Songs used in story (in order of use) {I don't own any of them either}
When I'm Gone by 3 Doors Down.
Figure.09 by Linkin Park
He deserved some answers and she was going to give them to him, no matter how long they fought. Alex had stayed near by and heard his footsteps coming towards her.
"Bobby! Wait!" Alex called, hoping to slow him down.
"What!" Bobby snapped back at her, anger fueling his actions.
"Fighting with her isn't going to solve anything." she replied, shocked at his behavior since she'd never seen him this angry before.
"Well she should've thought about that earlier!" he replied, storming past Alex.
Luckily the rest of the guys were too busy staring at the TV to notice Bobby's anger when he went past them, which was a good thing since they didn't know what was going on.
As he headed upstairs, he glared at Jimmy who had his back to him before heading up to the roof, figuring that's where Kim was. Alex waited a bit and headed up to the bunks after she was sure Bobby wasn't up there.
"Good move Jimmy," Alex replied, noticing him sitting on the edge of his bunk.
"What now?" he asked nonchalantly.
"Thanks to earlier, Bobby's on the warpath now." she replied as he turned around.
"How bad?" Jimmy asked.
"He's already snapped my head off, so I'd imagine any minute all hell is gonna break loose out on the roof. I've never seen him angry before but if this is any indication, I don't want to see it again." Alex replied.
"He thinks she started the whole thing doesn't he?" Jimmy asked, hanging his head.
"Yeah he does. But don't try and talk to him at the moment. Let him cool down, because if he would turn on you I doubt you could adequately defend yourself at the moment." Alex replied.
"Come on Alex, I'm not that bad off." Jimmy retorted.
"Then how come you can barely stand?" Alex questioned.
Jimmy sighed heavily, knowing Alex was right and feeling bad for Kim, knowing it was his fault for setting Bobby off.
When Bobby stepped out onto the roof, he saw her standing there, hair down looking out at the skyline, trembling.
"What the hell were you doing down there earlier?" he ground out.
"Bobby, what you saw wasn't what it looked like," Kim replied, her voice shaking slightly.
"Right. So seeing my wife kissing her ex-husband is nothing now?" Bobby snapped; "I thought you were over him. Or has more than that been going on!"
"You think I've been sleeping with him?! When would I have the time to Bobby! When I'm not at work, I'm home with you!" She replied angrily, feeling her blood starting to boil at his words, turning around to face him.
"So you would consider it then!" he replied almost yelling at her.
"I didn't say that! Why would I want to Bobby? He's none of my concern anymore!" Kim spat back.
"None of your concern? You sure could have fooled me earlier!" He shot back at her.
"You expect me to let the father of my son fry because of a life threatening fever? Don't even go there! I didn't see you or Alex volunteering to make sure everything was ok. There was no way he could have supported himself in there!" Kim half yelled.
"Are you sure nothing else happened in there? Talk about convenient timing." Bobby asked suggestively.
"Come off it Bobby! Even if we did have a thing going, do you think I'd be stupid enough to pull it off with you near the door?" Kim asked, putting extra emphasis on the word 'if'.
Alex stood at the door to the roof, wincing each time she heard them exchange angry words. She headed back downstairs, when Jimmy looked towards her and said, "How bad is it up there?"
"Let's just say I'd hate to be on the receiving end of that argument." She replied, taking a seat across from him, shaking her head slightly.
"What is it?" Jimmy asked, seeing her reaction as she sat down.
Alex sighed and looked up at him debating on whether she should repeat any of what she'd heard through the door. Deciding against it she replied, "Just wondering how long their argument is going to last."
"Well its 10:15 pm so there is still time before the shift is over." Jimmy replied.
Jimmy looked at Alex and knew there was something she wasn't telling him.
"Alex, I know your not telling me something. What's going on?" he asked.
"You know as well as I do that when you're angry things will be said that shouldn't be right?" she began to say.
"What are you getting at?" Jimmy replied.
"He thinks you've been sleeping with her." She replied almost inaudibly.
::Back on the roof::
"How do I know you two aren't doing things around the station? There has been plenty of downtime lately" He shot back.
