Frozen: Not Here
Hello again. Thanks for all of the reviews. You guys are lucky I've been home sick for the past two days. Its why you've been getting these fast updates. Besides I couldn't leave Jason like that for too long.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Morgan Penthouse
Carly had taken away her drugs. The guard was at the door so it wasn't like she could sneak out and get more.
She hated Elizabeth Webber. She hated Jason Morgan. She hated Carly Corinthos, and she hated Sonny Corinthos.
How could Jason do this to her? And Carly too. It should be him packing his bags. Not her.
Sonny was sending her to a rehab clinic then to his island. Like that was going to make her hate less. She would come back. And she would make them all pay for doing this to her.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Corinthos Penthouse
"Did you see Jason? How could we let this slip by us Sonny?" Carly asked from her spot on the couch.
Sonny ran his hand threw his hair. "I saw him." Was all he said. He couldn't answer her other question. He had no answer for it.
"He didn't even see us. And did you notice how he didn't move even when Courtney said that accuasation about the..." she let the sentance end there. She didn't need to say anymore. He knew what Courtney had said to Jason.
"You let him go with Elizabeth." Sonny stated. He was suprised as hell over that.
"Shes not going to make this worse. I guess in comparison to what Courtney did Elizabeth suddenly didn't seem all that bad." Carly said. Suprising even herself.
"I don't think anything can make this worse Carly." Sonny said quietly as he sat down next to her.
"No, I don't think so either."
"How do we fix it then?" Sonny asked.
"I don't know."
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Elizabeth's Studio
Jason had fallen asleep after a half an hour of the laughter.
Elizabeth had pulled a chair next to him. She had never seen anything like it before. Sure, in the movies the main character or someone would get hysterical but never in real life. Never like that.
If someone had asked her to describe Jason Morgan she would say strong. After all he had been threw how could she not?
After her rape she always heard how strong she was. She survived. After Lucky "died" she heard it again. And then when she tried using the word during a therapy session or when talking with someone about these things she would always hear "Everyone has their filling point." or "Everyone has their limit."
And Jason reached his.
Where were Sonny and Carly while he was getting like this? I mean. Carly was so damned protective of Jason where was she during this? Did she not notice? Did she not care? Or was she just as clueless as to how to help him as Elizabeth was now?
And Sonny. Carly at least had the excuse that she had been kidnapped for months. And it was clear that Jason had been somewhere around this level for months. But Sonny saw him everyday. Sometimes more than once a day. Didn't he even notice this dead distance in Jason's eyes?
But then again. Elizabeth saw him at Kelly's and she didn't notice. But she also didn't look at him. She couldn't without feeling her heart break again.
She felt that a lot these days.
She noticed Jason stir in his sleep. She held her breath waiting for his eyes to open. And sure enough they did.
He had the bluest eyes she had ever seen. They blinked for a second as if unsure of where he was. This was probably her cue to say good morning or something. But she was too afraid of his reaction if she did.
Slowly his head moved to the side. She was met with his stare. "Elizabeth." He said. It wasn't a question. It wasn't a greeting full of warmth. It was a dead word that came out of his mouth.
"Hi." She said quietly. She didn't know what to say. Not after what she had seen before.
He didn't say anything. He didn't move his eyes around the new surroundings. He just watched her in that way that told her he didn't really see her. Or didn't want to.
"I'm right here Jason." She reminded him. She wasn't sure if he heard her until he spoke.
"No, you're not."
She must have looked confused because he started talking again. "You haven't been here for months."
*Wow, that helped a whole bunch.*
She still didn't say anything aloud to him though.
But he didn't seem to care to explain what he meant. So Elizabeth was forced to speak or sit here in silence.
"Have you been here?" she asked him. His answer might give a bit of insight as to what in hell he meant.
"No. I don't think so. I was watching." He said. For the first time there was some emotion in his words. Slight puzzlement maybe.
