Two hearts, one love
Chapter 43: Ocean of tears
Crystal/Akina's POV
"Hey Tala" I greeted him the next day at his house.
"Hey" he responded and stood aside and allowed me to pass through the door.
"Thanks for offering to let me stay" I said as he led me to the room.
"No problem" he replied throwing open the door. "Although, we'll have to share a room I'm afraid"
"It's fine by me" I said winking at him and he laughed in response.
I dropped my bag on the ground and turned to face him.
"So, how are you?" he asked his forehead creasing in concern.
'I'm fine" I answered.
"No you're not" he said as studied my face and frowned.
"I am, really" I insisted as I avoided his glance.
"Crystal" he said sitting down on the bed and motioned for me to sit beside him.
"What?" I said in confusion as I sat down next to him.
"You don't need to lie to me" Tala remarked.
"But I'm not lying" I protested.
"Yes, you are" he said with a sigh. "Look, you're still hurting over Kai"
"Hurting over Hiwatari? Please, the only reason why I told him how I felt was to get him out of my system" I said looking down at the ground, ignoring the growing pain inside of me.
"Crystal, you don't need to lie to me. I've been through the same thing you have before" Tala told me.
"What do you mean?" I asked confused.
"You see, a few years ago, before I became a player, there was this girl, Natasha, I fell in love with and I thought that she was in love with me. To make a long story short, I found out that she herself was a player and that she was also in 'love' with several other guys as well as me. I confronted her and she said that she didn't return my feelings." Tala said quietly. "So do you see now that I know how you must be feeling?"
"Yes" I answered knowing now that there would be no reason to lie to Tala and myself anymore.
"So how do you plan on dealing with this whole Kai situation?" he asked after a moment of silence.
"I don't know" I said with a shrug as tears pricked the back of my eyes. "I don't want to deal with it"
"You'll have to sooner or later. You can't go on like this, it'll destroy you" Tala said somewhat knowingly.
"I know, I know" I said, my words becoming choked in my throat.
"It's okay to cry" he said softly.
"I'm not crying" I said shaking my head in an attempt to clear my vision.
"There you go again, lying to me and yourself once more" Tala lectured as he looped an arm over my shoulder.
"I'm not lying" I whispered as a single tear fell from my eyes and it wasn't too long until others followed, splashing onto the bed.
"It'll be okay" he assured me as I buried my face in his shirt.
"No it won't be. It'll never be okay. Because no matter how much I try, it still hurts. It hurts so much that I just want to die" I sobbed into his chest.
"I know, whoever said that time heals all wounds obviously didn't know what they were talking about" Tala comforted as he rubbed my back gently. "Get it all out; you'll feel better when you do. Only if it is a tiny bit better"
Kai's POV
Where the hell were they? I thought, a scowl settling upon my features. If they didn't arrive soon, they'd be late for homeroom.
Leaning against the lockers, I continuously scanned the crowd, hoping to catch a glimpse of the dark-headed girl. Hell, I'd even settle for seeing Tala. At least he'd know where Akina was.
Suddenly I caught sight of Akina's head bobbing through the crowd as she made her way to her locker.
"Akina" I said as she came to a stop in front of her locker.
"Hiwatari" she merely replied before spinning her combo into her lock.
God, she wouldn't even look at me.
"I still need to talk to you" I said.
"There is nothing to talk about" she said shutting her locker.
"Yes there is" I said steeping in front of her to block her way.
"Hiwatari, please get out of my way, homeroom is going to start any minute" she said as a guarded look crossed her features briefly.
As soon as the words left her mouth, the bell rang signaling that all students were to be in homeroom.
"Now stop wasting time, we're late" she snapped attempting to push past me.
As she passed by, I gently took a hold of her arm and she instinctively stepped backwards until she was backed up against the lockers.
"Don't you think that this is more important than homeroom?" I said noticing that her eyes refused to look up at me.
"Please Hiwatari, I don't want to talk right now" she pleaded softly.
"Too bad. I do." I said irritated about how she always wanted to avoid this.
"Fine Hiwatari, what do you want to talk about then?" she finally huffed crossing her arms.
"First of all, why are you calling me Hiwatari for?" I questioned.
"Why? Weren't you the one prefers to be called be that? Correct me if I'm wrong but you told me to call you Hiwatari the first day we met" she responded.
"So, you called me Kai. Why are you calling me Hiwatari now?" I said exasperated.