Kim couldn't believe the words she'd just heard leave Bobby's mouth. "Why the hell would I want to sleep with him! Just because he's the father of my son doesn't mean I'm going to sleep with him!"
"But it gives you every reason to want to again, doesn't It." he retorted, watching her reaction to his statement.
"Damn it Bobby! Why don't you just go ahead and say that I've slept with the whole station and get it over with!" Kim half yelled at him.
"Would it be accurate to say that?" he spat back at her.
His words sliced through her, fighting back tears as her anger continued to rise.
"You actually think I'd sleep with them don't you!" She fired back, hurt clearly showing in her voice.
"Well, if you can shack up with your ex behind my back, why not!" he growled, glaring at her.
The force of his words hit her hard. The man she loved turning on her, for something she didn't even instigate.
"If only I could have moved," she cried to herself as tears fell down her face, taking in his hurtful words.
"I hope you're satisfied Bobby! Shooting me down for something I didn't even start, and justifying yourself by making false accusations of me sleeping around!" Kim fired at him as tears cascaded down her face, feeling her legs go weak from fury that had built up in her.
"I know what I saw Kim! Nothing is ever going to change that! The fact that what he have together couldn't keep you from doing this behind back!" He yelled angrily, storming off towards the door.
He slammed the door to the roof causing Alex to jump and Jimmy to cringe.
"Don't say a word to him Jimmy." Alex whispered before Bobby went past them.
It was almost time for the shift to be over so he headed straight for the bus to straighten it up so he could split as soon as it was time to go.
As soon as the coast was clear, Alex said, "I'm going to go check on Kim. You stay put and leave Bobby alone to cool off."
Jimmy nodded his head in response and watched Alex leave.
As she slowly climbed the stairs towards the roof, wondering what all had happened between the two.
Her body shook violently as she just stood there. Unable to believe what all had just been said. Her legs finally buckled and she sank to the roof, sobbing as his words echoed in her head.
Alex opened the door to the roof and looked at Kim, just as she collapsed to the roof in tears. She dashed over towards her, trying to calm her down.
"Ssssh, this will all blow over soon. Just calm down." Alex said, trying to comfort her distraught friend; "The shift's about over so once everyone leaves I'll take you home."
Normally Alex didn't have a problem with Bobby, but right now she wanted to give him a little once over herself for not getting the facts straight before jumping all over Kim.
Alex looked at her watch, checking to see how much longer it would be before they left. When it was 11:30 PM she said to Kim, "I'm going to go see if everyone's gone. Will you be ok alone?"
Kim nodded her head weakly in response and Alex got up and headed to see if anyone was still around from their shift. As she went to the bunks she saw Jimmy was gone and went downstairs and saw the crew that had come on after them getting things ready for their shift. Alex hurried back up to where Kim was and said, "Come on, everyone's gone. Let's get changed and I'll take you home."
Alex helped Kim up and the two walked in silence to the bunks. Alex looked at Kim and said softly, "I'll meet you downstairs. When you're ready come on down."
Kim nodded her head weakly and finished changing. Putting her stuff in her locker, she touched the pictures she kept of Joey and Keira, since she wouldn't be seeing them that night, but didn't even look at the picture of Bobby. She quickly got her things together and headed down to where Alex was waiting.
No other calls had come in that evening. She was glad because things would have been extremely tense especially after the fight she'd just had with Bobby. When their shift was over Bobby was the first to leave, Kim and Alex were the last, and D.K had taken Jimmy home since he was in no condition to drive.
Bobby had driven down by the river to the spot that he and Matty used to come to when they were kids when their parents weren't getting along. He paced along the riverbank talking aloud to himself in Spanish; feeling the anger dissipate and his mind became full of questions and doubts.
"¡El dios que pensé ella estaba sobre él! Ella tuvo cada oportunidad de volver con él antes nosotros nos juntamos. ¿Por qué ahora? ¿Qué hice para girar yola lejos?" {God I thought she was over him! She had every opportunity to get back with him before we got together. Why now? What did I do to turn her away?}
He drew in a shaky breath and continued ranting to himself.