"Okay." She said simply. She wasn't sure what he meant by watching. But she wasn't going to push. She had a feeling that everyone had been pushing lately.
"You think I'm crazy." He spoke that like he had her name. Not a question. Just a dead statement.
"No. I think you're tired." She told him. Tired of everyone around him. Of their expectations. Of losing people he loved. Of fighting. Of keeping it inside him.
"No."
She wasn't sure what he meant. It was as though he were speaking to her about somthing important. But she didn't know the topic. Or the questions he was answering. She was missing a big piece of the conversation. And he had that piece. But he wasn't giving it up.
"Are you hungry?" asked him. He seemed smaller than he had before. Thinner almost.
"No."
"Thirsty?" she tried again.
"No."
"Cold?" she was going to get him to ask for something. Anything.
"No."
"Tired?" he was going to react to her.
"No."
"Then what do you want Jason?" she asked.
He stayed silent. And that made her mad. He needed to learn the words "I want.". And she was going to teach him.
"Come on Jason. Everyone must want something. You want to ride your bike? You want to go to Jake's and shoot pool? You want to go to Kelly's? How about some soup? No soup? We can go to Vista Point. We can talk. We can do whatever you want to do!" she told him, manageing to keep her voice even.
"Really?" he asked her.
"Really."
"I want you to leave me alone. I want you all to leave me alone."
Elizabeth closed her eyes. Unfortunately for him he had asked for the one thing she wouldn't give him.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Elizabeth's Old Studio
Carly banged on the door to Elizabeth's studio. There was no answer. "Elizabeth. Jason. Open the damned door!" she yelled.
The neighboor across from her opened the door. "That place is empty. The girl moved out to a new studio somewhere last week."
Carly turned around. "Where is the new place?"
The guy shook his head. "No clue."
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Elizabeth's Studio
"No can do Jason." She told him.
"You said I could have anything I wanted. I want to be alone. Did you lie?" he asked.
"I don't want to. But I'm not leaving you so I guess I did." She told him sadly.
"I lie too." He said. He sounded ashamed about it.
"What do you lie about?" she asked him. If she could keep him talking it could only help. If she knew Jason she knew that he had kept all this bottled up. He didn't tell anyone what he was feeling. It had stewed inside of him. He needed to let it out. It was doing him no good to keep it locked up.
"Everything."
"Name the last lie you told." She dared.
"I told Courtney I loved her before she left for Alcazar's." He whispered as though he were telling a big secret. It was almost childlike.
"You don't?" she questioned. It wouldn't suprise her. After the few things she had been told about what Jason's life had been for the last few months and the fact she had met Courtney Matthews she wasn't too suprised.
"No. Never."
But that did shock her. He hadn't ever loved Courtney?
"I lied to you too." He said.
"About what?" she asked. The list of possiblities was pretty long. In the state he was in now he could mean anything.
"I did love you. I never loved Courtney. But I loved you." He said. All child-ness was gone.
"Loved?" she asked. She loved him too. She wasn't going to tell him that though. Last thing he needed was to know that she had never stopped.
"Love. I love you now too. But I don't want to." He told her. He didn't want to be letting her know all this. He shouldn't really. But he didn't seem to care anymore. He couldn't see why he felt the need to keep all this a secret.
"Why don't you want to?" She asked. This had gone from being about him needing to let some of this out to her needing to know.
"You hurt me. I hurt you. I don't want to hurt you anymore. And I'm sick of everyone hurting me. But I think everyone likes to do it." He told her. His voice had adopted the childlike tone again. And he stopped looking at her. He was looking through her. Like he was talking to himself.
Elizabeth was too shocked to speak again. Instead she reached out with her hand towards his cheek. Jason's eyes watched her hand, as though waiting to see if she would actually do it.
She did.
Cliffhanger! Hehe. I love doing those. Anyway. Review. PLEASE! Nice long ones okay? Please? Longer the reviews longer the chapter next time okay?