"Do you really want to know?" she said softly. "It's because I don't feel comfortable enough around you anymore to call you by your first name"
"Why do you feel so uncomfortable around me now then?" I asked her.
"Are you serious?" she said finally looking at me, disbelief showing in her now pale blue orbs. "Don't tell me you have no idea. Now please leave me alone from now on" she said, a closed off expression appearing on her face as she brushed past me and took off down the hall leaving me behind.
"So, did you end up talking to her?" Mariah asked later that day.
"Yeah, kinda" I answered with a sigh.
"I assume that things are not okay between you yet?" Rei enquired raising an eyebrow.
"What gave you that idea?" I retorted, my voice dripping with sarcasm.
"Gee, you don't have be such a prick" Rei said with a frown.
"Shit" I swore as I rooted through my locker.
"What's that matter?" Mariah asked.
"I left my books in the music room" I said.
"Well go get them then" Rei responded rolling his eyes.
"Oh gee Rei, I would've never thought of that if you hadn't told me" I said scowling.
"Dickhead!" Rei called out after me as I walked up the stairs to the music suite.
I wandered down the music suite and stopped when I caught sight of a figure in the music room.
Akina sat at the piano, her fingers gliding across the keys, a far away look on her face.
She began to sing softly, so softly that I had to strain my ears to hear it. But when I was able to make out her words my heart sank.
Woke up today thinking of you
Another night that I made my way through
So many dreams still left in my mind
But they can never come true
I press rewind and remember when
I close my eyes and I'm with you again
But in the end I can still feel the pain every time I hear your name
The sun won't shine since you went away
Seems like the rain's falling every day
There's just one heart, where there once was two
But that's the way it's gotta be,
'til I get over you.
Walked through the park, in the evening air
I heard a voice and I thought you were there
I run away but I just can't escape
Memories of you everywhere
They say that time will dry the tears
But true love burns for a thousand years
Give my tomorrows for one yesterday
Just to know that I could have you here
When will this river of tears stop fallin'
Where can I run so I won't feel alone
Can't walk away when the pain keeps callin'
I've just gotta take it from here on my own
But it's so hard to let go
The sun won't shine since you went away
Seems like the rain's falling every day
There's just one heart, where there once was two
But that's the way it's gotta be,
'til I get over you.
She lifted her hands from the keys and then she seemed to crumple before my very eyes.
I frowned, what was she doing? Then I realized that her shoulders were shaking and as I looked closer I saw several tears slide down her face.
Oh shit, she was crying.
Something stirred inside of me as I watched as sob after sob raked through her petite figure.
I paused as I wondered what to do. Should I go in there and comfort her? Or should I just leave her alone?
Glancing over at her, I saw her lift her head up slightly and I made a decision then.
I disappeared around the corner but not before taking one last glance at Akina's tear streaked face and pale blue orbs which reflected her sadness.
Crystal/Akina's POV
I know that crying is pointless. I know that crying never helps. I know that crying shows weakness.
But yet here I was crying my heart out for Kai.
I want to stop, but the tears continued to flow down my face, regardless of what I wanted.
The numbness inside of me spread until I could feel nothing but emptiness in my heart.
On instinct I whipped my head around and could've sworn that I had caught a glimpse of blue but when I blinked, it wasn't there. Oh god, I hoped that nobody had seen me. I knew I was pathetic, crying my heart out for a guy, but I didn't know how much longer I could hold the tears in. The only person who had ever heard me sing was Kai, first when he walked in on me just messing around with the First Love song for no reason whatsoever and the second time when I composed his birthday piece. My music was personal and I'd just die if somebody stumbled in on me when I was practicing. Music was now my only solitude, my escape, my release from reality.
Just thinking of Kai made my heart hurt, and actually seeing him, well that was hundred times worse. But even when I wasn't in his presence, I couldn't escape. Every time I closed my eyes, I could see his face with that arrogant yet handsome smirk tugging at his lips, his intriguing auburn eyes burning into my soul.
I should move on, I wanted to move on, but I couldn't. Even when I had gone clubbing and danced with who knows how many guys, it had meant nothing. Absolutely nothing. Why? Because Kai was the only person I wanted. Why was it that the person you want the most is always the one person you can't have? How ironic. The only reason why I had agreed to go clubbing was because I had thought it would distract me for a while. But nope, no luck, thoughts of Kai still haunted me no matter what I did. The sadness plagued me and seemed to grow as the days went past.
