Title: Friendship.Revisited.
Author: JAGfreak
Rating: PG-13 (Just to be on the safe side.)
Chapter 3
A/N: So, I hope you all are having a merry Christmas. I know I am. Just a little present from me to you cause I had a little extra time on my hands. Merry Christmas!
*****************JAG HQ-Mac's POV**********
I didn't get much sleep last night. I just couldn't stop thinking about everything and how I was ever going to be able to even look at Harm again. I know one thing though, I do NOT want to be faced with talking to him about what I said last night. UGHHHH! I'm so stupid..why couldn't I have just kept my mouth shut??? It's served me well for 8 years! But immediately after saying this..I have to take it back. I have weighed the burden of loving him without knowing his feelings for far too long...but now, after being so humiliated..I wonder if it would've been better to keep it to myself.
So, with nothing better to do than to lie there on my bed and ponder the humiliation that had been and was probably to come.I decided to go into work early to get a fresh start. And, Here I was at my desk...sitting, and pondering about the humiliation that had been and that was probably to come. Pathetic? Oh Yeah..that was putting it mildly.
Last night when I had arrived back at my apartment, I was fuming. I ranted to Jingo for a good 45 minutes before heading to the kitchen to seek comfort from a few friends of mine..Ben and Jerry.
After consuming a pint and a half while watching some sappy movie on lifetime, I was left with a bad stomach ache, puffy eyes and an empty box of Kleenex. But, I think I've done a good job of pulling myself together..no one would ever know what a state I had been in. It's amazing what makeup did for my puffy dark-circled eyes. After that, I just took a couple spoons of pepto.and all I was left with was a bruised ego and a broken heart.*sarcastic shrug*.no biggie.
The office was quite..just me and PO Jennifer Coates on the entire floor. She was busy typing away at her desk, while I was sitting in my office pretending to have something to do.
I can't believe Harm is having a baby...with another woman.*buries face in hands* nothing will ever be the same....I hate him! I hate him because I can't hate him! And now I'm not making any sense....
****************JAG HQ-Harm's POV***************
I walked into the bullpen, determination in each step. I had tried to call Mac several times last night, but for some reason...she wasn't picking up. I was in a very good mood when I woke up this morning, and since then I can't stop whistling. There is something so indescribably perfect about knowing that the woman you've loved for so long, has secretly loved you back.
Sure, I was still upset at her...there were sooo many things to talk about. But, I was determined to talk with her as soon as possible. That's why I'm here ..I'm not used to seeing the bullpen this empty.the lights off.I've never been here early.
I drop by my office briefly to shed my coat, cover, and briefcase before heading off in the direction of Mac's office.
The door was shut, and the blinds were closed...big Mac warning sign. I stood there for several seconds, contemplating my next move..head and heart soon got into a fight..and as the Admiral will tell you, I am run by my emotions...so needles to say I knocked on the door.
************************JAG HQ-Mac's POV********************
Oh great...what could anyone possibly want from me this early? I say angrily: "It's Open."
**********************JAG HQ-Harm's POV****************
I open the door and walk in, shutting the door behind me.
"Hey." I say softly while standing there, arms folded.
I can tell she has been crying...
*************************JAG HQ-Mac's POV**************
crap. This is great, this is just great. I don't need this right now....now or ever. I look down at my desk, unsure of where this conversation would go.
"Hey..."
*********************JAG HQ-Harm's POV***************
I clear my throat. "Mac?..we need to talk."
********************JAG HQ-Mac's POV*****************
I retort nonchalantly: "About what?"
*********************JAG HQ-Harm's POV**********
I stare at her intently: "come on Maaac, last night...my apartment.."
********************JAG HQ-Mac's POV*****************
I look up, and say bitterly: "Yeah, Catherine Gale showed up just in time.."
*********************JAG HQ-Harm's POV*************
"What does Catherine have to do with this?"
********************JAG HQ-Mac's POV*************
I fold my arms across my chest and continue on in a bitter tone:
"She's very beautiful Harm, I'm happy for you..really. Now, if you'll excuse me I have a lot of work to get done."
