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============= Chapter Thirty-Six ==============
Kagome heard birds whistling outside. She peeked opened her eyes as the bright sun light blinded her. Kagome yawned as she snuggled into her pillow,
"I wanna sleep a little longer..." Kagome muttered, but she saw something in her room that had never been there before. She focused her sight on the figure. It was InuYasha who was sleeping sitting on the floor and leaning against the far wall.
Shock ripped through Kagome. ~Oh yah.....OH NO!!! InuYasha is supposed to be sleeping on the bed, and I'M supposed to be sleeping in Mama's room....KYAAAAA!!!!!~ Kagome got out of bed and worriedly walked towards InuYasha.
Kagome crouched down next to InuYasha, ~This is the InuYasha I know. He's an annoying jack ass on the outside, but a really kind person in the inside.....But I have to admit, that I even love his annoyance and...jack assness. Bet there isn't such a word as jack assness. *sigh* Everything about him makes him the person I love~
Kagome moved her face closer to him, ~InuYasha, InuYasha, InuYasha....what will become of me and you.....~ Kagome studied InuYasha, her head leaned to one side, ~I wish we could be together.......Awwwww....you're so Kawaii !!!!! But of course......not in the babyish way....~
Kagome looked at his ears, ~Kawaii ......~
Kagome lost into her temptation and reached out for the ears. ~Awwwwww!!!~
InuYasha slowly opened his eyes, his eyes widened in shock when he saw Kagome's face up close to his, and her fingers on his ears.
Kagome gasped and fell back, her cheeks burning red.
"K-Kagome!" InuYasha said in shock.
"O-O-Ohio....." Kagome said, her heart thumping fast.
They both looked away, a blush appearing lightly on their cheeks.
For some reason, it felt extremely hard for InuYasha to swallow.
Suddenly, pain pierced InuYasha. It had come on and off all night. He coughed hard, as red blood was visible on his pale hands.
Kagome stared at his hands, that was smeared in blood.
She felt tears blurring up her vision, "I thought....I didn't want to believe....that you...weren't all healed yet" Kagome whispered.
InuYasha saw Kagome look up at him, she furiously shook her head as tears flew off her cheek,
"No...No you will be better...WHY InuYasha did you have to give up the bed for me? Without you lying down, your wounds won't heal well!" Kagome said, trying to act calm.
"Naku na....you're such a cry baby" he whispered warmly.
"It's....it's just seeing you in pain.....because of me. ALWAYS because of me....that you suffer! You always do so much for me, and yet, I can do nothing to pay you back! I owe you so much and now I feel so bad!"
Something in InuYasha's heart went dark. ~I owe....Kikyo so much . I owe her so much...that now.....everything I do for her....I'm confused whether I do it out of love, or because I owe her so much.....What if...you turn like that, Kagome.....doing things for me out of debt....and not...l-love?~
"You don't owe me anything....you've done a lot for me.....Kagome. You DON'T owe me!!!!" InuYasha said loudly, out of anger of himself, realizing his confusion for Kikyo.
Kagome stared, not knowing why InuYasha looked so angered. ~Is he....mad at me~
"InuYasha...gomen" Kagome whispered, not knowing what else to say.
He looked at her in shock, "I'm not mad at you....."
She looked deeply into his eyes. InuYasha looked into her lively, glimmering eyes.
InuYasha could hardly breath, his heart beating fast *thump thump*
~Get away from her.....get away from her, InuYasha.....or you'll regret finding out what your heart is hiding. It'll make everything harder....your choices between Kikyo and Kagome.....will become harder~ a voice in his mind echoed.
~I can't.....~ InuYasha gently pushed Kagome to the floor as he looked down at her. ~What is it...What is it that is so well hidden deep in my heart...I want to know!~
~Get away from her.....~ the voice continued to echo, ~Or you'll become more hesitant in the choices.....get away from her~
Kagome stared up at InuYasha in surprise, ~What's....going on...~
InuYasha stared down at her, his heart beating fast. Her face glowing in the sunlight.