Hello again. Thanks for all of the reviews. You guys are lucky I've been home sick for the past two days. Its why you've been getting these fast updates. Besides I couldn't leave Jason like that for too long.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Morgan Penthouse
Carly had taken away her drugs. The guard was at the door so it wasn't like she could sneak out and get more.
She hated Elizabeth Webber. She hated Jason Morgan. She hated Carly Corinthos, and she hated Sonny Corinthos.
How could Jason do this to her? And Carly too. It should be him packing his bags. Not her.
Sonny was sending her to a rehab clinic then to his island. Like that was going to make her hate less. She would come back. And she would make them all pay for doing this to her.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Corinthos Penthouse
"Did you see Jason? How could we let this slip by us Sonny?" Carly asked from her spot on the couch.
Sonny ran his hand threw his hair. "I saw him." Was all he said. He couldn't answer her other question. He had no answer for it.
"He didn't even see us. And did you notice how he didn't move even when Courtney said that accuasation about the..." she let the sentance end there. She didn't need to say anymore. He knew what Courtney had said to Jason.
"You let him go with Elizabeth." Sonny stated. He was suprised as hell over that.
"Shes not going to make this worse. I guess in comparison to what Courtney did Elizabeth suddenly didn't seem all that bad." Carly said. Suprising even herself.
"I don't think anything can make this worse Carly." Sonny said quietly as he sat down next to her.
"No, I don't think so either."
"How do we fix it then?" Sonny asked.
"I don't know."
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Elizabeth's Studio
Jason had fallen asleep after a half an hour of the laughter.
Elizabeth had pulled a chair next to him. She had never seen anything like it before. Sure, in the movies the main character or someone would get hysterical but never in real life. Never like that.
If someone had asked her to describe Jason Morgan she would say strong. After all he had been threw how could she not?
After her rape she always heard how strong she was. She survived. After Lucky "died" she heard it again. And then when she tried using the word during a therapy session or when talking with someone about these things she would always hear "Everyone has their filling point." or "Everyone has their limit."
And Jason reached his.
Where were Sonny and Carly while he was getting like this? I mean. Carly was so damned protective of Jason where was she during this? Did she not notice? Did she not care? Or was she just as clueless as to how to help him as Elizabeth was now?
And Sonny. Carly at least had the excuse that she had been kidnapped for months. And it was clear that Jason had been somewhere around this level for months. But Sonny saw him everyday. Sometimes more than once a day. Didn't he even notice this dead distance in Jason's eyes?
But then again. Elizabeth saw him at Kelly's and she didn't notice. But she also didn't look at him. She couldn't without feeling her heart break again.
She felt that a lot these days.
She noticed Jason stir in his sleep. She held her breath waiting for his eyes to open. And sure enough they did.
He had the bluest eyes she had ever seen. They blinked for a second as if unsure of where he was. This was probably her cue to say good morning or something. But she was too afraid of his reaction if she did.
Slowly his head moved to the side. She was met with his stare. "Elizabeth." He said. It wasn't a question. It wasn't a greeting full of warmth. It was a dead word that came out of his mouth.
"Hi." She said quietly. She didn't know what to say. Not after what she had seen before.
He didn't say anything. He didn't move his eyes around the new surroundings. He just watched her in that way that told her he didn't really see her. Or didn't want to.
"I'm right here Jason." She reminded him. She wasn't sure if he heard her until he spoke.
"No, you're not."
She must have looked confused because he started talking again. "You haven't been here for months."
*Wow, that helped a whole bunch.*
She still didn't say anything aloud to him though.
But he didn't seem to care to explain what he meant. So Elizabeth was forced to speak or sit here in silence.
"Have you been here?" she asked him. His answer might give a bit of insight as to what in hell he meant.
"No. I don't think so. I was watching." He said. For the first time there was some emotion in his words. Slight puzzlement maybe.
