Chapter 5
". . .I gave birth to our twins the same day my husband died. I couldn't be a mother to them without him there, so I left, I knew my dad and stepmother would take good care of them. And on the plane I met you, and you know the rest. . .if you want me to leave I will."
She didn't know what to expect from his reaction, what Luis was going to do or say to her once he found out but now he knew, he knew everything. She looked into his eyes searching for his response, when she didn't get any she stood up from the bed, walking over to the door, she was about to walk out of the room when Luis finally spoke
"Stacy. . .wait. . ." Luis stood up from his position and slowly walked over towards Stacy. He didn't want to lose her, she was his life, and without her there was no living for him. Ever since she came into his life, he actually felt like his life was worth living. Now with their daughter there too, it made him believe that they were really meant to be a family. He stood behind her, not wanting to scare her like he had before; he waited, just looking at her backside.
She should have been happy that he told her to wait, but something felt wrong, she couldn't hear anything except for her heart beating slowly. She gasped for air; this wasn't supposed to be happening. Her doctor said that her heart was fine, why was she feeling like her heart was going to stop beating? Suddenly, what she feared, finally happened, her heart stopped. Her eyes rolled into the back of her head, her body falling to the side, her last thoughts were those of seeing Jason again.
Luis grabbed onto Stacy as she fell to the side, his heart racing a mile a minute, he helped her to the ground, finally laying her head on the ground. Why was this happening to him?
"Stacy?! STACY! Hunny, please wake up, hunny? HELP! Someone, please. . .god someone help me!"
Four hours later Luis still sat in his same position at the hospital. The ambulance had taken Stacy to Miami University Hospital, making him and Brooke follow in their car. Brooke had finally fallen back asleep in her stroller. Luis couldn't stop replaying everything back in his head, he felt like he was to blame for this. It wasn't even a month ago since her last appointment and everything was supposedly okay with her heart. He didn't know what he would do if he lost her, his eyes looked up seeing Stacy's doctor, Dr. Barnes, walking down the hall towards him. Luis stood up, trying to read Dr. Barnes' face seeing nothing; he tried to prepare himself for the worst.
"Mr. Alcazar."
"What's wrong with my wife?"
"Sir, there's no easy way to put this. . .Stacy's heart is beginning to fail."
"So fix it, do a surgery and fix it like you did before. I'll sign the papers. . ."
"It's not that easy Mr. Alcazar."
Why wasn't it that easy? He didn't want to believe the worst, but he knew it was yet to come.
"She's going to be okay though right? She's going to pull threw this, she has to." Tears were beginning to run down his face as he tried to hold back his emotions.
"She needs a new heart Mr. Alcazar, without it there's no chance of survival"
"Okay so find her a new heart. Put her on the donor list, anything, you can't let my wife die."
It pained him to have to tell him this, threw the whole year he had grown close to Stacy and Luis, performing her surgery, being their for her follow ups, now the worst was here, and her chance of survival was less than he hoped.
"I wish it were that simple Luis, her blood type is very rare, the longer she goes without a new heart, the less chance of survival she has. There's somewhere she can go, to get the best treatment. I know you would want her seeing the best."
"Okay, who? Where is this person?"
"Her name is Monica Quartermain, she works at General Hospital in Port Charles, New York. If you'd like I'll fax over Stacy's file to her, if Stacy has any chance of survival it would be with her help."
Port Charles, everything was leading back to Port Charles. Was this going to be the place that would help them, or hurt them?
The crisp cold New York night hit Luis off guard, stepping off the private jet at the Port Charles airstrip. He softly handed Brooke over to their recently hired nanny, Inez as she walked to a waiting limo. Luis stepped back into the jet walking over to the leather couch, where Stacy slept.
When he had told her the news last night about her heart condition she cried, finally saying that she wanted to go back home. If she was to die anyplace she wanted it to be in Port Charles, he couldn't believe she was already giving up. If he had to prove to her that her life was worth living he had to do it here.
Slowly he reached down picking his wife up in his arms, her face already beginning to show it's pale color. How quickly she had changed from being vibrant and alive, to pale and weak. Her soft moan let him know she was starting to wake up. Carrying her out of the plane he gently placed her in the limo facing the window as the limo began to drive off to their hotel suite.
Jason walked over to his bedroom window, his heart felt like it was breaking, like something was wrong. He had gotten the feeling that night, thinking it was one of the twins. When he checked on them both were fine, but the feeling was still there. Everyone he could think of was safe and fine, except for Stacy. It had to be her, his eyes looked down at the docks, watching the wind blow in the trees. He couldn't help but feel that there was a part of him dying, not know what was happening to his wife.