Kagome's heart sped faster as she felt InuYasha's lips close to hers.
They just stared at each other.
~What am I doing......~
InuYasha moved away, ~ everything is bad as it is.....if what my heart is hiding will make it worse.....I have to avoid finding out....I must stay ignorant of the feeling, or....I'm scared how it'll make everything worse...~
Kagome lay on the floor, just staring up at InuYasha in shock. ~What....just happened~
InuYasha sighed, ~snap out~
"Eh, baka, I'm hungry"
Silence.
~He changed his mood so fast....~ Kagome thought as she stared up at InuYasha.
He just stood up and walked out of the room. Kagome still just lay on the ground, in total shock. ~InuYasha....~
Kagome stood up after a few minuets and walked to the window to see InuYasha walking in the snow.
~He looks so lonely....BAKA! He's not supposed to be outside! Doesn't he EVER think of his wounds?!!!!~ Kagome thought in annoyance as she ran outside.
"No one......" Kagome muttered as she looked around.
She saw Hojo running towards her. "Kagome!!!"
He ran up to her, "Ohio!"
"Ohio" Kagome replied as cheerfully as she could, but at that moment she wanted to know where InuYasha was.
"Here, I got you this" Hojo said, handing her a bottle of sun block lotion.
Kagome sweat dropped, "ehhhhh....?"
"Ah hahhaha. Your grandfather told me that you got very sick from a very bad sun burn....so I got you this! It's one of the best sun block lotions in Japan"
"A...Arigato"
"Ha ha....no problem...Um.....I was wondering if you wanted to go out today or...some other day"
"Nani....oi.....um" Kagome looked around, ~It's all InuYasha's fault! Um...what should I say to him?!~
Suddenly, the branches of a tree above them slightly moved. Kagome caught a glimpse of InuYasha's Haori.
Kagome sweat dropped again. "Oi! Hojo! Ask me some other time....I.....um am going to meet.....a doctor....far away"
"Oh! Well....hope you get a good report!" Hojo said happily.
"Hai! Sayonara !"
"Yup, Ja ne!" Hojo said as he walked away.
Kagome sighed, "InuYasha....get down from the tree"
InuYasha jumped down,
"Keh, who the hell was that scrawny guy?" InuYasha asked as he dusted the snow off himself.
"Oh, just one of my admirers, you know.....another Kouga-kun....but less demanding. Hojo is one of the most popular guy in our high school"
"K...k..Ka-Go-Me !!!!!! NEVER mention Kouga's name in front of me! Especially with the "KUN" added to it!" InuYasha yelled in annoyance as he turned his back to Kagome.
"Hai" Kagome sighed.
Silence.
InuYasha glanced at Kagome from the corner of his eyes, "D..do you..like him too?"
"Well yah, he's really nice, generous and caring"
"H.HIM?!!!!"
"Well, what's wrong with him?"
"........"
"Oh, InuYasha!" Kagome said, holding her hands together, "Are you jealous of him?" she asked brightly.
"Eh?!!!!!!! Me?! .....NO. I just think that he must be the most stupidest guy in the world to admire you" InuYasha muttered.
"No! It's because he has good taste...." Kagome yelled, "unlike you....in love with a dead girl and all" Kagome muttered.
Suddenly Kagome felt a snow ball hit her, she turned to see InuYasha have a bunch of snow balls in his hands as he started to chase her throwing it.
"BAKA!!!!!!! Don't talk about Kikyo like that!!!!!! BAKAAAA!!!!!!!!" InuYasha yelled in annoyance as he threw snow balls at her. "Your gunu die Kagome!"
Kagome stopped running, ~I'm wearing a damn skirt...don't you have any mercy you damn dog?!!!~
InuYasha stopped throwing snow balls when Kagome had suddenly stopped running and turned around and glared at him, her face shadowed.
"Ba...ka" she hissed. InuYasha froze,
~Shit.....~
"SIT! SIT! SIT! SIT!" Kagome said loudly.
InuYasha tried to run, but crashed into the snow. InuYasha was now buried deep in the snow cursing.
