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=============Chapter twenty-Six=============
Naraku watched Kagome who had tears rolling down her cheeks from her dreams Naraku had poisoned.
Kagura watched Kagome. ~She really does look like Kikyo.....Naraku.....even I, your own creation, think that what you do is cruel......Everyone hates you, even I.~
Naraku glanced sharply at Kagura, ~Don't think I don't know that look Kagura....but as long as you don't act upon your hatred towards me. You shall stay alive......beware Kagura, I am always watching you....~
**************************** Sango quietly yawned as she peeked her eyes open, the bright morning light blinded her eyes. She saw a figure not far from her as she squinted her eyes to see who it was.
She saw InuYasha, leaning against the wall and staring down at Kagome's yellow nap sack.
Sango sighed, ~I keep waking up at night to see InuYasha still awake....then asleep then awake. But he's usually awake~
"Go back to sleep Sango, it's not time to wake yet. It's only six-thirty" InuYasha muttered in a vacant voice.
"Then why are you up" Sango asked in a testy voice.
"Stop asking me questions" InuYasha said as he got up and left the hut.
Sango fell back on the floor and let out a deep sigh. ~Kagome......come back soon to us.....I don't think InuYasha will be able to take it any longer...He won't be able to fight for you....even if he wanted to, he is tired and weak. He's been constantly waking up all night .....thinking of you......~
InuYasha sighed in frustration as he walked into the forest. He halted, seeing the well past the tree. The well Kagome would always go to, to go back to her time, InuYasha walked over to the place and looked down the well.
~I'd be always waiting for her here.....~ InuYasha sat down and leaned against the well. ~It's not only me who'll be missing Kagome.....I have to remember that she also has a family back there......her mother, grandpa, and brother..... Kagome.....I miss you so damn much.....~InuYasha thought painfully.
InuYasha quickly stood up when he saw Kikyo walking towards him.
"Kikyo......" InuYasha muttered, his heart loudly thumping.
She looked at him with a sad and lonely look. She had dark lines under her eyes, as a single tear dropped down her cheeks.
She walked up to him, and touched his arms.
"I wish....that I could decide how to feel....for you. I wish.....that I could only hate you.....it would have made my rejected life on earth more better. InuYasha.....did you really......chose her? InuYasha, tell me you did so that I may hate you, so that I may be able to rid this love inside of me, that is driving me mad when I see you with my reincarnation!" Kikyo begged, she gripped InuYasha's arms tighter, "InuYasha! Tell me that you chose her, so that I may have a reason to hate you and no longer feel the aching pain of love! Then if you say that you chose Kagome, I may have a point to live on this damned earth that I long to live in, so that I will not leave until I regain all your love. With you acting like this, I do not know whether you have chosen me or not, thus I do not know whether I am to hate you or love you!"
InuYasha pulled Kikyo tightly to him and held her, "Kikyo, do I have to tell you over and over again that I have chosen you?!"
"You haven't chosen me.....nor have you chosen Kagome. You can't decide, can you? Is my love for you not strong enough for you to decide? Is YOUR love for me that weak that it is hard for you to let go of Kagome for my sake?"
"Kikyo, I have chosen you, .....there's nothing going on between me and her!"
"Do you care for her?" Kikyo asked coolly.
"I.....can't say that I....don't.....I'd be lying to you. But Kikyo, I love you! No one else!"
".....I see...." Kikyo whispered. She tightly shut her eyes, as pain ripped through her frozen heart. Her eyes turned icy cold, as she a dagger appeared out of her sleeves. "I found my dagger on the ground in a pool of blood" Kikyo said as she pointed it at InuYasha's neck,
"Don't say that word to me so easily. Love, That word can be said to anyone with no meaning at all. Your words no longer have any meaning to me, it cannot melt the ice you have created in my heart. Nor can it mend the scar you have given me. If you love me, act as if you do" Kikyo said bitterly. "InuYasha.....do you even know what love is.....I loved you so, that I offered to die with you. And this is what I get back in return. I really was a fool for giving into sentimentality that easily"
"Kikyo...."
Kikyo put the dagger closer to his neck.
InuYasha looked down at the dagger that had once been stabbed into Kagome. A memory of Kagome's lifeless looking body all bloody flashed in his mind. A sudden anger flashed through his heart. He grabbed Kikyo's wrist, knocking the dagger to the ground.
