Frozen: The Crumbling of the Wall

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~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Elizabeth's Studio

Elizabeth didn't even care about the dead tone he used when he told her no. This needed to happen. She wasn't about to let him continue like this. "Too bad."

Jason didn't say anything to her. He just looked at her more coldly than he had ever.

Elizabeth wasn't phased in the slightest. "Talk to me Jason." She asked him.

Jason shook his head. He wasn't going to do this, he couldn't. "Leave me alone."

"You used to talk to me. I was the first person you told about what Carly and Sonny had done while you were shot. You trusted me then. What happened?". In truth she knew what had happened. All of the little and big things that almost killed what they had. The casualty was the complete trust.

Jason just kept shaking his head. "No."

She knew of only one way to get him to talk to her. His wall was to high to do things this way. She was just afraid of doing that to him. But she had to. It needed to be done.

"I bet you're relieved that Courtney's gone." She told him. Courtney was the easiest target she had at the moment. She could make him see that his wasn't all his fault. He wouldn't believe her completely now. But at least she could make him see that some of his guilt should be blame for her and others.

Jason's head snapped up at her. "I don't want to hear about her."

"Okay then lets talk about your baby. I just love how you pushed Courtney off the boat deck, causing her to lose it. Oh, no wait. That was her." Elizabeth said as she went for the jugular. This was the worst topic she could speak of with him. And she was doing it.

"Shut up!" Jason yelled at her. "You don't understand."

"Then make me understand." Jason said nothing so Elizabeth continued, hating herself more with every word that came out of her mouth. "Oh, and not saving Emily from cancer. How could you Jason? She needed you to go in her body and fight off the cancer for her. And you let her down. Just like you let Courtney down when she came to rescue Carly when you told her to stay."

"You're so bad Jason. You made Courtney take drugs. Do you think she blames you for ruining her life?" Elizabeth questioned him. The odd truth of that statement was its truth. Knowing that girl, she probably did blame him.

Jason jumped up and began to pace the room. "Just be quiet." He pleaded with her. She didn't know what she was doing to him.

"NO. I will not be quiet. You let down Sonny! You did everything he asked. But it wasn't enough for him. You should have worked harder to be his perfect helper. That was so wrong of you Jason. And Carly! You didn't pick up her messes fast enough."

Jason was hugging himself now. He was shaking as though he were cold. Elizabeth fought the urge to go and hold him. But the more he let go, the more he would talk. He held on to control like she couldn't believe. But he needed to surrender that control. Just for tonight. He would be safe with her. Couldn't he see that?

"I bet you're baby is mad. Courtney jumped out of a boat into freezing water and lost it. But its you that the baby is mad at. Cause that makes so much sense. You would have protected that child to the death Jason! But you didn't know. Courtney ke-..."

Jason ran over and grabbed her by the sholders and shook her. "I said to stop talking!" Elizabeth was slightly shocked. But no where as near shocked as Jason. He backed away slowly with his mouth hanging open. Elizabeth could see just how much he was shaking now.

"I'm sorry. Elizabeth I swear I didn't mean that." He had backed all away up against a wall. And now he was sinking down it holding himself. Elizabeth felt her heart break for the thousanth time. This was not how it was supposed to be for him. He deserved happiness. Not this. He looked like a lost child. But this needed to happen. She could see it in his eyes. She was as close as she was going to get to him letting go. If he didn't talk to her tonight then she had the feeling he never would.

Elizabeth walked slowly towards him, he was still repeating how sorry he was. "Jason. Its okay. I promise you, its okay."

"I just couldn't listen to you anymore. I can't deal with that." He sobbed. His cheeks had tears streaming down them. He held himself tighter.

"I can help you. Just let me in Jason." She pleaded with him. She was vaugely aware of the single tear that moved down her own face.

Jason just sat there crying and holding himself. He wished it was Elizabeth's arms around him instead of his own. He didn't know how to open up to anyone. Not like she was asking. Letting go like that was something he had never done before. And now she was asking him to do it.

Elizabeth decided to take a even bigger risk. She moved closer to Jason and sat next to him. She slowly moved her arms around him to hold him. "Shhh, just talk to me."

"I can't." He whispered to her. His tears were still going strong.

"Just talk about anything." She encouraged him.

"Courtney would say that. She wanted me with her all the time. Just to talk to her. But then she goes and keeps the baby a secret. She didn't talk to me then. Help me keep my focus she said. Did she think it would give me a reason to try harder to be careful? That the baby would have been my reason to take less chances. I didn't know Elizabeth. You knew you were going to have a baby. You got to love it. You got to talk to it. Sonny and Carly knew that they had a baby. Sonny and Lily knew. Courtney knew. She got to be with it. I didn't. I don't know how to love something I don't know. And I can't handle that. Does that make me bad? That I don't know how to love my own baby. It was never there for me. It was never real. By the time I found out it was gone. I'm bad, that makes me worse than anything else. Doesn't it?" Jason sobbed into her shoulder.

