Without the mask where will you hide
Can't find yourself lost in your lie
Evanescence "Everybody's fool"
" What do you mean?" Neo asked totally confused. "How can you not exist there, if there is the real world? It doesn't make any sense."
"Oh, no. It makes sense, Neo. It makes sense perfectly well." Devil said silently. " Because no program can enter the real world. And I'm nothing more than the program."
"You are not." Trinity breathed out.
"Yes, I'm." Devil smiled bitterly. "Look at me. I'm not the girl you used to know. I changed, Trinity. You said it yourself. I became what I had to become, and I lost myself in the process."
She was telling them the truth. And sooner or later they would understand and accept it. She wasn't that little careless girl, they used to know, anymore. Now she was the one giving orders. That girl, the Devil they knew, she had to die. But she didn't. Somehow, she managed to survive the fall to lava-lake, somehow she managed not to go insane when new knowledge filled her mind. She was always there in the corner of the mind. And the impossible was happening. Program became able to feel. She was sitting there scared to death, hiding her fear. Was Azrail right? Will it really be impossible for them to accept her? To treat her like they treated her before? And the most important: was it impossible for her to stay herself?
" Why didn't you tell us before?" Morpheus finally asked. "Do you really mistrust us so much? But why now, then?"
"Why now? Before I didn't know it myself before." Devil paused. "It's becoming a tradition: you have to die to understand. I died, Morpheus. And to survive I had to remember things I never knew. Instincts."
"Who are you then?" Neo asked. " Every program has to be written by someone. "
Devil nodded. "Every program. Even the matrix itself, even that world. Do you know the difference between them? Programs from the one world cannot exist in another. Even Smith had to use human's body to get here. And for the programs that obey the Matrix rules, it's impossible." No one interrupted her to ask what this had to do her origin. Were they too shocked? Too afraid? " That was something Architect always tried to change. He wanted to control this world like he controlled the Matrix."
"You mean that you were created by the Architect?" Niobe exclaimed.
"Not only." May be after all they were just too curious? " By the Architect and by the Oracle. I was planned to be "the perfect program". The one that would be able to exist in the both worlds, to receive information from the Matrix itself, to change code by it's will, but wouldn't have to obey any rules."
"Did they succeed?" Morpheus asked.
Devil nodded. "Yes, they did. After the Matrix that wasn't something impossible for them. They encountered problems only when it came to the realization. Program they wanted to have had to obey them completely, but not obeying the Matrix meant not obeying to them. It seemed to be the dead end, but then you appeared, Neo."
"Me? What does it have to do with me?" Neo asked confused.
Devil smiled. "You are able to change the Matrix, yet you are only human. That was the idea of the One. That was what I had to be. I had to believe I was human. And then the Oracle had to "find" me and to "discover" my powers. And I would be thankful to her and would believe everything she and the Architect intended to "explain" to me." Smile faded from her face. Lie. They intended to tell her the lie. And the worst thing was, that she knew: if everything went up to their plan, they would succeed. She would believe them and would do what they wanted her to do.
"But you went out of their control?" Neo asked.
Devil shook her head. "I never was under their control. They did their work a little bit too good. I never felt I was special or unusual in anyway. I never even suspected something was wrong with me." Only with the rest of the world. "Even my code showed that I was just another teenager. And because of that they had to find absolutely usual and normal girl in the city with ten millions citizens. That was hard even for them." She smiled. " And then I met you. I still don't know what made me to act like that. But there is something I'm sure of: I did what I wanted to, what I felt to be right. And if I had a choice I'd do the same thing again."
"When we asked you what your name was." Neo started.
"I couldn't remember it." Devil answered without hesitation. " It was not like I had amnesia or something like this. I could remember my whole life, but when I started to look for details. No names, no faces."
"You sound so sure about what were the plans about you." Niobe noticed. "How can you know?" "I just do." Devil replied. "It's in the code, may be. I'm not sure. I was created to know." "And still, what about your appearance?" Morpheus asked. "Not that I'm concerned, just curious." "Didn't Neo tell you?" Yes, she needed a moment to make sure if he didn't, but she didn't want to. "All supernatural things that happen are programs that had disobeyed the rules. And as I was supposed to be a human, I broke the rules by my resurrection."
"But what about me? And Smith?" Neo asked.
"You never broke the rules, Neo. You were not supposed to be killed in the Matrix, remember? And Smith. He got over this. If the program is strong enough, it can change its appearance. Smith is strong. Although some programs prefer to show they are rebels. Azrail, for example. And some see no need in masquerade. Like me." Devil paused. "What are you going to say, Trinity? You are keeping silence for a very long time now." Are you going to tell me you were wrong trusting me? Are you going to tell me I betrayed you just like the others?
Trinity looked straight into her eyes and Devil couldn't help but to "recognize" the expression of her face. That was the expression she had half an year ago, when she was deciding Neo's fate.