"Why Kikyo...Why did you try to kill Kagome?" InuYasha asked bitterly.
Kikyo looked at him in a shocked and sad look.
InuYasha realized the tone of his voice and how mean he had acted. He had never acted this way towards Kikyo before. He quickly let go of her wrist and backed away.
"Because..." Kikyo whispered, "do you not know how much a dead soul wants to live among the living.....and my only chance of that is Kagome's dead soul. And how much a corrupted dead soul like mine feels when she see's the person she love's falling for another?"
~Oh yah....now I remember. I didn't get mad at Kikyo then, because I blamed myself~ InuYasha sadly looked at Kikyo, he stepped up to Kikyo and held her cold hands,
"Kagome, I love you..."
Kikyo turned pale.
"I meant KIKYO!! NOT KAGOME. Kikyo!" InuYasha fixed, his heart thumping fast. He looked at Kikyo desperately, hoping for some sign that she did not mind his mistake.
"Is it true....InuYasha.....Did the truth accidentally come out.....Is it...Kagome that you love...and you have chosen me out of pity. Not out of love......Or.....do you love us both...thus you cannot chose...." Kikyo asked in a depressed voice. "I don't want to share you, InuYasha"
InuYasha looked at her, not knowing what to do. ~Kikyo.....I have never seen her this sad before....I'm so sorry.....I meant to say it to you. I don't love Kagome....right....?~
Kikyo closed her eyes, and fell to her knees. ~My head.....it feels so dizzy...My heart can't take....this pain......~ The wound Kikyo had gotten 50 years ago, reopened as blood rushed out, creating a puddle of blood. Kikyo looked down at her hands that were soaked in blood, ~Whenever I feel as if you have betrayed me.....this always happens......~ Kikyo looked up at InuYasha and dropped to the ground..
InuYasha felt as if death was better then this. ~KIKYO! First Kagome, and now this....!!!~
InuYasha picked Kikyo up, he looked down at her face. It was pale, her face expressed loneliness, bitterness and sadness.....and a certain deadness. It pained InuYasha when he thought back 50 years ago when her face was filled with warmth and love....and life.
InuYasha gave out a depressed sigh, ~ I said I would take care of you Kikyo, and I will....~
**************************** Shippo froze when he saw InuYasha with someone in his arms coming towards them. Shippo jumped off the roof and ran into the hut where Miroku, Sango and Kilala were eating breakfast.
"Sango-chan! Kagome is back! InuYasha is carrying her here!" Shippo cried out joyfully, "Hurry, hurry! Come quick!"
"Sango...I guess you may be right....Maybe InuYasha is in love with Kagome...." Miroku said.
"Houshi-sama!" Sango cried out in joy. They all ran towards the door, but bumped into InuYasha.
They all went pale, seeing that it was not Kagome he was carrying, but......the woman they all learned to despise seeing Kagome's pain. It was no one other than.....Kikyo.
"We should let her rest here for a while. She isn't in a healthy state" InuYasha said desperately, Kikyo's blood soaked onto his Haori and dripping to the floor.
"Traitor ..." Sango muttered, but not loud enough for InuYasha to hear.
Even Miroku felt strong hatred arise for Kikyo, who he had never actually hated since he believed she had done nothing wrong but love InuYasha. But seeing how at a time when they should be worrying about Kagome, InuYasha was tending Kikyo....It was cruel and ..... Cold hearted. He now hated Kikyo for it seemed that she always appeared at the wrong time.
They all stared at InuYasha. InuYasha ignored them with a heavy heart. ~ I know what they're thinking....they all hate me...I hate myself as well. But what I'm doing can't....be helped.....This will never end. Situations keep arising when I have to chose between Kikyo or Kagome.....but I'm unable to chose~
A bee buzzed in the air, as it watched InuYasha sitting next to Kikyo.
InuYasha sat on the ground, gazing down at Kikyo who lay unconscious on a mat. ~Why is it that I must always hurt the hearts of Kagome and Kikyo.....I wish I could change that fact....that I can't chose both... But that is my fate.....to chose one or the other.....isn't it....I had thought my fate was to go to Kikyo once...to go with her to hell.....but now, I don't know what I'm supposed to chose, and what my fate is. The longer it takes me to decide, the more I'll hurt both of them, when I can prevent one from getting hurt if I decided.....~
InuYasha held Kikyo's icy hand in his, ~ But I said I chose you ..didn't I, Kikyo. Then why do I still feel as if I am still choosing?~
*****Flashback*****
"Kagome, I love you..."