"¿Cómo jamás la puedo confiar yo otra vez? Especialmente desde que todos trabajamos juntos. Qué hace decimos los niños. ¿Por qué hizo ella esto? ¿De todo el tiempo por qué ahora? Comienzo a preguntarse si obtendré jamás la imagen de su besarlo fuera de mi cabeza." {How can I ever trust her again? Especially since we all work together. What will we tell the kids? Why did she do this? Of all the times why now? I'm beginning to wonder if I'll ever get the image of her kissing him out of my head.}
Alex had dropped Kim off at her apartment and watched her disappear inside the building before heading home. She put her keys in the dish sitting on a table near the door and redid the locks. Heading into the bedroom she turned on the radio, trying to find something to listen to that would take her mind off everything. His hurtful words still echoed in her ears, the hurt and anger evident in his voice. She finally stopped on her favorite radio station and paced back and forth across the floor thinking as the next song came on.
{There's another world inside of me that you may never see.
There's secrets in this life that I can't hide.
Somewhere in this darkness there's a life that I can't find.
Maybe it's too far away or maybe I'm just blind, maybe I'm just blind.
So hold me when I'm here right me when I'm wrong.
Hold me when I'm scared and love me when I'm gone.
Everything I am and everything in me
Wants to be the one you wanted me to be.
I'll never let you down even if I could.
I'd give up everything if only for your good.
So hold me when I'm here right me when I'm wrong.
You can hold me when I'm scared but you won't always be there,
So love me when I'm gone, love me when I'm gone
When your education x-ray cannot see under my skin.
I won't tell you a damn thing that I could not tell my friends.
Now roaming through this darkness I'm alive but I'm alone.
Part of me is fighting this but part of me is gone.
So hold me when I'm here right me when I'm wrong.
Hold me when I'm scared and love me when I'm gone. }
Not even two minutes into the song, she couldn't hold back tears any longer and collapsed on the bed, sobbing into the pillow. She looked up at the nightstand, looking at one of the pictures that had been taking of her and Bobby shortly after they'd been married, one happiest days of her life. His words still hurt her, haunting her as she cried. The fury she felt towards him was slowly going away as the words to the song played through her head. She was determined to make him see the truth as to what happened. That it wasn't her that started it. She couldn't imagine what her life would be like if he weren't in it.
Bobby eventually left the riverbank and drove around the city, trying to sort out his feelings. He never expected anything like this to happen and it still stunned him. He flipped on the radio looking for something to take his mind off his feelings when the next song began.
{Nothing ever stops all these thoughts and the pain attached to them
Sometimes I wonder why this is happening
It's like nothing I can do would distract me when
I think of how I shot myself in the back again
Cuz from the infinite words I can say I
Put all pain you gave to me on display
But didn't realize instead of setting it free I
Took what I hated and made it a part of me
(Never goes away)
(Never goes away)
[Chorus]
(And now)
(You've become a part of me)
(You'll always be right here)
(You've become a part of me)
(You'll always be my fear)
(I can't separate)
(Myself from what I've done)
(Giving up a part of me)
(I've let myself become you)
Hearing your name the memories come back again
I remember when it started happening
I see you in every thought I had and then
The thoughts slowly found words attached to them
And I knew as they escaped away
I was committing myself to them and everyday
I regret saying those things cuz now I see that I
Took what I hated and made it a part of me
(Never goes away)
(Never goes away)
[Chorus]
(And now)
(You've become a part of me)
(You'll always be right here)
(You've become a part of me)
(You'll always be my fear)
(I can't separate)
(Myself from what I've done)
(Giving up a part of me)
(I've let myself become you)
(Never goes away)
(Never goes away)
(Never goes away)
(Never goes away)
(Get away from me)
Give me my space back you gotta just
(Go)
Everything comes down the memories of
(You)
I kept it in but now I'm letting you
(Know)
I let you go so get away from
(Me)
Give me my space back you gotta just
(Go)
Everything comes down the memories of
(You)
I kept it but now I'm letting you
(Know)
I let you go
(And then)
(You've become a part of me)
(You'll always be right here)
(You've become a part of me)
(You'll always be my fear)
(I can't separate)
(Myself from what I've done)
(Giving up a part of me)
(I've let myself become you)}
Tears stung the corners of his eyes as he listened to the words, taking them in. Driving down some deserted city streets, an occasional tear of betrayal slipping down his face. He thought about the angry words he and Kim had exchanged at work. He knew that his words had probably hurt her, but the last thing she had fired back at him kept running through his head. 'I hope you're satisfied Bobby! Shooting me down for something I didn't even start, and justifying yourself by making false accusations of me sleeping around!'. Seeing the tears cascading down her face as she made one last stand at defending herself haunting him to the core. Silently he said to himself, thinking back to the words of the song that had just gone off the radio.
