listened to him rant and it tore me to pieces. It was probably the most excruciating experience I have ever been through. His voice shook with a pain I could never even dream to imagine. He was trembling all over and his eyes were just . . . just indescribable.

Imagine that! Me, Hermione Granger is for once at a loss for words. Well sometimes words can't convey the right meaning. That's the case here; no words could ever describe the look in his eyes.

I'm really quite glad that we did talk to him though. I think that he really needed to let it all out. He told us how he felt with an anger I have never seen Harry possess. Not even the summer before fifth year when he exploded at Ron and me. The words that he used were, well, under any other circumstance I'd say disgusting but they seemed to help him emphasise his point.

At one point he stood up and turned away from us. That was after I asked him, no begged him, to come back to us as the old Harry. My eyes were streaming with tears at that time. Even Ron had a solitary tear rolling down his freckly cheek. I have never once seen either Harry or Ron cry before, never. I think Harry turned away for two reasons. One so that he couldn't see our tears and two so that we couldn't see his.

He flatly refuses to fully show his emotions when he needs to so much. His dark thoughts are tearing him apart. They're like a cancer growing inside of him, spreading through his mind and destroying everything he used to be.

He told us that he'd never kill himself because that would doom the rest of the world. How very selfless. But he doesn't realise that he is killing himself. Not physically of course. No, he's killing himself emotionally. He's destroying his soul, tearing apart the very essence of himself. It's really not that reassuring when he says he'd never kill himself because the world's relying on him. Basically he's saying that if it wasn't then he would kill himself. I can't think like that. I can't think like that.  I can't think like that. I can't think like that.

I can't think like that.

I'm so damn angry! He's so stupid if he thinks he can hold the world on his pathetic teenage shoulders! Doesn't he see that he has to share the burden? It's not possible for one person to do that. He'll break his back if he continues to try and hold the world up. Why can't he see that? Why can't he see that he has people willing to take some of the load? I would willingly take it off his back completely. I know that can't happen. Ad why can't it happen? BECAUSE OF SOME STUPID PROPHECY THAT A MAD OLD BAT MADE EIGHTEEN YEARS AGO!!!!

I can't believe it. It can't be true. It just can't be. But I know it is. Dumbledore would never make a mistake like that.  He'd never burden Harry with something like that if there was a chance it wasn't true. He loves him too much to do that.

I love him too much to let him suffer the way he is. I'm going to have to gather up my Gryffindor bravery and tell Harry straight up that I love him more than anything else in the world and that I will no longer stand for him suffering like he is. It's just not right. I won't let it happen. I'll make him let me in even if I have to physically force him to! I'll slap him silly. I'll kick him till he cries. I'll punch him till he's putty. I'll snog him senseless.

That was not supposed to be one of my "Make Harry Let Me Back In" tactics . . . but then again, desperate times call for desperate measures.

Oh god I hope Ron never reads this diary. I feel guilty enough harbouring secret feelings for Harry when I'm still going out with Ron. I really should tell Ron about it. I don't know how he'd take it.

I hate my life at the moment. It's so confusing. No it's not; it's crystal clear but so painful and hard to deal with.

I can't belie I just contradicted myself in my diary.

Do you see how pitiable I am?

Oh god.

I'm going to stop writing now before I do something even more stupid like write a double negative!

Oh god I'm so very pathetic

I think I should go and check on Harry to see if he's alright.

I'll add another entry soon.

Love always

~Hermione~

TBC . . .

A/n: Hey! Hmmm, I hope you liked that…an insight into the workings of Hermione's brain and how she thought 'the confrontation' went. Be the wonderful people you are and review!!! Thanks for reading!