Kikyo turned pale.
"I meant KIKYO!! NOT KAGOME. Kikyo!" InuYasha fixed, his heart thumping fast. He looked at Kikyo desperately for some sign that she did not mind his mistake.
"Is it true....InuYasha.....Did the truth accidentally come out.....Is it...Kagome that you love...and you have chosen me out of pity. Not out of love......Or.....do you love us both...thus you cannot chose...." Kikyo asked in a depressed voice.
*****End of Flashback*****
InuYasha bowed his head, ~why did I say what I did.....I didn't mean it....~ InuYasha gripped his hands into a fist and hit the floor hard. ~ My mind...it feels so confused....why can't I sort out my feelings for Kagome.....When I do try, I back away, I feel this warning in my mind that the result will only make everything more difficult.....~
InuYasha let go of Kikto's hand and walked out the hut, with Sango, Shippo, Miroku and Kilala glaring icily at him.
InuYasha ran into the woods as he clawed a tree down in frustration. He fell back, his wound still a bit aching. He sat and leaned against a tree, and let out a frustrating sigh. His claws dug into the soil, as he through it hard at the air. He shut his eyes tightly closed, trying to get rid of this confusion. But it wouldn't leave. He opened his eyes and saw Kagome, lying helplessly on the ground, with a pool of blood around her. It seemed so real....
InuYasha stood and ran towards her, but before he could touch her, the body and blood faded away. InuYasha fell to his knees where Kagome's body had been.
"Kagome....." InuYasha whispered a cry, his heart throbbing in pain at the thought of her. ~What if.....I won't be able to find her.....~
~Kagome, I care for you, I care for you a lot. When I get you beck, I'm going to sort everything out. Kikyo....I'm sorry....I don't know why.....but I'm sorry. I'll start acting like it.....I'll act as the person who loves you would do. What am I talking about, I shouldn't be acting, it should come naturally to me....Damn, I feel so fucking scewed!!~ InuYasha stood up, deciding to go back to the hut, but he fell to the ground, and lay there, staring blankly into space. He shut his eyes, hoping that he'd feel closer to Kagome.....Memories of Kagome flashed through his mind. He kept his eyes shut.....in order to see Kagome in his thoughts. He had barley slept all night. InuYasha fell asleep....
InuYasha woke and stood up. He looked around, and saw that it was the afternoon, ~ I'd better be getting back to Kikyo.....then when she is better......I'll go in search of you, Kagome....I'm sorry I can't go right away.......again, I have chosen both you and Kikyo.....but this time, no one will get hurt~
**************************** Kagome looked up at Naraku. Her eyes flickered from darkness to life, then flickered back to the look of vacancy.
Kagome stretched out her hands to Naraku,
"I....want...to see....Inuyasha!" she demanded in a struggling voice. Her real mind fighting against Naraku's tainted Shikon jewel.
~ This girl is very strong. Even after I tainted her soul, she still fights against it...She wants to go see InuYasha.....I will teach her not to want to go against my will, that with me she shall find peace.....and now would be the perfect time to allow her to go see him.....~ Naraku thought.
Kagome fell to her knees, clutching her head as darkness and light clashed together in her mind. Many times this had happened, her mind would fight against the darkness, then a dark glow from the Shikon jewel would appear as the darkness would spread over her mind....
Naraku walked over to Kagome, who was kneeling on the ground in torture.
"Are you sure you wish to see InuYasha again, are you sure you wish to have your real self back for a while?" Naraku asked.
Kagome cried from the pain in her head, as she nodded her head.
Kohuku ( Sango's brother who is dead, but is kept alive by the shikon jewel inserted in him by Naraku), he looked at Kagome. He too had asked for that once, and the memory that had been given back to him....was painful....though it was real. He had memories of the time at war, watching everyone he loved die...
Naraku reached out his hands and touched her forehead. A rush of painful memories entered her at once. Quick flashes of InuYasha flashed through her mind. Kagome fell to the ground, crying from the memories.
"Do you still want your memories ...." Naraku asked.
