A/N- If I've kept anyone waiting [ha yea right], sorry I added this chapter
so late
Chap. 2
Lily's POV
"Rayne.Rayyyyne," I said softly at the closed entrance to her dormitory.
The door opened and I walked in, getting engulfed by a hug.
"Oh, Lily. How have you been?" Rayne said sadly. "I'm so, so sorry."
"I don't know," I whispered, as my eyes began to tear up. "I just don't know. Seeing everyone so happy, I figure I should just pretend that I am too, but I just can't."
We both sat down on her bed. "I see my parents' faces all the time. I hear them calling my name. I know they're not there, but they seem so real."
"God, Lils, you have to stop doing this to yourself. Look at you, you're skin and bones. You hardly smile anymore. You look like you don't care about anything anymore!"
"But how can I? They're dead," I said bitterly.
Rayne sighed deeply and gave me another hug. "Just do it for me, please?"
"I'm not sure I know how to though."
We sat in silence for moments before I said, "I'm gonna go now, okay? G'night."
I walked blindly through the halls and into my Common Room. I laid down on my side on the couch facing the fire and stared at the bright flames, dancing over the firewood.
'Potter must've heard me come in,' I thought as I listened to the sound of him closing a door and coming down the stairs.
I pretended to be asleep, knowing that he'd be curious about everything. I squeezed my eyes shut and started breathing a little more heavily.
I heard more footsteps, and I could tell that he had just squatted in front of me so his face was level with mine.
He stayed there for at least three minutes, probably staring, the whole time having me scream in my head, 'Get away! Get away!'
Then, as if things could get worse, he sat on the same couch I was pretending to take a snooze on. I could feel his body heat near my stomach, the place he had decided to sit by.
"Lily, why won't you tell me anything? Am I that horrible?" he said.
He paused, as if waiting for me to say something.
The string of 'Get away!'s were coming back to me as I started to get uncomfortable.
He sighed and said, "How can I get you to go out with me? The only reason why I'm so persistent with asking you out is 'cause I really like you. You have absolutely no idea."
'Yeah, right,' I thought.
"You're gorgeous, smart, kind to everyone," He laughed softly. "Well, kind to everyone except me."
'What do you expect when the same guy pesters you every day?'
He then took my hand. "God, Lily, you're freezing, and you're right by the fire. You're going to bed."
Next thing I know, I'm still feigning to be asleep, and I'm in James Potter's arms. He went up my staircase and tried to open the door.
"Damn," he said. "There's probably a charm or some sort of password that won't let me get in." He sighed. "Sometimes, Lily, you're too smart for your own good."
Inside my head, I was having a hard struggle between staying there, and "waking up". I knew he'd ask questions, and the state I was in right now, was not in the mood to be discussing with him.
"I'll put you in my bed."
'Agh.'
He crossed the room and went up into his dorm. Then, ever so gently, he placed me down on his bed. Right away, I could faintly smell the sweet scent of his soap. [A/N- not cologne! I'm not a big fan.] Then his soft blankets were covered up to my neck.
"Goodnight, Lily."
'Thank Merlin James is solemn enough not to climb into the bed with me.'
I heard a few, small paces to one side of the room, but no motions of a door opening and closing. And then more paces, more paces, more paces.....
~~~Lily's dream~~~
It's pitch black. It's so dark and cold. I shiver and wrap my arms around myself, trying to prevent the icy conditions to get to me. I try to look around, but I can't see anything. The darkness envelops my entire body, as I feel a disturbing sense near me.
All of sudden, I hear a piercing scream ring throughout the air. Yells and shouts of men and women. The terrifying calls of the young children. The running of many people, running away from something. And then a bright green light flashes, and for that split second, I could see everyone scattering around. Escaping. Dark, hooded figures. My parents.
I'm in black again, and I hear the slight calling of my name. Lily..Lily..Lily..come and see what I've done to your parents...Lily...
I run towards the sound, seeming to never end.
Lily....
"Where are they?! What have you done to them?!"
I keep running, not knowing where I'm going.
Lily...
"Where?! Bring me to them! I can't live without them! I love them so much! Don't hurt them!"
Lily....
