A/N- I'm going to be on vacation from July 19th to the 26th so I won't be updating again until Monday the 28th. So if you don't see any updates till then, that's why. See ya when I get back from the beach!
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She pushed the thoughts of what had happened to him out of her mind and tried not to dwell on that thought. She couldn't even imagine what it would be like if something had happened to him when he'd tried to get to her. His voice cut through her thoughts and pulled her attention back to him.
"I'm going to go get something to eat. Will you be ok while I'm gone?" he asked.
"Yeah. I'll take a nap or something till you get back." She replied, getting ready to lay back down.
"Ok. I shouldn't be gone too long." Bobby said in response, gently kissing her on the forehead.
Kim nodded her head in response and watched him leave and got ready to take a nap while she was alone. About fifteen minutes after she'd fallen asleep, two individuals entered her room silently, seeing she was resting quietly. They didn't go past the nurse's station, they came through the stairwell at the other end of the hall so as few people as possible would see them. They moved quietly past the other rooms and slipped into Kim's room undetected and closed the door. Marc stood on the right side of the bed and Tony headed around the left side. At the same time they both clamp a hand on her wrists and simultaneously held a blindfold over her eyes and Tony put his free hand over her mouth to keep her from screaming.
As soon as she felt pressure on her wrists she began to panic, not knowing what was going on. She tried to call out or scream but with the massive hand over her mouth she couldn't emit anything audible. Terror gripped her when she recognized the voice that spoke a short time later as the voice registered with her brain, causing her to flash back to her harrowing four day ordeal that landed her in the hospital in the first place.
"Nothing and no one can stop us, you know. You might as well face it, you will be ours regardless." The voice growled menacingly; "You're lucky you got out of there in the first place. Next time you won't be so fortunate! You'll see soon enough that things will change in our favor and you'll be powerless to stop us!"
Sheer hysteria gripped her as she listened to his chilling threat and felt all the same feelings that she'd experienced come back when she'd been held against her will by Craig. Her breathing was so elevated she eventually starting getting dizzy from the loss of carbon dioxide where she was exhaling faster than she could bring in oxygen to counter its effects. When her head started swimming and she got light headed she kept seeing the images of the past four days flashing through her head and began to stop struggling when she felt a rag over her nose and mouth, sending her reeling into darkness. When she quit struggling against them they let her go and quickly left her room. Tony threw the now empty bottle into the trashcan by the door along with the rag and headed towards the stairwell at the end of the hall.
Things were slow for the firefighters so Jimmy was able to slip out for a bit and go visit Kim since she was awake. Alex and Carlos were just heading out of the ER when they saw him coming in.
"You going to see Kim?" Alex asked.
"Yeah, things were slow so Lieu let me leave for a bit to see how she was doing." He replied, watching Carlos head over to the rig.
"As soon as we finish up down here I'll come up before we leave." Alex said, getting started on the run sheet.
Jimmy nodded his head in response and moved towards the elevators. He was anxious to talk to her after everything that she'd been through but was just relieved that she was going to be ok. He stepped off the elevator on the ICU unit and headed down the corridor to her room. When he walked in it appeared that she was asleep, so he sat down beside her bed in the chair and watched her, not wanting to disturb her. Bobby had just finished up eating in the cafeteria in the basement of the hospital and was waiting on an elevator to take him back to the floor that Kim was on.
Jimmy heard an alarm sound on a machine but thought it was in a room nearby since he was near the door of her room. She was still hooked to all of the machine's she'd been on when she came up to ICU with the exception of the vent. He looked at one of the monitors and watched the numbers as they began to decrease. Her blood pressure was dropping very quickly and in a matter of minutes she quit breathing because of the arrhythmia that was brought about by the frenzy she worked herself into when Marc and Tony had been there. He looked at the monitors once more and put his hand near her mouth and noticed she wasn't breathing and started CPR on her. As he checked to see if she'd begun breathing on her own, he said fretfully, "Don't do this to me Kimmy!"
One of the nurses noticed the change in her vitals at the nurse's station and headed towards Kim's room to make sure she was ok. Jimmy saw one of the nurses appear in the room and said frantically, "She just quit breathing and I've been doing CPR on her, trying to get her to start breathing on her own again."
The nurse activated the call light to get the attention of another nurse while she grabbed the ambu bag so Jimmy could focus on chest compressions. When another nurse answered, the nurse told her to call for the code team and squeezed the ambu bag after Jimmy had done five compressions and repeated the measure, checking for a pulse on the side of her neck until till the team arrived to take over. Once the code team had gotten to the floor Jimmy stood out in the hall and watched as they worked on bringing her back. He stood there unable to believe what he was seeing happening, watching the efforts being done to revive her.
As the elevator doors opened in the basement, he heard the call for the code team to respond to ICU and prayed that nothing had happened to Kim while he was gone. A gnawing feeling of nervousness coursed through him as he waited for the elevator to take him to the ICU unit. When he finally got there he saw no one until he headed down the corridor to Kim's room and saw the flurry of activity and Jimmy standing in the hallway, watching helplessly what was going on.
Tension was high as both Jimmy and Bobby stood in the hallway watching what was being done. Jimmy was so focused on watching what was going on that he didn't even notice Bobby had come back until he heard him say in a worried manner, "Por favor no haga este Kimmy. Usted ha obtenido para regresar. Yo no lo puedo aflojar otra vez." {Please don't do this Kimmy. You've got to come back. I can't loose you again.}
As soon as Jimmy heard his words, he turned to look over on his left side and saw him standing alongside him, watching the situations unfolding before them with concern written across his features. Sure Bobby has revived many people like this at work, shocking and pushing epi and shocking them again. But when you're helpless to watch someone you love and care about and work with every day being the one who's on the receiving end of it, puts things in a whole new perspective for anyone.
