Legolas: *Sniffle* Hannah does not own "A Thousand Miles" by the incredibly talented Vanessa Carlton. Or me, or G Gundam, or any songs ever! Be prepared....this is so angsty, that even I' cryin'! (Oh, it takes place right after Rain resigned...)

````~*A Thousand Miles*~````

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~Makin' my way downtown~

My eyes were foggy and misty like the way the air is when the sky meets the ocean. I didn't really know where I was going; maybe to stand by the sidelines and cheer on the destruction of earth. The truth was; I didn't really care what happened anymore. I kept up a steady pace as I walked through the crowds.

~Walkin' fast~

~Faces past~

Her eyes glazed over the crowds. There were laughing teenagers, crying children, and confused adults. Everyone seemed to be paired up with someone. But Rain didn't pay any particular attention. Her mind was blank as she was pushed and shoved to the back of a swarm of persons. She slowed her trot to a slow scuff. She dragged her heels as they dirtied themselves along the polluted streets. Her once happy life was twirling in a downward spiral to nowhere.

~And I'm homebound~

She couldn't help but let her mind's eye wander to the past. Her life in college... her life with Saette... he had treated her so right. When she left... she had no idea what she was getting into. If only she could go back to those days. Those perfect, carefree days... up in the colony, where pipes made the water that rained from the artificial clouds. The place where the grass blazed it's way straight to the ocean. The metallic mountains scaled the edges of the floating civilization, preventing escape into the real world. She longed to go back. But she was bound to this wretched planet.

~Starin' blankly ahead~

~Just makin' my way~

~Makin' my way~

~Through the crowd~

She *had* been bound, at least. By that man. Her life long friend. Her life long pain, more like it. But she shredded any remains of her chains, her links to him. Or so she thought. When she wrote that letter of resignation, she thought she was letting go. After his abuse, she snapped. After long thoughts, she had no regrets. She knew she could find someway back to her old life...

~And I need you~

~And I miss you~

~And now I wonder~

But she loved him. Domon was always in the back of her mind, his words echoing in the long halls of her memories. His way of expressing things was in his fists, so how could he express love? He could only express his anger; although he was slowly learning how to show happiness in small words or touches. She missed the way he held her, even for those short times. The times her life was threatened... she could feel his rising fear when he shielded her. His emotions bled from his fingertips.

~If I could fall~

~Into the sky~

~Do you think time would pass me by?~

Maybe she should go back...see him one last time? Maybe she would feel better if she left by looking into his eyes one more time? If only she could rewind time... back to her childhood with him. Before he left with Master. Before her life became a hurricane. One after another, terrible things happened in her life. Her mother died. Her father was almost never there. Her only friend taken away. She was alone for years.

~'Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles~

~Just to see you~

~Tonight~

She awoke from her thoughts with a forceful blow. She blinked her eyes open, to reveal people trying to pass her by. She had been standing there for what seemed like an eternity. She shook her head form side to side as she began to stride. She was bathed in the glow of the bright, flashing neon lights that adorned the walls of the clubs, stores, and bars. She stepped farther into a shadow that welcomed her openly, occupying an alley. She knew it was unwise, but she just wanted to sit down. Which she did; finding an comfortable spot on an old crate. She watched people brush right in front of her, sometimes throwing nickels to the seemingly 'homeless woman'. She smiled and closed her eyes, inhaling the smell of the gutter that lay at the side of the road, the noxious fumes the large trucks spewed, as well as the smell of burning incense from a nearby shrine. She layed her face into her hands, where she pondered of what to do with herself.

~It's always times like these~

~When I think of you~

~And I wonder if~

~You ever think of me~

She wondered if Domon was concerned of her leave of absence? Maybe, Rain thought, maybe. But he was preoccupied by mostly the thought of where his close friend Allenby had dissapeared to. She shuddered. That was the thing that started her fight with Domon. Rain sighed as she delved deeper into her mind. What other things had they fought about before? Nothing this drastic, that's for sure. Maybe when Rain wanted Domon to take a small break from fighting, but that was a given. She always worried about him. But someone would replace her... and Domon would get over her leaving. Or would he? Maybe he thought about her more then she had originally planned....

