**~~ OK, sorry, ^^" The sword only glows red when it's gunu break a
barrier, fine, just retend I said he used the.... bakurraya (dunno the
spelling, tell me the right spellin plz) Hey, would that work then?????
Neway, keep reading and reviewing!!!!! Ok, here's the result, I'll add
Seshoumaru. The next person to get hurt is tied at Kouga and Naraku. And
another coupling is Sess and Kikyo, Kikyo and Naraku. But if it's Sess and
Kikyo...it wont rlly work out, cuz Kikyo isn't even human, we dun wanna
make Sess go to hell with her now do we...Man, if only Rin was older -_-
*sigh* then Sess and Rin could be together, aw that would be cute. What do
you guys think about Tsubaki ^^" HAHAHHAHAHA~~**
============= Chapter Forty-Seven =============
"Thanks" Kagome said as she looked down at her arm that was all bandaged and cleaned up.
Silence.
InuYasha sat back and looked up at the stars, Kagome glanced over at InuYasha and sat back holding her knees.
"Where's Kilala....." Kagome asked, wanting to get back to the hut to get InuYasha's wounds bandaged.
InuYasha turned to look, "No idea...."
Kagome frowned, "do you think she's in trouble"
"Not likely"
"Hm....." Kagome looked back up at the stars.
InuYasha closed his eyes...
Memories flashed through his mind of Seiyamie torturing Kagome by stepping on her arms. Kagome's cry echoed in his mind hauntingly. He held his fingers into a fist, ~If I hadn't turned into that full youkai....I would have just had to watch Kagome die.....Life.....is so delicate. I could have lost Kagome....so easily~
Kagome looked at InuYasha in worry seeing his expression.
"InuYasha.....?" Kagome whispered.
Silence.
"I was scared....that I'd loose you" InuYasha said quietly, ~When have I become so scared of loosing you....~
~My heart and mind have changed so much.....~
Kagome placed her hands on his shoulders, "But you didn't"
InuYasha placed his hands over hers as she rested her head against his back.
~I haven't told you of how much I loved you.....words can't seem to express it. But I'm scared Kagome, that if I fall more in love with you, and you with me...It'll hurt more when we have to separate......~
~But why do you have to separate~ a small voice in his heart kept saying, but his answer was always, "because I love Kikyo, because I owe it to her"
They quickly shot away from each other, hearing Sango yelling for them.
"WHERE ARE YOU GUYS?! We see nothing out here! It's too dark!" Sango called out.
InuYasha held Kagome's hands and helped her up. Kagome could feel her hands being held a little too tight. She looked up at him, his face glowing from the moonlight. She could see pain written all over his face.
"SANGO-CHAN! Over here!" Kagome called out. Kagome gasped when InuYasha stumbled a bit, but Miroku caught him.
"You alright?" Miroku asked.
"I'm fine" InuYasha replied, as he moved away from Miroku and got on to Kilala.
They all reached the door of the hut.
InuYasha entered the hut, leaning against Miroku.
Tsubaki blushed seeing InuYasha's top bare.
"Wh...What happened?!" Tsubaki stammered.
"Fight" Sango muttered.
"I shall go get Lady Kaede, her village is not far from here. I hope she will not mind us asking for her at a time like this" Miroku said.
"Hai" Sango said.
"Get a mat!" Kagome ordered.
"Hai" Tomo said helpfully as she ran over to the storage board and got a soft mat.
Sango and Kagome continued to order everyone around.
"Sango, I'll get some water to boil" Kagome suggested.
"Then I'll get the fire ready...damn, but they have it in the far room" Sango cursed.
"Doesn't matter"
"K, Tsubaki, Tomo, you stay and look after InuYasha....where's your master?" Sango asked.
"Went out for a midnight walk"
"I see..."
Tomo stood up, "I'll make some food for you InuYasha, you must be hungry after all the fighting. Oh yes, Kagome-Sama, here. It's a Kimono. You do not look decent in those strange clothing you where. You may be thought by the villagers as a youkai"
Kagome's face turned dark as she grabbed the pink Kimono that had cherry blossom designs on it.
".....Thanks" she forced out.
"See how it feels being a youkai?" InuYasha asked.
Kagome left the room, "shut up InuYasha! I'll put this on later!"
Tomo ran after Kagome, "NO! NOW! THEN WATER!"
They all disappeared, leaving InuYasha alone with Tsubaki. InuYasha muttered a prayer so that Tsubaki would stay as a normal person would.
Tsubaki slowly turned and looked at InuYasha,
"We're alone....." she muttered.
"God save me" he muttered under his breath seeing that his prayers wouldn't work.
She bent and held InuYasha's hands, "Oh InuYasha! I missed you so much! My Master....I do not believe he loves me!"
~I don't like your stupid master...I don't like the way he looks at Kagome and Sango. And why would anyone like a freaky wench like you~
InuYasha coughed, unable to breath with Tsubaki's weight on top of him.
"Get....OFF!"
"Oh, gomen" she giggled, "Oh I see a deep wound on your chest, let me take a closer look at it"
InuYasha hit her hands away, "That's- all- right!!!"
She giggled again.
They both looked up as someone entered the room. It was Kagome wearing the Kimono. She looked down at herself,
"Is it nice or what?!" Kagome said with a smiled as she turned around, "WOW! Cherry blossoms! So nice! Isn't it NICE InuYasha?"
"Keh" InuYasha looked away, his face a little pink, ~Cherry blossoms.....they always remind me of you....~
He could feel his heart pounding fast, ~She looks...really nice~
"Ah, I know you think it's nice" Kagome said in a proud voice.
"My InuYasha tells the truth. He said "Keh" which meant, he doesn't care!" Tsubaki pointed out.
InuYasha's ears perked up, he glanced at Kagome who's backround had gone dark.
"Oh, so InuYasha. Now you've become a three timer? Jeez...you're really good at this aren't you?" Kagome asked darkly, saying this on purpose, knowing that he would be annoyed at what she said which was exactly what she wanted.
"Kkk...KAGOME! Shut UP!"
"There, there, InuYasha" Tsubaki said as she stroke his arms, "just leave her alone. She is a strange girl"
Kagome fired up in annoyance and stormed out of the hut.
"Jeez.....Leave me alone!" InuYasha muttered as he sat up, but grimaced from the pain of moving.
"Lie back down, you are unwell"
"I'll be even more unwell if you keep hovering over me!"
A tear ran down Tsubaki's cheeks as more rushed down.
InuYasha looked around in panic. He hated it when girls cried.
"Shut up, shut up you wench! Um....I mean, shush, shush. Calm down! I didn't mean it....." InuYasha hissed, ~Well......yes I did~
Tsubaki started to hiccup.
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Kagome walked out towards the river,
"Stupid Tsubaki, doesn't even know when someone's already been taken. Hah, I'll show her that InuYasha's mine.......!!!!"
She heard unsteady footsteps walking towards her.
Kagome slowly turned her head to see a man holding a bear bottle and walked towards her.
Something felt wrong, Kagome frowned. ~Does he want to tell me something? Why is he coming towards me....?!~
Kagome filled the bucket with water and backed away.
He laughed, "Isn't it a lovely night pretty miss?" he slurred as he got closer to Kagome.
"Man you stink" Kagome muttered.
"Nice Kimono! Very attractive...."
"You're freaking me out...you get any nearer I'll scream for InuYasha!"
"InuYasha? Who the hell is he...ah hah, that half demon? Why would he be around you, Miss? He's probably out somewhere in the wild"
He stepped closer to Kagome as she backed up against the wall of the hut.
"Would you like to become my woman?" he slurred.
"I'm gunu scream NOW! InuYa--------"
He covered her mouth with his. Kagome's eyes shot wide in disgust.
