Frozen: Touch
WOW! Thanks for all of my wonderful reviews! I had no idea this fic would get that type of response! I need to give a shout to Shamira. That was probably one of the best reviews I have ever gotten. Thanks so much. Anyway, I shall shut up.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Elizabeth's Studio
Elizabeth's hand came into contact with Jason's cheek. Jason violently moved back from the simple touch.
"I said don't touch me!" he yelled.
Elizabeth pulled her hand away. She was amazed by his reaction. Emily had told her that after the accident he hadn't been too fond of people touching him. Monica and someone named Keesha especially. Elizabeth couldn't understand it then. He never minded being touched now. She had seen Emily and Carly touch him. Elizabeth herself all the time. But now she could picture it. It was right ahead of her.
"I'm sorry Jason." She said. She didn't want to scare him away. He should stay here with her. Elizabeth was almost scared of what would happen to him outside of her studio. Where would he go? And most importantly, what would he do?
"I told you not to touch me." He repeated. Maybe to be sure she got the message this time. Elizabeth wasn't really sure. He was looking at her now. And he sounded like himself. Maybe her touch made him come into reality for a little while. It would explain why he was dead set against it.
"I won't. I promise. I won't touch you until you want me to."
Jason looked like he didn't believe her. But before she could do anymore reasuring her cell phone rang.
"Hello?" she spoke into it. She was silently cursing the caller as she watched Jason's eyes go back to dullness.
"Where is Jason. You didn't mention a new studio." Came Carly Corinthos's voice. She sounded pissed. More so than usual.
"I didn't know I had to." Elizabeth said cooly into the phone. She didn't want to deal with this now.
"Jason needs to be with his friends."
Elizabeth got up and walked into her bathroom. Jason didn't even seem to notice her absence. "Jason needed his friends for a long time now. They seemed to have not noticed though."
"We didn't know how to help him. And he wasn't this bad before." Carly informed Liz.
"Hes scaring me Carly." Elizabeth admitted into the phone. She had no idea why she was telling her this.
"How bad?"
"He started laughing so hard he was crying. Then theres the fact he flips out when you touch him. Oh, and theres the fact that he looks through me. The child like tone he keeps using is a real great thing too! Did I mention the whole lies thing too? Yeah. He says he tells them all the time now. Sounded really ashamed about it." Elizabeth knew she was rambling but right now she was mad at everyone close to him for letting this happen.
Carly stayed silent for almost a full minute. It was like Elizabeth was describing some of the people she had met at Ferncliff. "I want to see him."
"He stays here." There was no room for discussion.
Carly knew she had no choice. She had to see Jason. And Elizabeth was the only way she was going to do that.
"Tomorrow. I want to talk to him tonight."
"Look Muffin..." Carly started.
"Tomorrow." And with that Elizabeth hung up.
Elizabeth turned off the cell phone and walked back out to find Jason exactly how she had left him.
"Jason?"
"Yeah."
Mildly suprised at the response she continued. "Carly's coming tomorrow."
"Okay."
"Do you want to see her?"
"I don't care."
Elizabeth bit her tongue. "Okay. Can I ask you something?"
"Okay." Came his monotone voice. In some ways it was worse than the child like one he used.
"What have you wanted more than anything?" now he would have to use the words "I want."
"Do you think she knew?" Jason asked.
Elizabeth was confused. "Who knew, Jason?"
"I think she did. Maybe thats why she did it. She knew that I didn't love her."
So they were talking about Courtney. That was fine. "I don't know. Maybe. I think it was for the drugs though Jason."
"Partly. I wanted you to come with me." He said.
Jason's quick subject change threw her off. "Come where?"
"Anywhere. You didn't though."
The Park? "I wanted to go with you too."
"You didn't. You did what you thought was right for someone you cared about. I didn't get that then. I do now. Thats all I do now." He told her. He was looking right at her. Elizabeth got the feeling he wasn't done.
"I told Courtney I wasn't mad when she told me about the baby. But I was. She did the stupidest thing she could. But she wouldn't be able to handle knowing that so I lied. Then I let Michael go. I didn't want to. But it was better for him. I told Zander to take you away. Didn't want that either. But it was better for you. Let Sonny walk all over me. I wanted a friend, not a boss. But I let him." Jason said. His voice was getting strained.
Elizabeth watched him. She could tell that he was telling her something that he wouldn't tell anyone else. He hadn't. This was some of the stuff he had kept inside for so long. She didn't say a word. She was scared he would stop. He needed to get this out.
