I'm so sorry if I took so long just to make this. I kept thinking what to
do next and I can't think what to do next! Some kind of a writers block
huh? Oh, you'll really feel the emotion if you read this with Gone by Jim
Chapell
Disclaimer: If I owned Saiyuki, then I would be famous. I'm just borrowing them. For mere fun.
The Wings Of Friendship Chapter 4: Hakkai's Assurance
It was early morning when Hakkai woke. He didn't know why he got up. He didn't even know why he should. It was useless waking up at this time of day. No one would be hungry and no one would badger him with persistent attempts to wake him up to get some food. Maybe it was just out of habit. Maybe he wanted some time alone. Maybe he couldn't stand the fact that their youngest teammate was wasting away before them. So he walked.
Goku was dying. He was dying and he couldn't do anything. He couldn't look Goku in the eye. He was afraid. He felt guilty at not being able to find the clue to the cure. He didn't know what to do. Everywhere he looked, but still none. He wanted some assurance. Assurance that everything will turn out well. The kind of assurance that Sanzo and Gojyo had. The one that made them think and act as if everything will turn out fine in the end. The one they were trying to give him.
He was walking slowly around town. It was as if he was searching for something. It was a pathetic place to look for something. Something like what he was looking for. An answer. Assurance.
Then, without noticing, he found himself near a lake. It was cold due to the mist formed from the lake. It was a very lonely place. It was cold here, and silent. By now he wasn't used to silence. He was used to the usual ramblings of food. The usual arguments. The usual sound of fan to head. The usual noise. The usual air of happiness and laughter. He wanted it all back. He wanted everything to turn back to its usual state. He even wanted to continue their Journey to the West. He didn't care so long as he lived without regrets.
Then he saw him. It was impossible to see him here. Impossible. Just plain impossible.
"What are you doing here?"
"Nothing,"
"-------------,"
"Don't worry,"
"What did you say?"
"I said, 'Don't worry',"
Both of them were still facing the lake. It seemed solemn now. Not lonely anymore. It seemed serene and peaceful.
"You know you should relax a bit. Like them. It'll do you good,"
"You think so?"
"Why not?"
"I still can't find it. And they're not helping. They say that everything will be all right. But how can everything be all right when there's no cure? Tell me,"
"There is a cure. I know it."
"They're depending on me. It's too much burden to carry. I can't do it. I can't find it. I don't know what to do,"
"Stop it! Stop saying things that aren't true!"
"I'm not lying! I'm sorry,"
"Stop joking, I know where to find it,"
"You do?"
"I do,"
"Where?"
"Somewhere out there beneath the pale moonlight,"
"Stop joking and tell me so we can find the cure,"
"That's it. That IS it,"
"Somewhere out there beneath the pale moonlight?"
"Yup! I mean, it's the beginning of the sentence or something. How do I know? I had a dream. A dream of some kind. It was a weird dream. The kind that tells you what's going to happen and yet hides it."
"What does the cure look like?"
"I don't know. But it was a night like this, when I found it. I don't why I thought I found it. But it seemed the one. It was dark though, so couldn't see it,"
"Ne, Goku?"
"What?"
"Will everything be all right?"
"Yes, everything will be all right,"
"I want you back Goku. The way you used to be,"
"Me too, I want myself back too,"
"What are you doing here?"
"It seemed peaceful and ---,"
"Goku," Hakkai held up Goku's chin and whispered, "I'll take you back, I promise,"
And they enveloped themselves in each other's warmth. Goku wasn't burning anymore, in fact, he was cold. It was a perfect opportunity to keep himself warm. The warmness he had lost a long time past was one of the things he missed most. He had been hugging much these past few days and he relished the times he did. They were memories that will last him a lifetime, he swore it. These things only happen a few times and you're even lucky if you noticed them. Goku liked the feeling of being loved and took care of, so whatever people might say, he'll fight to the finish. Even though he knows his illness is incurable, he'll keep on living until, well, he'll just keep on living. He believes in his teammates, he believes that he'll beat the odds; he knows he could do it if they come with him.
