I put a lot of thought into this chapter, it has some strong language!
The strong language is there because sometimes it is the only way that I feel I can put across Ravens true feelings, so sorry if I offend anyone. *bows*
Thank you for all the kind reviews. Some replys now.
gohon ssj4- Thanks for the ideas. The reason for the characters simply "appearing" is that this fic is aimed at TT fans, so I didnt think it was necessary, if that is what you meant...O_o; At the moment this story is looking on being very long. So in later chapters Im thinking of putting your 'BB darkside' stuff in! Def good advice. Seriously, thanks for taking the time to write an in depth review, and any ideas in the future are welcome! ^^
purplerave - thanks a lot, I will keep going, now I know people like it! And im glad you like it! Much appreciated! ^_^
Patriot1 - thanks as always, read above reply for other stuff, but thanks again. ^^
Leviathan680 - thank you. That line just came to me as I was typing. I like it too, so I left it in! hehe, please keep reading/reviewing. ^^
screamingmonkeydemons - I will! Please keep reading. ^_^
Right, well... R/R! On with the fic!
~*Chibi*~
Disclaimer: I dont own teen titans....(unfortunately! ^^)
**************************************************************************** *********************** Chapter five. - Into the mirror
Raven slammed the door shut, her heart pounding faster than it ever had in a while.
'Oh my GOD!' a voice squealed in her head. 'What the hell just happened?!?!'
'Was B..Beast boy h...h...hitting on me?!' she thought, her thoughts all confused.
The telekenetic began to panic, and her lamp flew round her head, in a black orb, outlined with white.
"Deep breaths,"she told herself."Calm. Calm. You are Raven. You are fine. Do not panic."
She put her hand out, and the lamp landed gently in her sweaty palm.
She put it down gently, then sat down on her bed.
She spoke out loud. "Now think, Raven. Beast boy cannot have been hitting on you. He was just comforting you. Thats what friends do. Isnt it? Oh for fucks sake." she said harshly, smacking her hand down on the bed. What the hell was up with her today?
She went over to her desk of draws and gently opened the left one, taking out her mirror. (A/N : To those who dont know, this mirror is a portal into Ravens mind, showing all her sides. *see the episode 'nevermore', for more information!*)
She stepped inside.
There she saw herself hunched on the floor, in a red cloak outlined with orange.
This was a very new emotion to Raven.
It was 'Worry'. She didnt often see it, because it wasnt often a part of her life.
Right now, it was the biggest.
Rae slowly walked towards Worry, who was chanting to herself, inaudiably, on the floor.
"Hey." Said Raven sitting down beside her emotion.
"Whats wrong with me?"
Worry looked up at her. "You are worried."
Raven rolled her eyes.
"Yes, I got that." she said angrily and impatiently, making Worry shake in fear.
Raven contained herself. Regaining a little patience she turned to Worry.
"What am I worried about?" she asked gently. The emotion sat up and looked at her.
"You do not know?" it said. Raven shook her head, still looking at Worry's tired, sad face.
"You are worried about all the new feelings that are growing inside of you. They break all the boundries of any emotion to which you have succumbed before. One, rises inside you, growing ever more powerful, day by day. You cannot stop it Raven. You know this. And this is why you are worried." It finished, wringing its hands, in a worried fashion.
Ravens eyes widened with every word that Worry spoke. She knew that her emotions could only speak the truth.
She also knew almost certainly what this 'powerful emotion' was, but she had to be sure.
She looked up at Worry. "What emotion do you speak of?" she said boldly.
Worry didnt answer.
She merely pointed to a glowing light in the distance, then resumed her previous hunched position again.
Raven looked up, in the dirrection where Worry had pointed.
She began to walk towards the bright golden light. It drew her, like a moth to a flame.
There, she saw an emotion, she had never seen before.
It was cloaked in the most beautiful gold cape, which let out a hundred different colours with each 'swish' of the fabric.
It shone so brightly, that Raven was momentarily blinded.
As her focus gradually adjusted, she saw the emotion properly.
It was definitely Raven, but with a more healthy and pretty look about her.
This emotion seemed in almost inescapable bliss.
Raven secretly longed to understand this emotion, whatever it was.
She walked over slowly.
"Hello." She said to the cloaked figure. The emotion turned to look at her, and the face lit up.
"Raven." it said simply, and it smiled warmly.
Raven had so many questions she wanted to ask, but there seemed one appropriate.
"Who are you?" gasped Raven, with a queer feeling in her stomach.
'This is it' she thought nervously. 'My destiny. My fate.'
The emotion looked at her sorrowfully. "You know who I am."
"No I dont." insisted Raven, starting to get angry with the emotion now.
"Ah yes." It said, turning fully, whilst the cloak gleamed a million colours again.
"Denial." It said simply.
"W-w-what?!" stammered Raven, taking a step backwards. "Your Denial?"