Kagome struggled a nod, ~ InuYasha is looking for me, if I see him, he may help me......I must get freed of this darkness.....even with theses painful memories, even if I have a slight grudge for InuYasha.....I must get out of here....~
Naraku chuckled evilly. "Kagura, send this young girl to InuYasha, then leave her there...."
Kagura gave Naraku a quick cut eye then took Kagome away.....
**************************** "There girl, my job is done here...." Kagura said, as Kagome got off the feather. She stumbled to the floor, her head still flashing with painful memories. She could see an image of a blurry hut.
Kagome stumbled as she weakly walked in the direction of the hut. Kagome kept her eyes on the hut that was out of focus to her. She collapsed to the ground from the ache in her head. Kagome looked up,
~ I'm almost there~ Kagome thought, she tried to stand, but her mind wouldn't function. Kagome dragged herself to the hut. She stared at the wall of the hut. She clutched the rim of the window and pulled herself up, and walked towards the door.
"InuYasha....will save me....He's probably not.....in the.....hut....., he's probably out there....in search of...me. Because...I must be fair....to him.....he does.....care for me....a bit......He will....save me, I am very sure...." Kagome whispered, she reached the hut. She held the rim of the door, staring at the scene.
InuYasha was sitting next to Kikyo who lay still on a mat with a pool of blood surrounding her, holding her pale hands.
Kagome stepped back, as quietly as she could, hoping that InuYasha would not notice her....
A dark glow shone from her neck. Kagome stumbled and crashed to the ground.
InuYasha shot his head towards her. He turned pale, he dropped Kikyo's hand to the floor and stared at her, his mouth slightly open. He walked slowly over to her, ~You came back.....Kagome....~
Kagome dragged her body back away, staring at InuYasha in pain. Tears rolled down her cheeks.
~He wasn't looking for me......he was with Kikyo....~ Kagome cried as she struggled to stand. InuYasha walked closer to her. Kagome finally managed to stand, she quickly stumbled back and gave a loud cry of agony, as tears rushed down her cheeks. The painful memories came stronger then before.
~Come back to me......I will give you peace.....where you will think of nothing anymore. Give in....give in to the darkness.....~ Naraku's voice echoed in her mind.
"No...No...."Kagome cried, but it was impossible for Kagome to resist as the darkness started to return, as her pain slowly started to die away. But before it completely did, she looked tearfully up at InuYasha,
"I....hate you...."she whispered in pure agony.
InuYasha stared at Kagome with sadness,
"I guess.....I don't have the right.....to ask you......not to hate me" InuYasha whispered. His neck tightened from pain, "But I'm glad....Kagome....that you are alive..."
InuYasha stepped closer to Kagome, he looked deeply into her eyes, but saw nothing.
~Kill him...~ a voice commanded Kagome. She looked back, to see a case of arrows and a bow leaning against the wall. Kagome walked over and took it. She aimed to arrow at InuYasha...
InuYasha stared passionately at Kagome, and not at the bow. He walked slowly towards Kagome.
Kagome's face started sweat, as her hands started to shake.
"InuYasha....get away....from me!" Kagome begged, struggling with the darkness within her. She would have been completely consumed by the darkness, but seeing what she was going to do...she couldn't just let it be and give into the darkness.
"Kagome...."InuYasha whispered a cry as he walked up to Kagome and held her tightly in his arms. Kagome's hand shook, the sharp head of the bow pressing against InuYasha's heart.
"InuYasha.....move away....if I let go...." Kagome said in a struggling tone.
"If you hate me....Kagome......what is my point of living...." InuYasha whispered, as his heart throbbed in pain from hearing her say that she hated him.
He felt Kagome's body go completely cold, "You have Kikyo" Her voice icily said.
He pressed his face against her cheeks. "If you're going to kill me KILL ME!" InuYasha cried, ~ I have caused enough trouble in this world. Maybe this was my fate, to die in the hands of the person I care for. Everything would be better without me...~
"Let go of the damn arrow and be done with your job! Then you'll be free of the grudge you have with me, WOULDN'T YOU?! But I won't let go of you Kagome, if I am to die, I want to die holding you!"
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=============Chapter twenty-Six=============
Naraku watched Kagome who had tears rolling down her cheeks from her dreams Naraku had poisoned.