Closing my eyes, I willed the tears to stop. This was pathetic. This wasn't me. I wasn't this blubbering blob who cried over a guy. Especially not Kai. But yet...the hollowness refused to go away.
Kai's POV
"Took you long enough" Mariah grumbled when I returned to my locker to find her and Rei still standing there. "What took you so long?"
"Huh?" I said only realizing then that Mariah had said something.
"Where are your books, weren't they there?" Rei asked with a frown.
"Oh, well" I replied trying to come up with something to tell them.
"Did something happen?" Mariah instantly asked worried.
"Well kinda" I trailed off.
"What do you mean? Tell us!" Mariah demanded.
"Whoa, calm down Mariah" Rei told her. "What happened Kai?"
"Well, I saw Crystal.....she was crying" I finally said.
"She was crying?" Rei asked in disbelief.
"Yeah. Over me I think" I said realizing how conceited that sounded.
"Well of course she'd be crying over you. After all you did break her heart" Mariah scoffed.
"Mariah" Rei exclaimed.
"What?" she responded confused. "Anyway, what else did you expect her to do? Dance around in joy?"
"She's dying inside" a voice spoke up and we spun around to see Tala leaning against a locker.
"She seems fine" I replied. Like he needed to get any closer to Crystal.
"Kai, you know as well as I do she is not fine. Her intellectualization defense mechanism has been activated, thus when anything concerning you is bought up, she immediately closes up to protect herself. She can be an extremely convincing actress. But it's her eyes which give her away." Tala said matter-of-factly. "Can't you see the sadness in her eyes? She can't even bear look you in the eye any longer. She may seem fine to you but it's all an act. She lost her pride when you rejected her so now it's all a show"
"How would you know?" I questioned him.
"She's put her guard up in case you haven't noticed" Tala continued with a roll of his turquoise eyes. "Besides, you broke the poor girl's heart"
"Could you please stop reminding me?" I snapped in irritation. "It's not like I asked her to fall in love with me. It's not like I go around asking girls to fall for me"
"Kai, in case you haven't noticed already, this isn't just some school girl crush Crystal has. Her feelings for you are really deep and serious" Tala snorted. "Anyway, it's not like she wanted to fall in love with you. You don't exactly get to choose who you fall in love with. If she could though, it definitely wouldn't be you"
"Just what are you trying to say Tala?" I said scowling.
"You know what? Forget it; you obviously aren't going to do anything where it concerns Crystal. You don't deserve her love Kai" Tala said and turned on his heel and strode away, disappearing into the stairwell leading up to the music suite.
Akina/Crystal's POV
My head snapped up when I heard the door open and my eyes flickered past it and came to a rest at Tala's face.
Thank god, if it had been Kai.....I didn't even know whether I could face him any longer.....
"Crystal?" Tala said quietly and came to sit down next to me.
"Yeah, what?" I said embarrassed that this was the second time that I was crying in front of Tala.
"I'd offer you a tissue or something but since I'm a guy I don't have any" Tala said after a pause.
"It's okay" I replied with a shrug.
"No it's not. What kind of friend am I if I can't even offer you a tissue?" Tala joked.
There was a lapse in the conversation as my thoughts drifted once again to the one occupying my mind.
His auburn eyes seemed to appear before me and I shut my eyes tightly to block the image.
"You know Crystal, he doesn't deserve you" Tala stated after we had sat in silence for a while.
"Who?" I said dumbly.
"Didn't I already tell you not to play dumb with me?" Tala said with a shake of his head. "You know very well who 'he' is"
"So what if I do? Right now, I don't want to-" I broke off and stared out the window. "Can we please go back to your house now?"
"Sure" Tala said with a nod and picking up my hand gently, he led me out of the music room.
"I'll meet you at the parking in a minute okay?" I told Tala when we stopped by my locker.
"Okay" he said before stepping close to me and enveloping me in a warm hug. "Just remember" he whispered in my ear. "I'm always here for you okay?" with that he stepped back, brushed a few strands of hair from my forehead and planted a kiss on it before turning the corner.
Kai's POV
Running my hands through my hair roughly I had decided to make a brief stop at my locker before leaving but I had stopped in my tracks at the sight before me.
I watched in disgust as Tala gave Akina a tight hug before pressing his lips against her forehead.
Did I just miss something?