Kagome's face went blanc and then sweat dropped, "Ooops.....I forgot....InuYasha is hurt"
After the spell had wore off of InuYasha he stood up and glared at Kagome.
"Is it that hard for you to remember that I'm STILL hurt?" InuYasha growled at Kagome.
Kagome gulped as she quickly ran over to InuYasha and helped him into the house.
"It's your own fault, you shouldn't have gone out in the first place" Kagome said in defense.
"Keh"
~I win~ Kagome thought triumphantly.
Kagome saw Souta watching TV in the living room.
"Ohio" Souta said absently.
"Eh?" InuYasha muttered as he walked up to the TV and stared at the moving pictures. He knocked on the glass, wondering if the small people inside the TV would see him. Suddenly, one of the characters in the TV show started to shoot a gun as it shot loudly. InuYasha jumped back in a yelp.
"Wh-What the hell?!!!!!!!!!"
Souta and Kagome only laughed.
"Nani?!" InuYasha yelled at them, pointing at the TV.
"It's called a TV....it's a modern technology" Kagome laughed.
"Keh....I knew that" InuYasha muttered as he walked past them.
*****************************
They all were sitting for lunch, Kagome talking happily with her mother of all the "good" things that had happened in the Feudal era, and at the same time fighting with Souta. The grandfather kept talking to Kagome about charms.
InuYasha knew he should be feeling happy, Kagome's mother had told him after re-bandaging his wounds that he was healing well, and he had good food in front of him, but he felt nothing bad sorrow.
He glanced over at Kagome then at her family, ~Why does she continue to want to come back to my world.....she looks happy here......in my world....she always gets hurt. Why would she want to leave this place, where she could be happy......I don't understand her. Even having forever isn't enough time to understand her, to know her perfectly. She's full of surprises......~
Kagome glanced over at InuYasha, ~Why does he look so sad.....~
*****************************
Kagome and InuYasha sat on the floor, their backs leaned against the wall. InuYasha looked out the window of Kagome's room, gazing at the snow that drifted away. Kagome kept her eyes closed, the bright sunlight blinding her. The room almost seeming white from the bright light.
InuYasha glanced at Kagome from the corner of his eyes, she looked so angelic.
"Kagome....." InuYasha said quietly.
"Hm?"
"......Why do you keep on returning to my era, where you always get hurt......when you seem so happy here....."
"Because......there's people I care for in your era"
"Oh.....so to be with them, you'd give up your happiness? Who....is the person you'd give so much up for" InuYasha asked in a strained tone, ~What if it's Kouga....~ He felt a sharp darkness strike him.
Silence.
Kagome opened her eyes and looked out the window.
"You don't have to answer....."InuYasha muttered.
Kagome looked down at her hands, ~My heart is bursting to tell you everything I feel for you......but reasoning should come before the feelings......~
"You......."
Silence
"Me......why would you give up your happiness for me, the person who always makes you so miserable" InuYasha asked coolly, his heart beating fast from her reply.
"InuYasha.......I'm not giving up my happiness by being with you. I'm happy when I see you, I'm happy when I see you happy. You make me happy... I want to share my happiness with you" Kagome whispered, her heart beating fast.
~I don't deserve you Kagome...your only throwing your happiness away~
"I don't want it....keep your happiness to yourself. You're only wasting it" InuYasha replied in an empty tone.
~......Kagome, you belong here, happy. Then it means that I belong with Kikyo...with the dead. This means that I'd have to lose you~ InuYasha thought as he looked away, ~Why does my heart feel so empty when I think of that.....so alone~
"Huh...." InuYasha felt something warm covering his hands. He looked down to see Kagome's hands holding his.
"I can't be happy.....if I can't share it with you" she whispered.