"You look surprised." the emotion laughed.
"Why?" it asked innocently.
"I...I...thought you were..." Raven swallowed, "...love."
"What made you think that?" said Denial taking a step towards her.
"B..Because..of..." began Raven, begining to doubt her own sanity."..... Beast boy." She finished.
"Do you love him?" asked Denial, turning its head on one side, playfully.
"I..do-on't...I.....don't...know..." said Raven, with a confused look on her face.
"Do you love him?" repeated the emotion, looking curiously at Raven. "You must know. Look into your heart Raven."
Raven closed her eyes.
Flashes of Beast Boy ran through her mind. His stupid jokes, his obsession with tofu, his cute kitty look, his smile, him fighting, his hand on hers.....
A few minutes later, Raven opened her eyes again. "I...I do." she said simply.
Denial floated up into the air.
There was a tremendous explosion, and Raven ducked.
A shadow floated down past Raven onto the floor.
She opened her eyes, blinking in awe. The emotion had changed.
She was wearing a white cloak, but not of the sort which was formed when Raven united her emotions. No, this was different. (A/N: again, see 'Nevermore!!')
This 'Raven' was literally all white.
The white hair flowed silkily around the emotions head, the gem glowed white and the cloak seemed to be forever blown in the wind. It rippled softly.
This was a side of herself Raven had never EVER seen before. And yet...
....there was something about the emotion which Raven liked. A lot.
She spoke to her new side.
"What happened?" she asked, taking in the new feeling.
"Acceptance destroyed denial." said the echoing voice of the white clad figure.
"And created..." continued Raven, curiously.
"Love. Love, which you cannot deny anymore, Raven. You admitted it yourself, so there is no escaping the truth anymore. This is the way you feel." said Love smiling.
And then, taking one more glance at Love, Raven went backwards - she fell out of the mirror, and back into Titan tower.
Sitting up, groggily she shook her head.
Standing up, she put the mirror away, and sat down on her bed.
She had a lot of thinking to do. **************************************************************************** *******************
Okay, so I made up some of the emotions! At least, they havent been done yet!(I dont think..) I would've told you at the top, but that would have ruined the surprise!!! ^_^
R/R please! (This is my fave chapter so far! I was really engrossed in it!)
I hope it is alright..I was thinking of cutting it, but it fits the story together nicely.
Want more? Reveiw me at the bottom left please, and the next chapter will be up sooooon!
Ja! ~*Chibi*~ ^_^
The strong language is there because sometimes it is the only way that I feel I can put across Ravens true feelings, so sorry if I offend anyone. *bows*
Thank you for all the kind reviews. Some replys now.
gohon ssj4- Thanks for the ideas. The reason for the characters simply "appearing" is that this fic is aimed at TT fans, so I didnt think it was necessary, if that is what you meant...O_o; At the moment this story is looking on being very long. So in later chapters Im thinking of putting your 'BB darkside' stuff in! Def good advice. Seriously, thanks for taking the time to write an in depth review, and any ideas in the future are welcome! ^^
purplerave - thanks a lot, I will keep going, now I know people like it! And im glad you like it! Much appreciated! ^_^
Patriot1 - thanks as always, read above reply for other stuff, but thanks again. ^^
Leviathan680 - thank you. That line just came to me as I was typing. I like it too, so I left it in! hehe, please keep reading/reviewing. ^^
screamingmonkeydemons - I will! Please keep reading. ^_^
Right, well... R/R! On with the fic!
~*Chibi*~
Disclaimer: I dont own teen titans....(unfortunately! ^^)
**************************************************************************** *********************** Chapter five. - Into the mirror
Raven slammed the door shut, her heart pounding faster than it ever had in a while.
'Oh my GOD!' a voice squealed in her head. 'What the hell just happened?!?!'
'Was B..Beast boy h...h...hitting on me?!' she thought, her thoughts all confused.
The telekenetic began to panic, and her lamp flew round her head, in a black orb, outlined with white.
"Deep breaths,"she told herself."Calm. Calm. You are Raven. You are fine. Do not panic."
She put her hand out, and the lamp landed gently in her sweaty palm.
She put it down gently, then sat down on her bed.
She spoke out loud. "Now think, Raven. Beast boy cannot have been hitting on you. He was just comforting you. Thats what friends do. Isnt it? Oh for fucks sake." she said harshly, smacking her hand down on the bed. What the hell was up with her today?
She went over to her desk of draws and gently opened the left one, taking out her mirror. (A/N : To those who dont know, this mirror is a portal into Ravens mind, showing all her sides. *see the episode 'nevermore', for more information!*)
She stepped inside.
There she saw herself hunched on the floor, in a red cloak outlined with orange.
This was a very new emotion to Raven.
It was 'Worry'. She didnt often see it, because it wasnt often a part of her life.
Right now, it was the biggest.