"¿Por qué fue ella y me lastimó como esto? Yo nunca podría hacer nada como esto a ella. La vida era perfecta antes esta noche, pero ahora todo choca hacia abajo alrededor de mí. ¿Será jamás el mismo?" {Why did she have to go and hurt me like this? I could never do anything like this to her. Life was perfect before tonight, but now everything is crashing down around me. Will it ever be the same?}
Spanish Translation: {sorry I went kinda overboard w/ the spanish}
¡El dios que pensé ella estaba sobre él! Ella tuvo cada oportunidad de volver con él antes nosotros nos juntamos. ¿Por qué ahora? ¿Qué hice para girar yola lejos?
God I thought she was over him! She had every opportunity to get back with him before we got together. Why now? What did I do to turn her away?
¿Cómo jamás la puedo confiar yo otra vez? Especialmente desde que todos trabajamos juntos. Qué hace decimos los niños. ¿Por qué hizo ella esto? ¿De todo el tiempo por qué ahora? Comienzo a preguntarse si obtendré jamás la imagen de su besarlo fuera de mi cabeza.
How can I ever trust her again? Especially since we all work together. What will we tell the kids? Why did she do this? Of all the times why now? I'm beginning to wonder if I'll ever get the image of her kissing him out of my head.
¿Por qué fue ella y me lastimó como esto? Yo nunca podría hacer nada como esto a ella. La vida era perfecta antes esta noche, pero ahora todo choca hacia abajo alrededor de mí. ¿Será jamás el mismo?
Why did she have to go and hurt me like this? I could never do anything like this to her. Life was perfect before tonight, but now everything is crashing down around me. Will it ever be the same?
When I'm Gone by 3 Doors Down.
Figure.09 by Linkin Park
He deserved some answers and she was going to give them to him, no matter how long they fought. Alex had stayed near by and heard his footsteps coming towards her.
"Bobby! Wait!" Alex called, hoping to slow him down.
"What!" Bobby snapped back at her, anger fueling his actions.
"Fighting with her isn't going to solve anything." she replied, shocked at his behavior since she'd never seen him this angry before.
"Well she should've thought about that earlier!" he replied, storming past Alex.
Luckily the rest of the guys were too busy staring at the TV to notice Bobby's anger when he went past them, which was a good thing since they didn't know what was going on.
As he headed upstairs, he glared at Jimmy who had his back to him before heading up to the roof, figuring that's where Kim was. Alex waited a bit and headed up to the bunks after she was sure Bobby wasn't up there.
"Good move Jimmy," Alex replied, noticing him sitting on the edge of his bunk.
"What now?" he asked nonchalantly.
"Thanks to earlier, Bobby's on the warpath now." she replied as he turned around.
"How bad?" Jimmy asked.
"He's already snapped my head off, so I'd imagine any minute all hell is gonna break loose out on the roof. I've never seen him angry before but if this is any indication, I don't want to see it again." Alex replied.
"He thinks she started the whole thing doesn't he?" Jimmy asked, hanging his head.
"Yeah he does. But don't try and talk to him at the moment. Let him cool down, because if he would turn on you I doubt you could adequately defend yourself at the moment." Alex replied.
"Come on Alex, I'm not that bad off." Jimmy retorted.
"Then how come you can barely stand?" Alex questioned.
Jimmy sighed heavily, knowing Alex was right and feeling bad for Kim, knowing it was his fault for setting Bobby off.
When Bobby stepped out onto the roof, he saw her standing there, hair down looking out at the skyline, trembling.
"What the hell were you doing down there earlier?" he ground out.
"Bobby, what you saw wasn't what it looked like," Kim replied, her voice shaking slightly.