Kagome pushed him away as she started to spit on the ground in disgust.
The man frowned bitterly, "You have insulted me....."
"You scream, and I'll smash this bottle over your head!" he muttered as he held her mouth shut, "Now you'll come with me nicely! And once I'm done with you I'll let you go, hai?"
She bit his hands that shot away from her mouth and kicked him, he tried to hit Kagome with the bottle, but missed.
The master of the hut had been walking back to the hut and saw Kagome in trouble. Not knowing what to do he ran into the hut to get InuYasha.
"InuYasha-Sama!" he cried.
InuYasha glared at him, "WHAT?!"
"It's...Kagome!" he panted.
InuYasha shot up and ran outside to where he had been pointing to. He saw a man pushing Kagome against the wall and kissing her.
Kagome could feel a tear run down her cheeks, ~He's stronger than me.....~
Suddenly she could feel the man moving away. She looked up to see InuYasha tossing the man onto the ground. He stood up and ran away. InuYasha ran over to Kagome,
"Kagome! You alright?" InuYasha asked in a shaky tone.
She ran over to the river and started to rinse her mouth with the cold water. She nodded,
"I'm fine! I'm fine!" Kagome cried as more tears rushed down her cheeks, ~This never happened to me before.....it was so scary~
InuYasha hesitantly walked over to Kagome and stood behind her.
"You.....sure?"
"Yes....ERG! It was so nasty!"
InuYasha twitched in anger as his fingers were clutched into a fist. He wanted to kill that man....
Kagome sighed, water dripping down from her mouth. She felt a shiver run down her back. She turned to see InuYasha staring at the ground with a hateful look on his face. She could also see the fresh wounds all over him.
"Let's go back inside...." Kagome whispered.
"I...won't let that bastard get away......I'll kill him with my own bare hands" InuYasha hissed.
Kagome sadly smiled, "let it go InuYasha.....he's only human. There's many other men like him, you can't change that and you can't kill them all, you'd probably then have to kill like....half the world"
"Then I'll kill half the world.....men who treat women like that don't deserve to live"
Kagome leaned her head against him as he held her.
"There are people who die, but deserve to live. And people who live that deserve to die. But we can't be the judge of that....."
"Keh, sometimes you're too kind, Kagome" InuYasha said as he walked Kagome back into the hut, "InuYasha....I don't want anyone to know this happened...."
"Ok....but why?"
"It's....kind of disturbing and all. I just want to forget about it, as it never happened"
"Sure" he said quietly.
Kaede looked at InuYasha one last time,
"Yup, I believe that is all. No wound is left unbandaged"
"Lady Kaede. Please stay for the night" the master of the hut asked.
"Oh....Arigato"
InuYasha leaned against the wall and stared up at the ceiling. Kaede walked over and sat next to him.
He glanced over at Kagome from the corner of his eyes. Her face was still not back to normal, but she acted as if nothing had happened. She sat there playing with Shippo.
No one seemed to want to go to sleep, as if their sleep had disappeared.
InuYasha sadly looked away from Kagome, he still had the image of Kagome being tortured by Seiyamie and being kissed by a drunk man. It scarred him. He wanted to kill both Seiyamie and that man....wherever he was.
Kaede looked at InuYasha,
"So....have you chosen yet?" she asked.
"It's none of your business Kaede-baba"
"It is.....I care for both of them, thus it is my business"
InuYasha heavily sighed and looked away,
"I told you, if it is my fate to go with Kikyo. I will...."
"Fate...can be chosen. Do you CHOOSE to go with Kikyo?"
InuYasha leaned his head back and closed his eyes,
"I don't know anymore....I don't know anything anymore...." InuYasha muttered in a sigh.
"You must know something...within that stubborn heart of yours"
InuYasha looked down at his hands, "I.....I didn't get to tell you something....that will make everything a whole lot .....harder"
"And what may that be?"
"I.....I'm also...in love with.....Kagome" InuYasha confessed in a whisper.
Kaede frowned, ~InuYasha.....in love with Kagome. I had thought of the possibilities...but now actually hearing it from InuYasha....it feels unbelievable~
"Yes...I believe you are right...It shall make things all the more difficult" Kaede muttered.
"I'm afraid......that I'm going to fall more in love with her...I know it's wrong to....My heart's supposed to belong to Kikyo alone......"
"Our heart, InuYasha, is something we cannot control. We cannot stop love from growing"
".....I know.....But even now...my love for her...Is enough to tear my heart apart if I was to leave her.....which I will have to some day"
"You talk as if you MUST go with Kikyo....it's your choice. You are free" Kaede said.
InuYasha shook his head, "no...no I'm not free. With Kikyo and her darkness towards me and everything I owe her, I'll never be free....."
"InuYasha.....you make it sound as if you are choosing Kikyo from debt, not love"
"No, I love Kikyo...I have for so many years....It's just....I don't know"
"I see....who do you love more?"
"I don't know! It has to be Kikyo, right?! I love her more....right?!"
"You are confused InuYasha.....If you choose without a clear heart, you'll never be free. For not knowing the true answer, will cage you in and eat at you. For you will never know the answer after you choose..."
"Time is what I need....but Kaede-baba, I don't have any more damn time! If I don't choose soon, I might loose one of them.....i hurt them each time I wait longer"
Silence.
"I'm afraid.....for Kagome....She could have died today and also she...yah" InuYasha said, stopping there.
"Cherish the things you love..the one you love in life and the moments you spend with the person, for the person may be gone the next day....and such moments may never occur again. That is life InuYasha. We cannot change it"
InuYasha buried his head in his hands,
"I don't know...how I could live without.....Kagome"
Sango had been near the window InuYasha was under, while she was turning the fire off, and heard it all.
She seriously wanted to hit InuYasha on the head, ~It's so obvious BAKA that you want to be with Kagome more......but then.....what do I know. I didn't even know though real Kikyo you love....damn, I cant bear to see Kagome hurt...~
Sango sighed deeply,
"It's so hard to believe though....though I had believed that he would be in love with her...it's just hard. InuYasha....that stubborn baka....is actually in love. It's so different to the way he seems to love Kikyo. This love seems more....stronger....Or I might be wrong" Sango muttered to herself.
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Tsubaki lay awake while it seemed as if the other were asleep.
She quietly sighed, ~InuYasha......~
She saw someone moving. She turned to see that it was InuYasha still awake
She watched as InuYasha got up and walked over to Kagome. He crouched down next to her and observed Kagome asleep.
~Is she ok now....?~ InuYasha wondered. He hesitantly reached out his arms and touched her forehead to see if she might have caught a cold outside. ~She seems fine....damn~ InuYasha backed away, ~what's gotten into these past few days....I'm caring a little to much for her~
"Huh...." Kagome opened her eyes to see InuYasha. He fell back in surprise.
"You're supposed to be ASLEEP!" InuYasha hissed.
"And you TOO!"
"Sorry...if I woke you or anything" InuYasha said as if he didn't care.
"It's alright. I'm not tired....well.....I don't feel like going to sleep." Kagome asked.
".....How can you NOT be tired, it's like....past midnight" InuYasha muttered.
Kagome kneeled on the ground, "I cant seem to forget....what happened today"
InuYasha sighed, he grasped her wrist and pulled her up.
"Huh?!"
"You need some fresh air!"
InuYasha pulled her outside. Tsubaki pouted her lips and muttered a few curses then dropped back to sleep, as she dreamed of thousands of men bowing down at her feet. "Most fairest lady! Please love me as I love you!" they all begged. Tsubaki smiled widely as she slept.
InuYasha ran slowly, pulling her along.
"InuYasha! You're still wounded!" Kagome yelled.
"I'm fine! Come! I want to show you something nice"
"Huh? Where are we going?!"