What the hell was Tala doing kissing Akina of all people?
I clenched my fist and walked up to Akina after Tala left.
"I didn't know you were still here" I stated flatly when I came to stand next to her.
Akina's answer was merely a shrug before she turned to pull out a folder from her locker.
Scowling I turned to tug at my lock.
She could at least look at me properly.
Who cares anyway? I thought and pulled my lock free and began digging through it and shoving whatever I found into my bag without looking to see if I even needed them or not.
When I turned around I found that Akina was already gone.
Frowning I made my way to the parking lot just in time to see her get into Tala's car.
Oh right, she was now staying with him I remembered sarcastically and my features visibly darkened without me realizing it.
Staring at my ceiling later that night, guilt suddenly invaded my mind without any warning. It burned me up inside like acid, slowly eating away at me.
I remember how Akina's eyes were now a pale frosty blue, not even a speck of vivid emerald was left. Weird, I had seen her eyes change color before, like when they darkened to swirls of aqua and turquoise whenever she became angry, glittered with laughter and mischief when she was amused and had once softened to a sky blue with the tiniest hint of vivid emerald. But I had never seen them turn this shade before. So logically, the pale blue must symbolize her sadness and sorrow. So Tala was right.
Guilt continued to grow in the pit of my stomach and I scowled.
Why the hell was I feeling guilty anyway? I've never felt guilty for anything I did. Hundreds of girls had confessed their so-called love for me but I had brushed them off without a second thought.
So maybe it's because I'm regretting my actions. But why would I be regretting my actions?
I frowned as I processed that thought.
Wait a moment.
It couldn't be because......
No, impossible my mind seemed to scream.
But it had already hit me.
I love Akina
There you go, I really liked this chapter, I hope you liked it too. Hopefully it was long enough for you but personally I think it's just a bit rushed. Anyway this fic will be ending soon since I don't want to drag it out any further, I think that most people will be glad about that. Also people have asked whether there'll be a sequel. Well you'll be pleased to know that there will be a sequel, I've actually already began to work on it although I'm just doing a draft of it first then I'll probably go back and refine it a little. The song which Akina sang was Christina Milian's 'Til I get over you, it's a really really pretty song. Please remember to review okay? The end draws nearer.......
Chapter 43: Ocean of tears
Crystal/Akina's POV
"Hey Tala" I greeted him the next day at his house.
"Hey" he responded and stood aside and allowed me to pass through the door.
"Thanks for offering to let me stay" I said as he led me to the room.
"No problem" he replied throwing open the door. "Although, we'll have to share a room I'm afraid"
"It's fine by me" I said winking at him and he laughed in response.
I dropped my bag on the ground and turned to face him.
"So, how are you?" he asked his forehead creasing in concern.
'I'm fine" I answered.
"No you're not" he said as studied my face and frowned.
"I am, really" I insisted as I avoided his glance.
"Crystal" he said sitting down on the bed and motioned for me to sit beside him.
"What?" I said in confusion as I sat down next to him.
"You don't need to lie to me" Tala remarked.
"But I'm not lying" I protested.
"Yes, you are" he said with a sigh. "Look, you're still hurting over Kai"
"Hurting over Hiwatari? Please, the only reason why I told him how I felt was to get him out of my system" I said looking down at the ground, ignoring the growing pain inside of me.
"Crystal, you don't need to lie to me. I've been through the same thing you have before" Tala told me.
"What do you mean?" I asked confused.
"You see, a few years ago, before I became a player, there was this girl, Natasha, I fell in love with and I thought that she was in love with me. To make a long story short, I found out that she herself was a player and that she was also in 'love' with several other guys as well as me. I confronted her and she said that she didn't return my feelings." Tala said quietly. "So do you see now that I know how you must be feeling?"
"Yes" I answered knowing now that there would be no reason to lie to Tala and myself anymore.
"So how do you plan on dealing with this whole Kai situation?" he asked after a moment of silence.
"I don't know" I said with a shrug as tears pricked the back of my eyes. "I don't want to deal with it"
"You'll have to sooner or later. You can't go on like this, it'll destroy you" Tala said somewhat knowingly.
"I know, I know" I said, my words becoming choked in my throat.
"It's okay to cry" he said softly.
"I'm not crying" I said shaking my head in an attempt to clear my vision.
"There you go again, lying to me and yourself once more" Tala lectured as he looped an arm over my shoulder.