When the crash cart arrived, they set up the defibrillator, and got it warmed up. The nurse who'd been taking care of Kim relayed information about her vitals, lab results and other pertinent info to the team so the appropriate decisions could be made on drugs to be used if it came to using them. The monitor showed she was in v fib (ventricular fibrillation) and the chief physician on hand ordered the defibrillator to be charged at 200. Once it was ready the physician placed one of the paddles slightly below her collarbone on the right side and the other at the apex of her heart which is about where the fourth and fifth ribs are. They heard someone yell "Clear!" and everyone stopped what they were doing and didn't touch her while the shock was administered. She didn't respond so they charged to 300 and shocked her once more as Jimmy and Bobby watched helplessly from the hall at the efforts used to bring her back.
300j wasn't enough so the machine was charged to 360j to see if that would get her back which yielded an unresponsive result. One of the nurses started another IV line and ran a bag of normal saline wide open. CPR was still being done while blood was being drawn to be taken to the lab for analysis on electrolytes and a CBC (complete blood count). An ABG (arterial blood gas) was drawn from the femoral artery in her right leg by the physician on hand and sent down to be analyzed as well. The decision was made to reintubate her and CPR was continued till the endotracheal tube was in place and she was hooked back up to the vent. The nursing supervisor on the floor was charting what all was being done during the code along with the times that everything was happening at. One of the nurses administered 1 mg of Epinephrine (a.k.a. epi) through the IV as the physician had instructed before they shocked her once more at 360 to see if the epi had any effect when they administered the shock again.
Alex had finished up with Carlos and headed up to see what was going on before she left to head back to the station. When she arrived on the ICU unit it was almost a ghost town so to speak until she reached the top of the corridor where Kim's room was and saw that almost all of the personnel on the floor congregated at her room working on reviving her. She stood unable to move as she watched what was going on and noticed the uneased body language of both Bobby and Jimmy as they watched in vain at what was going on before them. She never imagined she'd be seeing the same stuff done to her best friend that they do on patients in the bus all the time when the arrest like that. As she watched from the top of the hall she spoke silently before she moved towards where Jimmy and Bobby were.
"Come on Kim don't do this. You can beat this please. I doubt Bobby could take it if he lost you again. And the kids would be devastated, Joey especially. You've got to beat this, for their sake. Don't make me and Jimmy be the bearers of bad news this evening please." She pleaded silently as she stood beside Bobby and Jimmy.
She saw the fear in Bobby's eyes as he watched what was going on before him. He felt Alex put her hand in his and he saw the concern showing in her blue eyes as the three of them waited for an answer, a revelation. Jimmy slipped his right arm around Alex's waist and the three stood motionless as the resuscitation attempts continued. Bobby closed his eyes momentarily and began to speak silently hoping things would be ok.
"Yo no lo puedo aflojar Kimmy, no ahora. Por favor no me atormente como esto, yo no debo haber dejado más temprano. Soy arrepentido. Yo nunca supe el día que comencé en el parque de bomberos yo encontraría a la una mujer que haría eventualmente a mi esposa. Yo no puedo pararme el pensó de usted no está aquí. Dudo que el dolor se iría jamás si yo lo perdí."
{I can't loose you Kimmy, not now. Please don't torture me like this, I shouldn't have left earlier. I'm sorry. I never knew the day I started at the firehouse I'd meet the one woman who I would eventually make my wife. I can't stand the thought of you not being here. I doubt the pain would ever go away if I lost you.}
He opened his eyes and watched what was going on as a tear slid down his cheek as he said once more silently, "Usted ha dado a mí algunos de las cosas más preciosas en la vida. Usted ha sido una esposa asombrosa y dado mí una hija hermosa, que hace un día crece para ser como fuerte y tan hermoso como usted. Usted es lo que me mantiene ir fuerte. Yo no lo puedo aflojar esta noche, no después que yo acabo de obtener que usted apoya."
{You've given unto me some of the most precious things in life. You've been an amazing wife and given me a beautiful daughter, who will one day grow up to be as strong and as beautiful as you. You're what keeps me going strong. I can't loose you tonight, not after I just got you back.}
After the shock was administered everyone waited for the analysis of her heart rhythm to see if it had any effect.
Spanish Translations
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Por favor no haga este Kimmy. Usted ha obtenido para regresar. Yo no lo puedo aflojar otra vez.
Please don't do this Kimmy. You've got to come back. I can't loose you again.
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Yo no lo puedo aflojar Kimmy, no ahora. Por favor no me atormente como esto, yo no debo haber dejado más temprano. Soy arrepentido. Yo nunca supe el día que comencé en el parque de bomberos yo encontraría a la una mujer que haría eventualmente a mi esposa. Yo no puedo pararme el pensó de usted no está aquí. Dudo que el dolor se iría jamás si yo lo perdí.
I can't loose you Kimmy, not now. Please don't torture me like this, I shouldn't have left earlier. I'm sorry. I never knew the day I started at the firehouse I'd meet the one woman who I would eventually make my wife. I can't stand the thought of you not being here. I doubt the pain would ever go away if I lost you.
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Usted ha dado a mí algunos de las cosas más preciosas en la vida. Usted ha sido una esposa asombrosa y dado mí una hija hermosa, que hace un día crece para ser como fuerte y tan hermoso como usted. Usted es lo que me mantiene ir fuerte. Yo no lo puedo aflojar esta noche, no después que yo acabo de obtener que usted apoya.
You've given unto me some of the most precious things in life. You've been an amazing wife and given me a beautiful daughter, who will one day grow up to be as strong and as beautiful as you. You're what keeps me going strong. I can't loose you tonight, not after I just got you back.