"I'm coming!" I start to cry.
Lily...Lily...
"No! I won't give up! Tell me!" I scream out loudly, tears pouring down my cheeks.
Lily....
~~~End-Lily's Dream~~~
I shot straight up in the bed and I was covered in sweat. The sheets laid disarrayed around me, most of them hanging off the bed. Then I finally realized someone's hands were on my shoulders, and I jumped and screamed at the same time.
James's POV
"What the hell?" I said, concerned. "Lily, it's me, James."
Her head came hesitantly up from beneath the bed covers.
"You just had a bad dream. I was calling and shaking you, but you didn't wait up until now."
She just stared at me. Her eyes had tears in them, making them shine in the moonlight beaming from the windows. She then unexpectedly climbed from underneath the blankets, crawled to where I was standing next to the bed, and hugged me tightly around the neck, her head buried on top of my shoulder.
I just stood there, not doing anything, until she started shaking. I could hear her sobs and put my arms around her back. I leaned my head sideways so it was touching hers. I tried to soothe her, saying it was only a dream, but she kept on weeping.
After her cries subsided, she stayed there for a few moments, and then lifted her head. I felt the damp spot on my shoulder from where Lily had been.
"You okay?"
"Yeah," she said, quietly.
She put her feet on the floor, but almost collapsed standing up as I caught her.
"So tired," she whispered.
"You're staying here to sleep," I said firmly.
"But I'm too afraid to fall asleep."
I shushed her and said, "Don't worry, I'll watch you until you do."
"But the dream..." she said sleepily, going back into the bed. "I'm scared."
"It was nothing real. Nothing happened."
"But it was so horrible. The voice, Death Eaters, parents," she said even more lightly.
"It's okay, Lily, really. Your parents are home, safe."
Normal POV/third person
Lily was too exhausted to comprehend James's last words, but her last words were, "Thank you, James...thank you for just being there."
James smiled slightly. Maybe he would get somewhere with her.
He watched her small form, until certain she was asleep. And then, he went back into the Common Room to get some himself.
A/N-Review, please. Sorry again for keeping you people [or one person, or no one] waiting.
Chap. 2
Lily's POV
"Rayne.Rayyyyne," I said softly at the closed entrance to her dormitory.
The door opened and I walked in, getting engulfed by a hug.
"Oh, Lily. How have you been?" Rayne said sadly. "I'm so, so sorry."
"I don't know," I whispered, as my eyes began to tear up. "I just don't know. Seeing everyone so happy, I figure I should just pretend that I am too, but I just can't."
We both sat down on her bed. "I see my parents' faces all the time. I hear them calling my name. I know they're not there, but they seem so real."
"God, Lils, you have to stop doing this to yourself. Look at you, you're skin and bones. You hardly smile anymore. You look like you don't care about anything anymore!"
"But how can I? They're dead," I said bitterly.
Rayne sighed deeply and gave me another hug. "Just do it for me, please?"
"I'm not sure I know how to though."
We sat in silence for moments before I said, "I'm gonna go now, okay? G'night."
I walked blindly through the halls and into my Common Room. I laid down on my side on the couch facing the fire and stared at the bright flames, dancing over the firewood.
'Potter must've heard me come in,' I thought as I listened to the sound of him closing a door and coming down the stairs.
I pretended to be asleep, knowing that he'd be curious about everything. I squeezed my eyes shut and started breathing a little more heavily.
I heard more footsteps, and I could tell that he had just squatted in front of me so his face was level with mine.
He stayed there for at least three minutes, probably staring, the whole time having me scream in my head, 'Get away! Get away!'
Then, as if things could get worse, he sat on the same couch I was pretending to take a snooze on. I could feel his body heat near my stomach, the place he had decided to sit by.
"Lily, why won't you tell me anything? Am I that horrible?" he said.
He paused, as if waiting for me to say something.
The string of 'Get away!'s were coming back to me as I started to get uncomfortable.
He sighed and said, "How can I get you to go out with me? The only reason why I'm so persistent with asking you out is 'cause I really like you. You have absolutely no idea."
'Yeah, right,' I thought.