"I'm not lying" I whispered as a single tear fell from my eyes and it wasn't too long until others followed, splashing onto the bed.
"It'll be okay" he assured me as I buried my face in his shirt.
"No it won't be. It'll never be okay. Because no matter how much I try, it still hurts. It hurts so much that I just want to die" I sobbed into his chest.
"I know, whoever said that time heals all wounds obviously didn't know what they were talking about" Tala comforted as he rubbed my back gently. "Get it all out; you'll feel better when you do. Only if it is a tiny bit better"
Kai's POV
Where the hell were they? I thought, a scowl settling upon my features. If they didn't arrive soon, they'd be late for homeroom.
Leaning against the lockers, I continuously scanned the crowd, hoping to catch a glimpse of the dark-headed girl. Hell, I'd even settle for seeing Tala. At least he'd know where Akina was.
Suddenly I caught sight of Akina's head bobbing through the crowd as she made her way to her locker.
"Akina" I said as she came to a stop in front of her locker.
"Hiwatari" she merely replied before spinning her combo into her lock.
God, she wouldn't even look at me.
"I still need to talk to you" I said.
"There is nothing to talk about" she said shutting her locker.
"Yes there is" I said steeping in front of her to block her way.
"Hiwatari, please get out of my way, homeroom is going to start any minute" she said as a guarded look crossed her features briefly.
As soon as the words left her mouth, the bell rang signaling that all students were to be in homeroom.
"Now stop wasting time, we're late" she snapped attempting to push past me.
As she passed by, I gently took a hold of her arm and she instinctively stepped backwards until she was backed up against the lockers.
"Don't you think that this is more important than homeroom?" I said noticing that her eyes refused to look up at me.
"Please Hiwatari, I don't want to talk right now" she pleaded softly.
"Too bad. I do." I said irritated about how she always wanted to avoid this.
"Fine Hiwatari, what do you want to talk about then?" she finally huffed crossing her arms.
"First of all, why are you calling me Hiwatari for?" I questioned.
"Why? Weren't you the one prefers to be called be that? Correct me if I'm wrong but you told me to call you Hiwatari the first day we met" she responded.
"So, you called me Kai. Why are you calling me Hiwatari now?" I said exasperated.
"Do you really want to know?" she said softly. "It's because I don't feel comfortable enough around you anymore to call you by your first name"
"Why do you feel so uncomfortable around me now then?" I asked her.
"Are you serious?" she said finally looking at me, disbelief showing in her now pale blue orbs. "Don't tell me you have no idea. Now please leave me alone from now on" she said, a closed off expression appearing on her face as she brushed past me and took off down the hall leaving me behind.
"So, did you end up talking to her?" Mariah asked later that day.
"Yeah, kinda" I answered with a sigh.
"I assume that things are not okay between you yet?" Rei enquired raising an eyebrow.
"What gave you that idea?" I retorted, my voice dripping with sarcasm.
"Gee, you don't have be such a prick" Rei said with a frown.
"Shit" I swore as I rooted through my locker.
"What's that matter?" Mariah asked.
"I left my books in the music room" I said.
"Well go get them then" Rei responded rolling his eyes.
"Oh gee Rei, I would've never thought of that if you hadn't told me" I said scowling.
"Dickhead!" Rei called out after me as I walked up the stairs to the music suite.
I wandered down the music suite and stopped when I caught sight of a figure in the music room.
Akina sat at the piano, her fingers gliding across the keys, a far away look on her face.
She began to sing softly, so softly that I had to strain my ears to hear it. But when I was able to make out her words my heart sank.
Woke up today thinking of you
Another night that I made my way through
So many dreams still left in my mind
But they can never come true
I press rewind and remember when
I close my eyes and I'm with you again
But in the end I can still feel the pain every time I hear your name
The sun won't shine since you went away
Seems like the rain's falling every day
There's just one heart, where there once was two
But that's the way it's gotta be,
'til I get over you.
Walked through the park, in the evening air
I heard a voice and I thought you were there
I run away but I just can't escape
Memories of you everywhere
They say that time will dry the tears
But true love burns for a thousand years
Give my tomorrows for one yesterday
Just to know that I could have you here
When will this river of tears stop fallin'
Where can I run so I won't feel alone
Can't walk away when the pain keeps callin'
I've just gotta take it from here on my own
But it's so hard to let go
The sun won't shine since you went away
Seems like the rain's falling every day
There's just one heart, where there once was two
But that's the way it's gotta be,
'til I get over you.