Can't find yourself lost in your lie
Evanescence "Everybody's fool"
" What do you mean?" Neo asked totally confused. "How can you not exist there, if there is the real world? It doesn't make any sense."
"Oh, no. It makes sense, Neo. It makes sense perfectly well." Devil said silently. " Because no program can enter the real world. And I'm nothing more than the program."
"You are not." Trinity breathed out.
"Yes, I'm." Devil smiled bitterly. "Look at me. I'm not the girl you used to know. I changed, Trinity. You said it yourself. I became what I had to become, and I lost myself in the process."
She was telling them the truth. And sooner or later they would understand and accept it. She wasn't that little careless girl, they used to know, anymore. Now she was the one giving orders. That girl, the Devil they knew, she had to die. But she didn't. Somehow, she managed to survive the fall to lava-lake, somehow she managed not to go insane when new knowledge filled her mind. She was always there in the corner of the mind. And the impossible was happening. Program became able to feel. She was sitting there scared to death, hiding her fear. Was Azrail right? Will it really be impossible for them to accept her? To treat her like they treated her before? And the most important: was it impossible for her to stay herself?
" Why didn't you tell us before?" Morpheus finally asked. "Do you really mistrust us so much? But why now, then?"
"Why now? Before I didn't know it myself before." Devil paused. "It's becoming a tradition: you have to die to understand. I died, Morpheus. And to survive I had to remember things I never knew. Instincts."
"Who are you then?" Neo asked. " Every program has to be written by someone. "
Devil nodded. "Every program. Even the matrix itself, even that world. Do you know the difference between them? Programs from the one world cannot exist in another. Even Smith had to use human's body to get here. And for the programs that obey the Matrix rules, it's impossible." No one interrupted her to ask what this had to do her origin. Were they too shocked? Too afraid? " That was something Architect always tried to change. He wanted to control this world like he controlled the Matrix."
"You mean that you were created by the Architect?" Niobe exclaimed.
"Not only." May be after all they were just too curious? " By the Architect and by the Oracle. I was planned to be "the perfect program". The one that would be able to exist in the both worlds, to receive information from the Matrix itself, to change code by it's will, but wouldn't have to obey any rules."
"Did they succeed?" Morpheus asked.
Devil nodded. "Yes, they did. After the Matrix that wasn't something impossible for them. They encountered problems only when it came to the realization. Program they wanted to have had to obey them completely, but not obeying the Matrix meant not obeying to them. It seemed to be the dead end, but then you appeared, Neo."
"Me? What does it have to do with me?" Neo asked confused.
Devil smiled. "You are able to change the Matrix, yet you are only human. That was the idea of the One. That was what I had to be. I had to believe I was human. And then the Oracle had to "find" me and to "discover" my powers. And I would be thankful to her and would believe everything she and the Architect intended to "explain" to me." Smile faded from her face. Lie. They intended to tell her the lie. And the worst thing was, that she knew: if everything went up to their plan, they would succeed. She would believe them and would do what they wanted her to do.
"But you went out of their control?" Neo asked.
Devil shook her head. "I never was under their control. They did their work a little bit too good. I never felt I was special or unusual in anyway. I never even suspected something was wrong with me." Only with the rest of the world. "Even my code showed that I was just another teenager. And because of that they had to find absolutely usual and normal girl in the city with ten millions citizens. That was hard even for them." She smiled. " And then I met you. I still don't know what made me to act like that. But there is something I'm sure of: I did what I wanted to, what I felt to be right. And if I had a choice I'd do the same thing again."
"When we asked you what your name was." Neo started.
"I couldn't remember it." Devil answered without hesitation. " It was not like I had amnesia or something like this. I could remember my whole life, but when I started to look for details. No names, no faces."
"You sound so sure about what were the plans about you." Niobe noticed. "How can you know?" "I just do." Devil replied. "It's in the code, may be. I'm not sure. I was created to know." "And still, what about your appearance?" Morpheus asked. "Not that I'm concerned, just curious." "Didn't Neo tell you?" Yes, she needed a moment to make sure if he didn't, but she didn't want to. "All supernatural things that happen are programs that had disobeyed the rules. And as I was supposed to be a human, I broke the rules by my resurrection."
"But what about me? And Smith?" Neo asked.
"You never broke the rules, Neo. You were not supposed to be killed in the Matrix, remember? And Smith. He got over this. If the program is strong enough, it can change its appearance. Smith is strong. Although some programs prefer to show they are rebels. Azrail, for example. And some see no need in masquerade. Like me." Devil paused. "What are you going to say, Trinity? You are keeping silence for a very long time now." Are you going to tell me you were wrong trusting me? Are you going to tell me I betrayed you just like the others?
Trinity looked straight into her eyes and Devil couldn't help but to "recognize" the expression of her face. That was the expression she had half an year ago, when she was deciding Neo's fate.