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Severus Snape came into the hall and saw Lupin lying near the wall. Weasleys had come downstairs obviously disturbed by the sound.
" Remus, what happened?" Arthur Weasley wearing a long white nightrobe helped the werewolf up.
" Lupin, where is Potter?" Snape didn't have time for nice talk.
" Harry. He ran . Harry ran out."
" And you let him?" Snape asked discussed. " I thought you were supposed to take care of him now Black is gone."
" I tried to stop him."
" Tried?" Lupin looked into Snape's eyes.
" Yes TRIED. He threw me to the wall."
" Are you trying to tell me that a 16 year old could throw a grown male werewolf?"
" That's exactly what I am telling you."
" Harry would never do that!" Ron Weasley tried to defend his friend.
" Let me help Remus." Arthur led Lupin to the couch. Everyone stood around him waiting for explanation. Lupin looked at Snape.
" What did you do? What did you make him remember? If it has anything to do with Sirius."
" Relax Lupin. I think mister Potter didn't want me to know about his affair."
" Affair? Harry has no affairs. I would know. I am his best friend. How dare you."
" Ron calm down." Twins tried to hold his brother.
" But he is lying about Harry."
" Watch what you are saying mister Weasley. I never lie."
" So what did you saw Severus? I mean Harry wouldn't do that just because you saw him kissing some girl." Arthur waited for explanation.
" It was more than a kiss and she was definitely not a girl but a woman in her twenties if I am not mistaken." Molly Weasley gasped.
" Liar."
" Ron." She tried to calm down her son.
" You are lying. You always hated Harry and now you want to show him like.like."
" Mister Weasley it is not my fault that Potter didn't tell you about his sexual experiences."
" Professor Snape you shouldn't talk like this infront of children."
" They are nothing but children Molly. It's about time you realize that." Snape glared at her.
" Molly, dear, now it's not the time. We have to find Harry." Arthur Weasley looked at Bill who was spending summer with them . " Go and get Tonks and Moody."
Harry was walking down the streets. Lie, it all was a lie. He didn't have anything, anyone. He looked around. People were rushing to work. They seemed so happy to Harry now. It wasn't fair. He just wanted to die, to rest, to be in peace at last. Didn't he deserve at least that? It wasn't like anyone was going to miss him. He knew that was a lie too. Hermione and Ron would. His father would too. Father. Why did he do so? Why did he say he loved him? How could he love someone who betrayed him? Who tried to kill him? And Cordelia. Beautiful and nice Cordelia who cared, cared a lot about him. But that wasn't real her. Another lie. The way she held him, the way she kissed him. nothing but lie. Harry wished he could be the Connor he was before becoming Harry but he couldn't. Living in this world changed him. It hurt him a lot. Now more than ever he realized how lonely he was. Harry came to the bridge. He looked down. Not a long way down. Would it be enough? Would it be enough to erase all the pain. His mothers face stood before his eyes. He remembered her beautiful blonde hair, soft voice. Would he meet her there? Harry knew he would jump.
" Harry, stop." Bill's Wealsley voice stopped him. Harry looked at him and noticed Ron with Hermione standing beside him. Snape was there too.
" Why should I?" He laughed bitterly. " Why would you want me to live?"
" Because you are our friend, because we love you."
" Your friend?" He looked at Bill surprised. " How can you call me your friend? You don't even know me."
" Maybe I don't but Ron does."
" Ron?" The read head nodded. " Yes, Ron does." Harry looked down. " Then he should understand."
" Harry, mate, please tell me what should I understand." Ron looked at Harry desperately.
" Understand why. Understand why am I doing this. Understand that I need this."
" Potter stop talking nonsense and come here." For the first time in Harry's life Snape looked as if he really cared. But did he?
" I should thank you Professor." He looked into black eyes.
" Thank for what?"
" For helping me to remember. For helping me see that I don't belong here."
" Listen Potter I am sorry that I saw that memory of yours. I understand that you didn't want me to see you with that woman but that is not the reason to kill yourself." Harry laughed again. His laugh was cold and empty.
" You really think I am doing this because you saw me with Cordelia?"
" You don't?"
" No." Harry turned around and went to the side of the bridge. " Tell me professor how can you live with all the blood on your hands. How can you make it through the day?"
" Potter, if this is about Sirius."
" No.yes. It's about all of them, Cedric, Sirius, mum, dad, Justine, Holtz. everyone. They died. I should be sad because of that, shouldn't I? I should cry, scream, I should do something. But I can't. You know why? Because I can't feel. And I can't live like this anymore." He looked at his friends with a smile. " Tell father I love him too." Harry jumped.