But that seemed to be it for the moment. Elizabeth came to sit next to him. "Sonny looked worried tonight." She said quietly. She wasn't sure that Jason even realized that Sonny had been there.
"Sonny doesn't notice or care until theres a real problem. Then he hates himself for not noticing earlier. He says he won't ever let it happen again. But it does." Jason told her.
"At least he cares." She offered. The words sounded stupid to her though.
"He cares. Sometimes. Do you care all the time?"
"About you? I always have. Even when I wouldn't let myself know it." It was the truth. She wasn't going to lie to him tonight.
"I did too." He said simply.
Elizabeth noticed the tears in Jason's eyes. "I'm glad. Do you think Carly cares?"
"Yes. Emily cares. Lila cares. Monica cares. Sonny cares. You care. Johnny cares. Francis cares. You all care. Why do you all care. What in hell have I ever done for you? I make you worry. I push you away. I shouldn't have anyone to care. I don't deserve it."
Elizabeth was fuming now. "You do deserve it!"
"No I don't. I hurt people. Look at Monica. Look what I did to her." He pointed out.
Elizabeth grabbed Jason's face. "You deserve it. Because you care. You would do anything in your power to make everything okay for the people you care about. You just don't know when to stop. You go so far you forget to help yourself. Don't you ever say you don't deserve it! Because its a lie. And its our fault too. We let you. Everyone notices you doing this. And what do we do for you? We care. But we don't do anything. Well that ends tonight Jason. I'm doing something. You've streched you're self so thin for all of us. And no one stopped you. I am now. And I am going to make sure that everyone else knows to stop you. We let you do this to yourself. And it stops tonight."
Jason was so shocked he didn't even notice that her hand was on his face. He was shocked. He was barely aware of the tears streaming down his face. He just felt himself being held in her arms. And for the first time since she had left him in the penthouse after Sonny's return from the dead he felt like himself.
He was tired. So damned tired. He barely slept more than a few hours a night. For months. He felt her rocking him. He felt his eyes close.
And he slept.
Wow. I don't have a plan for any of my fics anymore so where ever one goes in a chapter is a shock to me too. See? I swear. Thats the end of slightly crazy Jason. Now we move on to broken Jason! Yay! And somewhere along the line maybe we can get to broken Elizabeth. Fun for all. REVIEW!
WOW! Thanks for all of my wonderful reviews! I had no idea this fic would get that type of response! I need to give a shout to Shamira. That was probably one of the best reviews I have ever gotten. Thanks so much. Anyway, I shall shut up.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Elizabeth's Studio
Elizabeth's hand came into contact with Jason's cheek. Jason violently moved back from the simple touch.
"I said don't touch me!" he yelled.
Elizabeth pulled her hand away. She was amazed by his reaction. Emily had told her that after the accident he hadn't been too fond of people touching him. Monica and someone named Keesha especially. Elizabeth couldn't understand it then. He never minded being touched now. She had seen Emily and Carly touch him. Elizabeth herself all the time. But now she could picture it. It was right ahead of her.
"I'm sorry Jason." She said. She didn't want to scare him away. He should stay here with her. Elizabeth was almost scared of what would happen to him outside of her studio. Where would he go? And most importantly, what would he do?
"I told you not to touch me." He repeated. Maybe to be sure she got the message this time. Elizabeth wasn't really sure. He was looking at her now. And he sounded like himself. Maybe her touch made him come into reality for a little while. It would explain why he was dead set against it.
"I won't. I promise. I won't touch you until you want me to."
Jason looked like he didn't believe her. But before she could do anymore reasuring her cell phone rang.
"Hello?" she spoke into it. She was silently cursing the caller as she watched Jason's eyes go back to dullness.
"Where is Jason. You didn't mention a new studio." Came Carly Corinthos's voice. She sounded pissed. More so than usual.
"I didn't know I had to." Elizabeth said cooly into the phone. She didn't want to deal with this now.
"Jason needs to be with his friends."
Elizabeth got up and walked into her bathroom. Jason didn't even seem to notice her absence. "Jason needed his friends for a long time now. They seemed to have not noticed though."
"We didn't know how to help him. And he wasn't this bad before." Carly informed Liz.
"Hes scaring me Carly." Elizabeth admitted into the phone. She had no idea why she was telling her this.
"How bad?"
"He started laughing so hard he was crying. Then theres the fact he flips out when you touch him. Oh, and theres the fact that he looks through me. The child like tone he keeps using is a real great thing too! Did I mention the whole lies thing too? Yeah. He says he tells them all the time now. Sounded really ashamed about it." Elizabeth knew she was rambling but right now she was mad at everyone close to him for letting this happen.
