Chapter 12#
Lily gripped her steering wheel this was awful she loved him but he deserved his family and a girl both not just her.
Lily turned on the radion to clear her head.
"Darn it"the song on the radion was so what Lily was feeling it made thigns worse.
"we were all that we should'nt be this is wrong and baby its killing me its killing you though both of us are trying to be strong"
"I got somewhere else to be promises to keep with soemone else who loves me and...."
Lily changed the channel but it was the same song.
"I have made up my mind there is no turning back she's been good to me and she deserves better then this"
"its the hardest thing I'll ever haft to do to turn around and walk away pretending I don't love you"
"its the hardest thing I'll ever haft to lie to show no emotion when you start to cry"
"I can't let you see what you mean to me when my hands are tied and my hearts not free but we're not meant to be"
Lily clicked off the radio.
She knew how that guy felt as her heart felt like it was in her stomach.
Kyle stood on the porch staring at the road praying with everything he had just to see her pull back up.
"Kyle I am sorry she left"Amy said softly
"Amy just go away!Do you have any idea how much I loved her?"
"NO"
"I would give anything to hug her every morning and kiss her goodnight every night"
"Kyle she was not the one"
"YES AMY YES SHE WAS"
"Kyle you are not thinking staright"
"No for the first time in a long while I am and I know what I want"
"THEN WHAT DO YOU WANT?"
"I want Lily!!t"
Kyle went into the kitchen and took Amy's keys.
"Kyle what are you doing?"
"I am going after the woman I love and I am bringing her home and you can accept that and move on or kiss off Amy"
Amy stood on the porch glaring angrily at Kyle as he drove off.
Kyle pulled into the parking lot at Lily's house and looked for her car it was there.
Lily sat in her empty home on the floor crying without Kyle in her life she felt as empty as her home.
The doorbell rang.
Lily thought it was the owner.
"I will give you my key in one minute"
"That is one minute to long to wait for you"Kyle said.
Lily stood up and opened the door.
"Kyle...I.."
Lily was cut off when Kyle caught her by the shoulders and kissed her.
Kyle pulled back from Lily.
"I love you I want to be with you"Kyle said.
"No"
"What why?"
"because it is me or the family and You deserve both not just me"
"But that is all I want is just you"
"Kyle..it will not work"
Kyle was done talking to Lily so with one swift movement he swept her off her feet and kissed her again.
"Kyle no"Lily said wiggling free of Kyle's grip so she could stand.
"Lily stop pulling away and face it we have always been attracted to one another and it will never stop"
"Kyle I have heard all this stuff from other men and none of it is true"
"I do not understand why we can not just be together"
"Because"Lily said her vioce was weak and she was trying not cry.
"Because why I love you forget my family we can start our own family"
"No we can not start our own family we can not be together"
"why?"
"because you do not know my past or me"
"yes I do Andrea told me"
"No she did not tell you everything"
"yes she did you almost married but he robbed you and left that is all it is ok"
"No that is not all it is not ok"
"Why?"
"because I was married"
"What?"
"That was my first ex-boyfriend there was another guy who married me"
"so you divorced him right?no biggee"
"No he beat me up and did stuff to me I can not bare to think about"
"it is ok I am not like that"
"I know you are not like that but he was like you first"
"AND..?"
"His family hated me so he accused me and beat me and treated me like dirt then his family helped him try and kill me for coming between them"
"Lily I had no idea"Kyle said softly
"you see?I destroyed that family and the man I loved I do not want to do it again"
"How did they...uh..I mean"
Lily lifted her shirt a little to reveal a scar that was slashing across her stomach and side.
"I am so sorry that happened to you but it will not happen again"
"it will but not if I leave and we forget about each other"
"that is not possible I will never forget you or let you go"
"Kyle please it is better for both of us"Lily said walking pass him to the door.
"Lily no"Kyle caught Lily by the arm.
"Stop it let go" Lily yelled.
"No"
"Kyle move"
Kyle went to push Lily away from the door but he pushed her to hard and she fell backwards onto the floor.
Lily stood up and looked at Kyle with tears in her eyes a tear rolled down her cheek.
"I am sorry"Lily said pushing past Kyle and running crying down the hall.
"Lily wait I am sorry it was an accident come back"Kyle stood in the door way feeling stupid for acting like that.