Severus Snape came into the hall and saw Lupin lying near the wall. Weasleys had come downstairs obviously disturbed by the sound.
" Remus, what happened?" Arthur Weasley wearing a long white nightrobe helped the werewolf up.
" Lupin, where is Potter?" Snape didn't have time for nice talk.
" Harry. He ran . Harry ran out."
" And you let him?" Snape asked discussed. " I thought you were supposed to take care of him now Black is gone."
" I tried to stop him."
" Tried?" Lupin looked into Snape's eyes.
" Yes TRIED. He threw me to the wall."
" Are you trying to tell me that a 16 year old could throw a grown male werewolf?"
" That's exactly what I am telling you."
" Harry would never do that!" Ron Weasley tried to defend his friend.
" Let me help Remus." Arthur led Lupin to the couch. Everyone stood around him waiting for explanation. Lupin looked at Snape.
" What did you do? What did you make him remember? If it has anything to do with Sirius."
" Relax Lupin. I think mister Potter didn't want me to know about his affair."
" Affair? Harry has no affairs. I would know. I am his best friend. How dare you."
" Ron calm down." Twins tried to hold his brother.
" But he is lying about Harry."
" Watch what you are saying mister Weasley. I never lie."
" So what did you saw Severus? I mean Harry wouldn't do that just because you saw him kissing some girl." Arthur waited for explanation.
" It was more than a kiss and she was definitely not a girl but a woman in her twenties if I am not mistaken." Molly Weasley gasped.
" Liar."
" Ron." She tried to calm down her son.
" You are lying. You always hated Harry and now you want to show him like.like."
" Mister Weasley it is not my fault that Potter didn't tell you about his sexual experiences."
" Professor Snape you shouldn't talk like this infront of children."
" They are nothing but children Molly. It's about time you realize that." Snape glared at her.
" Molly, dear, now it's not the time. We have to find Harry." Arthur Weasley looked at Bill who was spending summer with them . " Go and get Tonks and Moody."
Harry was walking down the streets. Lie, it all was a lie. He didn't have anything, anyone. He looked around. People were rushing to work. They seemed so happy to Harry now. It wasn't fair. He just wanted to die, to rest, to be in peace at last. Didn't he deserve at least that? It wasn't like anyone was going to miss him. He knew that was a lie too. Hermione and Ron would. His father would too. Father. Why did he do so? Why did he say he loved him? How could he love someone who betrayed him? Who tried to kill him? And Cordelia. Beautiful and nice Cordelia who cared, cared a lot about him. But that wasn't real her. Another lie. The way she held him, the way she kissed him. nothing but lie. Harry wished he could be the Connor he was before becoming Harry but he couldn't. Living in this world changed him. It hurt him a lot. Now more than ever he realized how lonely he was. Harry came to the bridge. He looked down. Not a long way down. Would it be enough? Would it be enough to erase all the pain. His mothers face stood before his eyes. He remembered her beautiful blonde hair, soft voice. Would he meet her there? Harry knew he would jump.
" Harry, stop." Bill's Wealsley voice stopped him. Harry looked at him and noticed Ron with Hermione standing beside him. Snape was there too.
" Why should I?" He laughed bitterly. " Why would you want me to live?"
" Because you are our friend, because we love you."
" Your friend?" He looked at Bill surprised. " How can you call me your friend? You don't even know me."
" Maybe I don't but Ron does."
" Ron?" The read head nodded. " Yes, Ron does." Harry looked down. " Then he should understand."
" Harry, mate, please tell me what should I understand." Ron looked at Harry desperately.
" Understand why. Understand why am I doing this. Understand that I need this."
" Potter stop talking nonsense and come here." For the first time in Harry's life Snape looked as if he really cared. But did he?
" I should thank you Professor." He looked into black eyes.
" Thank for what?"
" For helping me to remember. For helping me see that I don't belong here."
" Listen Potter I am sorry that I saw that memory of yours. I understand that you didn't want me to see you with that woman but that is not the reason to kill yourself." Harry laughed again. His laugh was cold and empty.
" You really think I am doing this because you saw me with Cordelia?"
" You don't?"
" No." Harry turned around and went to the side of the bridge. " Tell me professor how can you live with all the blood on your hands. How can you make it through the day?"
" Potter, if this is about Sirius."
" No.yes. It's about all of them, Cedric, Sirius, mum, dad, Justine, Holtz. everyone. They died. I should be sad because of that, shouldn't I? I should cry, scream, I should do something. But I can't. You know why? Because I can't feel. And I can't live like this anymore." He looked at his friends with a smile. " Tell father I love him too." Harry jumped.