A/N: I tried to write a second chapter, but I don't really know where to go
with the story. This idea just popped into my head (and yeah I know it's
not very original) so I'm posting it here. If anybody thinks I should write
something else, please read, review and tell me your ideas! I like writing,
I just don't know where this story should head. And I fear it will start to
suck if I just write randomly. Well...enjoy and review!
The silence that's fallen between us
Is the loneliest sound that I've ever heard
How can we find forgiveness
If we can't find the words
When we don't talk
When we don't speak
When we don't share all the feelings
That are buried so deep
How can we know
What's hidden behind these walls
When the door's locked
When we lose touch
When you and I lose sight of us
The honesty's lost
And tears say it all
When we don't talk
When so much goes unspoken
And sorry is left unsaid
The silence remains unbroken
And our hearts are breaking instead
(Ilse DeLange - When we don't talk)
Jess was sitting in front of his computer. He hadn't talked to Rory since...well since they had sex. He found himself more in love everyday, and he wanted desperately to know how she felt. But she had been avoiding him, crossing the street at the mere sight of him. She didn't even come into the diner anymore. Dean picked up the three cups of coffee every morning, and every morning he hated him more. It seemed like Dean didn't even appreciate the beauty that was Rory. How could he just take her for granted? Jess knew, if she had been his, he would have made every day a day to remember. But she wasn't his, and that experience they shared had been the only thing he made good enough to remember. He didn't even know how she felt. He was scared she would regret it, and that their friendship would end because of this.
Instead of drowning himself in a book he decided to go in a chatbox, to laugh at some of the losers who desperately wanted sex. He signed in under the name BADBOY and looked at some of the exchanges on the screen.
He had to laugh about a comment a girl made. She made him think of Rory, and he decided to talk to her.
BADBOY: hey
COFFEELVR: hey badboy
BADBOY: you really put that guy in his place...
COFFEELVR: yeah well...guys who want sex that desperately are just pathetic...
BADBOY: I agree...it's sad when you have to ask for sex online...there are always people who can help you out...
COFFEELVR: what do you mean?
BADBOY: oh nothing...just...when you want sex, it's kinda impersonal to ask for it on a chatbox...I mean everybody has friends right...
COFFEELVR: so you say that if you want to be deflowered it's better to choose one of your friends?
BADBOY: yes
COFFEELVR: I don't agree...
BADBOY: why not?
COFFEELVR: cause I know what effects it can have...I had sex with my best friend too, and now we're barely talking to eachother...
BADBOY: what happened? He wasn't good?
COFFEELVR: quite the opposite exactly. He was amazing.
BADBOY: so what went wrong?
COFFEELVR: I have a boyfriend, who wanted sex with me, but I had told him I was experienced. So I went to my best friend to give me that experience...
**Oh my god** Jess didn't know what to type. All of the sudden he was positive this was Rory, and one part of him said he should tell her, but the other part was curious to find out what her feelings were.
BADBOY: and the experience was good. So what is the problem?
COFFEELVR: I had sex with my boyfriend one day after I had sex with my best friend. And...well...my best friend was just better...
**eat that Dean** Jess couldn't help grinning. He knew it wasn't fair to deceive her like this, but he needed to know a couple of things. And since she had been so avoidant, this might be the only way.
BADBOY: sex is something you can learn. If you love your boyfriend you two can try different things and work out something that is nice for the both of you...right?
COFFEELVR: right...the only problem is...I'm not so sure I love him anymore. I think I might have feelings for my best friend...
**she what?!** He had wanted to hear her say this for so long, and now she finally admitted it, it was hard to believe. He hesitated for a moment, what was he to do? He couldn't go up to Rory and say "hi I was badboy from the internetchat...guess what I have feelings for you too"
COFFEELVR: badboy? You still there?
BADBOY: sorry, I went to the bathroom
BADBOY: so you have feelings for your best friend
BADBOY: why don't you tell him?
COFFEELVR: I'm scared he doesn't feel the same. And I don't want to ruin our friendship.
**should I tell her?**
BADBOY: he has feelings for you...
COFFEELVR: how do you know?
BADBOY: Rory...