She lifted her hands from the keys and then she seemed to crumple before my very eyes.
I frowned, what was she doing? Then I realized that her shoulders were shaking and as I looked closer I saw several tears slide down her face.
Oh shit, she was crying.
Something stirred inside of me as I watched as sob after sob raked through her petite figure.
I paused as I wondered what to do. Should I go in there and comfort her? Or should I just leave her alone?
Glancing over at her, I saw her lift her head up slightly and I made a decision then.
I disappeared around the corner but not before taking one last glance at Akina's tear streaked face and pale blue orbs which reflected her sadness.
Crystal/Akina's POV
I know that crying is pointless. I know that crying never helps. I know that crying shows weakness.
But yet here I was crying my heart out for Kai.
I want to stop, but the tears continued to flow down my face, regardless of what I wanted.
The numbness inside of me spread until I could feel nothing but emptiness in my heart.
On instinct I whipped my head around and could've sworn that I had caught a glimpse of blue but when I blinked, it wasn't there. Oh god, I hoped that nobody had seen me. I knew I was pathetic, crying my heart out for a guy, but I didn't know how much longer I could hold the tears in. The only person who had ever heard me sing was Kai, first when he walked in on me just messing around with the First Love song for no reason whatsoever and the second time when I composed his birthday piece. My music was personal and I'd just die if somebody stumbled in on me when I was practicing. Music was now my only solitude, my escape, my release from reality.
Just thinking of Kai made my heart hurt, and actually seeing him, well that was hundred times worse. But even when I wasn't in his presence, I couldn't escape. Every time I closed my eyes, I could see his face with that arrogant yet handsome smirk tugging at his lips, his intriguing auburn eyes burning into my soul.
I should move on, I wanted to move on, but I couldn't. Even when I had gone clubbing and danced with who knows how many guys, it had meant nothing. Absolutely nothing. Why? Because Kai was the only person I wanted. Why was it that the person you want the most is always the one person you can't have? How ironic. The only reason why I had agreed to go clubbing was because I had thought it would distract me for a while. But nope, no luck, thoughts of Kai still haunted me no matter what I did. The sadness plagued me and seemed to grow as the days went past.
Closing my eyes, I willed the tears to stop. This was pathetic. This wasn't me. I wasn't this blubbering blob who cried over a guy. Especially not Kai. But yet...the hollowness refused to go away.
Kai's POV
"Took you long enough" Mariah grumbled when I returned to my locker to find her and Rei still standing there. "What took you so long?"
"Huh?" I said only realizing then that Mariah had said something.
"Where are your books, weren't they there?" Rei asked with a frown.
"Oh, well" I replied trying to come up with something to tell them.
"Did something happen?" Mariah instantly asked worried.
"Well kinda" I trailed off.
"What do you mean? Tell us!" Mariah demanded.
"Whoa, calm down Mariah" Rei told her. "What happened Kai?"
"Well, I saw Crystal.....she was crying" I finally said.
"She was crying?" Rei asked in disbelief.
"Yeah. Over me I think" I said realizing how conceited that sounded.
"Well of course she'd be crying over you. After all you did break her heart" Mariah scoffed.
"Mariah" Rei exclaimed.
"What?" she responded confused. "Anyway, what else did you expect her to do? Dance around in joy?"
"She's dying inside" a voice spoke up and we spun around to see Tala leaning against a locker.
"She seems fine" I replied. Like he needed to get any closer to Crystal.
"Kai, you know as well as I do she is not fine. Her intellectualization defense mechanism has been activated, thus when anything concerning you is bought up, she immediately closes up to protect herself. She can be an extremely convincing actress. But it's her eyes which give her away." Tala said matter-of-factly. "Can't you see the sadness in her eyes? She can't even bear look you in the eye any longer. She may seem fine to you but it's all an act. She lost her pride when you rejected her so now it's all a show"
"How would you know?" I questioned him.
"She's put her guard up in case you haven't noticed" Tala continued with a roll of his turquoise eyes. "Besides, you broke the poor girl's heart"
"Could you please stop reminding me?" I snapped in irritation. "It's not like I asked her to fall in love with me. It's not like I go around asking girls to fall for me"
"Kai, in case you haven't noticed already, this isn't just some school girl crush Crystal has. Her feelings for you are really deep and serious" Tala snorted. "Anyway, it's not like she wanted to fall in love with you. You don't exactly get to choose who you fall in love with. If she could though, it definitely wouldn't be you"
"Just what are you trying to say Tala?" I said scowling.
