I own nothing. Harry Potter and all them belong to J.K. Rowling, these songs belong to Soul Asylum, Jewel, and Evanescence. Thanks to Demeter for the songs and all the others who sent in song suggestions.
Harry was back at 12 Grimmauld Place. The Order had come to get him almost a week ago, after Uncle Vernon had tried to drown Harry in the fishpond that Harry had been installing. Harry was beginning to wish the Order hadn't come and he'd just drowned. Then it would be over. Headquarters seemed almost worse now, everything reminded him of Sirius. Harry was sitting in Sirius's room; he was supposed to be cleaning it out. Remus had offered to help but last night had been full moon, which left Harry to do the job himself. It had not been an easy task; Sirius had had a lot of stuff. They had started last week and were only halfway through. Harry reached for Hermione's cd player, which he had brought with him. Music always seemed to make everything easier. He switched it on and set to work.
You find yourself falling down
Your hopes in the sky
But you heart like grape gum on the ground
And you try to find yourself
In the abstractions of religion
And the cruelty of everyone else
And you wake up to realize
Your standard of living somehow got stuck on survive 'isn't that the truth,' Harry thought to himself, subconsciously rubbing the bruise on the back of his neck from when Uncle Vernon had strangled him.
When you're standing in deep water
And you're bailing yourself out with a straw
And when you're drowning in deep water
And you wake up making love to a wall
Well it's these little times that help to remind
It's nothing without love
You wake up to realize your only friend
Has never been yourself or anybody who cared in the end
That's when suddenly everything fades or falls away 'everything that turns out ok keeps getting taken away. Maybe I'm just not meant to be happy…'
'Cause the chains which once held us are only the chains which we've made
When you're standing in deep water
And you're bailing yourself out with a straw
And when you're drowning in deep water
And you wake up making love to a wall
Well it's these little times that help to remind
It's nothing without love, love, love
It's nothing without love
We've compromised our pride
And sacrificed out health 'nooo, I've NEVER done anything to sacrifice my health, just you know been nearly killed repeatedly trying to get rid of Voldemort…' Harry thought sarcastically
We have to demand more
Not of each other
But more from ourselves 'how can I?'
'Cause when you're standing in deep water
And you're bailing yourself out with a straw
When you're drowning in deep water
And you wake up making love to a wall
Well it's these little times that help to remind
It's nothing without love, love, love
It's nothing without love
It's nothing without love
The song ended and the track switched, Harry had listened to this cd so many times he knew all the words. Hermione was pretty good at matching songs to his life, for even he could see the parallels.
servatis a pereculum.
Servatis a maleficum
Catch me as I fall
Say you're here and it's all over now
Speaking to the atmosphere
No one's here and I fall into myself
This truth drive me 'this whole prophecy crap sure sucks'
Into madness
I know I can stop the pain
If I will it all away 'so why isn't it working yet?'