Before he could say anything else she had dissapeared out of the chatbox. **Damn it Mariano...** He threw himself on his bed **why are you such a screw up?!**
But still, somewhere in his head, the thought began to sink in. She cared for him. She had feelings for him. And he couldn't help grinning.
The silence that's fallen between us
Is the loneliest sound that I've ever heard
How can we find forgiveness
If we can't find the words
When we don't talk
When we don't speak
When we don't share all the feelings
That are buried so deep
How can we know
What's hidden behind these walls
When the door's locked
When we lose touch
When you and I lose sight of us
The honesty's lost
And tears say it all
When we don't talk
When so much goes unspoken
And sorry is left unsaid
The silence remains unbroken
And our hearts are breaking instead
(Ilse DeLange - When we don't talk)
Jess was sitting in front of his computer. He hadn't talked to Rory since...well since they had sex. He found himself more in love everyday, and he wanted desperately to know how she felt. But she had been avoiding him, crossing the street at the mere sight of him. She didn't even come into the diner anymore. Dean picked up the three cups of coffee every morning, and every morning he hated him more. It seemed like Dean didn't even appreciate the beauty that was Rory. How could he just take her for granted? Jess knew, if she had been his, he would have made every day a day to remember. But she wasn't his, and that experience they shared had been the only thing he made good enough to remember. He didn't even know how she felt. He was scared she would regret it, and that their friendship would end because of this.
Instead of drowning himself in a book he decided to go in a chatbox, to laugh at some of the losers who desperately wanted sex. He signed in under the name BADBOY and looked at some of the exchanges on the screen.
He had to laugh about a comment a girl made. She made him think of Rory, and he decided to talk to her.
BADBOY: hey
COFFEELVR: hey badboy
BADBOY: you really put that guy in his place...
COFFEELVR: yeah well...guys who want sex that desperately are just pathetic...
BADBOY: I agree...it's sad when you have to ask for sex online...there are always people who can help you out...
COFFEELVR: what do you mean?
BADBOY: oh nothing...just...when you want sex, it's kinda impersonal to ask for it on a chatbox...I mean everybody has friends right...
COFFEELVR: so you say that if you want to be deflowered it's better to choose one of your friends?
BADBOY: yes
COFFEELVR: I don't agree...
BADBOY: why not?
COFFEELVR: cause I know what effects it can have...I had sex with my best friend too, and now we're barely talking to eachother...
BADBOY: what happened? He wasn't good?
COFFEELVR: quite the opposite exactly. He was amazing.
BADBOY: so what went wrong?
COFFEELVR: I have a boyfriend, who wanted sex with me, but I had told him I was experienced. So I went to my best friend to give me that experience...
**Oh my god** Jess didn't know what to type. All of the sudden he was positive this was Rory, and one part of him said he should tell her, but the other part was curious to find out what her feelings were.
BADBOY: and the experience was good. So what is the problem?
COFFEELVR: I had sex with my boyfriend one day after I had sex with my best friend. And...well...my best friend was just better...
**eat that Dean** Jess couldn't help grinning. He knew it wasn't fair to deceive her like this, but he needed to know a couple of things. And since she had been so avoidant, this might be the only way.
BADBOY: sex is something you can learn. If you love your boyfriend you two can try different things and work out something that is nice for the both of you...right?
COFFEELVR: right...the only problem is...I'm not so sure I love him anymore. I think I might have feelings for my best friend...
**she what?!** He had wanted to hear her say this for so long, and now she finally admitted it, it was hard to believe. He hesitated for a moment, what was he to do? He couldn't go up to Rory and say "hi I was badboy from the internetchat...guess what I have feelings for you too"
COFFEELVR: badboy? You still there?
BADBOY: sorry, I went to the bathroom
BADBOY: so you have feelings for your best friend
BADBOY: why don't you tell him?
COFFEELVR: I'm scared he doesn't feel the same. And I don't want to ruin our friendship.
**should I tell her?**
BADBOY: he has feelings for you...
COFFEELVR: how do you know?
BADBOY: Rory...
Before he could say anything else she had dissapeared out of the chatbox. **Damn it Mariano...** He threw himself on his bed **why are you such a screw up?!**
But still, somewhere in his head, the thought began to sink in. She cared for him. She had feelings for him. And he couldn't help grinning.