When Keira went in for a nap, she and Joey began straightening up the
apartment since they were having company that evening. Surprisingly enough
the apartment wasn't all that dirty, which was a shock especially with
having a 9 yr old and a 4-month-old in the house. She'd planned on fixing
Hamburger and Macaroni Casserole for dinner for her and Joey and would put
the rest in the fridge for Bobby so he could eat when he got in. While she
cooked dinner, Joey played video games in the living room and caught whiff
of the fragrant aromas coming from the kitchen as the casserole baked and
paused the game and came into the kitchen to see what his mom was making.
"Are you fixing dinner?" Joey asked as he came in.
"Yep, smell good?" she replied.
"Yeah! What is it?" Joey said in return.
"Hamburger and Macaroni Casserole." She replied, seeing the look of excitement cross his face.
"How much longer till its done?" Joey asked excitedly.
"You're hopeless," Kim said laughing as she threw away the empty boxes and packages she'd used to fix dinner; "Not for about 30-45 minutes."
Joey laughed and turned the light in the oven on and looked at what was cooking when his mother asked, "Look good so far?"
"Yes!" Joey replied eagerly.
"Let's go check on your sister while dinner cooks," Kim suggested to her son.
"Ok," Joey said in return, following his mother towards the nursery.
Keira woke up from her nap and began to babble at the mobile hanging on her crib. It was around 8 so it was about time for her next feeding. Kim heated up a bottle for her and checked the temperature before she headed into the nursery. She put a towel over her shoulder and placed the bottle on the coffee table in the living room and headed to go get her daughter. She found her laughing at one of the toys in the crib since she'd rolled onto her right side. Keira began to reach for the stuffed toy but overshot the distance to it. Kim smiled as she entered the room and heard Keira squeal with excitement and picked her up.
"You're just full of energy this evening, aren't you." Kim said smiling, as Keira babbled and cooed in response.
Joey heard his sister cooing as his mother brought her into the living room and asked, "She still hyper?"
"Yep, she is." Kim replied taking a seat on the couch and cradling her daughter in one arm and reaching for the bottle with the other.
As Keira contently drank from the bottle, Joey went back to playing the game he was playing. Joey loved having a younger sibling and began to wonder about the possibility of his mother having another baby. He decided not to ask about what he was wondering, since after all Keira was rather young and he couldn't imagine what it would be like having two young babies in the apartment. After she'd finished the bottle, Kim put her down in the playpen for a bit to go check on dinner and make sure everything was doing ok. While Kim was checking on dinner the phone began to ring and she grabbed the cordless that was sitting on the counter and found Bobby on the other end.
"How's everything going this evening?" he asked as Alex drove.
"Pretty good, just checking on dinner which is in the oven." She replied, cracking the door to the oven to peer inside.
"What's on the menu for tonight?" he asked.
"Hamburger and Macaroni Casserole," she replied.
"Trying something new this evening?" Bobby asked curiously.
"Yep, thought I'd cook something different for a change." She said grinning to herself.
"How are the kids doing?" he asked.
"Joey's playing video games as usual and Keira is as hyper as ever." She replied.
"What did you do to her?" Bobby teased.
"Nothing darling." Kim replied almost ready to laugh; "Joey and I plan on wearing her out so hopefully she'll settle down later."
"Let's hope so." He replied smirking.
"You'd better behave or no casserole for you." she retorted.
"You wouldn't do that to your poor toiling husband would you?" he teased.
Kim began to laugh at his statement and replied, "Nah, I couldn't do it even if I tried."
"That's a relief to hear," he said smirking, seeing Alex about ready to bust out laughing.
"I'll see you when I get off this evening and bring our guest over after the shift." He replied.
"Ok, take care and I'll see you around 11:30." She said in return.
"Yo lo amo novio." Bobby said, before hanging up. {I love you sweetheart.}
"Yo lo amo también. Véalo cuando usted obtiene hogar." Kim replied as she hung up the phone. {I love you too. See you when you get home.}
Since dinner was still cooking in the oven she and Joey began the arduous task of tiring out Keira so she'd sleep that evening. Fifteen minutes later dinner was finished and she and Joey took a break and put Keira in the playpen while they ate and let her play in there.
"What did you think of dinner?" Kim asked her son once he'd finished eating.