*A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same*
Stacy slowly opened her eyes looking at the familiar buildings as the limo drove by. Passing the Kitty Kat club where she used to work before he really knew Jason, she still couldn't believe she had a past like that. Soon the cemetery passed, her mother, best friend, and husband were all buried there. She closed her eyes, trying to remember the good times in Port Charles and not the bad.
*All the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreamin' of your face
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind*
Jason walked over to Caleb and Isabelle's cribs, checking in on them. Both sleeping soundly and peacefully, it was like to a child nothing else in the world mattered to them but being happy. He wished it could always be like that. He didn't know where Stacy was but he had to find her, he wouldn't lose her, he was away from her for a year, he didn't want to be away any longer than he needed to be. Smiling down at his kids one more time, he grabbed his coat, getting ready to take his late night ride before he went to sleep, that being the only way he could ever sleep without Stacy in his bed.
*I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight, there's only you and me*
Luis had carried Stacy into the suite at the Port Charles' Hotel, a bellman helped carry their luggage, while Inez carried a sleeping Brooke-Lyn in her arms. Two hours had already passed, and Stacy was waking up in her bed, her body gaining a new surge of energy. She carefully made her way from the bed to the door, still wearing the clothes she had on when she arrived. She looked back at a sleeping Luis sitting in a chair on the other side of the bed. Opening up the door she walked down the few stairs going to the closet grabbing her winters coat and scarf. She wrapped the scarf around her neck and put on her winter coat grabbing her keys from the desk walking out of the hotel room.
*The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go.*
Jason stopped at the chapel, the same one him and Stacy were married at. His mind flooding with memories, their vows to each other still in his head, he could still hear Stacy's voice saying her vows to him.
"Looking back on my life, I wonder if things could have been different, there were so many things that changed us, so many things that tested our love, and we've shown that our love can withstand any obstacle life throws at us. . .I never thought I would be up here, in front of our friends and family pledging my life to you. I never thought I'd have a family, of all the things in my life; you are the one that I wouldn't change a single thing. I always wanted that knight in shinning armor to come ridding in on a white horse to save me, but I'm happy with my knight on a Harley. You've saved me more times than I can count; you protect me and everything that I love. We are meant to be, you and me and our family. You are my heart, my soul, my best friend, the love of my life, so from this day on. . .I promise to love you, cherish you, to always believe in you, and to never leave you, so help me god."
She promised to never leave him but she did. He couldn't really hold it against her though he left her for over a year and she still thought he was dead. He got back on his bike, speeding away from the church.
*I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time*
Stacy pulled her coat tightly around her; she shivered in the cold night air. The docks were the only place she felt drawn to; maybe it was because this is where Jason and her met for the first time. She could feel a connection to him here, she was ready to die, just like she had been the first time they met, only this time he wouldn't be there to ride in on his Harley and save her.
*I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl, there's only you and me.*
Jason stopped his bike on the entrance to the docks, ever since he got back and every time he was apart from Stacy he was drawn here. His heart still ached to feel her touch, to kiss her lips again, to even be close to her. He needed to know she was safe so this pain would go away. He slowly turned the corner stopping dead in his tracks looking at the backside of a woman looking almost like Stacy.
*Everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it won't take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it's all said and done.
It gets hard but it won't take away my love*
She could already feel her body growing weak again, she had kidded herself saying it was the flu, as to her body aches and weakness, but it wasn't true. It was her heart giving way, her heart that had already been broken and ripped apart so many times; she tightly wrapped her arms around her body walking away from the docks.
*I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time*
As she turned her body, the side of her face showing, he knew he wasn't hallucinating, it was really her, it was Stacy. He rushed down the stairs trying to catch her; his heart beating a million beats per minute. His voice finally being found called out to her, "STACY!"
*I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl, there's only you and me*
She heard her name from behind her and slowly turned around, there he was, Jason Morgan standing in front of her. His trademark leather jacket started to show the snowflakes that were beginning to fall. First her heart, now her head, she was loosing it, not seeing her dead husband. She turned on her heels and ran as fast as she could away from the docks, and away from Jason. . .again.
A/N: "Here Without You" is by 3 Doors Down. Wanted to leave you guys in suspense again, Read and review, it'll get me to write faster. Ideas are always welcome.