Rae slowly walked towards Worry, who was chanting to herself, inaudiably, on the floor.
"Hey." Said Raven sitting down beside her emotion.
"Whats wrong with me?"
Worry looked up at her. "You are worried."
Raven rolled her eyes.
"Yes, I got that." she said angrily and impatiently, making Worry shake in fear.
Raven contained herself. Regaining a little patience she turned to Worry.
"What am I worried about?" she asked gently. The emotion sat up and looked at her.
"You do not know?" it said. Raven shook her head, still looking at Worry's tired, sad face.
"You are worried about all the new feelings that are growing inside of you. They break all the boundries of any emotion to which you have succumbed before. One, rises inside you, growing ever more powerful, day by day. You cannot stop it Raven. You know this. And this is why you are worried." It finished, wringing its hands, in a worried fashion.
Ravens eyes widened with every word that Worry spoke. She knew that her emotions could only speak the truth.
She also knew almost certainly what this 'powerful emotion' was, but she had to be sure.
She looked up at Worry. "What emotion do you speak of?" she said boldly.
Worry didnt answer.
She merely pointed to a glowing light in the distance, then resumed her previous hunched position again.
Raven looked up, in the dirrection where Worry had pointed.
She began to walk towards the bright golden light. It drew her, like a moth to a flame.
There, she saw an emotion, she had never seen before.
It was cloaked in the most beautiful gold cape, which let out a hundred different colours with each 'swish' of the fabric.
It shone so brightly, that Raven was momentarily blinded.
As her focus gradually adjusted, she saw the emotion properly.
It was definitely Raven, but with a more healthy and pretty look about her.
This emotion seemed in almost inescapable bliss.
Raven secretly longed to understand this emotion, whatever it was.
She walked over slowly.
"Hello." She said to the cloaked figure. The emotion turned to look at her, and the face lit up.
"Raven." it said simply, and it smiled warmly.
Raven had so many questions she wanted to ask, but there seemed one appropriate.
"Who are you?" gasped Raven, with a queer feeling in her stomach.
'This is it' she thought nervously. 'My destiny. My fate.'
The emotion looked at her sorrowfully. "You know who I am."
"No I dont." insisted Raven, starting to get angry with the emotion now.
"Ah yes." It said, turning fully, whilst the cloak gleamed a million colours again.
"Denial." It said simply.
"W-w-what?!" stammered Raven, taking a step backwards. "Your Denial?"
"You look surprised." the emotion laughed.
"Why?" it asked innocently.
"I...I...thought you were..." Raven swallowed, "...love."
"What made you think that?" said Denial taking a step towards her.
"B..Because..of..." began Raven, begining to doubt her own sanity."..... Beast boy." She finished.
"Do you love him?" asked Denial, turning its head on one side, playfully.
"I..do-on't...I.....don't...know..." said Raven, with a confused look on her face.
"Do you love him?" repeated the emotion, looking curiously at Raven. "You must know. Look into your heart Raven."
Raven closed her eyes.
Flashes of Beast Boy ran through her mind. His stupid jokes, his obsession with tofu, his cute kitty look, his smile, him fighting, his hand on hers.....
A few minutes later, Raven opened her eyes again. "I...I do." she said simply.
Denial floated up into the air.
There was a tremendous explosion, and Raven ducked.
A shadow floated down past Raven onto the floor.
She opened her eyes, blinking in awe. The emotion had changed.
She was wearing a white cloak, but not of the sort which was formed when Raven united her emotions. No, this was different. (A/N: again, see 'Nevermore!!')
This 'Raven' was literally all white.
The white hair flowed silkily around the emotions head, the gem glowed white and the cloak seemed to be forever blown in the wind. It rippled softly.
This was a side of herself Raven had never EVER seen before. And yet...
....there was something about the emotion which Raven liked. A lot.
She spoke to her new side.
"What happened?" she asked, taking in the new feeling.
"Acceptance destroyed denial." said the echoing voice of the white clad figure.
"And created..." continued Raven, curiously.
"Love. Love, which you cannot deny anymore, Raven. You admitted it yourself, so there is no escaping the truth anymore. This is the way you feel." said Love smiling.
And then, taking one more glance at Love, Raven went backwards - she fell out of the mirror, and back into Titan tower.
Sitting up, groggily she shook her head.
Standing up, she put the mirror away, and sat down on her bed.
She had a lot of thinking to do. **************************************************************************** *******************
Okay, so I made up some of the emotions! At least, they havent been done yet!(I dont think..) I would've told you at the top, but that would have ruined the surprise!!! ^_^
R/R please! (This is my fave chapter so far! I was really engrossed in it!)
I hope it is alright..I was thinking of cutting it, but it fits the story together nicely.
Want more? Reveiw me at the bottom left please, and the next chapter will be up sooooon!
Ja! ~*Chibi*~ ^_^