InuYasha stopped when they got to a lake.
Kagome looked out at the lake that glittered in the moonlight as fireflies danced around the night sky.
"Waaaaa....it's so nice!" Kagome gasped.
"Keh, I told you it was something nice"
Kagome sat down and gazed out at the lake, as she listened to the sound of the night.
InuYasha sat down next to her,
~Cherish the things you love..the one we love in life and the moments you spend with the person, for the person may be gone the next day....and such moments may never occur again. That is life InuYasha. We cannot change it~ he heard Kaede say.
"Do you think you can catch me a firefly?" Kagome asked.
"Is that a dare.....?"
"I guess...."
"Keh, it'll be easy" InuYasha said as he got up and grabbed at a firefly but missed. He blinked, ~it was just there a minuet ago....~
He grabbed at again and felt something in his palm. He opened his hands and showed it to Kagome. Kagome sweat fropped,
"I meant, catch it and show it to me ALIVE! Not squashed like mashed potato"
"Mashed potato? What the hell is that?"
"Never mind, it's just mushy stuff"
"Keh, just watch, I'll catch you one" InuYasha said. Kagome tried hard not to laugh as InuYasha ran around the lake trying to get one.
"Miroku caught one you know InuYasha, it would be sad if you couldn't catch one" Kagome called out, "You probably cant catch one cuz you scare them all away"
"Shut up!" InuYasha muttered, his mind determined to catch one, "I'll catch one"
InuYasha saw one not far from him, he jumped and cupped his hands around the firefly.
"InuYasha....look down...." Kagome laughed.
InuYasha was high up in the air, he looked down to see not land, but the lake.
"Ahhhhhhhhh!" InuYasha splashed into the lake.
Kagome laughed like crazy watching InuYasha getting out of the lake with a pissed expression on his face.
"HAHA! For a dog you're strange. Dog's usually like the water
"Shut up wench!" he muttered in annoyance as he squeezed the water out of his Haori. He looked over at Kagoem and grinned mischievously .
He walked over to Kagome and squeezed the water over her head.
"Keh, that's what you get for laughing" InuYasha laughed.
"BAKA!!!!!!!" Kagome yelled as she started to chase him all over the place, "I'm gunu say the word!"
"Oh, don't forget I'm hurt!" InuYasha pointed out.
Kagome sighed as sleep kept coming to her. She yawned and stopped running. InuYasha stopped running and walked over in relief, stood next to her.
InuYasha shook himself as water flew off his Haori.
"InuYasha!" Kagome scolded as the droplets of water splashed onto her.
"Oh, gomen"
They stood next to each other watching the starry sky. Kagome saw a star shoot across the sky, she closed her eyes to make a wish,
~Make InuYasha happy.....~
InuYasha looked at her wondering why she was closing her eyes.
She opened her eyes and looked at InuYasha who quickly looked away,
"Did you make a wish?" she asked.
"A..wish?"
"On that star that shot by....a shooting star"
"No....I don't do those things. They're useless"
"How boring" Kagome muttered.
InuYasha sat on the ground, his face covered in a shadow.
"Are you saying I'm boring..."
Kagome sat down next to him, "no..how can you be.....annoying would fit"
InuYasha turned and glared at her, Kagome put her hands in front of her in defense.
"I'm just joking!" Kagome laughed.
~Cherish the things you love..the one we love in life and the moments you spend with the person, for the person may be gone the next day....and such moments may never occur again. That is life InuYasha. We cannot change it~ he heard Kaede say again in his mind.
Kagome leaned against his shoulder, "all you have to know is that you make me happy"
InuYasha slowly glanced at Kagome from the corner of his eyes,
"Kagome......"
"I know I you can't be with me, but I guess I can find other things in life that'll make me happy.....but I guess....I'll never truly be happy......"
InuYasha looked down at his hands.
"But don't worry about me InuYasha!" Kagome said cheerfully, "I'll be fine as long as you're happy! As long...as you have....a bit of me in.....your heart"
~Stop it Kagome....stop acting like this. I can't afford to fall more in love with you.....~
"Our heart, InuYasha, is something we cannot control. We cannot stop love from growing" Kaede's voice echoed in his mind.
InuYasha shut his eyes, ~I don't know what to do....my love is all Kikyo wants, but it's slipping bit by bit to Kagome.....But I love Kikyo..a lot...so I'm gunu have to try and give my heart fully back to her. I must try the impossible... I have no other choice....~
InuYasha hesitantly wrapped his arms around Kagome, ~I'm afraid to think that there will be a life ahead of me....where you won't be....And the day that is to come where we'll have to separate~
InuYasha looked up, ~That scent.....~ His heart started to beat fast as his arms moved away from Kagome. He felt his mind screaming the word "traitor" at him.
Kikyo watched in a forest across the lake. Her arms hanging at her side as she stared at InuYasha and Kagome together.
She looked painfully away and looked down at her hands.
~What am I to him.....~
~I am the same to him as to everyone else.....a dead corpse with a cold heart~
~But he told me.....that he didn't care.....that he loved me still~
~....All.....but a lie~
"When will the day come.....when my soul can rest......" Kikyo whispered, "when I can live among the living, and be accepted........but that dream seems to much for me now......."
"The day I've always waited for....the day when InuYasha would be with me....seems like nothing but a shattered dream.....I feel as if I'm fading from his heart that I once thought beated for me alone...."
InuYasha looked around, his eyes caught a figure across the lake past the trees. A figure dressed in red and white, staring at him. She just stared at him,
"InuYasha?" Kagome asked in worry.
InuYasha turned and looked at Kagome, then turned back to look at the person...but she was gone. He saw Kikyo's Shini-dama-chuu's flying past the trees.
~Kikyo.....~
"Did you see anything?" Kagome asked.
"Huh....no" InuYasha said in a distant voice.
InuYasha continued to stare at the place Kikyo had been standing, as Kagome observed him. He seemed to have snapped out after a few minuets had passed. He looked at Kagome but then looked away, unable to look at her.
Kagome smiled sadly and stood up,
"You saw Kikyo.....didn't you. You never were able to look at me when you think or see Kikyo...."
InuYasha stood up as well and looked down, "sorry...."
Kagome turned and started to walk away,
"You don't have to apologies to me. It's not like I own you or anything. It's more Kikyo you should apologies to, since you're kind of in love with me in the first place .... it's her you're supposed to love not me, isn't it? So why apologies to me? It's alright InuYasha, you can run off to her whenever you want. I know place in your heart" Kagome said fast in a cheerful voice, hiding the bleeding of her heart, "don't let me be an obstacle for you..."
InuYasha caught Kagome's wrist, "Kagome....you'll always be an obstacle for me....because I love you....you'll be an obstacle that I might not even be able to move"
"Well....you'll have to someday.....to be with Kikyo and all"
Silence.
"Kagome......"
Kagome sighed heavily, "let's just go back....I'm not in the mood to talk about this. We'll both catch a cold if we don't since we're wet and it's still winter...though, this winter wasn't that cold, don't you think?" Kagome asked, trying to change the subject.
"Yah.....whatever" he muttered, ~Kagome.....stop storing all your pain inside.....or you'll become like me...dark, and confused. It'll turn into pain....Kagome....It's hard to imagine you becoming like those people, like Kikyo. So...please....try not to get hurt by me....don't care for me....don't love me.....even though I'm happy you do, it'll just hurt you more. The day will come.....when it'll really hurt you....so....don't~
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The next day InuYasha and Kagome acted a bit tense everyone noticed.
Miroku elbowed Sango, "I know this tension....the reason for it"
"What?" she asked.
"Even last time it was like this..."
"Nanda?!"
"They've seen....Kikyo" he said in a whisper.