Carly stayed silent for almost a full minute. It was like Elizabeth was describing some of the people she had met at Ferncliff. "I want to see him."
"He stays here." There was no room for discussion.
Carly knew she had no choice. She had to see Jason. And Elizabeth was the only way she was going to do that.
"Tomorrow. I want to talk to him tonight."
"Look Muffin..." Carly started.
"Tomorrow." And with that Elizabeth hung up.
Elizabeth turned off the cell phone and walked back out to find Jason exactly how she had left him.
"Jason?"
"Yeah."
Mildly suprised at the response she continued. "Carly's coming tomorrow."
"Okay."
"Do you want to see her?"
"I don't care."
Elizabeth bit her tongue. "Okay. Can I ask you something?"
"Okay." Came his monotone voice. In some ways it was worse than the child like one he used.
"What have you wanted more than anything?" now he would have to use the words "I want."
"Do you think she knew?" Jason asked.
Elizabeth was confused. "Who knew, Jason?"
"I think she did. Maybe thats why she did it. She knew that I didn't love her."
So they were talking about Courtney. That was fine. "I don't know. Maybe. I think it was for the drugs though Jason."
"Partly. I wanted you to come with me." He said.
Jason's quick subject change threw her off. "Come where?"
"Anywhere. You didn't though."
The Park? "I wanted to go with you too."
"You didn't. You did what you thought was right for someone you cared about. I didn't get that then. I do now. Thats all I do now." He told her. He was looking right at her. Elizabeth got the feeling he wasn't done.
"I told Courtney I wasn't mad when she told me about the baby. But I was. She did the stupidest thing she could. But she wouldn't be able to handle knowing that so I lied. Then I let Michael go. I didn't want to. But it was better for him. I told Zander to take you away. Didn't want that either. But it was better for you. Let Sonny walk all over me. I wanted a friend, not a boss. But I let him." Jason said. His voice was getting strained.
Elizabeth watched him. She could tell that he was telling her something that he wouldn't tell anyone else. He hadn't. This was some of the stuff he had kept inside for so long. She didn't say a word. She was scared he would stop. He needed to get this out.
But that seemed to be it for the moment. Elizabeth came to sit next to him. "Sonny looked worried tonight." She said quietly. She wasn't sure that Jason even realized that Sonny had been there.
"Sonny doesn't notice or care until theres a real problem. Then he hates himself for not noticing earlier. He says he won't ever let it happen again. But it does." Jason told her.
"At least he cares." She offered. The words sounded stupid to her though.
"He cares. Sometimes. Do you care all the time?"
"About you? I always have. Even when I wouldn't let myself know it." It was the truth. She wasn't going to lie to him tonight.
"I did too." He said simply.
Elizabeth noticed the tears in Jason's eyes. "I'm glad. Do you think Carly cares?"
"Yes. Emily cares. Lila cares. Monica cares. Sonny cares. You care. Johnny cares. Francis cares. You all care. Why do you all care. What in hell have I ever done for you? I make you worry. I push you away. I shouldn't have anyone to care. I don't deserve it."
Elizabeth was fuming now. "You do deserve it!"
"No I don't. I hurt people. Look at Monica. Look what I did to her." He pointed out.
Elizabeth grabbed Jason's face. "You deserve it. Because you care. You would do anything in your power to make everything okay for the people you care about. You just don't know when to stop. You go so far you forget to help yourself. Don't you ever say you don't deserve it! Because its a lie. And its our fault too. We let you. Everyone notices you doing this. And what do we do for you? We care. But we don't do anything. Well that ends tonight Jason. I'm doing something. You've streched you're self so thin for all of us. And no one stopped you. I am now. And I am going to make sure that everyone else knows to stop you. We let you do this to yourself. And it stops tonight."
Jason was so shocked he didn't even notice that her hand was on his face. He was shocked. He was barely aware of the tears streaming down his face. He just felt himself being held in her arms. And for the first time since she had left him in the penthouse after Sonny's return from the dead he felt like himself.
He was tired. So damned tired. He barely slept more than a few hours a night. For months. He felt her rocking him. He felt his eyes close.
And he slept.
Wow. I don't have a plan for any of my fics anymore so where ever one goes in a chapter is a shock to me too. See? I swear. Thats the end of slightly crazy Jason. Now we move on to broken Jason! Yay! And somewhere along the line maybe we can get to broken Elizabeth. Fun for all. REVIEW!