And he knows they will. Until the end of Time.
Disclaimer: If I owned Saiyuki, then I would be famous. I'm just borrowing them. For mere fun.
The Wings Of Friendship Chapter 4: Hakkai's Assurance
It was early morning when Hakkai woke. He didn't know why he got up. He didn't even know why he should. It was useless waking up at this time of day. No one would be hungry and no one would badger him with persistent attempts to wake him up to get some food. Maybe it was just out of habit. Maybe he wanted some time alone. Maybe he couldn't stand the fact that their youngest teammate was wasting away before them. So he walked.
Goku was dying. He was dying and he couldn't do anything. He couldn't look Goku in the eye. He was afraid. He felt guilty at not being able to find the clue to the cure. He didn't know what to do. Everywhere he looked, but still none. He wanted some assurance. Assurance that everything will turn out well. The kind of assurance that Sanzo and Gojyo had. The one that made them think and act as if everything will turn out fine in the end. The one they were trying to give him.
He was walking slowly around town. It was as if he was searching for something. It was a pathetic place to look for something. Something like what he was looking for. An answer. Assurance.
Then, without noticing, he found himself near a lake. It was cold due to the mist formed from the lake. It was a very lonely place. It was cold here, and silent. By now he wasn't used to silence. He was used to the usual ramblings of food. The usual arguments. The usual sound of fan to head. The usual noise. The usual air of happiness and laughter. He wanted it all back. He wanted everything to turn back to its usual state. He even wanted to continue their Journey to the West. He didn't care so long as he lived without regrets.
Then he saw him. It was impossible to see him here. Impossible. Just plain impossible.
"What are you doing here?"
"Nothing,"
"-------------,"
"Don't worry,"
"What did you say?"
"I said, 'Don't worry',"
Both of them were still facing the lake. It seemed solemn now. Not lonely anymore. It seemed serene and peaceful.
"You know you should relax a bit. Like them. It'll do you good,"
"You think so?"
"Why not?"
"I still can't find it. And they're not helping. They say that everything will be all right. But how can everything be all right when there's no cure? Tell me,"
"There is a cure. I know it."
"They're depending on me. It's too much burden to carry. I can't do it. I can't find it. I don't know what to do,"
"Stop it! Stop saying things that aren't true!"
"I'm not lying! I'm sorry,"
"Stop joking, I know where to find it,"
"You do?"
"I do,"
"Where?"
"Somewhere out there beneath the pale moonlight,"
"Stop joking and tell me so we can find the cure,"
"That's it. That IS it,"
"Somewhere out there beneath the pale moonlight?"
"Yup! I mean, it's the beginning of the sentence or something. How do I know? I had a dream. A dream of some kind. It was a weird dream. The kind that tells you what's going to happen and yet hides it."
"What does the cure look like?"
"I don't know. But it was a night like this, when I found it. I don't why I thought I found it. But it seemed the one. It was dark though, so couldn't see it,"
"Ne, Goku?"
"What?"
"Will everything be all right?"
"Yes, everything will be all right,"
"I want you back Goku. The way you used to be,"
"Me too, I want myself back too,"
"What are you doing here?"
"It seemed peaceful and ---,"
"Goku," Hakkai held up Goku's chin and whispered, "I'll take you back, I promise,"
And they enveloped themselves in each other's warmth. Goku wasn't burning anymore, in fact, he was cold. It was a perfect opportunity to keep himself warm. The warmness he had lost a long time past was one of the things he missed most. He had been hugging much these past few days and he relished the times he did. They were memories that will last him a lifetime, he swore it. These things only happen a few times and you're even lucky if you noticed them. Goku liked the feeling of being loved and took care of, so whatever people might say, he'll fight to the finish. Even though he knows his illness is incurable, he'll keep on living until, well, he'll just keep on living. He believes in his teammates, he believes that he'll beat the odds; he knows he could do it if they come with him.
And he knows they will. Until the end of Time.