"Oro.....Kikyo?!" Sango gasped and let out a deep sigh of frustration, "let me guess, and InuYasha probably went all bizarre from seeing her and made Kagome feel abandoned"
"Maybe..."
~Stupid InuYasha....playing around with two peoples heart~ Sango thought.
"Jeez....I've warned InuYasha about two timing" Miroku sighed.
Sango sweat dropped.
Everyone looked up to see a swirl of dust heading towards them.
"Eh?"
The dust began to die away as Kouga appeared. InuYasha started to growl in anger.
"Kisama!!! What the hell are you doing here you asshole?!" InuYasha yelled.
"Heh, someday I'll stick a soap into your dirty mouth. Every word you say to me at least has a swear word in it! I just came to VISIT! What the hell is wrong with that....Dog ears?!" Kouga asked in annoyance.
"Shut the fuckin hell up cave man!"
"Heh, I don't have time for this! I just came to see Kagome"
"That wench?! Are you deaf or something?! She's not interested in becoming your "mate" Kouga" InuYasha growled with is hands grasped into a fist.
"Oh, and are you telling me that she's interested in you? Ha, that's a laugh dog ears? Hey, but doesn't she know that you already have a woman?"
"She's not my damn 'woman' !!"
"I know that!!! My woman would never choose you"
"You fuckin deaf?! SHE - IS - NOT - YOUR - WOMAN!"
"YES - SHE - IS!"
"NO!"
"Fine, then if she's not, then it means she's single, so I'll go and TRY to make her my woman" Kouga said, "happy now? OK, Kagome you wanna go out for a walk?"
"No she doesn't want to go for a walk with you"
Kouga hit InuYasha across the head, "let the poor woman TALK for once!"
InuYasha grabbed Kouga's ears and pulled it hard causing him to crash to the ground.
"She doesn't WANT to talk to you!"
Kouga jumped up and pulled at InuYasha's ears as InuYasha pulled Kouga's.
"And how do you know if she wants to talk to me or not when she didn't even say she didn't?!! Huuuh?!!!" Kouga asked.
They both let go of each other's ears and glared at each other.
"You're one hell of an annoying dog!"
"Shut the hell up and go back home to your other cave people"
"Heh, make me!" Kouga hissed, "I'm gunu sit right here until I get to talk with her" Kouga said, sitting on the ground.
"Keh" InuYasha stepped on Kouga's tail as Kouga shot up with a cry of pain, "HAHA!"
"BAKA!" Kouga yelled as his face turned red in anger.
"Guys! Stop it!" Kagome yelled.
"They're like an exact imitation of two year olds.....no, worse" Miroku muttered with a sweat drop.
"I agree..." Sango muttered.
"Are they always acting as they are now?" Kaede asked.
"Yes..."
"Oi...."
"Anything you say, Kagome my love" Kouga said, pulling InuYasha's lock of hair, "that was the last thing...I stop now"
InuYasha kicked hard on Kouga's leg, "And I'll stop now"
"Hold on, one more thing" Kouga said, hitting his hand hard across InuYasha's head.
"What the hell?! You said you'd stop! Damn you" InuYasha muttered as they started to fight again. Everyone watched as InuYasha and Kouga disappeared into a circle of dust as you could see their hands hitting each other.
"Kagome, I believe you should stop them" Kaede muttered.
"Hmmm.....InuYasha will get mad if I say it though....."
"I think he will thank thee at the end when he realizes that he is still alive" Kaede muttered.
"Ok then.......SIT!" Kagome yelled, " wow...that felt relieving. OH NO! But Kaede, InuYasha is hurt!"
"He sure didn't act like he was" Sango pointed out.
"True..."
The dust faded away and they saw Kouga wondering where InuYasha had gone, and InuYasha deep inside the ground.
"Ah hah, there you are" Kouga said as he bent and looked down at InuYasha, "how's it down there?"
"Shut..up" InuYasha moaned as he stood out of the hole, he could feel his wound burning, "KA - GO - ME!!!"
"Ahhh, gomen!" Kagome cried, running up to him.
"Stupid wench..." he muttered.
"Gomen, we all forgot you were hurt!" Kagome apologiesed.
Kouga sighed, "Man....I missed my chance to be with Kagome" he muttered, "I'll be back another time! JA!"
"Go to hell!" InuYasha called out to him.
"Um nope, it'll most likely be you who will be going to hell with that dead priestess. MAN you must have bad taste...Hey, but I understand, you're in love, that's why you stick to her. RIGHT?! Haha, after you're gone, I'll get Kagome!" Kouga said as he sped away.
Kagome looked away, ~Even Kouga knows that InuYasha loves Kikyo....~
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InuYasha lay back after Kaede had bandaged his wounds up again.
"You really should act more sober when it comes to Kouga, you go mad just seeing him. He just came to see Kagome" Kaede muttered as she cleaned up the hut.
"Shut up you old hag" InuYasha muttered.
"InuYasha, don't be so rude" Kagome hissed.
"You get used to it after a while...it feels like he's calling you by your given name because he calls you by that so many times" Kaede murmured.
Everyone sweat dropped.
"Poor Lady Kaede, I don't know how he can stand the likes of him" Miroku muttered.
"Ya" Shippo added.
InuYasha closed his eyes, he saw her, standing in the woods across the lake. Standing behind the trees, staring at him...while he had been holding Kagome.
~Kikyo....~ InuYasha thought, the image wouldn't go out of his mind.
Tomo and Tsubaki arrived from their shopping in another village not far from here.
"Kon'nechewa!" Tsubaki and Tomo said.
"Yah, hi" InuYasha muttered as everyone else greeted them pleasantly.
As Tomo and Tsubaki went on and on about what they did in the village, InuYasha stood up and walked outside. Kagome looked up and followed.
Kagome reached out her arm and touched his shoulders.
InuYasha turned around to see Kagome, "Kagome...."
"What's wrong?" Kagome asked.
"Nothing.....really. I just wanted to get out" he replied.
Kagome could read it all over his face, Kikyo....
"InuYasha, you're lying. You don't have to keep it away from me.....you're thinking about Kikyo. See I'm not hurt" Kagome said with a smile.
InuYasha turned and gazed at her. Kagome felt a little shocked, she felt as if he was reading every bit in her soul.
"You're hurt.....I know Kagome......you're lying to me as well" he said quietly.
The stood face to face, close to each other.
"Kagome....." InuYasha whispered, holding her hands in his.
Kagome felt her heart pounding fast, but suddenly, she realized something.... She could feel InuYasha getting closer to her....
She pulled away, "are you like this because I remind you of Kikyo? First minuet you're thinking about her, and the next you're acting like this. Is it because I look like her and you want to be with her? So you think if you be with someone right now that looks like her, you'll feel as if it is her?!" Kagome cried.
InuYasha held her tightly as she tried to move away, but he kept on holding her.
"Kagome! You are you, I've never once tried to use you for Kikyo!"
Kagome stopped trying to move away, and leaned against him.
"It's hard to believe what you said....cause I know you love her more....every time you look at me warmly.....it's hard to believe that look was meant for me....."
"They're all true......"
"I've always wondered....ever since the day you told me that you kind of loved me....the way you look at me melts me.....but to Kikyo whom you love so much....I wonder how it would feel to have you look at the person you love so much......" Kagome whispered, and sadly laughed, "but I guess I'll never know....Maybe if me and Kikyo see each other some time, I'll ask.... But I wont tell her that you have a little room in your heart for me. I don't want to hurt her, cuz it'll hurt you then....."
"Will you stop talking like that?! You make me feel as if I'm hurting you so much....am I ?!" InuYasha asked in a strained voice.