"I loved it! Definitely worth fixing again." He said with a smile on his face.
"I'll add the recipe to the list of fix again dishes for you all," she replied grinning, storing the recipe in a box with the others she kept; "Come on and let's wear your sister out shall we?"
The two of them walked back into the living room and Kim picked up Keira and took a seat on the couch, having Keira sitting on her stomach with her back propped up against her legs. After about an hour and a half of work they finally succeeded in tiring Keira out. It even wore Joey out, which was a good thing and both of them were sound asleep by 10:30. Around 11:10 the phone rang and when Kim answered it found Bobby on the other end.
"On your way home?" she asked.
"Yep. The kids get to bed ok?" he said in response.
"Yeah, they've been out since 10:30." She replied.
"Wow, what did you do to them?" he asked laughing.
"Joey wore himself out trying to tire out Keira so she'd get to sleep without much fuss." Kim replied.
"That's a good way to tire anyone out, trying to wear down a hyper four month old. I'm surprised you aren't in bed after that." Bobby said chuckling.
"I actually feel pretty good. Although for a while I never thought we'd get Keira to the point to where she'd go to sleep." She replied grinning.
"I should be home in about ten minutes or so, Alex and I just finished inventory and I'm waiting on Kevin." Bobby said, as he waited outside the firehouse next to his car.
"Ok, I'll be here. Dinner's in the fridge so after we talk with Kevin you can fix a plate and tell me if its worth cooking again." Kim replied.
"Sounds good. See you in a few." He said in response.
"Ok, be careful on your way home." She replied as she hung up the phone.
She took some of Keira's toys back to the nursery and put them up after she'd gotten off the phone with Bobby. Then went ahead and got started on the dinner dishes since there weren't that many of them and got everything squared away and waited for Bobby and Kevin to arrive.
Five minutes after Bobby got off the phone with Kim, he saw Kevin leaving the precinct. Kevin noticed him standing next to his car and headed in his direction.
"You have a ride?" Bobby asked.
"I normally take a cab home," he replied.
"Hop in and I'll give you a lift over and take you home." Bobby said in return.
"Thanks," Kevin replied as he climbed into the passenger seat of the car.
"So, how long you and your wife been together?" Kevin asked as they drove.
"It will be two years next May." He replied.
"You two meet at work?" Kevin asked.
"Yeah, she's been my partner for the last five years." Bobby replied smiling.
"That's great that you two get to work together still." Kevin said in response.
"We can pretty muchly know what the other is going to do when we get a call, which makes things run a lot smoother." Bobby said in return as they pulled up to the apartment complex.
The two of them headed up to the apartment, still talking back and forth. Kim had just finished drying the dishes and putting them up and was drying her hands on a towel when she heard the front door being unlocked. She quickly put the towel down and headed into the living room as the door opened and they walked in.
After he'd closed the door he turned to Kevin and said, "Kevin I'd like you to meet my wife Kim. "
"It's a pleasure to meet you," the young officer said, extending his hand.
"Likewise," she replied smiling, shaking his hand politely.
The three took a seat in the living room and Kevin noticed a picture with them and the kids and said, "You've got two beautiful children."
Kim smiled and replied, "Joey is 9, he's from my first marriage. Keira's four months old and as hyper as ever."
After they'd talked about Joey and Keira for a bit, Kevin began to tell them what he saw that fateful afternoon.
"My partner Nick Tuero and I had just come back in from making an arrest and he'd started the paperwork and I came back out to get something out of the RMP. I saw what was happening with the kid and watched for a bit and went back inside. My partner asked me to go back out and get something out of the RMP for him. When I came back out I'd just gotten into the car and reached over and got what he needed and was about ready to get out when I saw a white guy about 6'2 with brownish black hair leaving the firehouse rather quickly. He had a suspicious aire about him that I picked up on immediately. But what I noticed was odd was he was wearing a paramedic T- shirt and began to wonder why he was leaving because it was well into the shift and found it odd to see him leaving like that." Kevin said to the two of them.
"That sounds like Craig alright." Kim said, looking over to Bobby.
"Who's Craig?" Kevin asked curiously.
"Craig Anderson. He was a paramedic for a short time. Doc and Carlos trained him during the time she was off on maternity leave. I ended up working with him the week before she came back and the guy just about drove me crazy. Then when he comes back two days later after she'd come back its like he was a whole different person. He's been nothing but trouble to us since. This is the closest I've come to loosing her because of what he's done, if he's the one that did this." Bobby replied.