"You know what? Forget it; you obviously aren't going to do anything where it concerns Crystal. You don't deserve her love Kai" Tala said and turned on his heel and strode away, disappearing into the stairwell leading up to the music suite.
Akina/Crystal's POV
My head snapped up when I heard the door open and my eyes flickered past it and came to a rest at Tala's face.
Thank god, if it had been Kai.....I didn't even know whether I could face him any longer.....
"Crystal?" Tala said quietly and came to sit down next to me.
"Yeah, what?" I said embarrassed that this was the second time that I was crying in front of Tala.
"I'd offer you a tissue or something but since I'm a guy I don't have any" Tala said after a pause.
"It's okay" I replied with a shrug.
"No it's not. What kind of friend am I if I can't even offer you a tissue?" Tala joked.
There was a lapse in the conversation as my thoughts drifted once again to the one occupying my mind.
His auburn eyes seemed to appear before me and I shut my eyes tightly to block the image.
"You know Crystal, he doesn't deserve you" Tala stated after we had sat in silence for a while.
"Who?" I said dumbly.
"Didn't I already tell you not to play dumb with me?" Tala said with a shake of his head. "You know very well who 'he' is"
"So what if I do? Right now, I don't want to-" I broke off and stared out the window. "Can we please go back to your house now?"
"Sure" Tala said with a nod and picking up my hand gently, he led me out of the music room.
"I'll meet you at the parking in a minute okay?" I told Tala when we stopped by my locker.
"Okay" he said before stepping close to me and enveloping me in a warm hug. "Just remember" he whispered in my ear. "I'm always here for you okay?" with that he stepped back, brushed a few strands of hair from my forehead and planted a kiss on it before turning the corner.
Kai's POV
Running my hands through my hair roughly I had decided to make a brief stop at my locker before leaving but I had stopped in my tracks at the sight before me.
I watched in disgust as Tala gave Akina a tight hug before pressing his lips against her forehead.
Did I just miss something?
What the hell was Tala doing kissing Akina of all people?
I clenched my fist and walked up to Akina after Tala left.
"I didn't know you were still here" I stated flatly when I came to stand next to her.
Akina's answer was merely a shrug before she turned to pull out a folder from her locker.
Scowling I turned to tug at my lock.
She could at least look at me properly.
Who cares anyway? I thought and pulled my lock free and began digging through it and shoving whatever I found into my bag without looking to see if I even needed them or not.
When I turned around I found that Akina was already gone.
Frowning I made my way to the parking lot just in time to see her get into Tala's car.
Oh right, she was now staying with him I remembered sarcastically and my features visibly darkened without me realizing it.
Staring at my ceiling later that night, guilt suddenly invaded my mind without any warning. It burned me up inside like acid, slowly eating away at me.
I remember how Akina's eyes were now a pale frosty blue, not even a speck of vivid emerald was left. Weird, I had seen her eyes change color before, like when they darkened to swirls of aqua and turquoise whenever she became angry, glittered with laughter and mischief when she was amused and had once softened to a sky blue with the tiniest hint of vivid emerald. But I had never seen them turn this shade before. So logically, the pale blue must symbolize her sadness and sorrow. So Tala was right.
Guilt continued to grow in the pit of my stomach and I scowled.
Why the hell was I feeling guilty anyway? I've never felt guilty for anything I did. Hundreds of girls had confessed their so-called love for me but I had brushed them off without a second thought.
So maybe it's because I'm regretting my actions. But why would I be regretting my actions?
I frowned as I processed that thought.
Wait a moment.
It couldn't be because......
No, impossible my mind seemed to scream.
But it had already hit me.
I love Akina
There you go, I really liked this chapter, I hope you liked it too. Hopefully it was long enough for you but personally I think it's just a bit rushed. Anyway this fic will be ending soon since I don't want to drag it out any further, I think that most people will be glad about that. Also people have asked whether there'll be a sequel. Well you'll be pleased to know that there will be a sequel, I've actually already began to work on it although I'm just doing a draft of it first then I'll probably go back and refine it a little. The song which Akina sang was Christina Milian's 'Til I get over you, it's a really really pretty song. Please remember to review okay? The end draws nearer.......