"Right. So seeing my wife kissing her ex-husband is nothing now?" Bobby snapped; "I thought you were over him. Or has more than that been going on!"
"You think I've been sleeping with him?! When would I have the time to Bobby! When I'm not at work, I'm home with you!" She replied angrily, feeling her blood starting to boil at his words, turning around to face him.
"So you would consider it then!" he replied almost yelling at her.
"I didn't say that! Why would I want to Bobby? He's none of my concern anymore!" Kim spat back.
"None of your concern? You sure could have fooled me earlier!" He shot back at her.
"You expect me to let the father of my son fry because of a life threatening fever? Don't even go there! I didn't see you or Alex volunteering to make sure everything was ok. There was no way he could have supported himself in there!" Kim half yelled.
"Are you sure nothing else happened in there? Talk about convenient timing." Bobby asked suggestively.
"Come off it Bobby! Even if we did have a thing going, do you think I'd be stupid enough to pull it off with you near the door?" Kim asked, putting extra emphasis on the word 'if'.
Alex stood at the door to the roof, wincing each time she heard them exchange angry words. She headed back downstairs, when Jimmy looked towards her and said, "How bad is it up there?"
"Let's just say I'd hate to be on the receiving end of that argument." She replied, taking a seat across from him, shaking her head slightly.
"What is it?" Jimmy asked, seeing her reaction as she sat down.
Alex sighed and looked up at him debating on whether she should repeat any of what she'd heard through the door. Deciding against it she replied, "Just wondering how long their argument is going to last."
"Well its 10:15 pm so there is still time before the shift is over." Jimmy replied.
Jimmy looked at Alex and knew there was something she wasn't telling him.
"Alex, I know your not telling me something. What's going on?" he asked.
"You know as well as I do that when you're angry things will be said that shouldn't be right?" she began to say.
"What are you getting at?" Jimmy replied.
"He thinks you've been sleeping with her." She replied almost inaudibly.
::Back on the roof::
"How do I know you two aren't doing things around the station? There has been plenty of downtime lately" He shot back.
Kim couldn't believe the words she'd just heard leave Bobby's mouth. "Why the hell would I want to sleep with him! Just because he's the father of my son doesn't mean I'm going to sleep with him!"
"But it gives you every reason to want to again, doesn't It." he retorted, watching her reaction to his statement.
"Damn it Bobby! Why don't you just go ahead and say that I've slept with the whole station and get it over with!" Kim half yelled at him.
"Would it be accurate to say that?" he spat back at her.
His words sliced through her, fighting back tears as her anger continued to rise.
"You actually think I'd sleep with them don't you!" She fired back, hurt clearly showing in her voice.
"Well, if you can shack up with your ex behind my back, why not!" he growled, glaring at her.
The force of his words hit her hard. The man she loved turning on her, for something she didn't even instigate.
"If only I could have moved," she cried to herself as tears fell down her face, taking in his hurtful words.
"I hope you're satisfied Bobby! Shooting me down for something I didn't even start, and justifying yourself by making false accusations of me sleeping around!" Kim fired at him as tears cascaded down her face, feeling her legs go weak from fury that had built up in her.
"I know what I saw Kim! Nothing is ever going to change that! The fact that what he have together couldn't keep you from doing this behind back!" He yelled angrily, storming off towards the door.
He slammed the door to the roof causing Alex to jump and Jimmy to cringe.
"Don't say a word to him Jimmy." Alex whispered before Bobby went past them.
It was almost time for the shift to be over so he headed straight for the bus to straighten it up so he could split as soon as it was time to go.
As soon as the coast was clear, Alex said, "I'm going to go check on Kim. You stay put and leave Bobby alone to cool off."
Jimmy nodded his head in response and watched Alex leave.
As she slowly climbed the stairs towards the roof, wondering what all had happened between the two.
Her body shook violently as she just stood there. Unable to believe what all had just been said. Her legs finally buckled and she sank to the roof, sobbing as his words echoed in her head.
Alex opened the door to the roof and looked at Kim, just as she collapsed to the roof in tears. She dashed over towards her, trying to calm her down.
"Ssssh, this will all blow over soon. Just calm down." Alex said, trying to comfort her distraught friend; "The shift's about over so once everyone leaves I'll take you home."