Elizabeth didn't know how to answer his question. She was at a loss as to what to say. She couldn't speak even if she wanted to though. But Jason wasn't pausing for her answer.

"I think it does. I do bad things all the time. I hurt people. And not for Sonny. All by myself. Did you know that Lila can't sleep she gets so worried sometimes? Reginald will call me and tell me that she is getting scared for me and I go over to show her I'm okay. And Emily. Her too. She shouldn't worry about anyone but herself. I was worse at first to them. Did you know that? I didn't know how to act. And I broke them too. I'm sorry about that too. Sonny told me that his world was one where the Quartermiane's had no power. Thats one of the reasons why I went to work for him. Thats the main reason. It was the worst thing I could do to them, and I did it."

Elizabeth listened to him. He was even sorry about the Quartermaines? This stuff was really kept in him a long time. She let him continue while she stroked his hair. Tears were running down both their faces. It was breaking her heart to hear this. It had broken his to live it.

"But that doesn't matter. At least they don't have to suffer because of what I do. They won't have to get a guard. Courtney should have had one. I couldn't believe it when I saw her standing there, with Alcazar." Jason started shaking a bit less. His tears were soaking her shirt. "When I saw her there. I was mad. I couldn't believe how dumb she was. Why would she do that? She knew then. She came to that place with our baby. And she knew. She jumped in that water knowing it was freezing. The guy told her it would most likely kill her. But a baby? She didn't even stop to consider the baby. She didn't trust me. She killed our baby. She killed my baby becuase I wasn't there."

Elizabeth closed her eyes, silently cursing Courtney Matthews. How could she do this to him?

"Would you have done that?" He asked her. Again he didn't wait for a response. "I don't think you would. Then again, I don't think anyone would. I love you so much. All I wanted was to be with you. But I messed that up too. I hurt you. Just like I hurt everyone else. Thats why I don't deserve peoples love, or worry. Because I'll only hurt them. And they hurt me too. That night, when you walked out. That was the first time I felt hurt like that. But I knew I deserved it. Cause I hurt you first."

"No. You didn't deserve that. I was mad. I didn't mean those things. I'm sorry Jason." She whispered into his hair. She had caused him more hurt than anyone else he loved. Her.

"Yes you did. But thats okay. I understand. Courtney was my punishment. I know that now. I deserved all of this."

Elizabeth pushed him to a position so he could see her face. "I don't ever want you to think that again. Never. You don't deserve what happend. If you ever believe anything I tell you. That and I love you are the two."

Jason nodded to her. He was so tired. He felt his eyes falling shut.

"Go to sleep, we can talk more tomorrow."

"Elizabeth?" he whispered as she let him lay down with his head in her lap.

"Yes?"

"I love you."

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Corinthos Penthouse

Carly was crying as she sat on the couch. She couldn't believe the things he had said. She didn't hear Sonny come in to the penthouse.

He ran over to see what was the matter with his wife. "Carly? Whats wrong, is it the baby?"

Carly looked up at him thru her tear filled eyes. "I went to see Jason."

Sonny sat down, knowing the source of her tears now. Had Jason really been so far gone that the visit had driven her to tears? He didn't say anything as Carly started to talk.

"At first he wouldn't even talk to me. He just sat there. I started telling him about dumb little things. Nothing special. And he just turned to me all of a sudden asking why I was there. And I told him that I was checking on him." Carly stopped for a second to catch her breath. The details of the conversation would be fresh for the rest of her life it seemed. To know she had done that to him. "Then he asked why I cared so much. He didn't even know. I mean, half the time he would tell me that I care too much. That I needed to back off a bit. I told him that I loved him. And do you know what he asked me Sonny?"

She was acutally asking the question so he just shrugged. He had no idea.

"He asked me what I had done. He thought I was there to get him to go clean up my mess. I was shocked. I couldn't believe that he would think that. But then again I started to think over the past couple months. We haven't been his friends Sonny. This is our faults. He told me that the Jason we know is dead. That he became what he hated for us. It was what he thought we needed. So he ruined himself. Sonny what did we do?"

She fell into his arms, sobbing again. Sonny could feel the guilt settle in. What if they couldn't help him after all?

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Elizabeth's Studio

Elizabeth watched him sleep again. She seemed to do a lot of that these days. The tears on his face had dried. But she kept on crying silently.

They all loved him. But how is it that they could do this to him? This wasn't what love and family was about. But now he must think that was the case.

She was going to show him that it wasn't true. She would help him get back to himself. Just like he had helped her find herself.



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