". . .I gave birth to our twins the same day my husband died. I couldn't be a mother to them without him there, so I left, I knew my dad and stepmother would take good care of them. And on the plane I met you, and you know the rest. . .if you want me to leave I will."
She didn't know what to expect from his reaction, what Luis was going to do or say to her once he found out but now he knew, he knew everything. She looked into his eyes searching for his response, when she didn't get any she stood up from the bed, walking over to the door, she was about to walk out of the room when Luis finally spoke
"Stacy. . .wait. . ." Luis stood up from his position and slowly walked over towards Stacy. He didn't want to lose her, she was his life, and without her there was no living for him. Ever since she came into his life, he actually felt like his life was worth living. Now with their daughter there too, it made him believe that they were really meant to be a family. He stood behind her, not wanting to scare her like he had before; he waited, just looking at her backside.
She should have been happy that he told her to wait, but something felt wrong, she couldn't hear anything except for her heart beating slowly. She gasped for air; this wasn't supposed to be happening. Her doctor said that her heart was fine, why was she feeling like her heart was going to stop beating? Suddenly, what she feared, finally happened, her heart stopped. Her eyes rolled into the back of her head, her body falling to the side, her last thoughts were those of seeing Jason again.
Luis grabbed onto Stacy as she fell to the side, his heart racing a mile a minute, he helped her to the ground, finally laying her head on the ground. Why was this happening to him?
"Stacy?! STACY! Hunny, please wake up, hunny? HELP! Someone, please. . .god someone help me!"
Four hours later Luis still sat in his same position at the hospital. The ambulance had taken Stacy to Miami University Hospital, making him and Brooke follow in their car. Brooke had finally fallen back asleep in her stroller. Luis couldn't stop replaying everything back in his head, he felt like he was to blame for this. It wasn't even a month ago since her last appointment and everything was supposedly okay with her heart. He didn't know what he would do if he lost her, his eyes looked up seeing Stacy's doctor, Dr. Barnes, walking down the hall towards him. Luis stood up, trying to read Dr. Barnes' face seeing nothing; he tried to prepare himself for the worst.
"Mr. Alcazar."
"What's wrong with my wife?"
"Sir, there's no easy way to put this. . .Stacy's heart is beginning to fail."
"So fix it, do a surgery and fix it like you did before. I'll sign the papers. . ."
"It's not that easy Mr. Alcazar."
Why wasn't it that easy? He didn't want to believe the worst, but he knew it was yet to come.
"She's going to be okay though right? She's going to pull threw this, she has to." Tears were beginning to run down his face as he tried to hold back his emotions.
"She needs a new heart Mr. Alcazar, without it there's no chance of survival"
"Okay so find her a new heart. Put her on the donor list, anything, you can't let my wife die."
It pained him to have to tell him this, threw the whole year he had grown close to Stacy and Luis, performing her surgery, being their for her follow ups, now the worst was here, and her chance of survival was less than he hoped.
"I wish it were that simple Luis, her blood type is very rare, the longer she goes without a new heart, the less chance of survival she has. There's somewhere she can go, to get the best treatment. I know you would want her seeing the best."
"Okay, who? Where is this person?"
"Her name is Monica Quartermain, she works at General Hospital in Port Charles, New York. If you'd like I'll fax over Stacy's file to her, if Stacy has any chance of survival it would be with her help."
Port Charles, everything was leading back to Port Charles. Was this going to be the place that would help them, or hurt them?
The crisp cold New York night hit Luis off guard, stepping off the private jet at the Port Charles airstrip. He softly handed Brooke over to their recently hired nanny, Inez as she walked to a waiting limo. Luis stepped back into the jet walking over to the leather couch, where Stacy slept.
When he had told her the news last night about her heart condition she cried, finally saying that she wanted to go back home. If she was to die anyplace she wanted it to be in Port Charles, he couldn't believe she was already giving up. If he had to prove to her that her life was worth living he had to do it here.
Slowly he reached down picking his wife up in his arms, her face already beginning to show it's pale color. How quickly she had changed from being vibrant and alive, to pale and weak. Her soft moan let him know she was starting to wake up. Carrying her out of the plane he gently placed her in the limo facing the window as the limo began to drive off to their hotel suite.
Jason walked over to his bedroom window, his heart felt like it was breaking, like something was wrong. He had gotten the feeling that night, thinking it was one of the twins. When he checked on them both were fine, but the feeling was still there. Everyone he could think of was safe and fine, except for Stacy. It had to be her, his eyes looked down at the docks, watching the wind blow in the trees. He couldn't help but feel that there was a part of him dying, not know what was happening to his wife.