Normally Alex didn't have a problem with Bobby, but right now she wanted to give him a little once over herself for not getting the facts straight before jumping all over Kim.
Alex looked at her watch, checking to see how much longer it would be before they left. When it was 11:30 PM she said to Kim, "I'm going to go see if everyone's gone. Will you be ok alone?"
Kim nodded her head weakly in response and Alex got up and headed to see if anyone was still around from their shift. As she went to the bunks she saw Jimmy was gone and went downstairs and saw the crew that had come on after them getting things ready for their shift. Alex hurried back up to where Kim was and said, "Come on, everyone's gone. Let's get changed and I'll take you home."
Alex helped Kim up and the two walked in silence to the bunks. Alex looked at Kim and said softly, "I'll meet you downstairs. When you're ready come on down."
Kim nodded her head weakly and finished changing. Putting her stuff in her locker, she touched the pictures she kept of Joey and Keira, since she wouldn't be seeing them that night, but didn't even look at the picture of Bobby. She quickly got her things together and headed down to where Alex was waiting.
No other calls had come in that evening. She was glad because things would have been extremely tense especially after the fight she'd just had with Bobby. When their shift was over Bobby was the first to leave, Kim and Alex were the last, and D.K had taken Jimmy home since he was in no condition to drive.
Bobby had driven down by the river to the spot that he and Matty used to come to when they were kids when their parents weren't getting along. He paced along the riverbank talking aloud to himself in Spanish; feeling the anger dissipate and his mind became full of questions and doubts.
"¡El dios que pensé ella estaba sobre él! Ella tuvo cada oportunidad de volver con él antes nosotros nos juntamos. ¿Por qué ahora? ¿Qué hice para girar yola lejos?" {God I thought she was over him! She had every opportunity to get back with him before we got together. Why now? What did I do to turn her away?}
He drew in a shaky breath and continued ranting to himself.
"¿Cómo jamás la puedo confiar yo otra vez? Especialmente desde que todos trabajamos juntos. Qué hace decimos los niños. ¿Por qué hizo ella esto? ¿De todo el tiempo por qué ahora? Comienzo a preguntarse si obtendré jamás la imagen de su besarlo fuera de mi cabeza." {How can I ever trust her again? Especially since we all work together. What will we tell the kids? Why did she do this? Of all the times why now? I'm beginning to wonder if I'll ever get the image of her kissing him out of my head.}
Alex had dropped Kim off at her apartment and watched her disappear inside the building before heading home. She put her keys in the dish sitting on a table near the door and redid the locks. Heading into the bedroom she turned on the radio, trying to find something to listen to that would take her mind off everything. His hurtful words still echoed in her ears, the hurt and anger evident in his voice. She finally stopped on her favorite radio station and paced back and forth across the floor thinking as the next song came on.
{There's another world inside of me that you may never see.
There's secrets in this life that I can't hide.
Somewhere in this darkness there's a life that I can't find.
Maybe it's too far away or maybe I'm just blind, maybe I'm just blind.
So hold me when I'm here right me when I'm wrong.
Hold me when I'm scared and love me when I'm gone.
Everything I am and everything in me
Wants to be the one you wanted me to be.
I'll never let you down even if I could.
I'd give up everything if only for your good.
So hold me when I'm here right me when I'm wrong.
You can hold me when I'm scared but you won't always be there,
So love me when I'm gone, love me when I'm gone
When your education x-ray cannot see under my skin.
I won't tell you a damn thing that I could not tell my friends.
Now roaming through this darkness I'm alive but I'm alone.
Part of me is fighting this but part of me is gone.
So hold me when I'm here right me when I'm wrong.
Hold me when I'm scared and love me when I'm gone. }
Not even two minutes into the song, she couldn't hold back tears any longer and collapsed on the bed, sobbing into the pillow. She looked up at the nightstand, looking at one of the pictures that had been taking of her and Bobby shortly after they'd been married, one happiest days of her life. His words still hurt her, haunting her as she cried. The fury she felt towards him was slowly going away as the words to the song played through her head. She was determined to make him see the truth as to what happened. That it wasn't her that started it. She couldn't imagine what her life would be like if he weren't in it.