Kagura watched Kagome. ~She really does look like Kikyo.....Naraku.....even I, your own creation, think that what you do is cruel......Everyone hates you, even I.~
Naraku glanced sharply at Kagura, ~Don't think I don't know that look Kagura....but as long as you don't act upon your hatred towards me. You shall stay alive......beware Kagura, I am always watching you....~
**************************** Sango quietly yawned as she peeked her eyes open, the bright morning light blinded her eyes. She saw a figure not far from her as she squinted her eyes to see who it was.
She saw InuYasha, leaning against the wall and staring down at Kagome's yellow nap sack.
Sango sighed, ~I keep waking up at night to see InuYasha still awake....then asleep then awake. But he's usually awake~
"Go back to sleep Sango, it's not time to wake yet. It's only six-thirty" InuYasha muttered in a vacant voice.
"Then why are you up" Sango asked in a testy voice.
"Stop asking me questions" InuYasha said as he got up and left the hut.
Sango fell back on the floor and let out a deep sigh. ~Kagome......come back soon to us.....I don't think InuYasha will be able to take it any longer...He won't be able to fight for you....even if he wanted to, he is tired and weak. He's been constantly waking up all night .....thinking of you......~
InuYasha sighed in frustration as he walked into the forest. He halted, seeing the well past the tree. The well Kagome would always go to, to go back to her time, InuYasha walked over to the place and looked down the well.
~I'd be always waiting for her here.....~ InuYasha sat down and leaned against the well. ~It's not only me who'll be missing Kagome.....I have to remember that she also has a family back there......her mother, grandpa, and brother..... Kagome.....I miss you so damn much.....~InuYasha thought painfully.
InuYasha quickly stood up when he saw Kikyo walking towards him.
"Kikyo......" InuYasha muttered, his heart loudly thumping.
She looked at him with a sad and lonely look. She had dark lines under her eyes, as a single tear dropped down her cheeks.
She walked up to him, and touched his arms.
"I wish....that I could decide how to feel....for you. I wish.....that I could only hate you.....it would have made my rejected life on earth more better. InuYasha.....did you really......chose her? InuYasha, tell me you did so that I may hate you, so that I may be able to rid this love inside of me, that is driving me mad when I see you with my reincarnation!" Kikyo begged, she gripped InuYasha's arms tighter, "InuYasha! Tell me that you chose her, so that I may have a reason to hate you and no longer feel the aching pain of love! Then if you say that you chose Kagome, I may have a point to live on this damned earth that I long to live in, so that I will not leave until I regain all your love. With you acting like this, I do not know whether you have chosen me or not, thus I do not know whether I am to hate you or love you!"
InuYasha pulled Kikyo tightly to him and held her, "Kikyo, do I have to tell you over and over again that I have chosen you?!"
"You haven't chosen me.....nor have you chosen Kagome. You can't decide, can you? Is my love for you not strong enough for you to decide? Is YOUR love for me that weak that it is hard for you to let go of Kagome for my sake?"
"Kikyo, I have chosen you, .....there's nothing going on between me and her!"
"Do you care for her?" Kikyo asked coolly.
"I.....can't say that I....don't.....I'd be lying to you. But Kikyo, I love you! No one else!"
".....I see...." Kikyo whispered. She tightly shut her eyes, as pain ripped through her frozen heart. Her eyes turned icy cold, as she a dagger appeared out of her sleeves. "I found my dagger on the ground in a pool of blood" Kikyo said as she pointed it at InuYasha's neck,
"Don't say that word to me so easily. Love, That word can be said to anyone with no meaning at all. Your words no longer have any meaning to me, it cannot melt the ice you have created in my heart. Nor can it mend the scar you have given me. If you love me, act as if you do" Kikyo said bitterly. "InuYasha.....do you even know what love is.....I loved you so, that I offered to die with you. And this is what I get back in return. I really was a fool for giving into sentimentality that easily"
"Kikyo...."
Kikyo put the dagger closer to his neck.
InuYasha looked down at the dagger that had once been stabbed into Kagome. A memory of Kagome's lifeless looking body all bloody flashed in his mind. A sudden anger flashed through his heart. He grabbed Kikyo's wrist, knocking the dagger to the ground.
"Why Kikyo...Why did you try to kill Kagome?" InuYasha asked bitterly.
Kikyo looked at him in a shocked and sad look.