"What did he give you?" Kevin asked.
"He slipped cyanide powder into the soda bottle I had in the firehouse when we were working on that kid with the seizures." Kim replied.
"That is some pretty vile stuff he gave you." Kevin said shaking his head.
"I know, from what little research I did into it yesterday when I was released from the hospital, 0.05 g of that stuff can kill a 154 lb. human." Kim said in response.
"You are one lucky woman then. Do you have any idea how much was in the bottle?" he asked.
Kim shook her head and said, "No we don't know. I'm almost afraid to find out to be honest with you."
"I would be too." Kevin said in agreement.
The three sat and talked for about another half an hour. Before Bobby left to take Kevin home, Kim said, "I appreciate you talking with us and letting us know what you saw."
"I'm just glad everything turned out ok for you all, because I had no clue what that guy had done until Officer Yokas told me what happened. Hopefully we can nail that guys ass, because if it is this Craig person he's caused you all enough heartache." Kevin replied.
"If it was him, he definitely has caused us a lot of trouble." Bobby said in agreement; "I'll be back in a few as soon as I take Kevin home."
"Ok, I'll see you when you get back. Thanks again for speaking with us Kevin." Kim replied.
"No problem," Kevin said back as he and Bobby left.
While Bobby drove Kevin home the two talked back and forth about Kim and the kids.
"You're a lucky man to have such a wonderful family." Kevin said; "If you don't mind me asking, what caused her to leave her first husband?"
"I know. He messed around on her with her own sister one evening." Bobby replied.
"Is she still on amicable terms with the guy after what he did?" Kevin asked.
"It took a while but yeah. We all work together down at the 55, he's a firefighter." Bobby said in response as he pulled up to where Kevin lived.
"I appreciate the ride. I hope everything works out and they catch whoever did this." Kevin replied as he got out of the car.
"Thanks, I'll see you around sometime." Bobby said, getting ready to drive off to head back home.
Kim fixed a plate for Bobby and warmed it and went check on the kids. She peeked in on Keira who was still sound asleep and looked in on Joey to make sure he wasn't up playing with his game boy. He too was out like a light and she quietly closed the door to his room and headed down the hall when Bobby came back.
"Man, whatever you fixed for dinner smells wonderful." He said, placing a gentle kiss on her lips.
"I hope you like it," she replied smiling, leading him into the kitchen.
"We taking Joey to Jimmy's tomorrow? He didn't mention anything at work about coming to get him tonight." Bobby asked.
"Nope, he and Alex have a something planned this weekend. I'd planned on letting Joey sleep in a bit this weekend, since I'm pretty sure he doesn't get him up like we do." Kim replied.
"How about we all sleep in this weekend and just relax." Bobby suggested, taking a seat at the table.
"Sounds like a wonderful idea to me. We could even take the kids down to the park or something later in the afternoon" Kim replied.
"Sounds good to me." Bobby said in agreement as he continued eating.
While he ate she went and changed for bed and when she came back several minutes later.
"You are definitely making that again. I don't know where you got the recipe but it was fantastic." Bobby said to her once she'd returned.
Kim laughed and said, "You sound just like Joey."
In a sudden motion he stood up picked her up catching her by surprise and said, "It's getting late don't you think?"
"Not really, its not like we're getting up early or anything." She replied smiling.
"Como ellos dice, temprano a la cama para subir temprano." He said with a sneaky grin on his face. {Like they say, early to bed early to rise.}
"¡Oye ahora! Planeo a aprovechar de una oportunidad de dormir en. Olvídese de subir temprano." Kim replied laughing. {Hey now! I plan on taking advantage of an opportunity to sleep in. Forget early to rise.}
Bobby laughed at her response as he carried her down the hall and said with a grin, "¿Qué haré jamás yo con usted Kimmy?" {What am I ever going to do with you Kimmy?}
Spanish Translations
Yo lo amo novio.
I love you sweetheart.
~~~
Yo lo amo también. Véalo cuando usted obtiene hogar.
I love you too. See you when you get home.
~~~
Como ellos dice, temprano a la cama para subir temprano.
Like they say, early to bed early to rise.