InuYasha felt his heart sink, ~ Why do you have to be like this.....and why can't my heart let go of you......~
**~~ ERG! That's IT!!! NO MORE HAPPINESS!!! Well....the next chapter is most likely to be half happy then later on angsty ^^ *phew* -_____-;; Next chapter, coming soon. ^^ ~~**
============= Chapter Thirty-Six ==============
Kagome heard birds whistling outside. She peeked opened her eyes as the bright sun light blinded her. Kagome yawned as she snuggled into her pillow,
"I wanna sleep a little longer..." Kagome muttered, but she saw something in her room that had never been there before. She focused her sight on the figure. It was InuYasha who was sleeping sitting on the floor and leaning against the far wall.
Shock ripped through Kagome. ~Oh yah.....OH NO!!! InuYasha is supposed to be sleeping on the bed, and I'M supposed to be sleeping in Mama's room....KYAAAAA!!!!!~ Kagome got out of bed and worriedly walked towards InuYasha.
Kagome crouched down next to InuYasha, ~This is the InuYasha I know. He's an annoying jack ass on the outside, but a really kind person in the inside.....But I have to admit, that I even love his annoyance and...jack assness. Bet there isn't such a word as jack assness. *sigh* Everything about him makes him the person I love~
Kagome moved her face closer to him, ~InuYasha, InuYasha, InuYasha....what will become of me and you.....~ Kagome studied InuYasha, her head leaned to one side, ~I wish we could be together.......Awwwww....you're so Kawaii !!!!! But of course......not in the babyish way....~
Kagome looked at his ears, ~Kawaii ......~
Kagome lost into her temptation and reached out for the ears. ~Awwwwww!!!~
InuYasha slowly opened his eyes, his eyes widened in shock when he saw Kagome's face up close to his, and her fingers on his ears.
Kagome gasped and fell back, her cheeks burning red.
"K-Kagome!" InuYasha said in shock.
"O-O-Ohio....." Kagome said, her heart thumping fast.
They both looked away, a blush appearing lightly on their cheeks.
For some reason, it felt extremely hard for InuYasha to swallow.
Suddenly, pain pierced InuYasha. It had come on and off all night. He coughed hard, as red blood was visible on his pale hands.
Kagome stared at his hands, that was smeared in blood.
She felt tears blurring up her vision, "I thought....I didn't want to believe....that you...weren't all healed yet" Kagome whispered.
InuYasha saw Kagome look up at him, she furiously shook her head as tears flew off her cheek,
"No...No you will be better...WHY InuYasha did you have to give up the bed for me? Without you lying down, your wounds won't heal well!" Kagome said, trying to act calm.
"Naku na....you're such a cry baby" he whispered warmly.
"It's....it's just seeing you in pain.....because of me. ALWAYS because of me....that you suffer! You always do so much for me, and yet, I can do nothing to pay you back! I owe you so much and now I feel so bad!"
Something in InuYasha's heart went dark. ~I owe....Kikyo so much . I owe her so much...that now.....everything I do for her....I'm confused whether I do it out of love, or because I owe her so much.....What if...you turn like that, Kagome.....doing things for me out of debt....and not...l-love?~
"You don't owe me anything....you've done a lot for me.....Kagome. You DON'T owe me!!!!" InuYasha said loudly, out of anger of himself, realizing his confusion for Kikyo.
Kagome stared, not knowing why InuYasha looked so angered. ~Is he....mad at me~
"InuYasha...gomen" Kagome whispered, not knowing what else to say.
He looked at her in shock, "I'm not mad at you....."
She looked deeply into his eyes. InuYasha looked into her lively, glimmering eyes.
InuYasha could hardly breath, his heart beating fast *thump thump*
~Get away from her.....get away from her, InuYasha.....or you'll regret finding out what your heart is hiding. It'll make everything harder....your choices between Kikyo and Kagome.....will become harder~ a voice in his mind echoed.
~I can't.....~ InuYasha gently pushed Kagome to the floor as he looked down at her. ~What is it...What is it that is so well hidden deep in my heart...I want to know!~
~Get away from her.....~ the voice continued to echo, ~Or you'll become more hesitant in the choices.....get away from her~
Kagome stared up at InuYasha in surprise, ~What's....going on...~
InuYasha stared down at her, his heart beating fast. Her face glowing in the sunlight.