InuYasha realized the tone of his voice and how mean he had acted. He had never acted this way towards Kikyo before. He quickly let go of her wrist and backed away.
"Because..." Kikyo whispered, "do you not know how much a dead soul wants to live among the living.....and my only chance of that is Kagome's dead soul. And how much a corrupted dead soul like mine feels when she see's the person she love's falling for another?"
~Oh yah....now I remember. I didn't get mad at Kikyo then, because I blamed myself~ InuYasha sadly looked at Kikyo, he stepped up to Kikyo and held her cold hands,
"Kagome, I love you..."
Kikyo turned pale.
"I meant KIKYO!! NOT KAGOME. Kikyo!" InuYasha fixed, his heart thumping fast. He looked at Kikyo desperately, hoping for some sign that she did not mind his mistake.
"Is it true....InuYasha.....Did the truth accidentally come out.....Is it...Kagome that you love...and you have chosen me out of pity. Not out of love......Or.....do you love us both...thus you cannot chose...." Kikyo asked in a depressed voice. "I don't want to share you, InuYasha"
InuYasha looked at her, not knowing what to do. ~Kikyo.....I have never seen her this sad before....I'm so sorry.....I meant to say it to you. I don't love Kagome....right....?~
Kikyo closed her eyes, and fell to her knees. ~My head.....it feels so dizzy...My heart can't take....this pain......~ The wound Kikyo had gotten 50 years ago, reopened as blood rushed out, creating a puddle of blood. Kikyo looked down at her hands that were soaked in blood, ~Whenever I feel as if you have betrayed me.....this always happens......~ Kikyo looked up at InuYasha and dropped to the ground..
InuYasha felt as if death was better then this. ~KIKYO! First Kagome, and now this....!!!~
InuYasha picked Kikyo up, he looked down at her face. It was pale, her face expressed loneliness, bitterness and sadness.....and a certain deadness. It pained InuYasha when he thought back 50 years ago when her face was filled with warmth and love....and life.
InuYasha gave out a depressed sigh, ~ I said I would take care of you Kikyo, and I will....~
**************************** Shippo froze when he saw InuYasha with someone in his arms coming towards them. Shippo jumped off the roof and ran into the hut where Miroku, Sango and Kilala were eating breakfast.
"Sango-chan! Kagome is back! InuYasha is carrying her here!" Shippo cried out joyfully, "Hurry, hurry! Come quick!"
"Sango...I guess you may be right....Maybe InuYasha is in love with Kagome...." Miroku said.
"Houshi-sama!" Sango cried out in joy. They all ran towards the door, but bumped into InuYasha.
They all went pale, seeing that it was not Kagome he was carrying, but......the woman they all learned to despise seeing Kagome's pain. It was no one other than.....Kikyo.
"We should let her rest here for a while. She isn't in a healthy state" InuYasha said desperately, Kikyo's blood soaked onto his Haori and dripping to the floor.
"Traitor ..." Sango muttered, but not loud enough for InuYasha to hear.
Even Miroku felt strong hatred arise for Kikyo, who he had never actually hated since he believed she had done nothing wrong but love InuYasha. But seeing how at a time when they should be worrying about Kagome, InuYasha was tending Kikyo....It was cruel and ..... Cold hearted. He now hated Kikyo for it seemed that she always appeared at the wrong time.
They all stared at InuYasha. InuYasha ignored them with a heavy heart. ~ I know what they're thinking....they all hate me...I hate myself as well. But what I'm doing can't....be helped.....This will never end. Situations keep arising when I have to chose between Kikyo or Kagome.....but I'm unable to chose~
A bee buzzed in the air, as it watched InuYasha sitting next to Kikyo.
InuYasha sat on the ground, gazing down at Kikyo who lay unconscious on a mat. ~Why is it that I must always hurt the hearts of Kagome and Kikyo.....I wish I could change that fact....that I can't chose both... But that is my fate.....to chose one or the other.....isn't it....I had thought my fate was to go to Kikyo once...to go with her to hell.....but now, I don't know what I'm supposed to chose, and what my fate is. The longer it takes me to decide, the more I'll hurt both of them, when I can prevent one from getting hurt if I decided.....~
InuYasha held Kikyo's icy hand in his, ~ But I said I chose you ..didn't I, Kikyo. Then why do I still feel as if I am still choosing?~
*****Flashback*****
"Kagome, I love you..."