~~~
¡Oye ahora! Planeo a aprovechar de una oportunidad de dormir en. Olvídese de subir temprano.
Hey now! I plan on taking advantage of an opportunity to sleep in. Forget early to rise.
~~~
¿Qué haré jamás yo con usted Kimmy?
What am I ever going to do with you Kimmy?
"Are you fixing dinner?" Joey asked as he came in.
"Yep, smell good?" she replied.
"Yeah! What is it?" Joey said in return.
"Hamburger and Macaroni Casserole." She replied, seeing the look of excitement cross his face.
"How much longer till its done?" Joey asked excitedly.
"You're hopeless," Kim said laughing as she threw away the empty boxes and packages she'd used to fix dinner; "Not for about 30-45 minutes."
Joey laughed and turned the light in the oven on and looked at what was cooking when his mother asked, "Look good so far?"
"Yes!" Joey replied eagerly.
"Let's go check on your sister while dinner cooks," Kim suggested to her son.
"Ok," Joey said in return, following his mother towards the nursery.
Keira woke up from her nap and began to babble at the mobile hanging on her crib. It was around 8 so it was about time for her next feeding. Kim heated up a bottle for her and checked the temperature before she headed into the nursery. She put a towel over her shoulder and placed the bottle on the coffee table in the living room and headed to go get her daughter. She found her laughing at one of the toys in the crib since she'd rolled onto her right side. Keira began to reach for the stuffed toy but overshot the distance to it. Kim smiled as she entered the room and heard Keira squeal with excitement and picked her up.
"You're just full of energy this evening, aren't you." Kim said smiling, as Keira babbled and cooed in response.
Joey heard his sister cooing as his mother brought her into the living room and asked, "She still hyper?"
"Yep, she is." Kim replied taking a seat on the couch and cradling her daughter in one arm and reaching for the bottle with the other.
As Keira contently drank from the bottle, Joey went back to playing the game he was playing. Joey loved having a younger sibling and began to wonder about the possibility of his mother having another baby. He decided not to ask about what he was wondering, since after all Keira was rather young and he couldn't imagine what it would be like having two young babies in the apartment. After she'd finished the bottle, Kim put her down in the playpen for a bit to go check on dinner and make sure everything was doing ok. While Kim was checking on dinner the phone began to ring and she grabbed the cordless that was sitting on the counter and found Bobby on the other end.
"How's everything going this evening?" he asked as Alex drove.
"Pretty good, just checking on dinner which is in the oven." She replied, cracking the door to the oven to peer inside.
"What's on the menu for tonight?" he asked.
"Hamburger and Macaroni Casserole," she replied.
"Trying something new this evening?" Bobby asked curiously.
"Yep, thought I'd cook something different for a change." She said grinning to herself.
"How are the kids doing?" he asked.
"Joey's playing video games as usual and Keira is as hyper as ever." She replied.
"What did you do to her?" Bobby teased.
"Nothing darling." Kim replied almost ready to laugh; "Joey and I plan on wearing her out so hopefully she'll settle down later."
"Let's hope so." He replied smirking.
"You'd better behave or no casserole for you." she retorted.
"You wouldn't do that to your poor toiling husband would you?" he teased.
Kim began to laugh at his statement and replied, "Nah, I couldn't do it even if I tried."
"That's a relief to hear," he said smirking, seeing Alex about ready to bust out laughing.
"I'll see you when I get off this evening and bring our guest over after the shift." He replied.
"Ok, take care and I'll see you around 11:30." She said in return.
"Yo lo amo novio." Bobby said, before hanging up. {I love you sweetheart.}
"Yo lo amo también. Véalo cuando usted obtiene hogar." Kim replied as she hung up the phone. {I love you too. See you when you get home.}
Since dinner was still cooking in the oven she and Joey began the arduous task of tiring out Keira so she'd sleep that evening. Fifteen minutes later dinner was finished and she and Joey took a break and put Keira in the playpen while they ate and let her play in there.
"What did you think of dinner?" Kim asked her son once he'd finished eating.
"I loved it! Definitely worth fixing again." He said with a smile on his face.
"I'll add the recipe to the list of fix again dishes for you all," she replied grinning, storing the recipe in a box with the others she kept; "Come on and let's wear your sister out shall we?"