"No....InuYasha.....you're not. I'm just hurting myself"
Kagome stepped back and smiled at him, "it's alright...all will be fine at the end. You'll see.....I'll be happy some how....."
InuYasha turned to see a Shinni-dama-chuu flying through the air with a dead soul clutched in its claws.
"Kikyo....." InuYasha whispered.
Kagome tightly shut her eyes, ~I wish I could disappear right now...~
InuYasha looked ahead and saw a distant figure of Kikyo walking further away.
Kikyo looked straight ahead, not turning back to look at InuYasha. She had heard InuYasha, he had told her that he loved her before...that's why Kagome had spoken of him having a room in his heart for her.
~Traitor.....~
She looked coldly ahead without any emotions on her face.
~And yet....I still cannot hate you enough to not be with you~
Kikyo clutched her hands into a fist as her nails dug into her palm.
~But I want revenge on you so bitterly....for betraying me. You say you love me, and yet you say that to another. Is that called love....that is not the love I want. Is this what I came to this cursed earth to get? To get your so called love and my revenge?~
Blood streaked down her palm as it dripped onto the high grass.
~Has the times we have spent together so easily left your mind....has the love we felt for each other so quickly faded away......Why is it so easy for you to hurt me, and yet so hard for you to please me....is it too hard? Too hard for the love you always said you had for me?! IS IT?!~
A tear dropped down her pale and emotionless face.
~My heart has hardened into ice....and can no longer beat with the passion the Kikyo that had once lived did....unless I have my soul back.....Or unless you can melt it....but you will not be able to......I do not think you can~
InuYasha stared at Kikyo's figure fading away,
"Kikyo......" he whispered.
"Go to her" a voice whispered.
He looked to see that it was Kagome who looked at him then turned, "go to her...the one you really love"
Kagome walked away.
InuYasha had tried to reach out for her, but hesitated. His arms dropped helplessly to his side....
"Kagome......gomen....."
He turned himself away from Kagome.
~.....I'm sorry Kagome.....but my fate....is with Kikyo~
He hesitantly turned to see if he could still see Kagome, but she was gone.
InuYasha tightly closed his eyes, ~ I'm really sorry Kagome.....~
He slowly walked after Kikyo...then broke into a run.
~Kikyo.....~
**~~ MWUAHAHAHA, I've putted my angst into this hahahahahha. Dun worry for the readers who are probably at this moment cursing me, DUN WORRY it's an InuYasha and Kagome fic ^^ Well, keep on reading and lets see how many ppl are actually reading this fic by how many ppl review -_-" COME ON review plzzzzzzzzzzz~~**
============= Chapter Forty-Seven =============
"Thanks" Kagome said as she looked down at her arm that was all bandaged and cleaned up.
Silence.
InuYasha sat back and looked up at the stars, Kagome glanced over at InuYasha and sat back holding her knees.
"Where's Kilala....." Kagome asked, wanting to get back to the hut to get InuYasha's wounds bandaged.
InuYasha turned to look, "No idea...."
Kagome frowned, "do you think she's in trouble"
"Not likely"
"Hm....." Kagome looked back up at the stars.
InuYasha closed his eyes...
Memories flashed through his mind of Seiyamie torturing Kagome by stepping on her arms. Kagome's cry echoed in his mind hauntingly. He held his fingers into a fist, ~If I hadn't turned into that full youkai....I would have just had to watch Kagome die.....Life.....is so delicate. I could have lost Kagome....so easily~
Kagome looked at InuYasha in worry seeing his expression.
"InuYasha.....?" Kagome whispered.
Silence.
"I was scared....that I'd loose you" InuYasha said quietly, ~When have I become so scared of loosing you....~
~My heart and mind have changed so much.....~
Kagome placed her hands on his shoulders, "But you didn't"
InuYasha placed his hands over hers as she rested her head against his back.
~I haven't told you of how much I loved you.....words can't seem to express it. But I'm scared Kagome, that if I fall more in love with you, and you with me...It'll hurt more when we have to separate......~
~But why do you have to separate~ a small voice in his heart kept saying, but his answer was always, "because I love Kikyo, because I owe it to her"
They quickly shot away from each other, hearing Sango yelling for them.
"WHERE ARE YOU GUYS?! We see nothing out here! It's too dark!" Sango called out.
InuYasha held Kagome's hands and helped her up. Kagome could feel her hands being held a little too tight. She looked up at him, his face glowing from the moonlight. She could see pain written all over his face.
"SANGO-CHAN! Over here!" Kagome called out. Kagome gasped when InuYasha stumbled a bit, but Miroku caught him.
"You alright?" Miroku asked.
"I'm fine" InuYasha replied, as he moved away from Miroku and got on to Kilala.
They all reached the door of the hut.
InuYasha entered the hut, leaning against Miroku.
Tsubaki blushed seeing InuYasha's top bare.
"Wh...What happened?!" Tsubaki stammered.
"Fight" Sango muttered.
"I shall go get Lady Kaede, her village is not far from here. I hope she will not mind us asking for her at a time like this" Miroku said.
"Hai" Sango said.
"Get a mat!" Kagome ordered.
"Hai" Tomo said helpfully as she ran over to the storage board and got a soft mat.
Sango and Kagome continued to order everyone around.
"Sango, I'll get some water to boil" Kagome suggested.
"Then I'll get the fire ready...damn, but they have it in the far room" Sango cursed.
"Doesn't matter"
"K, Tsubaki, Tomo, you stay and look after InuYasha....where's your master?" Sango asked.
"Went out for a midnight walk"
"I see..."
Tomo stood up, "I'll make some food for you InuYasha, you must be hungry after all the fighting. Oh yes, Kagome-Sama, here. It's a Kimono. You do not look decent in those strange clothing you where. You may be thought by the villagers as a youkai"
Kagome's face turned dark as she grabbed the pink Kimono that had cherry blossom designs on it.
".....Thanks" she forced out.
"See how it feels being a youkai?" InuYasha asked.
Kagome left the room, "shut up InuYasha! I'll put this on later!"
Tomo ran after Kagome, "NO! NOW! THEN WATER!"
They all disappeared, leaving InuYasha alone with Tsubaki. InuYasha muttered a prayer so that Tsubaki would stay as a normal person would.
Tsubaki slowly turned and looked at InuYasha,
"We're alone....." she muttered.
"God save me" he muttered under his breath seeing that his prayers wouldn't work.
She bent and held InuYasha's hands, "Oh InuYasha! I missed you so much! My Master....I do not believe he loves me!"
~I don't like your stupid master...I don't like the way he looks at Kagome and Sango. And why would anyone like a freaky wench like you~
InuYasha coughed, unable to breath with Tsubaki's weight on top of him.
"Get....OFF!"
"Oh, gomen" she giggled, "Oh I see a deep wound on your chest, let me take a closer look at it"
InuYasha hit her hands away, "That's- all- right!!!"
She giggled again.
They both looked up as someone entered the room. It was Kagome wearing the Kimono. She looked down at herself,
"Is it nice or what?!" Kagome said with a smiled as she turned around, "WOW! Cherry blossoms! So nice! Isn't it NICE InuYasha?"
"Keh" InuYasha looked away, his face a little pink, ~Cherry blossoms.....they always remind me of you....~
He could feel his heart pounding fast, ~She looks...really nice~
"Ah, I know you think it's nice" Kagome said in a proud voice.
"My InuYasha tells the truth. He said "Keh" which meant, he doesn't care!" Tsubaki pointed out.
InuYasha's ears perked up, he glanced at Kagome who's backround had gone dark.
"Oh, so InuYasha. Now you've become a three timer? Jeez...you're really good at this aren't you?" Kagome asked darkly, saying this on purpose, knowing that he would be annoyed at what she said which was exactly what she wanted.
"Kkk...KAGOME! Shut UP!"