*A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same*
Stacy slowly opened her eyes looking at the familiar buildings as the limo drove by. Passing the Kitty Kat club where she used to work before he really knew Jason, she still couldn't believe she had a past like that. Soon the cemetery passed, her mother, best friend, and husband were all buried there. She closed her eyes, trying to remember the good times in Port Charles and not the bad.
*All the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreamin' of your face
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind*
Jason walked over to Caleb and Isabelle's cribs, checking in on them. Both sleeping soundly and peacefully, it was like to a child nothing else in the world mattered to them but being happy. He wished it could always be like that. He didn't know where Stacy was but he had to find her, he wouldn't lose her, he was away from her for a year, he didn't want to be away any longer than he needed to be. Smiling down at his kids one more time, he grabbed his coat, getting ready to take his late night ride before he went to sleep, that being the only way he could ever sleep without Stacy in his bed.
*I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight, there's only you and me*
Luis had carried Stacy into the suite at the Port Charles' Hotel, a bellman helped carry their luggage, while Inez carried a sleeping Brooke-Lyn in her arms. Two hours had already passed, and Stacy was waking up in her bed, her body gaining a new surge of energy. She carefully made her way from the bed to the door, still wearing the clothes she had on when she arrived. She looked back at a sleeping Luis sitting in a chair on the other side of the bed. Opening up the door she walked down the few stairs going to the closet grabbing her winters coat and scarf. She wrapped the scarf around her neck and put on her winter coat grabbing her keys from the desk walking out of the hotel room.
*The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go.*
Jason stopped at the chapel, the same one him and Stacy were married at. His mind flooding with memories, their vows to each other still in his head, he could still hear Stacy's voice saying her vows to him.
"Looking back on my life, I wonder if things could have been different, there were so many things that changed us, so many things that tested our love, and we've shown that our love can withstand any obstacle life throws at us. . .I never thought I would be up here, in front of our friends and family pledging my life to you. I never thought I'd have a family, of all the things in my life; you are the one that I wouldn't change a single thing. I always wanted that knight in shinning armor to come ridding in on a white horse to save me, but I'm happy with my knight on a Harley. You've saved me more times than I can count; you protect me and everything that I love. We are meant to be, you and me and our family. You are my heart, my soul, my best friend, the love of my life, so from this day on. . .I promise to love you, cherish you, to always believe in you, and to never leave you, so help me god."
She promised to never leave him but she did. He couldn't really hold it against her though he left her for over a year and she still thought he was dead. He got back on his bike, speeding away from the church.
*I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time*
Stacy pulled her coat tightly around her; she shivered in the cold night air. The docks were the only place she felt drawn to; maybe it was because this is where Jason and her met for the first time. She could feel a connection to him here, she was ready to die, just like she had been the first time they met, only this time he wouldn't be there to ride in on his Harley and save her.
*I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl, there's only you and me.*
Jason stopped his bike on the entrance to the docks, ever since he got back and every time he was apart from Stacy he was drawn here. His heart still ached to feel her touch, to kiss her lips again, to even be close to her. He needed to know she was safe so this pain would go away. He slowly turned the corner stopping dead in his tracks looking at the backside of a woman looking almost like Stacy.
*Everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it won't take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it's all said and done.
It gets hard but it won't take away my love*
She could already feel her body growing weak again, she had kidded herself saying it was the flu, as to her body aches and weakness, but it wasn't true. It was her heart giving way, her heart that had already been broken and ripped apart so many times; she tightly wrapped her arms around her body walking away from the docks.
*I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time*
As she turned her body, the side of her face showing, he knew he wasn't hallucinating, it was really her, it was Stacy. He rushed down the stairs trying to catch her; his heart beating a million beats per minute. His voice finally being found called out to her, "STACY!"
*I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl, there's only you and me*
She heard her name from behind her and slowly turned around, there he was, Jason Morgan standing in front of her. His trademark leather jacket started to show the snowflakes that were beginning to fall. First her heart, now her head, she was loosing it, not seeing her dead husband. She turned on her heels and ran as fast as she could away from the docks, and away from Jason. . .again.
A/N: "Here Without You" is by 3 Doors Down. Wanted to leave you guys in suspense again, Read and review, it'll get me to write faster. Ideas are always welcome.