The two of them walked back into the living room and Kim picked up Keira and took a seat on the couch, having Keira sitting on her stomach with her back propped up against her legs. After about an hour and a half of work they finally succeeded in tiring Keira out. It even wore Joey out, which was a good thing and both of them were sound asleep by 10:30. Around 11:10 the phone rang and when Kim answered it found Bobby on the other end.
"On your way home?" she asked.
"Yep. The kids get to bed ok?" he said in response.
"Yeah, they've been out since 10:30." She replied.
"Wow, what did you do to them?" he asked laughing.
"Joey wore himself out trying to tire out Keira so she'd get to sleep without much fuss." Kim replied.
"That's a good way to tire anyone out, trying to wear down a hyper four month old. I'm surprised you aren't in bed after that." Bobby said chuckling.
"I actually feel pretty good. Although for a while I never thought we'd get Keira to the point to where she'd go to sleep." She replied grinning.
"I should be home in about ten minutes or so, Alex and I just finished inventory and I'm waiting on Kevin." Bobby said, as he waited outside the firehouse next to his car.
"Ok, I'll be here. Dinner's in the fridge so after we talk with Kevin you can fix a plate and tell me if its worth cooking again." Kim replied.
"Sounds good. See you in a few." He said in response.
"Ok, be careful on your way home." She replied as she hung up the phone.
She took some of Keira's toys back to the nursery and put them up after she'd gotten off the phone with Bobby. Then went ahead and got started on the dinner dishes since there weren't that many of them and got everything squared away and waited for Bobby and Kevin to arrive.
Five minutes after Bobby got off the phone with Kim, he saw Kevin leaving the precinct. Kevin noticed him standing next to his car and headed in his direction.
"You have a ride?" Bobby asked.
"I normally take a cab home," he replied.
"Hop in and I'll give you a lift over and take you home." Bobby said in return.
"Thanks," Kevin replied as he climbed into the passenger seat of the car.
"So, how long you and your wife been together?" Kevin asked as they drove.
"It will be two years next May." He replied.
"You two meet at work?" Kevin asked.
"Yeah, she's been my partner for the last five years." Bobby replied smiling.
"That's great that you two get to work together still." Kevin said in response.
"We can pretty muchly know what the other is going to do when we get a call, which makes things run a lot smoother." Bobby said in return as they pulled up to the apartment complex.
The two of them headed up to the apartment, still talking back and forth. Kim had just finished drying the dishes and putting them up and was drying her hands on a towel when she heard the front door being unlocked. She quickly put the towel down and headed into the living room as the door opened and they walked in.
After he'd closed the door he turned to Kevin and said, "Kevin I'd like you to meet my wife Kim. "
"It's a pleasure to meet you," the young officer said, extending his hand.
"Likewise," she replied smiling, shaking his hand politely.
The three took a seat in the living room and Kevin noticed a picture with them and the kids and said, "You've got two beautiful children."
Kim smiled and replied, "Joey is 9, he's from my first marriage. Keira's four months old and as hyper as ever."
After they'd talked about Joey and Keira for a bit, Kevin began to tell them what he saw that fateful afternoon.
"My partner Nick Tuero and I had just come back in from making an arrest and he'd started the paperwork and I came back out to get something out of the RMP. I saw what was happening with the kid and watched for a bit and went back inside. My partner asked me to go back out and get something out of the RMP for him. When I came back out I'd just gotten into the car and reached over and got what he needed and was about ready to get out when I saw a white guy about 6'2 with brownish black hair leaving the firehouse rather quickly. He had a suspicious aire about him that I picked up on immediately. But what I noticed was odd was he was wearing a paramedic T- shirt and began to wonder why he was leaving because it was well into the shift and found it odd to see him leaving like that." Kevin said to the two of them.
"That sounds like Craig alright." Kim said, looking over to Bobby.
"Who's Craig?" Kevin asked curiously.
"Craig Anderson. He was a paramedic for a short time. Doc and Carlos trained him during the time she was off on maternity leave. I ended up working with him the week before she came back and the guy just about drove me crazy. Then when he comes back two days later after she'd come back its like he was a whole different person. He's been nothing but trouble to us since. This is the closest I've come to loosing her because of what he's done, if he's the one that did this." Bobby replied.
"What did he give you?" Kevin asked.
"He slipped cyanide powder into the soda bottle I had in the firehouse when we were working on that kid with the seizures." Kim replied.
