Author's note: I don't own 7th heaven, (duh), it's owned by the WB and There Goes My Life is a song by Kenney Chesney. The lyrics belong to him.
'All he could think about was I'm too young for this.
Got my whole life ahead.
Hell I'm just a kid myself.
How'm I gonna raise one.'
Matt sat in the church, holding his girlfriend, Janie Matthews' hand. Even though he appeared to be listening to his father's sermon, his mind was a thousand miles away, trying to comprehend what Janie had told him. She was pregnant. How could that be when they had only had sex once. It had been a mistake and they swore not to do it again until they were married. She was pregnant. He knew guys who slept around every weekend and they had never gotten anyone pregnant, but he had only done it once, and now there was this little child that would depend on him for the rest of his life. He was only seventeen. Janie was only sixteen.
'All he could see were his dreams goin' up in smoke.
So much for ditchin' this town and hangin' out in the city.
Oh well, those plans are long gone.'
How would he tell his parents? HE was supposed to be the responsible one. The role model older brother for the other kids to look up too. So much for going away to college. So much for college at all. His life was over before it had ever started. Now, he would have to get a job, or more importantly, keep a job, be a husband and a father. He looked up at his own father in the pulpit and wondered if he could ever be a dad like him.
"Yes," he thought. "My life is definitely over. Either because I have to give up everything I wanted to do, or mom and dad are going to kill me."
'And he thought,
There goes my life.
There goes my future, my everything.
Might as well kiss it all good-bye.
There goes my life.......'
Janie stirred on the bench next to him. He looked down at the girl he loved. She looked positively miserable. He realized she hadn't said one thing about marriage or anything like that. He wondered what she was thinking. She was unconsciously rubbing her unswollen stomach. She was just about three months along, he figured out. He put his arm around her shoulder and pulled her close to his side.
He realized his life wasn't the only one changing.