Kagome's heart sped faster as she felt InuYasha's lips close to hers.
They just stared at each other.
~What am I doing......~
InuYasha moved away, ~ everything is bad as it is.....if what my heart is hiding will make it worse.....I have to avoid finding out....I must stay ignorant of the feeling, or....I'm scared how it'll make everything worse...~
Kagome lay on the floor, just staring up at InuYasha in shock. ~What....just happened~
InuYasha sighed, ~snap out~
"Eh, baka, I'm hungry"
Silence.
~He changed his mood so fast....~ Kagome thought as she stared up at InuYasha.
He just stood up and walked out of the room. Kagome still just lay on the ground, in total shock. ~InuYasha....~
Kagome stood up after a few minuets and walked to the window to see InuYasha walking in the snow.
~He looks so lonely....BAKA! He's not supposed to be outside! Doesn't he EVER think of his wounds?!!!!~ Kagome thought in annoyance as she ran outside.
"No one......" Kagome muttered as she looked around.
She saw Hojo running towards her. "Kagome!!!"
He ran up to her, "Ohio!"
"Ohio" Kagome replied as cheerfully as she could, but at that moment she wanted to know where InuYasha was.
"Here, I got you this" Hojo said, handing her a bottle of sun block lotion.
Kagome sweat dropped, "ehhhhh....?"
"Ah hahhaha. Your grandfather told me that you got very sick from a very bad sun burn....so I got you this! It's one of the best sun block lotions in Japan"
"A...Arigato"
"Ha ha....no problem...Um.....I was wondering if you wanted to go out today or...some other day"
"Nani....oi.....um" Kagome looked around, ~It's all InuYasha's fault! Um...what should I say to him?!~
Suddenly, the branches of a tree above them slightly moved. Kagome caught a glimpse of InuYasha's Haori.
Kagome sweat dropped again. "Oi! Hojo! Ask me some other time....I.....um am going to meet.....a doctor....far away"
"Oh! Well....hope you get a good report!" Hojo said happily.
"Hai! Sayonara !"
"Yup, Ja ne!" Hojo said as he walked away.
Kagome sighed, "InuYasha....get down from the tree"
InuYasha jumped down,
"Keh, who the hell was that scrawny guy?" InuYasha asked as he dusted the snow off himself.
"Oh, just one of my admirers, you know.....another Kouga-kun....but less demanding. Hojo is one of the most popular guy in our high school"
"K...k..Ka-Go-Me !!!!!! NEVER mention Kouga's name in front of me! Especially with the "KUN" added to it!" InuYasha yelled in annoyance as he turned his back to Kagome.
"Hai" Kagome sighed.
Silence.
InuYasha glanced at Kagome from the corner of his eyes, "D..do you..like him too?"
"Well yah, he's really nice, generous and caring"
"H.HIM?!!!!"
"Well, what's wrong with him?"
"........"
"Oh, InuYasha!" Kagome said, holding her hands together, "Are you jealous of him?" she asked brightly.
"Eh?!!!!!!! Me?! .....NO. I just think that he must be the most stupidest guy in the world to admire you" InuYasha muttered.
"No! It's because he has good taste...." Kagome yelled, "unlike you....in love with a dead girl and all" Kagome muttered.
Suddenly Kagome felt a snow ball hit her, she turned to see InuYasha have a bunch of snow balls in his hands as he started to chase her throwing it.
"BAKA!!!!!!! Don't talk about Kikyo like that!!!!!! BAKAAAA!!!!!!!!" InuYasha yelled in annoyance as he threw snow balls at her. "Your gunu die Kagome!"
Kagome stopped running, ~I'm wearing a damn skirt...don't you have any mercy you damn dog?!!!~
InuYasha stopped throwing snow balls when Kagome had suddenly stopped running and turned around and glared at him, her face shadowed.
"Ba...ka" she hissed. InuYasha froze,
~Shit.....~
"SIT! SIT! SIT! SIT!" Kagome said loudly.
InuYasha tried to run, but crashed into the snow. InuYasha was now buried deep in the snow cursing.