"That is some pretty vile stuff he gave you." Kevin said shaking his head.
"I know, from what little research I did into it yesterday when I was released from the hospital, 0.05 g of that stuff can kill a 154 lb. human." Kim said in response.
"You are one lucky woman then. Do you have any idea how much was in the bottle?" he asked.
Kim shook her head and said, "No we don't know. I'm almost afraid to find out to be honest with you."
"I would be too." Kevin said in agreement.
The three sat and talked for about another half an hour. Before Bobby left to take Kevin home, Kim said, "I appreciate you talking with us and letting us know what you saw."
"I'm just glad everything turned out ok for you all, because I had no clue what that guy had done until Officer Yokas told me what happened. Hopefully we can nail that guys ass, because if it is this Craig person he's caused you all enough heartache." Kevin replied.
"If it was him, he definitely has caused us a lot of trouble." Bobby said in agreement; "I'll be back in a few as soon as I take Kevin home."
"Ok, I'll see you when you get back. Thanks again for speaking with us Kevin." Kim replied.
"No problem," Kevin said back as he and Bobby left.
While Bobby drove Kevin home the two talked back and forth about Kim and the kids.
"You're a lucky man to have such a wonderful family." Kevin said; "If you don't mind me asking, what caused her to leave her first husband?"
"I know. He messed around on her with her own sister one evening." Bobby replied.
"Is she still on amicable terms with the guy after what he did?" Kevin asked.
"It took a while but yeah. We all work together down at the 55, he's a firefighter." Bobby said in response as he pulled up to where Kevin lived.
"I appreciate the ride. I hope everything works out and they catch whoever did this." Kevin replied as he got out of the car.
"Thanks, I'll see you around sometime." Bobby said, getting ready to drive off to head back home.
Kim fixed a plate for Bobby and warmed it and went check on the kids. She peeked in on Keira who was still sound asleep and looked in on Joey to make sure he wasn't up playing with his game boy. He too was out like a light and she quietly closed the door to his room and headed down the hall when Bobby came back.
"Man, whatever you fixed for dinner smells wonderful." He said, placing a gentle kiss on her lips.
"I hope you like it," she replied smiling, leading him into the kitchen.
"We taking Joey to Jimmy's tomorrow? He didn't mention anything at work about coming to get him tonight." Bobby asked.
"Nope, he and Alex have a something planned this weekend. I'd planned on letting Joey sleep in a bit this weekend, since I'm pretty sure he doesn't get him up like we do." Kim replied.
"How about we all sleep in this weekend and just relax." Bobby suggested, taking a seat at the table.
"Sounds like a wonderful idea to me. We could even take the kids down to the park or something later in the afternoon" Kim replied.
"Sounds good to me." Bobby said in agreement as he continued eating.
While he ate she went and changed for bed and when she came back several minutes later.
"You are definitely making that again. I don't know where you got the recipe but it was fantastic." Bobby said to her once she'd returned.
Kim laughed and said, "You sound just like Joey."
In a sudden motion he stood up picked her up catching her by surprise and said, "It's getting late don't you think?"
"Not really, its not like we're getting up early or anything." She replied smiling.
"Como ellos dice, temprano a la cama para subir temprano." He said with a sneaky grin on his face. {Like they say, early to bed early to rise.}
"¡Oye ahora! Planeo a aprovechar de una oportunidad de dormir en. Olvídese de subir temprano." Kim replied laughing. {Hey now! I plan on taking advantage of an opportunity to sleep in. Forget early to rise.}
Bobby laughed at her response as he carried her down the hall and said with a grin, "¿Qué haré jamás yo con usted Kimmy?" {What am I ever going to do with you Kimmy?}
Spanish Translations
Yo lo amo novio.
I love you sweetheart.
~~~
Yo lo amo también. Véalo cuando usted obtiene hogar.
I love you too. See you when you get home.
~~~
Como ellos dice, temprano a la cama para subir temprano.
Like they say, early to bed early to rise.
~~~
¡Oye ahora! Planeo a aprovechar de una oportunidad de dormir en. Olvídese de subir temprano.
Hey now! I plan on taking advantage of an opportunity to sleep in. Forget early to rise.
~~~
¿Qué haré jamás yo con usted Kimmy?
What am I ever going to do with you Kimmy?