Don't turn away
(Don't give in to the pain)
Don't try to hide
(Though they're screaming your name)
Don't close your eyes
(God knows what lies behind them) 'Not after what happened at exams…'
Don't turn out the light
(Never sleep never die)
I'm frightened by what I see
But somehow I know
That there's much more to come 'like hell there is'
Immobilized by my fear
And soon to be
Blinded by tears 'Sirius…all the others who will be killed from all this…'
I can stop the pain
If I will it all away
Don't turn away
(Don't give in to the pain)
Don't try to hide
(Though they're screaming your name)
Don't close your eyes
(God knows what lies behind them)
Don't turn out the light
(Never sleep never die)
Fallen angels at my feet
Whispered voices at my ear
Death before my eyes
Lying next to me I fear
She beckons me
Shall I give in
Upon my end shall I begin
Forsaking all I've fallen for
I rise to meet my end
Don't turn away
(Don't give in to the pain)
Don't try to hide
(Though they're screaming your name)
Don't close your eyes
(God knows what lies behind them)
Don't turn out the light
(Never sleep never die)
Don't turn away
(Don't give in to the pain)
Don't try to hide
(Though they're screaming your name)
Don't close your eyes
(God knows what lies behind them)
Don't turn out the light
(Never sleep never die)
Don't turn away
(Don't give in to the pain)
Don't try to hide
(Though they're screaming your name)
Don't close your eyes
(God knows what lies behind them)
Don't turn out the light
(Never sleep never die)
The track changed again. The song before had always reminded him of his obligation to fulfill the prophecy. Kill or be killed…
Swallowed up in the sound of my screaming
Cannot cease for the fear of silent nights
Oh how I long for the deep sleep dreaming 'especially for the DREAMLESS sleep…'
The goddess of imaginary light
In my field of paper flowers
And candy clouds of lullaby
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple sky fly over me
I linger in the doorway
Of alarm clock screaming
Monsters calling my name
Let me stay
Where the wind will whisper to me
Where the raindrops
As they're falling tell a story
If you need to leave the world you live in
Lay your head down and stay awhile
Though you may not remember dreaming
Something waits for you breathe again
In my field of paper flowers
And candy clouds of lullaby
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple sky fly over me
Harry reached into the back of the closet he had been cleaning as the track changed. He pulled his hand out revealing a large wizard picture in a heavy frame with little birds all over. It was a picture of his mother and father. Lily Potter, who looked like she was pregnant at the time, was standing next to James, whose hair was sticking up all over. The Potters were waving and every once in a while Sirius would sneak into the frame, make a silly face and have Lily grab him by the ear and pull him so he was standing in between them. Harry watched the picture for a while and finally set it in the box of stuff to keep.
Give me a reason to believe that you're gone "He hasn't gone! Sirius, Sirius…" Harry remembered screaming as Lupin dragged him away from the arch.
I see your shadow so I know they're all wrong 'I know there are people behind that veil…'
Moonlight on the soft brown earth
It leads me to where you lay
They took you away from me but now I'm taking you home
I will stay forever here with you
My love
The softly spoken words you gave me
Even in death love goes on
Some say I'm crazy for my love, Oh my love
But no bonds can hold me from your side, oh my love
They don't know you can't leave me
They don't hear you singing to me
I will stay forever here with you
My love
The softly spoken words you gave me
Even in death our love goes on
And I can't love you, anymore than I do
The track changed again. That song had always reminded Harry of his parents and Sirius.
Call you up in the middle of the night
Like a firefly without a light
You were there like a blowtorch burning
I was a key that could use a little turning
So tired that I couldn't even sleep
So many secrets I couldn't keep
I promised myself I wouldn't weep 'Sirius…'
One more promise I couldn't keep
It seems no one can help me now, 'I have to do this prophecy thing myself…'
I'm in too deep; there's no way out 'like there ever was…'
This time I have really led myself astray
Runaway train, never going back
Wrong way on a one-way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I'm neither here nor there
Can you help me remember how to smile?
Make it somehow all seem worthwhile
How on earth did I get so jaded?
Life's mystery seems so faded
I can go where no one else can go
I know what no one else knows 'well yeah, how many other people have a murdering lunatic after you, not to mention being one of the only ones who knows or cares that Peter is still alive.
Here I am just a-drownin' in the rain
With a ticket for a runaway train
And everything seems cut and dried, 'kill or be killed… what's more simple than that?'
Day and night, earth and sky,
Somehow I just don't believe it
Runaway train, never going back
Wrong way on a one-way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I'm neither here nor there
Bought a ticket for a runaway train
Like a madman laughing at the rain
A little out of touch, a little insane
It's just easier than dealing with the pain
Runaway train, never going back
Wrong way on a one-way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I'm neither here nor there
Runaway train, never coming back
Runaway train, tearing up the track
Runaway train, burning in my veins
I run away but it always seems the same
A/N ok, I know I said I wasn't posting any more until exams are over, but this is bugging me so much I can't study. Anyway, this is a good excuse to do something other than study.
Hope you liked this. It might take a bit longer to update this time; I'm having a hard time finding songs for people. So if you find a song that reminds you of a character, send me the name and artist in a review and I'll see what I can do. Thanks to everyone who reviewed and gave songs.