*******************JAG HQ-Harm's POV***********
I wear a puzzled look. what is wrong with her??? Did I miss something?????
"Mac..what's going on here? Care to tell me what this is all about?" I start to walk closer toward her desk.
******************JAG HQ-Mac's POV*************
I glare at him angrily and stand up from my chair. I raise my voice a little too loudly at him and say:
"Harm, I don't have time for this right now!" I get up and walk around to the side of my desk. I stare at him and he hasn't moved. "Did you NOT hear what I just said?" I'm getting very emotional at this point but I'm trying ever so hard to keep my tears at bay. I take a few extra steps to my little book shelf, pick a law book up and pretend to look for something in it.
*********************JAG HQ---Harm's POV******
She's just a few feet away..looking through a law book, and ignoring my completely. What's wrong with her??? She's obviously very upset. I get exasperated and say in an angry voice: "OK MAC, times up.tell me what the he** is going on."
********************JAG HQ-Mac's POV***************
My anger escalated to the boiling point at his words and I look at him and angrily shout:
" What's going ON??? What's going on??? I'm talking about you and Catherine, Harm!!! Tell me, just HOW LONG have you been screwing her?!?"
I walk past him angrily, shoving the law book into his folded arms at his chest on my way to the door. I choke through my emotional state as I get in one last comment:
" Congrats on the new baby.I'm sure you two will be very happy together."
*********************JAG HQ-Harm's POV*************
I stare at her back, speechless...she thought....thought Catherine and I were??? How the he** could she think that?!?!?!?! I place the book calmly back on her shelf and turn to her and say angrily but softly:
"Catherine and I are friends. The baby is NOT mine. And though It's NONE of your business, I have never "screwed" her."
I walk past her and grab the door knob, leaving as soon as possible and slamming the door behind me.
***********************JAG HQ-Mac's POV*************
Tears fall down my cheeks as I stare at the shut door..I collapse into the nearest chair and sob. Forget the damage I had just caused to an "Us"....I may have just ruined what was left of our friendship..
THE END for now. Let me know if I should continue..
Author: JAGfreak
Rating: PG-13 (Just to be on the safe side.)
Chapter 3
A/N: So, I hope you all are having a merry Christmas. I know I am. Just a little present from me to you cause I had a little extra time on my hands. Merry Christmas!
*****************JAG HQ-Mac's POV**********
I didn't get much sleep last night. I just couldn't stop thinking about everything and how I was ever going to be able to even look at Harm again. I know one thing though, I do NOT want to be faced with talking to him about what I said last night. UGHHHH! I'm so stupid..why couldn't I have just kept my mouth shut??? It's served me well for 8 years! But immediately after saying this..I have to take it back. I have weighed the burden of loving him without knowing his feelings for far too long...but now, after being so humiliated..I wonder if it would've been better to keep it to myself.
So, with nothing better to do than to lie there on my bed and ponder the humiliation that had been and was probably to come.I decided to go into work early to get a fresh start. And, Here I was at my desk...sitting, and pondering about the humiliation that had been and that was probably to come. Pathetic? Oh Yeah..that was putting it mildly.
Last night when I had arrived back at my apartment, I was fuming. I ranted to Jingo for a good 45 minutes before heading to the kitchen to seek comfort from a few friends of mine..Ben and Jerry.
After consuming a pint and a half while watching some sappy movie on lifetime, I was left with a bad stomach ache, puffy eyes and an empty box of Kleenex. But, I think I've done a good job of pulling myself together..no one would ever know what a state I had been in. It's amazing what makeup did for my puffy dark-circled eyes. After that, I just took a couple spoons of pepto.and all I was left with was a bruised ego and a broken heart.*sarcastic shrug*.no biggie.
The office was quite..just me and PO Jennifer Coates on the entire floor. She was busy typing away at her desk, while I was sitting in my office pretending to have something to do.
I can't believe Harm is having a baby...with another woman.*buries face in hands* nothing will ever be the same....I hate him! I hate him because I can't hate him! And now I'm not making any sense....