"There, there, InuYasha" Tsubaki said as she stroke his arms, "just leave her alone. She is a strange girl"
Kagome fired up in annoyance and stormed out of the hut.
"Jeez.....Leave me alone!" InuYasha muttered as he sat up, but grimaced from the pain of moving.
"Lie back down, you are unwell"
"I'll be even more unwell if you keep hovering over me!"
A tear ran down Tsubaki's cheeks as more rushed down.
InuYasha looked around in panic. He hated it when girls cried.
"Shut up, shut up you wench! Um....I mean, shush, shush. Calm down! I didn't mean it....." InuYasha hissed, ~Well......yes I did~
Tsubaki started to hiccup.
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Kagome walked out towards the river,
"Stupid Tsubaki, doesn't even know when someone's already been taken. Hah, I'll show her that InuYasha's mine.......!!!!"
She heard unsteady footsteps walking towards her.
Kagome slowly turned her head to see a man holding a bear bottle and walked towards her.
Something felt wrong, Kagome frowned. ~Does he want to tell me something? Why is he coming towards me....?!~
Kagome filled the bucket with water and backed away.
He laughed, "Isn't it a lovely night pretty miss?" he slurred as he got closer to Kagome.
"Man you stink" Kagome muttered.
"Nice Kimono! Very attractive...."
"You're freaking me out...you get any nearer I'll scream for InuYasha!"
"InuYasha? Who the hell is he...ah hah, that half demon? Why would he be around you, Miss? He's probably out somewhere in the wild"
He stepped closer to Kagome as she backed up against the wall of the hut.
"Would you like to become my woman?" he slurred.
"I'm gunu scream NOW! InuYa--------"
He covered her mouth with his. Kagome's eyes shot wide in disgust.
Kagome pushed him away as she started to spit on the ground in disgust.
The man frowned bitterly, "You have insulted me....."
"You scream, and I'll smash this bottle over your head!" he muttered as he held her mouth shut, "Now you'll come with me nicely! And once I'm done with you I'll let you go, hai?"
She bit his hands that shot away from her mouth and kicked him, he tried to hit Kagome with the bottle, but missed.
The master of the hut had been walking back to the hut and saw Kagome in trouble. Not knowing what to do he ran into the hut to get InuYasha.
"InuYasha-Sama!" he cried.
InuYasha glared at him, "WHAT?!"
"It's...Kagome!" he panted.
InuYasha shot up and ran outside to where he had been pointing to. He saw a man pushing Kagome against the wall and kissing her.
Kagome could feel a tear run down her cheeks, ~He's stronger than me.....~
Suddenly she could feel the man moving away. She looked up to see InuYasha tossing the man onto the ground. He stood up and ran away. InuYasha ran over to Kagome,
"Kagome! You alright?" InuYasha asked in a shaky tone.
She ran over to the river and started to rinse her mouth with the cold water. She nodded,
"I'm fine! I'm fine!" Kagome cried as more tears rushed down her cheeks, ~This never happened to me before.....it was so scary~
InuYasha hesitantly walked over to Kagome and stood behind her.
"You.....sure?"
"Yes....ERG! It was so nasty!"
InuYasha twitched in anger as his fingers were clutched into a fist. He wanted to kill that man....
Kagome sighed, water dripping down from her mouth. She felt a shiver run down her back. She turned to see InuYasha staring at the ground with a hateful look on his face. She could also see the fresh wounds all over him.
"Let's go back inside...." Kagome whispered.
"I...won't let that bastard get away......I'll kill him with my own bare hands" InuYasha hissed.
Kagome sadly smiled, "let it go InuYasha.....he's only human. There's many other men like him, you can't change that and you can't kill them all, you'd probably then have to kill like....half the world"
"Then I'll kill half the world.....men who treat women like that don't deserve to live"
Kagome leaned her head against him as he held her.
"There are people who die, but deserve to live. And people who live that deserve to die. But we can't be the judge of that....."
"Keh, sometimes you're too kind, Kagome" InuYasha said as he walked Kagome back into the hut, "InuYasha....I don't want anyone to know this happened...."
"Ok....but why?"
"It's....kind of disturbing and all. I just want to forget about it, as it never happened"
"Sure" he said quietly.
Kaede looked at InuYasha one last time,
"Yup, I believe that is all. No wound is left unbandaged"
"Lady Kaede. Please stay for the night" the master of the hut asked.
"Oh....Arigato"
InuYasha leaned against the wall and stared up at the ceiling. Kaede walked over and sat next to him.
He glanced over at Kagome from the corner of his eyes. Her face was still not back to normal, but she acted as if nothing had happened. She sat there playing with Shippo.
No one seemed to want to go to sleep, as if their sleep had disappeared.
InuYasha sadly looked away from Kagome, he still had the image of Kagome being tortured by Seiyamie and being kissed by a drunk man. It scarred him. He wanted to kill both Seiyamie and that man....wherever he was.
Kaede looked at InuYasha,
"So....have you chosen yet?" she asked.
"It's none of your business Kaede-baba"
"It is.....I care for both of them, thus it is my business"
InuYasha heavily sighed and looked away,
"I told you, if it is my fate to go with Kikyo. I will...."
"Fate...can be chosen. Do you CHOOSE to go with Kikyo?"
InuYasha leaned his head back and closed his eyes,
"I don't know anymore....I don't know anything anymore...." InuYasha muttered in a sigh.
"You must know something...within that stubborn heart of yours"
InuYasha looked down at his hands, "I.....I didn't get to tell you something....that will make everything a whole lot .....harder"
"And what may that be?"
"I.....I'm also...in love with.....Kagome" InuYasha confessed in a whisper.
Kaede frowned, ~InuYasha.....in love with Kagome. I had thought of the possibilities...but now actually hearing it from InuYasha....it feels unbelievable~
"Yes...I believe you are right...It shall make things all the more difficult" Kaede muttered.
"I'm afraid......that I'm going to fall more in love with her...I know it's wrong to....My heart's supposed to belong to Kikyo alone......"
"Our heart, InuYasha, is something we cannot control. We cannot stop love from growing"
".....I know.....But even now...my love for her...Is enough to tear my heart apart if I was to leave her.....which I will have to some day"
"You talk as if you MUST go with Kikyo....it's your choice. You are free" Kaede said.
InuYasha shook his head, "no...no I'm not free. With Kikyo and her darkness towards me and everything I owe her, I'll never be free....."
"InuYasha.....you make it sound as if you are choosing Kikyo from debt, not love"
"No, I love Kikyo...I have for so many years....It's just....I don't know"
"I see....who do you love more?"
"I don't know! It has to be Kikyo, right?! I love her more....right?!"
"You are confused InuYasha.....If you choose without a clear heart, you'll never be free. For not knowing the true answer, will cage you in and eat at you. For you will never know the answer after you choose..."
"Time is what I need....but Kaede-baba, I don't have any more damn time! If I don't choose soon, I might loose one of them.....i hurt them each time I wait longer"
Silence.
"I'm afraid.....for Kagome....She could have died today and also she...yah" InuYasha said, stopping there.
"Cherish the things you love..the one you love in life and the moments you spend with the person, for the person may be gone the next day....and such moments may never occur again. That is life InuYasha. We cannot change it"
InuYasha buried his head in his hands,
"I don't know...how I could live without.....Kagome"
Sango had been near the window InuYasha was under, while she was turning the fire off, and heard it all.
She seriously wanted to hit InuYasha on the head, ~It's so obvious BAKA that you want to be with Kagome more......but then.....what do I know. I didn't even know though real Kikyo you love....damn, I cant bear to see Kagome hurt...~
Sango sighed deeply,
"It's so hard to believe though....though I had believed that he would be in love with her...it's just hard. InuYasha....that stubborn baka....is actually in love. It's so different to the way he seems to love Kikyo. This love seems more....stronger....Or I might be wrong" Sango muttered to herself.
