A/N: I'm really sorry. I tried as hard as I could to get this done by
Christmas day, but with Xmas shopping, and everything else there was just
no way. And on top of that, I magically chose this week to re-build my
website.So I'll be done in a couple of days. Merry Christmas to you all!
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December 20th, 2015
9:20 a.m.
Dear Diary,
I hate this! I can't tell if Matt is telling the truth! I mean, yeah, there's no reason for him to lie about something like that, but. Gordo? Here? In this airport? That's just too bizarre. And even though there are a lot of people here, this airport is tiny, and it's a miracle I haven't run into him yet.
But then again, I don't know what he looks like. I might have already passed him or said 'hey' without even knowing it! I wonder if he's still as hot as before. his curls and his eyes and his nose.
Okay, I'll shut up.
I don't know. if Matt is telling the truth, then how do I find Little- Mister-Carlson? I can' go around saying "Hey, you haven't by chance seen a guy with dark curls and blue-hazel eyes who's name is David Gordon but he calls himself Gordo and he's always hanging out with this girl named Jessica? Oh, and by the way, merry Christmas!" I mean really.
And man, Daniel and his ex (what *is* her name?)!? I don't get what's wrong in the picture. He's sweet, she's okay. there's nothing to fight about. But they have quite a history. They were seriously yelling at each other in that chatroom. Seems to me that she cheated on him, they broke up, and then he fell in love with someone else that couldn't love him back, but he didn't know that she still liked him (a little), and then they became mad at each other. Boy, this is confusing.
I feel like they don't belong together, though. That something's wrong here. Maybe I shouldn't interfere with those two. They'll figure their problems out eventually. Until then, I have to dump Daniel for two reasons. One, he might get back together with her, and two, I love Gordo.
I love Gordo.
I miss him so much! Why can't he just be here, sitting next to me, kissing me, whispering in my ear. I know he can never be mine, and yet I want him so badly. And I don't even get why. There are two billion men out there (maybe more, maybe less). Rule out the really gross, really wrong, really nasty ones. Rule out the gay ones. Rule out the old and married and taken ones. Rule out all the guys that aren't even *close* to my age. And who do you get?
About 10 million guys.
And out of 10 million, don't you think that I could find someone other than Gordo? I mean, I met two in one day. Daniel and Jack, and I wasn't even looking. If I were looking, I would've found all 10 million of those close- to-perfect guys. And only one of them is Gordo. But truly. he is the only guy for me anyway. He's known me since I was born. He might as well be one of my parents. He takes care of me, he's passionate, considerate, and perfect.
Why did Jessica get him then?
Doesn't God feel any sympathy on me? I've bawled my eyes out, waiting for the one day that Gordo will come back for me. And nothing happens. I meet new people, and blow my chances just because I still love Gordo. But I know for sure that if I don't get him, then I will never be in another relationship.
I wonder if he really is here.
This is really getting to my head. I'm going to get of my laptop for a while, and do two things; eat and look for Gordo.
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December 20th, 2015
9:20 a.m.
Dear Diary,
I hate this! I can't tell if Matt is telling the truth! I mean, yeah, there's no reason for him to lie about something like that, but. Gordo? Here? In this airport? That's just too bizarre. And even though there are a lot of people here, this airport is tiny, and it's a miracle I haven't run into him yet.
But then again, I don't know what he looks like. I might have already passed him or said 'hey' without even knowing it! I wonder if he's still as hot as before. his curls and his eyes and his nose.
Okay, I'll shut up.
I don't know. if Matt is telling the truth, then how do I find Little- Mister-Carlson? I can' go around saying "Hey, you haven't by chance seen a guy with dark curls and blue-hazel eyes who's name is David Gordon but he calls himself Gordo and he's always hanging out with this girl named Jessica? Oh, and by the way, merry Christmas!" I mean really.
And man, Daniel and his ex (what *is* her name?)!? I don't get what's wrong in the picture. He's sweet, she's okay. there's nothing to fight about. But they have quite a history. They were seriously yelling at each other in that chatroom. Seems to me that she cheated on him, they broke up, and then he fell in love with someone else that couldn't love him back, but he didn't know that she still liked him (a little), and then they became mad at each other. Boy, this is confusing.
I feel like they don't belong together, though. That something's wrong here. Maybe I shouldn't interfere with those two. They'll figure their problems out eventually. Until then, I have to dump Daniel for two reasons. One, he might get back together with her, and two, I love Gordo.
I love Gordo.
I miss him so much! Why can't he just be here, sitting next to me, kissing me, whispering in my ear. I know he can never be mine, and yet I want him so badly. And I don't even get why. There are two billion men out there (maybe more, maybe less). Rule out the really gross, really wrong, really nasty ones. Rule out the gay ones. Rule out the old and married and taken ones. Rule out all the guys that aren't even *close* to my age. And who do you get?
About 10 million guys.
And out of 10 million, don't you think that I could find someone other than Gordo? I mean, I met two in one day. Daniel and Jack, and I wasn't even looking. If I were looking, I would've found all 10 million of those close- to-perfect guys. And only one of them is Gordo. But truly. he is the only guy for me anyway. He's known me since I was born. He might as well be one of my parents. He takes care of me, he's passionate, considerate, and perfect.
Why did Jessica get him then?
Doesn't God feel any sympathy on me? I've bawled my eyes out, waiting for the one day that Gordo will come back for me. And nothing happens. I meet new people, and blow my chances just because I still love Gordo. But I know for sure that if I don't get him, then I will never be in another relationship.
I wonder if he really is here.
This is really getting to my head. I'm going to get of my laptop for a while, and do two things; eat and look for Gordo.