****************JAG HQ-Harm's POV***************
I walked into the bullpen, determination in each step. I had tried to call Mac several times last night, but for some reason...she wasn't picking up. I was in a very good mood when I woke up this morning, and since then I can't stop whistling. There is something so indescribably perfect about knowing that the woman you've loved for so long, has secretly loved you back.
Sure, I was still upset at her...there were sooo many things to talk about. But, I was determined to talk with her as soon as possible. That's why I'm here ..I'm not used to seeing the bullpen this empty.the lights off.I've never been here early.
I drop by my office briefly to shed my coat, cover, and briefcase before heading off in the direction of Mac's office.
The door was shut, and the blinds were closed...big Mac warning sign. I stood there for several seconds, contemplating my next move..head and heart soon got into a fight..and as the Admiral will tell you, I am run by my emotions...so needles to say I knocked on the door.
************************JAG HQ-Mac's POV********************
Oh great...what could anyone possibly want from me this early? I say angrily: "It's Open."
**********************JAG HQ-Harm's POV****************
I open the door and walk in, shutting the door behind me.
"Hey." I say softly while standing there, arms folded.
I can tell she has been crying...
*************************JAG HQ-Mac's POV**************
crap. This is great, this is just great. I don't need this right now....now or ever. I look down at my desk, unsure of where this conversation would go.
"Hey..."
*********************JAG HQ-Harm's POV***************
I clear my throat. "Mac?..we need to talk."
********************JAG HQ-Mac's POV*****************
I retort nonchalantly: "About what?"
*********************JAG HQ-Harm's POV**********
I stare at her intently: "come on Maaac, last night...my apartment.."
********************JAG HQ-Mac's POV*****************
I look up, and say bitterly: "Yeah, Catherine Gale showed up just in time.."
*********************JAG HQ-Harm's POV*************
"What does Catherine have to do with this?"
********************JAG HQ-Mac's POV*************
I fold my arms across my chest and continue on in a bitter tone:
"She's very beautiful Harm, I'm happy for you..really. Now, if you'll excuse me I have a lot of work to get done."
*******************JAG HQ-Harm's POV***********
I wear a puzzled look. what is wrong with her??? Did I miss something?????
"Mac..what's going on here? Care to tell me what this is all about?" I start to walk closer toward her desk.
******************JAG HQ-Mac's POV*************
I glare at him angrily and stand up from my chair. I raise my voice a little too loudly at him and say:
"Harm, I don't have time for this right now!" I get up and walk around to the side of my desk. I stare at him and he hasn't moved. "Did you NOT hear what I just said?" I'm getting very emotional at this point but I'm trying ever so hard to keep my tears at bay. I take a few extra steps to my little book shelf, pick a law book up and pretend to look for something in it.
*********************JAG HQ---Harm's POV******
She's just a few feet away..looking through a law book, and ignoring my completely. What's wrong with her??? She's obviously very upset. I get exasperated and say in an angry voice: "OK MAC, times up.tell me what the he** is going on."
********************JAG HQ-Mac's POV***************
My anger escalated to the boiling point at his words and I look at him and angrily shout:
" What's going ON??? What's going on??? I'm talking about you and Catherine, Harm!!! Tell me, just HOW LONG have you been screwing her?!?"
I walk past him angrily, shoving the law book into his folded arms at his chest on my way to the door. I choke through my emotional state as I get in one last comment:
" Congrats on the new baby.I'm sure you two will be very happy together."
*********************JAG HQ-Harm's POV*************
I stare at her back, speechless...she thought....thought Catherine and I were??? How the he** could she think that?!?!?!?! I place the book calmly back on her shelf and turn to her and say angrily but softly:
"Catherine and I are friends. The baby is NOT mine. And though It's NONE of your business, I have never "screwed" her."
I walk past her and grab the door knob, leaving as soon as possible and slamming the door behind me.
***********************JAG HQ-Mac's POV*************
Tears fall down my cheeks as I stare at the shut door..I collapse into the nearest chair and sob. Forget the damage I had just caused to an "Us"....I may have just ruined what was left of our friendship..
THE END for now. Let me know if I should continue..