Kagome's face went blanc and then sweat dropped, "Ooops.....I forgot....InuYasha is hurt"
After the spell had wore off of InuYasha he stood up and glared at Kagome.
"Is it that hard for you to remember that I'm STILL hurt?" InuYasha growled at Kagome.
Kagome gulped as she quickly ran over to InuYasha and helped him into the house.
"It's your own fault, you shouldn't have gone out in the first place" Kagome said in defense.
"Keh"
~I win~ Kagome thought triumphantly.
Kagome saw Souta watching TV in the living room.
"Ohio" Souta said absently.
"Eh?" InuYasha muttered as he walked up to the TV and stared at the moving pictures. He knocked on the glass, wondering if the small people inside the TV would see him. Suddenly, one of the characters in the TV show started to shoot a gun as it shot loudly. InuYasha jumped back in a yelp.
"Wh-What the hell?!!!!!!!!!"
Souta and Kagome only laughed.
"Nani?!" InuYasha yelled at them, pointing at the TV.
"It's called a TV....it's a modern technology" Kagome laughed.
"Keh....I knew that" InuYasha muttered as he walked past them.
*****************************
They all were sitting for lunch, Kagome talking happily with her mother of all the "good" things that had happened in the Feudal era, and at the same time fighting with Souta. The grandfather kept talking to Kagome about charms.
InuYasha knew he should be feeling happy, Kagome's mother had told him after re-bandaging his wounds that he was healing well, and he had good food in front of him, but he felt nothing bad sorrow.
He glanced over at Kagome then at her family, ~Why does she continue to want to come back to my world.....she looks happy here......in my world....she always gets hurt. Why would she want to leave this place, where she could be happy......I don't understand her. Even having forever isn't enough time to understand her, to know her perfectly. She's full of surprises......~
Kagome glanced over at InuYasha, ~Why does he look so sad.....~
*****************************
Kagome and InuYasha sat on the floor, their backs leaned against the wall. InuYasha looked out the window of Kagome's room, gazing at the snow that drifted away. Kagome kept her eyes closed, the bright sunlight blinding her. The room almost seeming white from the bright light.
InuYasha glanced at Kagome from the corner of his eyes, she looked so angelic.
"Kagome....." InuYasha said quietly.
"Hm?"
"......Why do you keep on returning to my era, where you always get hurt......when you seem so happy here....."
"Because......there's people I care for in your era"
"Oh.....so to be with them, you'd give up your happiness? Who....is the person you'd give so much up for" InuYasha asked in a strained tone, ~What if it's Kouga....~ He felt a sharp darkness strike him.
Silence.
Kagome opened her eyes and looked out the window.
"You don't have to answer....."InuYasha muttered.
Kagome looked down at her hands, ~My heart is bursting to tell you everything I feel for you......but reasoning should come before the feelings......~
"You......."
Silence
"Me......why would you give up your happiness for me, the person who always makes you so miserable" InuYasha asked coolly, his heart beating fast from her reply.
"InuYasha.......I'm not giving up my happiness by being with you. I'm happy when I see you, I'm happy when I see you happy. You make me happy... I want to share my happiness with you" Kagome whispered, her heart beating fast.
~I don't deserve you Kagome...your only throwing your happiness away~
"I don't want it....keep your happiness to yourself. You're only wasting it" InuYasha replied in an empty tone.
~......Kagome, you belong here, happy. Then it means that I belong with Kikyo...with the dead. This means that I'd have to lose you~ InuYasha thought as he looked away, ~Why does my heart feel so empty when I think of that.....so alone~
"Huh...." InuYasha felt something warm covering his hands. He looked down to see Kagome's hands holding his.
"I can't be happy.....if I can't share it with you" she whispered.
InuYasha felt his heart sink, ~ Why do you have to be like this.....and why can't my heart let go of you......~
**~~ ERG! That's IT!!! NO MORE HAPPINESS!!! Well....the next chapter is most likely to be half happy then later on angsty ^^ *phew* -_____-;; Next chapter, coming soon. ^^ ~~**