Lily gripped her steering wheel this was awful she loved him but he deserved his family and a girl both not just her.
Lily turned on the radion to clear her head.
"Darn it"the song on the radion was so what Lily was feeling it made thigns worse.
"we were all that we should'nt be this is wrong and baby its killing me its killing you though both of us are trying to be strong"
"I got somewhere else to be promises to keep with soemone else who loves me and...."
Lily changed the channel but it was the same song.
"I have made up my mind there is no turning back she's been good to me and she deserves better then this"
"its the hardest thing I'll ever haft to do to turn around and walk away pretending I don't love you"
"its the hardest thing I'll ever haft to lie to show no emotion when you start to cry"
"I can't let you see what you mean to me when my hands are tied and my hearts not free but we're not meant to be"
Lily clicked off the radio.
She knew how that guy felt as her heart felt like it was in her stomach.
Kyle stood on the porch staring at the road praying with everything he had just to see her pull back up.
"Kyle I am sorry she left"Amy said softly
"Amy just go away!Do you have any idea how much I loved her?"
"NO"
"I would give anything to hug her every morning and kiss her goodnight every night"
"Kyle she was not the one"
"YES AMY YES SHE WAS"
"Kyle you are not thinking staright"
"No for the first time in a long while I am and I know what I want"
"THEN WHAT DO YOU WANT?"
"I want Lily!!t"
Kyle went into the kitchen and took Amy's keys.
"Kyle what are you doing?"
"I am going after the woman I love and I am bringing her home and you can accept that and move on or kiss off Amy"
Amy stood on the porch glaring angrily at Kyle as he drove off.
Kyle pulled into the parking lot at Lily's house and looked for her car it was there.
Lily sat in her empty home on the floor crying without Kyle in her life she felt as empty as her home.
The doorbell rang.
Lily thought it was the owner.
"I will give you my key in one minute"
"That is one minute to long to wait for you"Kyle said.
Lily stood up and opened the door.
"Kyle...I.."
Lily was cut off when Kyle caught her by the shoulders and kissed her.
Kyle pulled back from Lily.
"I love you I want to be with you"Kyle said.
"No"
"What why?"
"because it is me or the family and You deserve both not just me"
"But that is all I want is just you"
"Kyle..it will not work"
Kyle was done talking to Lily so with one swift movement he swept her off her feet and kissed her again.
"Kyle no"Lily said wiggling free of Kyle's grip so she could stand.
"Lily stop pulling away and face it we have always been attracted to one another and it will never stop"
"Kyle I have heard all this stuff from other men and none of it is true"
"I do not understand why we can not just be together"
"Because"Lily said her vioce was weak and she was trying not cry.
"Because why I love you forget my family we can start our own family"
"No we can not start our own family we can not be together"
"why?"
"because you do not know my past or me"
"yes I do Andrea told me"
"No she did not tell you everything"
"yes she did you almost married but he robbed you and left that is all it is ok"
"No that is not all it is not ok"
"Why?"
"because I was married"
"What?"
"That was my first ex-boyfriend there was another guy who married me"
"so you divorced him right?no biggee"
"No he beat me up and did stuff to me I can not bare to think about"
"it is ok I am not like that"
"I know you are not like that but he was like you first"
"AND..?"
"His family hated me so he accused me and beat me and treated me like dirt then his family helped him try and kill me for coming between them"
"Lily I had no idea"Kyle said softly
"you see?I destroyed that family and the man I loved I do not want to do it again"
"How did they...uh..I mean"
Lily lifted her shirt a little to reveal a scar that was slashing across her stomach and side.
"I am so sorry that happened to you but it will not happen again"
"it will but not if I leave and we forget about each other"
"that is not possible I will never forget you or let you go"
"Kyle please it is better for both of us"Lily said walking pass him to the door.
"Lily no"Kyle caught Lily by the arm.
"Stop it let go" Lily yelled.
"No"
"Kyle move"
Kyle went to push Lily away from the door but he pushed her to hard and she fell backwards onto the floor.
Lily stood up and looked at Kyle with tears in her eyes a tear rolled down her cheek.
"I am sorry"Lily said pushing past Kyle and running crying down the hall.
"Lily wait I am sorry it was an accident come back"Kyle stood in the door way feeling stupid for acting like that.