Kikyo turned pale.
"I meant KIKYO!! NOT KAGOME. Kikyo!" InuYasha fixed, his heart thumping fast. He looked at Kikyo desperately for some sign that she did not mind his mistake.
"Is it true....InuYasha.....Did the truth accidentally come out.....Is it...Kagome that you love...and you have chosen me out of pity. Not out of love......Or.....do you love us both...thus you cannot chose...." Kikyo asked in a depressed voice.
*****End of Flashback*****
InuYasha bowed his head, ~why did I say what I did.....I didn't mean it....~ InuYasha gripped his hands into a fist and hit the floor hard. ~ My mind...it feels so confused....why can't I sort out my feelings for Kagome.....When I do try, I back away, I feel this warning in my mind that the result will only make everything more difficult.....~
InuYasha let go of Kikto's hand and walked out the hut, with Sango, Shippo, Miroku and Kilala glaring icily at him.
InuYasha ran into the woods as he clawed a tree down in frustration. He fell back, his wound still a bit aching. He sat and leaned against a tree, and let out a frustrating sigh. His claws dug into the soil, as he through it hard at the air. He shut his eyes tightly closed, trying to get rid of this confusion. But it wouldn't leave. He opened his eyes and saw Kagome, lying helplessly on the ground, with a pool of blood around her. It seemed so real....
InuYasha stood and ran towards her, but before he could touch her, the body and blood faded away. InuYasha fell to his knees where Kagome's body had been.
"Kagome....." InuYasha whispered a cry, his heart throbbing in pain at the thought of her. ~What if.....I won't be able to find her.....~
~Kagome, I care for you, I care for you a lot. When I get you beck, I'm going to sort everything out. Kikyo....I'm sorry....I don't know why.....but I'm sorry. I'll start acting like it.....I'll act as the person who loves you would do. What am I talking about, I shouldn't be acting, it should come naturally to me....Damn, I feel so fucking scewed!!~ InuYasha stood up, deciding to go back to the hut, but he fell to the ground, and lay there, staring blankly into space. He shut his eyes, hoping that he'd feel closer to Kagome.....Memories of Kagome flashed through his mind. He kept his eyes shut.....in order to see Kagome in his thoughts. He had barley slept all night. InuYasha fell asleep....
InuYasha woke and stood up. He looked around, and saw that it was the afternoon, ~ I'd better be getting back to Kikyo.....then when she is better......I'll go in search of you, Kagome....I'm sorry I can't go right away.......again, I have chosen both you and Kikyo.....but this time, no one will get hurt~
**************************** Kagome looked up at Naraku. Her eyes flickered from darkness to life, then flickered back to the look of vacancy.
Kagome stretched out her hands to Naraku,
"I....want...to see....Inuyasha!" she demanded in a struggling voice. Her real mind fighting against Naraku's tainted Shikon jewel.
~ This girl is very strong. Even after I tainted her soul, she still fights against it...She wants to go see InuYasha.....I will teach her not to want to go against my will, that with me she shall find peace.....and now would be the perfect time to allow her to go see him.....~ Naraku thought.
Kagome fell to her knees, clutching her head as darkness and light clashed together in her mind. Many times this had happened, her mind would fight against the darkness, then a dark glow from the Shikon jewel would appear as the darkness would spread over her mind....
Naraku walked over to Kagome, who was kneeling on the ground in torture.
"Are you sure you wish to see InuYasha again, are you sure you wish to have your real self back for a while?" Naraku asked.
Kagome cried from the pain in her head, as she nodded her head.
Kohuku ( Sango's brother who is dead, but is kept alive by the shikon jewel inserted in him by Naraku), he looked at Kagome. He too had asked for that once, and the memory that had been given back to him....was painful....though it was real. He had memories of the time at war, watching everyone he loved die...
Naraku reached out his hands and touched her forehead. A rush of painful memories entered her at once. Quick flashes of InuYasha flashed through her mind. Kagome fell to the ground, crying from the memories.
"Do you still want your memories ...." Naraku asked.
Kagome struggled a nod, ~ InuYasha is looking for me, if I see him, he may help me......I must get freed of this darkness.....even with theses painful memories, even if I have a slight grudge for InuYasha.....I must get out of here....~
Naraku chuckled evilly. "Kagura, send this young girl to InuYasha, then leave her there...."