"Okay." She said simply. She wasn't sure what he meant by watching. But she wasn't going to push. She had a feeling that everyone had been pushing lately.
"You think I'm crazy." He spoke that like he had her name. Not a question. Just a dead statement.
"No. I think you're tired." She told him. Tired of everyone around him. Of their expectations. Of losing people he loved. Of fighting. Of keeping it inside him.
"No."
She wasn't sure what he meant. It was as though he were speaking to her about somthing important. But she didn't know the topic. Or the questions he was answering. She was missing a big piece of the conversation. And he had that piece. But he wasn't giving it up.
"Are you hungry?" asked him. He seemed smaller than he had before. Thinner almost.
"No."
"Thirsty?" she tried again.
"No."
"Cold?" she was going to get him to ask for something. Anything.
"No."
"Tired?" he was going to react to her.
"No."
"Then what do you want Jason?" she asked.
He stayed silent. And that made her mad. He needed to learn the words "I want.". And she was going to teach him.
"Come on Jason. Everyone must want something. You want to ride your bike? You want to go to Jake's and shoot pool? You want to go to Kelly's? How about some soup? No soup? We can go to Vista Point. We can talk. We can do whatever you want to do!" she told him, manageing to keep her voice even.
"Really?" he asked her.
"Really."
"I want you to leave me alone. I want you all to leave me alone."
Elizabeth closed her eyes. Unfortunately for him he had asked for the one thing she wouldn't give him.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Elizabeth's Old Studio
Carly banged on the door to Elizabeth's studio. There was no answer. "Elizabeth. Jason. Open the damned door!" she yelled.
The neighboor across from her opened the door. "That place is empty. The girl moved out to a new studio somewhere last week."
Carly turned around. "Where is the new place?"
The guy shook his head. "No clue."
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Elizabeth's Studio
"No can do Jason." She told him.
"You said I could have anything I wanted. I want to be alone. Did you lie?" he asked.
"I don't want to. But I'm not leaving you so I guess I did." She told him sadly.
"I lie too." He said. He sounded ashamed about it.
"What do you lie about?" she asked him. If she could keep him talking it could only help. If she knew Jason she knew that he had kept all this bottled up. He didn't tell anyone what he was feeling. It had stewed inside of him. He needed to let it out. It was doing him no good to keep it locked up.
"Everything."
"Name the last lie you told." She dared.
"I told Courtney I loved her before she left for Alcazar's." He whispered as though he were telling a big secret. It was almost childlike.
"You don't?" she questioned. It wouldn't suprise her. After the few things she had been told about what Jason's life had been for the last few months and the fact she had met Courtney Matthews she wasn't too suprised.
"No. Never."
But that did shock her. He hadn't ever loved Courtney?
"I lied to you too." He said.
"About what?" she asked. The list of possiblities was pretty long. In the state he was in now he could mean anything.
"I did love you. I never loved Courtney. But I loved you." He said. All child-ness was gone.
"Loved?" she asked. She loved him too. She wasn't going to tell him that though. Last thing he needed was to know that she had never stopped.
"Love. I love you now too. But I don't want to." He told her. He didn't want to be letting her know all this. He shouldn't really. But he didn't seem to care anymore. He couldn't see why he felt the need to keep all this a secret.
"Why don't you want to?" She asked. This had gone from being about him needing to let some of this out to her needing to know.
"You hurt me. I hurt you. I don't want to hurt you anymore. And I'm sick of everyone hurting me. But I think everyone likes to do it." He told her. His voice had adopted the childlike tone again. And he stopped looking at her. He was looking through her. Like he was talking to himself.
Elizabeth was too shocked to speak again. Instead she reached out with her hand towards his cheek. Jason's eyes watched her hand, as though waiting to see if she would actually do it.
She did.
Cliffhanger! Hehe. I love doing those. Anyway. Review. PLEASE! Nice long ones okay? Please? Longer the reviews longer the chapter next time okay?