~'Cause everything's so wrong~

~And I don't belong~

~Livin' in your precious~

~Memories~

She silently stood as a tear grazed her cheek. Maybe she was wrong about leaving... but she really didn't deserve Domon. All she could do was be a cheerleader. A lot of good that will do him...

~'Cause I need you~

~And I miss you~

~And now I wonder~

But she needed him. He made her heart feel so much different then Saette did. So much more...tension between them. The friction the two of them caused together kept her warm on the inside... she really couldn't explain it...

~If I could fall~

~Into the sky~

~Do you think time~

~Would pass me by~

~'Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles~

~Just to see you~

~Tonight~

She knew she had to go back...she would do anything for him. But if she would return know, what would he think? That she just had to have him, like some kind of pet needing to be fed? She didn't want that kind of relationship... she wanted to serve him. Not the other way around. And she didn't want to cling onto him as if he was her only way to be connected to the world. She despised women who couldn't do a thing in their life and just sat by looking pretty. She had persevered this whole time and kept strong; there was no way she could just be snapped loose after one fight. Her heart realized it now...

~And I, I~

~Don't want to let this go~

~I,I~

~Drown in your memory~

~I,I~

~Don't...~

She couldn't let him go just like this...she must have been crazy to quit. But she wanted some peace for once in her life. She should wait a while upon returning though. She needed to think this all over...she had been so selfish, only thinking of herself. Domon had no one else... his mother dead, father frozen, and brother killed in the Guyana Highlands(supposedly). Rain was the only person who really knew how he felt... and she left him anyways. She felt so...horrible. She had betrayed the man she loved.

~Makin' my way downtown~

~Walkin' fast~

~Faces passed and I'm homebound~

~Starin' blankly ahead~

~Just makin' my way~

~Makin' my way~

~Through the crowd~

~And I still need you~

~And I still miss you~

~And now I wonder~

Her heart had completely changed directions since just about an hour or two ago. Instead of anger, she now felt sad and lowly. Her eyes eyes sank to the cracked cement, bleached a pale yellow from age. Her body slumped over as her head drooped. But se didn't want to wallow in self pity. She wanted to wallow in self hatred for being so foolish. But she couldn't. She couldn't do much of anything now.

~If I could fall~

~Into the sky~

~Do you think time~

~Would pass...us by~

~'Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles~

~If I could just see you~

All she could do is dwell in the past.

~If I could fall~

~Into the sky~

~Do you think time~

~Would pass me by?~

Her once foggy eyes soon became as clear as sunrise at the seashore, breaking away the cold air that had formed there. Sparkling as though sapphires had scattered themselves across a sea of rippling blue. But then her deep eyes fooled her; she could have sworn she saw Kyoji turning a corner...maybe she should follow him...

~'Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles~

~Just to see you...~

Besides, she needed to get the past out of her head. She needed to look to the future with open arms. Open eyes. An open heart, clear of spite and sorrow.

~Tonight~

Clear of any settling mist.

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ANGST!!!!!!!SO MUCH ANGST!!!!!!!!!

Legolas: *Crying* That was...so...sad...

Me:*Sniffle* I just....couldn't get over how Rain looked when she was walking in the streets when she resigned....I couldn't believe how sad she was....(I watched that episode again last night... I needed inspiration! Thank God for archiving!) If anyone else felt this way, tell me in the review. *Tearing up* I can't believe I wrote that! I am so sad right now! Waah! Oh, and I really tried to use a lot of similes/decriptions in this. If you liked any particular one, please tell me.... I could write more stuff like that if I know what you guys liked! I really need opinions, as well as constructive criticism!!!!!!!!!!!! And more song ideas. It looks like I'm puttin' off Brad Paisley for a lil' while.... and maybe the song "I Can Still Feel You" for Domon! (Everyone gasps because I'm actually gunna do someone besides Rain.)

Alrighty then....review for more! ^__^.....;___; (I'm still really sad!) See ya'!

--Sailor Hannah