Bobby eventually left the riverbank and drove around the city, trying to sort out his feelings. He never expected anything like this to happen and it still stunned him. He flipped on the radio looking for something to take his mind off his feelings when the next song began.
{Nothing ever stops all these thoughts and the pain attached to them
Sometimes I wonder why this is happening
It's like nothing I can do would distract me when
I think of how I shot myself in the back again
Cuz from the infinite words I can say I
Put all pain you gave to me on display
But didn't realize instead of setting it free I
Took what I hated and made it a part of me
(Never goes away)
(Never goes away)
[Chorus]
(And now)
(You've become a part of me)
(You'll always be right here)
(You've become a part of me)
(You'll always be my fear)
(I can't separate)
(Myself from what I've done)
(Giving up a part of me)
(I've let myself become you)
Hearing your name the memories come back again
I remember when it started happening
I see you in every thought I had and then
The thoughts slowly found words attached to them
And I knew as they escaped away
I was committing myself to them and everyday
I regret saying those things cuz now I see that I
Took what I hated and made it a part of me
(Never goes away)
(Never goes away)
[Chorus]
(And now)
(You've become a part of me)
(You'll always be right here)
(You've become a part of me)
(You'll always be my fear)
(I can't separate)
(Myself from what I've done)
(Giving up a part of me)
(I've let myself become you)
(Never goes away)
(Never goes away)
(Never goes away)
(Never goes away)
(Get away from me)
Give me my space back you gotta just
(Go)
Everything comes down the memories of
(You)
I kept it in but now I'm letting you
(Know)
I let you go so get away from
(Me)
Give me my space back you gotta just
(Go)
Everything comes down the memories of
(You)
I kept it but now I'm letting you
(Know)
I let you go
(And then)
(You've become a part of me)
(You'll always be right here)
(You've become a part of me)
(You'll always be my fear)
(I can't separate)
(Myself from what I've done)
(Giving up a part of me)
(I've let myself become you)}
Tears stung the corners of his eyes as he listened to the words, taking them in. Driving down some deserted city streets, an occasional tear of betrayal slipping down his face. He thought about the angry words he and Kim had exchanged at work. He knew that his words had probably hurt her, but the last thing she had fired back at him kept running through his head. 'I hope you're satisfied Bobby! Shooting me down for something I didn't even start, and justifying yourself by making false accusations of me sleeping around!'. Seeing the tears cascading down her face as she made one last stand at defending herself haunting him to the core. Silently he said to himself, thinking back to the words of the song that had just gone off the radio.
"¿Por qué fue ella y me lastimó como esto? Yo nunca podría hacer nada como esto a ella. La vida era perfecta antes esta noche, pero ahora todo choca hacia abajo alrededor de mí. ¿Será jamás el mismo?" {Why did she have to go and hurt me like this? I could never do anything like this to her. Life was perfect before tonight, but now everything is crashing down around me. Will it ever be the same?}
Spanish Translation: {sorry I went kinda overboard w/ the spanish}
¡El dios que pensé ella estaba sobre él! Ella tuvo cada oportunidad de volver con él antes nosotros nos juntamos. ¿Por qué ahora? ¿Qué hice para girar yola lejos?
God I thought she was over him! She had every opportunity to get back with him before we got together. Why now? What did I do to turn her away?
¿Cómo jamás la puedo confiar yo otra vez? Especialmente desde que todos trabajamos juntos. Qué hace decimos los niños. ¿Por qué hizo ella esto? ¿De todo el tiempo por qué ahora? Comienzo a preguntarse si obtendré jamás la imagen de su besarlo fuera de mi cabeza.
How can I ever trust her again? Especially since we all work together. What will we tell the kids? Why did she do this? Of all the times why now? I'm beginning to wonder if I'll ever get the image of her kissing him out of my head.
¿Por qué fue ella y me lastimó como esto? Yo nunca podría hacer nada como esto a ella. La vida era perfecta antes esta noche, pero ahora todo choca hacia abajo alrededor de mí. ¿Será jamás el mismo?
Why did she have to go and hurt me like this? I could never do anything like this to her. Life was perfect before tonight, but now everything is crashing down around me. Will it ever be the same?