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Tsubaki lay awake while it seemed as if the other were asleep.
She quietly sighed, ~InuYasha......~
She saw someone moving. She turned to see that it was InuYasha still awake
She watched as InuYasha got up and walked over to Kagome. He crouched down next to her and observed Kagome asleep.
~Is she ok now....?~ InuYasha wondered. He hesitantly reached out his arms and touched her forehead to see if she might have caught a cold outside. ~She seems fine....damn~ InuYasha backed away, ~what's gotten into these past few days....I'm caring a little to much for her~
"Huh...." Kagome opened her eyes to see InuYasha. He fell back in surprise.
"You're supposed to be ASLEEP!" InuYasha hissed.
"And you TOO!"
"Sorry...if I woke you or anything" InuYasha said as if he didn't care.
"It's alright. I'm not tired....well.....I don't feel like going to sleep." Kagome asked.
".....How can you NOT be tired, it's like....past midnight" InuYasha muttered.
Kagome kneeled on the ground, "I cant seem to forget....what happened today"
InuYasha sighed, he grasped her wrist and pulled her up.
"Huh?!"
"You need some fresh air!"
InuYasha pulled her outside. Tsubaki pouted her lips and muttered a few curses then dropped back to sleep, as she dreamed of thousands of men bowing down at her feet. "Most fairest lady! Please love me as I love you!" they all begged. Tsubaki smiled widely as she slept.
InuYasha ran slowly, pulling her along.
"InuYasha! You're still wounded!" Kagome yelled.
"I'm fine! Come! I want to show you something nice"
"Huh? Where are we going?!"
InuYasha stopped when they got to a lake.
Kagome looked out at the lake that glittered in the moonlight as fireflies danced around the night sky.
"Waaaaa....it's so nice!" Kagome gasped.
"Keh, I told you it was something nice"
Kagome sat down and gazed out at the lake, as she listened to the sound of the night.
InuYasha sat down next to her,
~Cherish the things you love..the one we love in life and the moments you spend with the person, for the person may be gone the next day....and such moments may never occur again. That is life InuYasha. We cannot change it~ he heard Kaede say.
"Do you think you can catch me a firefly?" Kagome asked.
"Is that a dare.....?"
"I guess...."
"Keh, it'll be easy" InuYasha said as he got up and grabbed at a firefly but missed. He blinked, ~it was just there a minuet ago....~
He grabbed at again and felt something in his palm. He opened his hands and showed it to Kagome. Kagome sweat fropped,
"I meant, catch it and show it to me ALIVE! Not squashed like mashed potato"
"Mashed potato? What the hell is that?"
"Never mind, it's just mushy stuff"
"Keh, just watch, I'll catch you one" InuYasha said. Kagome tried hard not to laugh as InuYasha ran around the lake trying to get one.
"Miroku caught one you know InuYasha, it would be sad if you couldn't catch one" Kagome called out, "You probably cant catch one cuz you scare them all away"
"Shut up!" InuYasha muttered, his mind determined to catch one, "I'll catch one"
InuYasha saw one not far from him, he jumped and cupped his hands around the firefly.
"InuYasha....look down...." Kagome laughed.
InuYasha was high up in the air, he looked down to see not land, but the lake.
"Ahhhhhhhhh!" InuYasha splashed into the lake.
Kagome laughed like crazy watching InuYasha getting out of the lake with a pissed expression on his face.
"HAHA! For a dog you're strange. Dog's usually like the water
"Shut up wench!" he muttered in annoyance as he squeezed the water out of his Haori. He looked over at Kagoem and grinned mischievously .
He walked over to Kagome and squeezed the water over her head.
"Keh, that's what you get for laughing" InuYasha laughed.
"BAKA!!!!!!!" Kagome yelled as she started to chase him all over the place, "I'm gunu say the word!"
"Oh, don't forget I'm hurt!" InuYasha pointed out.
Kagome sighed as sleep kept coming to her. She yawned and stopped running. InuYasha stopped running and walked over in relief, stood next to her.
InuYasha shook himself as water flew off his Haori.
"InuYasha!" Kagome scolded as the droplets of water splashed onto her.
"Oh, gomen"
They stood next to each other watching the starry sky. Kagome saw a star shoot across the sky, she closed her eyes to make a wish,
~Make InuYasha happy.....~
InuYasha looked at her wondering why she was closing her eyes.
She opened her eyes and looked at InuYasha who quickly looked away,
"Did you make a wish?" she asked.
"A..wish?"
"On that star that shot by....a shooting star"
"No....I don't do those things. They're useless"
"How boring" Kagome muttered.
InuYasha sat on the ground, his face covered in a shadow.
"Are you saying I'm boring..."
Kagome sat down next to him, "no..how can you be.....annoying would fit"
InuYasha turned and glared at her, Kagome put her hands in front of her in defense.
"I'm just joking!" Kagome laughed.
~Cherish the things you love..the one we love in life and the moments you spend with the person, for the person may be gone the next day....and such moments may never occur again. That is life InuYasha. We cannot change it~ he heard Kaede say again in his mind.
Kagome leaned against his shoulder, "all you have to know is that you make me happy"
InuYasha slowly glanced at Kagome from the corner of his eyes,
"Kagome......"
"I know I you can't be with me, but I guess I can find other things in life that'll make me happy.....but I guess....I'll never truly be happy......"
InuYasha looked down at his hands.
"But don't worry about me InuYasha!" Kagome said cheerfully, "I'll be fine as long as you're happy! As long...as you have....a bit of me in.....your heart"
~Stop it Kagome....stop acting like this. I can't afford to fall more in love with you.....~
"Our heart, InuYasha, is something we cannot control. We cannot stop love from growing" Kaede's voice echoed in his mind.
InuYasha shut his eyes, ~I don't know what to do....my love is all Kikyo wants, but it's slipping bit by bit to Kagome.....But I love Kikyo..a lot...so I'm gunu have to try and give my heart fully back to her. I must try the impossible... I have no other choice....~
InuYasha hesitantly wrapped his arms around Kagome, ~I'm afraid to think that there will be a life ahead of me....where you won't be....And the day that is to come where we'll have to separate~
InuYasha looked up, ~That scent.....~ His heart started to beat fast as his arms moved away from Kagome. He felt his mind screaming the word "traitor" at him.
Kikyo watched in a forest across the lake. Her arms hanging at her side as she stared at InuYasha and Kagome together.
She looked painfully away and looked down at her hands.
~What am I to him.....~
~I am the same to him as to everyone else.....a dead corpse with a cold heart~
~But he told me.....that he didn't care.....that he loved me still~
~....All.....but a lie~
"When will the day come.....when my soul can rest......" Kikyo whispered, "when I can live among the living, and be accepted........but that dream seems to much for me now......."
"The day I've always waited for....the day when InuYasha would be with me....seems like nothing but a shattered dream.....I feel as if I'm fading from his heart that I once thought beated for me alone...."
InuYasha looked around, his eyes caught a figure across the lake past the trees. A figure dressed in red and white, staring at him. She just stared at him,
"InuYasha?" Kagome asked in worry.
InuYasha turned and looked at Kagome, then turned back to look at the person...but she was gone. He saw Kikyo's Shini-dama-chuu's flying past the trees.
~Kikyo.....~
"Did you see anything?" Kagome asked.
"Huh....no" InuYasha said in a distant voice.
InuYasha continued to stare at the place Kikyo had been standing, as Kagome observed him. He seemed to have snapped out after a few minuets had passed. He looked at Kagome but then looked away, unable to look at her.