Kagura gave Naraku a quick cut eye then took Kagome away.....
**************************** "There girl, my job is done here...." Kagura said, as Kagome got off the feather. She stumbled to the floor, her head still flashing with painful memories. She could see an image of a blurry hut.
Kagome stumbled as she weakly walked in the direction of the hut. Kagome kept her eyes on the hut that was out of focus to her. She collapsed to the ground from the ache in her head. Kagome looked up,
~ I'm almost there~ Kagome thought, she tried to stand, but her mind wouldn't function. Kagome dragged herself to the hut. She stared at the wall of the hut. She clutched the rim of the window and pulled herself up, and walked towards the door.
"InuYasha....will save me....He's probably not.....in the.....hut....., he's probably out there....in search of...me. Because...I must be fair....to him.....he does.....care for me....a bit......He will....save me, I am very sure...." Kagome whispered, she reached the hut. She held the rim of the door, staring at the scene.
InuYasha was sitting next to Kikyo who lay still on a mat with a pool of blood surrounding her, holding her pale hands.
Kagome stepped back, as quietly as she could, hoping that InuYasha would not notice her....
A dark glow shone from her neck. Kagome stumbled and crashed to the ground.
InuYasha shot his head towards her. He turned pale, he dropped Kikyo's hand to the floor and stared at her, his mouth slightly open. He walked slowly over to her, ~You came back.....Kagome....~
Kagome dragged her body back away, staring at InuYasha in pain. Tears rolled down her cheeks.
~He wasn't looking for me......he was with Kikyo....~ Kagome cried as she struggled to stand. InuYasha walked closer to her. Kagome finally managed to stand, she quickly stumbled back and gave a loud cry of agony, as tears rushed down her cheeks. The painful memories came stronger then before.
~Come back to me......I will give you peace.....where you will think of nothing anymore. Give in....give in to the darkness.....~ Naraku's voice echoed in her mind.
"No...No...."Kagome cried, but it was impossible for Kagome to resist as the darkness started to return, as her pain slowly started to die away. But before it completely did, she looked tearfully up at InuYasha,
"I....hate you...."she whispered in pure agony.
InuYasha stared at Kagome with sadness,
"I guess.....I don't have the right.....to ask you......not to hate me" InuYasha whispered. His neck tightened from pain, "But I'm glad....Kagome....that you are alive..."
InuYasha stepped closer to Kagome, he looked deeply into her eyes, but saw nothing.
~Kill him...~ a voice commanded Kagome. She looked back, to see a case of arrows and a bow leaning against the wall. Kagome walked over and took it. She aimed to arrow at InuYasha...
InuYasha stared passionately at Kagome, and not at the bow. He walked slowly towards Kagome.
Kagome's face started sweat, as her hands started to shake.
"InuYasha....get away....from me!" Kagome begged, struggling with the darkness within her. She would have been completely consumed by the darkness, but seeing what she was going to do...she couldn't just let it be and give into the darkness.
"Kagome...."InuYasha whispered a cry as he walked up to Kagome and held her tightly in his arms. Kagome's hand shook, the sharp head of the bow pressing against InuYasha's heart.
"InuYasha.....move away....if I let go...." Kagome said in a struggling tone.
"If you hate me....Kagome......what is my point of living...." InuYasha whispered, as his heart throbbed in pain from hearing her say that she hated him.
He felt Kagome's body go completely cold, "You have Kikyo" Her voice icily said.
He pressed his face against her cheeks. "If you're going to kill me KILL ME!" InuYasha cried, ~ I have caused enough trouble in this world. Maybe this was my fate, to die in the hands of the person I care for. Everything would be better without me...~
"Let go of the damn arrow and be done with your job! Then you'll be free of the grudge you have with me, WOULDN'T YOU?! But I won't let go of you Kagome, if I am to die, I want to die holding you!"
**~~ How'd ya like this chapter? Tell me how you like it! Dun worry! Action is coming soon. Action between Kagome n Kikyo....well, it's not gunu REALLY be action, jus a slight violent scene...I think. Lol, I haven't wrote the chapter yet. But....yah. Hm...will Kagome shoot or not, shoot or not....read to find out!!!!!!! Ja ne and Sayonara !!! ^_^ ~~**