Kitty
Katherine Pryde,
You know I was tempted to send you a letter discussing the Keynes model of global economy but I had a few more pressing things to write to you about. We were never friends-I wouldn't delude myself into thinking that. But if things had been different for me I could see me being the kind of girl you are. Scary isn't it?
Despite our differences there are a few things we have in common. Namely, our taste in men. There was a very good reason why I pushed Piotr away-I never expected to live through my uprising and didn't want to see him hurt when the inevitable occurred. But you had to let that hopeless romantic streak of yours butt into my well thought out plan.
While it is comforting to know that Piotr forgives me; I worry about how my death will affect him. We both know that he feels things very deeply. It was one of the reasons I couldn't let him in.
I asked you once to love him the way I couldn't, purely, honestly, wholly. Please, if you still care for him, if you still love him-continue. He will need you and Illyana more than he knows.
I can't believe I just wrote that…I really wish I could just pull your hair and gouge your eyes…instead I'm handing you the only man I've loved on a silver platter.
If you can't find it in yourself to love Piotr that way after everything that's happened I understand-but to be sure nothing happened between us at 'Hood house but some talking. Be his friend. Be there when he needs it and don't let him push you away.
Secondly, if you can't have a relationship with Piotr-take Lance back. Now , listen to me…Lance has never stopped loving you. He had a weird way of showing it but now maybe that he is a free man you could give things a shot. Start fresh. It's hard not to hurt the ones you love when you have other responsibilities pulling at you like a lead weight.
From the end of the tunnel,
Asli
P.S I left a laptop of information for Logan about his past….can you help him access everything?
Lance
Lance,
You and I didn't leave anything unsaid between us, maybe that was the attraction. Together we could be ourselves-there was no fear of loosing who we were. We could have had something great if we weren't stuck loving other people. Things would have been simpler if we could have loved each other.
That said thank you for being my shoulder to cry on. Thank you for sharing yourself with me. Thank you for not trying to stop me when I told you what I wanted to do. Thank you for helping me. Thank you.
You're more than just a hood to me Lance. You are only what you make yourself-and if you want others to see you as more…then put that amazing mind of yours to good use. You're free of Mags and Mystique now…let Professor X help you guys. You won't have to become X-Geeks. He wouldn't ask you to do that if you didn't want to. Besides, you guys have earned anything old baldy can give you.
From the end of the tunnel,
Asli
Piotr
Dearest,
The hard part of all of this was keeping you in the dark. Keeping myself away from you when all I really wanted was to let you hold me and make it all go away. I've been told I have willpower for my willpower. Pushing you away proved it. But you know my reasons.
You once told me that you were sorry for my pain. Right now I'm even sorrier for yours. I'm sorry I did things to hurt you. It's my only regret. That and not loving you the way you deserved. But if you believe in life after death then I suppose I will be free to love you from afar.
Please, please don't let this destroy you. The only way I could go through with this was to believe that you would be strong enough to continue with out me. That in our short time I really didn't have an impact on your life. Don't let me be wrong.
Move on with your life. Forget about me. Raise Illyana to be the kind of person that others look up to. Find a good woman settle down and have children. Live. Please. I need to know that you will be okay.
You made me want more.
From the end of the tunnel,
Asli
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A large sigh escaped Asli's lips-it didn't seem like much but writing her goodbyes had drained her. It wasn't every day that she prepared for her own very likely death. There were so many misunderstandings, and things left unsaid that at first it had seemed a daunting task. Once she had set pen to paper though it had been a different story altogether-the words had just tumbled out.
"All done?" Lance's voice called her back to the here and now.
"Yeah." Asli turned in her chair and offered him a smile, "You'll make sure they all get these?"
The look in the young man's dark eyes said it all, "Of course I will. And I'll keep the Brotherhood out of it. Mags will have to do with just the Acolytes."
"Thank you."
Lance shook his head, "No thanks needed. Are you sure you want to do this?"
"No," Asli rose and moved over to the bed where Lance was sitting so that he could hold her, "But it's the right thing to do. I can't let Rogue die for me."
The hacker sighed as his strong arms pulled her close, surrounding her with warmth and peace. Quietly, tears began to fall from her eyes but they went ignored. Lance laid a gentle kiss on Asli's forehead, "I'll miss you."
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Yes, I am officially the most evil fan fiction writer ever…but you guys are sending me such lovely review I can't help myself.
Star-of-Chaos – I'm glad you liked Cypher as well…this was her third incarnation…the others weren't alive enough. I love developing characters-it's one of my strong suits left over from theatre. And believe me I will top this.
Pixie-Flyer – Yes! I'm making you review! No comment…if Asli comes back she won't be the same lovable bitca…don't worry though my little book worm…I've got it covered.
Ish – I've been writing in every spare moment I have…before work, after work, on break. Plus it helped that by the third story I had these letters all planned out and knew I was killing Asli. Things are gonna slow down a bit again. But I'll try to get something out once a week. I refuse to comment on whether or not Rogue and Remy get locked in the danger room…REFUSE. But I'm glad you *squeal*ed over Remy's letter…I was worried it was weak and trite…but yay! You do know I enjoy jerking the tears…right? Yes, death…lots of it….it's gonna go sort of how it did in the comics.