I am no longer alone.
They have included me,
And made me their leader.
So why does this hurt?
I sit, wishing I could drown my woes,
Wishing I could let out some
Of this mad, wild passion
That courses through my veins.
I love you.
I disgust myself.
I am half your age,
And you have held the interest
Of many of the world's great beauties.
While I am merely a naïve kitten.
But I love you.
Why can't you see the torment
Being near you and knowing
That I shall never have your love
Brings to the depths of my soul?
You are normally so perceptive.
I feel like I will explode.
I was never meant to lead.
I was never meant to send my friends
Directly into the lines of danger.
I don't have what I need to be a leader,
And I don't have you.
John Lynch, Forgive me.
I only do this for you,
My one,
My only,
My love.