"You're gorgeous, smart, kind to everyone," He laughed softly. "Well, kind to everyone except me."
'What do you expect when the same guy pesters you every day?'
He then took my hand. "God, Lily, you're freezing, and you're right by the fire. You're going to bed."
Next thing I know, I'm still feigning to be asleep, and I'm in James Potter's arms. He went up my staircase and tried to open the door.
"Damn," he said. "There's probably a charm or some sort of password that won't let me get in." He sighed. "Sometimes, Lily, you're too smart for your own good."
Inside my head, I was having a hard struggle between staying there, and "waking up". I knew he'd ask questions, and the state I was in right now, was not in the mood to be discussing with him.
"I'll put you in my bed."
'Agh.'
He crossed the room and went up into his dorm. Then, ever so gently, he placed me down on his bed. Right away, I could faintly smell the sweet scent of his soap. [A/N- not cologne! I'm not a big fan.] Then his soft blankets were covered up to my neck.
"Goodnight, Lily."
'Thank Merlin James is solemn enough not to climb into the bed with me.'
I heard a few, small paces to one side of the room, but no motions of a door opening and closing. And then more paces, more paces, more paces.....
~~~Lily's dream~~~
It's pitch black. It's so dark and cold. I shiver and wrap my arms around myself, trying to prevent the icy conditions to get to me. I try to look around, but I can't see anything. The darkness envelops my entire body, as I feel a disturbing sense near me.
All of sudden, I hear a piercing scream ring throughout the air. Yells and shouts of men and women. The terrifying calls of the young children. The running of many people, running away from something. And then a bright green light flashes, and for that split second, I could see everyone scattering around. Escaping. Dark, hooded figures. My parents.
I'm in black again, and I hear the slight calling of my name. Lily..Lily..Lily..come and see what I've done to your parents...Lily...
I run towards the sound, seeming to never end.
Lily....
"Where are they?! What have you done to them?!"
I keep running, not knowing where I'm going.
Lily...
"Where?! Bring me to them! I can't live without them! I love them so much! Don't hurt them!"
Lily....
"I'm coming!" I start to cry.
Lily...Lily...
"No! I won't give up! Tell me!" I scream out loudly, tears pouring down my cheeks.
Lily....
~~~End-Lily's Dream~~~
I shot straight up in the bed and I was covered in sweat. The sheets laid disarrayed around me, most of them hanging off the bed. Then I finally realized someone's hands were on my shoulders, and I jumped and screamed at the same time.
James's POV
"What the hell?" I said, concerned. "Lily, it's me, James."
Her head came hesitantly up from beneath the bed covers.
"You just had a bad dream. I was calling and shaking you, but you didn't wait up until now."
She just stared at me. Her eyes had tears in them, making them shine in the moonlight beaming from the windows. She then unexpectedly climbed from underneath the blankets, crawled to where I was standing next to the bed, and hugged me tightly around the neck, her head buried on top of my shoulder.
I just stood there, not doing anything, until she started shaking. I could hear her sobs and put my arms around her back. I leaned my head sideways so it was touching hers. I tried to soothe her, saying it was only a dream, but she kept on weeping.
After her cries subsided, she stayed there for a few moments, and then lifted her head. I felt the damp spot on my shoulder from where Lily had been.
"You okay?"
"Yeah," she said, quietly.
She put her feet on the floor, but almost collapsed standing up as I caught her.
"So tired," she whispered.
"You're staying here to sleep," I said firmly.
"But I'm too afraid to fall asleep."
I shushed her and said, "Don't worry, I'll watch you until you do."
"But the dream..." she said sleepily, going back into the bed. "I'm scared."
"It was nothing real. Nothing happened."
"But it was so horrible. The voice, Death Eaters, parents," she said even more lightly.
"It's okay, Lily, really. Your parents are home, safe."
Normal POV/third person
Lily was too exhausted to comprehend James's last words, but her last words were, "Thank you, James...thank you for just being there."
James smiled slightly. Maybe he would get somewhere with her.
He watched her small form, until certain she was asleep. And then, he went back into the Common Room to get some himself.
A/N-Review, please. Sorry again for keeping you people [or one person, or no one] waiting.