"Miaka why'd you stay?"

She turned to me cheerfully, "Oh don't worrry about it Tasuki. I just wanted to keep you company that's all" She smiled again and it softened up my heart.

I almost whispered her name, "Miaka…"

"Tasuki you need to gain back your strength just relax"

I smiled at her and began to relax. I was so glad she decided to stay in with me.

"You know Tasuki I never got to thank you for helping me out. It really is my fault that your like this." She said quietly.

I laughed, "What this? Ah this is nothing don't worry about it. I'm still as strong as before." I tried to get up to prove it to her but she threw herself at my waist bawling in tears.

"No Tasuki don't! You'll hurt yourself again. I can't stand to see you hurt! It's too much!"

She was hysterically sobbing against me, I was in such a state of shock from it.

"Miaka?" I grabbed her and pulled her in as tight as my body could handle.

"Don't cry Miaka! You idiot, don't you see that you crying is just tearing me apart. Seeing you upset has always pained me. Don't be sad, oh please just don't be sad anymore Miaka! I'm here for you, I've always loved you!" I broke down in frfont of her, spilling my emotions, telling her how I felt.

I think that she couldn't handle my sudden rush of feelings for her. The shock of my honesty and my feelings for her made her stop crying. She sort pf tried to pull back but I only held her tighter begging her to stay and not to leave me. I thought she felt the same way for me until she pulled away from me and looked me dead in the eyes showing me the hurt, pain, and confusion in hers. I tried to say something but my words had fleeted me. She got up and left the room in a hurry.

"Miaka!" I reached out for her but it was too late she had already turned the corner. It was like she was leaving my life all over again.

"How much does she want me to sacrifice for her to finally believe that I truly love her!"

I got so enraged with envy over Tamahome and angry how even though he wasn't here he still interferred with me ever getting to Miaka.

I growled in a low voice, "I'll kill you…Tamahome"

*~*Later that day*~*

Chichiri came into my room later that day to give me some lunch.

"How ya feelin Tasuki?"

I looked up at him and stared into his eyes briefly then back off into space.

"That good huh?" he placed the tray of food down onto the table.

"Is something wrong? You look upset ya know?"

I didn't say anything, I just remained silent. So he came over and sat down on the edge of my bed and let out a heavy sigh. He looked up at me, then back down at the floor folding his hands in his lap.

"It's Miaka isn't it?"

All I did was close my eyes and he already knew the answer because silence is an answer too.

He nodded, "I see." He didn't really know what to do, but to tell you the truth neither did I. I felt bad though, I mean here was Chichiri a real great guy. And all he was doing was just trying to help me out and I was treating him real bad.

"Look I'm sorry Chiri, I'm just not in the mood and…"

He nodded again then picked up his head and looked at me.

"I understand ya know?"

"Thanks Chiri this means a lot to me."

He smiled "I know, get some rest ya know?" he got up and was about to leave.

"No!" I screamed. He turned around and looked at me .

"I've been real lonely Chiri, I mean real lonely! Please stay, for Suzaku's sake, please stay Chiri." I was practically crying to him. He came back over and sat back down.

"Ok Tasuki, I'll stay ya know?" He sat there until I fell asleep.

I woke up much later and I found Chichiri asleep and sprawled out across the end of my bed, poor guy stayed here with me even after I fell asleep. I owed him a lot for this. He began to stir, then woke up all hazed.

"Oh I see your awake now Tasuki," he yawned "sorry for falling asleep ya know? But I was real tired. This whole Tamahome thing is tiring ya know?"

I nodded as I listened to him.

"Well, it should be better as soon as Tama remembers who he is ya know?"

"No it won't" I muttered.

He gave me an awkward look and raised an eyebrow.

"What do you mean Tasuki?"

"Nothing Chiri" I rolled over and tried to avoid talking to him about my feelings.

"You still like Miaka. Don't you Tasuki?

I didn't turn over, I was hurt and in pain and didn't really feel much like talking.

"I don't wanna talk about it Chiri. Please don't make me."

I could hear him sigh, "Alright Tasuki we won't talk about it. It'll be better if you do ya know? It's not good to keep it all inside ya know? It'll just lead to something bad ya know?"

I pulled the covers over my head.

"Not now Chiri, maybe tomorrow. Just please, leave me alone."

He got up off the bed and picked up his staff and hat.

"I'll talk to you tomorrow Tasuki, rest now."

And with that he left.