Kagome smiled sadly and stood up,
"You saw Kikyo.....didn't you. You never were able to look at me when you think or see Kikyo...."
InuYasha stood up as well and looked down, "sorry...."
Kagome turned and started to walk away,
"You don't have to apologies to me. It's not like I own you or anything. It's more Kikyo you should apologies to, since you're kind of in love with me in the first place .... it's her you're supposed to love not me, isn't it? So why apologies to me? It's alright InuYasha, you can run off to her whenever you want. I know place in your heart" Kagome said fast in a cheerful voice, hiding the bleeding of her heart, "don't let me be an obstacle for you..."
InuYasha caught Kagome's wrist, "Kagome....you'll always be an obstacle for me....because I love you....you'll be an obstacle that I might not even be able to move"
"Well....you'll have to someday.....to be with Kikyo and all"
Silence.
"Kagome......"
Kagome sighed heavily, "let's just go back....I'm not in the mood to talk about this. We'll both catch a cold if we don't since we're wet and it's still winter...though, this winter wasn't that cold, don't you think?" Kagome asked, trying to change the subject.
"Yah.....whatever" he muttered, ~Kagome.....stop storing all your pain inside.....or you'll become like me...dark, and confused. It'll turn into pain....Kagome....It's hard to imagine you becoming like those people, like Kikyo. So...please....try not to get hurt by me....don't care for me....don't love me.....even though I'm happy you do, it'll just hurt you more. The day will come.....when it'll really hurt you....so....don't~
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The next day InuYasha and Kagome acted a bit tense everyone noticed.
Miroku elbowed Sango, "I know this tension....the reason for it"
"What?" she asked.
"Even last time it was like this..."
"Nanda?!"
"They've seen....Kikyo" he said in a whisper.
"Oro.....Kikyo?!" Sango gasped and let out a deep sigh of frustration, "let me guess, and InuYasha probably went all bizarre from seeing her and made Kagome feel abandoned"
"Maybe..."
~Stupid InuYasha....playing around with two peoples heart~ Sango thought.
"Jeez....I've warned InuYasha about two timing" Miroku sighed.
Sango sweat dropped.
Everyone looked up to see a swirl of dust heading towards them.
"Eh?"
The dust began to die away as Kouga appeared. InuYasha started to growl in anger.
"Kisama!!! What the hell are you doing here you asshole?!" InuYasha yelled.
"Heh, someday I'll stick a soap into your dirty mouth. Every word you say to me at least has a swear word in it! I just came to VISIT! What the hell is wrong with that....Dog ears?!" Kouga asked in annoyance.
"Shut the fuckin hell up cave man!"
"Heh, I don't have time for this! I just came to see Kagome"
"That wench?! Are you deaf or something?! She's not interested in becoming your "mate" Kouga" InuYasha growled with is hands grasped into a fist.
"Oh, and are you telling me that she's interested in you? Ha, that's a laugh dog ears? Hey, but doesn't she know that you already have a woman?"
"She's not my damn 'woman' !!"
"I know that!!! My woman would never choose you"
"You fuckin deaf?! SHE - IS - NOT - YOUR - WOMAN!"
"YES - SHE - IS!"
"NO!"
"Fine, then if she's not, then it means she's single, so I'll go and TRY to make her my woman" Kouga said, "happy now? OK, Kagome you wanna go out for a walk?"
"No she doesn't want to go for a walk with you"
Kouga hit InuYasha across the head, "let the poor woman TALK for once!"
InuYasha grabbed Kouga's ears and pulled it hard causing him to crash to the ground.
"She doesn't WANT to talk to you!"
Kouga jumped up and pulled at InuYasha's ears as InuYasha pulled Kouga's.
"And how do you know if she wants to talk to me or not when she didn't even say she didn't?!! Huuuh?!!!" Kouga asked.
They both let go of each other's ears and glared at each other.
"You're one hell of an annoying dog!"
"Shut the hell up and go back home to your other cave people"
"Heh, make me!" Kouga hissed, "I'm gunu sit right here until I get to talk with her" Kouga said, sitting on the ground.
"Keh" InuYasha stepped on Kouga's tail as Kouga shot up with a cry of pain, "HAHA!"
"BAKA!" Kouga yelled as his face turned red in anger.
"Guys! Stop it!" Kagome yelled.
"They're like an exact imitation of two year olds.....no, worse" Miroku muttered with a sweat drop.
"I agree..." Sango muttered.
"Are they always acting as they are now?" Kaede asked.
"Yes..."
"Oi...."
"Anything you say, Kagome my love" Kouga said, pulling InuYasha's lock of hair, "that was the last thing...I stop now"
InuYasha kicked hard on Kouga's leg, "And I'll stop now"
"Hold on, one more thing" Kouga said, hitting his hand hard across InuYasha's head.
"What the hell?! You said you'd stop! Damn you" InuYasha muttered as they started to fight again. Everyone watched as InuYasha and Kouga disappeared into a circle of dust as you could see their hands hitting each other.
"Kagome, I believe you should stop them" Kaede muttered.
"Hmmm.....InuYasha will get mad if I say it though....."
"I think he will thank thee at the end when he realizes that he is still alive" Kaede muttered.
"Ok then.......SIT!" Kagome yelled, " wow...that felt relieving. OH NO! But Kaede, InuYasha is hurt!"
"He sure didn't act like he was" Sango pointed out.
"True..."
The dust faded away and they saw Kouga wondering where InuYasha had gone, and InuYasha deep inside the ground.
"Ah hah, there you are" Kouga said as he bent and looked down at InuYasha, "how's it down there?"
"Shut..up" InuYasha moaned as he stood out of the hole, he could feel his wound burning, "KA - GO - ME!!!"
"Ahhh, gomen!" Kagome cried, running up to him.
"Stupid wench..." he muttered.
"Gomen, we all forgot you were hurt!" Kagome apologiesed.
Kouga sighed, "Man....I missed my chance to be with Kagome" he muttered, "I'll be back another time! JA!"
"Go to hell!" InuYasha called out to him.
"Um nope, it'll most likely be you who will be going to hell with that dead priestess. MAN you must have bad taste...Hey, but I understand, you're in love, that's why you stick to her. RIGHT?! Haha, after you're gone, I'll get Kagome!" Kouga said as he sped away.
Kagome looked away, ~Even Kouga knows that InuYasha loves Kikyo....~
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InuYasha lay back after Kaede had bandaged his wounds up again.
"You really should act more sober when it comes to Kouga, you go mad just seeing him. He just came to see Kagome" Kaede muttered as she cleaned up the hut.
"Shut up you old hag" InuYasha muttered.
"InuYasha, don't be so rude" Kagome hissed.
"You get used to it after a while...it feels like he's calling you by your given name because he calls you by that so many times" Kaede murmured.
Everyone sweat dropped.
"Poor Lady Kaede, I don't know how he can stand the likes of him" Miroku muttered.
"Ya" Shippo added.
InuYasha closed his eyes, he saw her, standing in the woods across the lake. Standing behind the trees, staring at him...while he had been holding Kagome.
~Kikyo....~ InuYasha thought, the image wouldn't go out of his mind.
Tomo and Tsubaki arrived from their shopping in another village not far from here.
"Kon'nechewa!" Tsubaki and Tomo said.
"Yah, hi" InuYasha muttered as everyone else greeted them pleasantly.
As Tomo and Tsubaki went on and on about what they did in the village, InuYasha stood up and walked outside. Kagome looked up and followed.
Kagome reached out her arm and touched his shoulders.
InuYasha turned around to see Kagome, "Kagome...."
"What's wrong?" Kagome asked.
"Nothing.....really. I just wanted to get out" he replied.
Kagome could read it all over his face, Kikyo....
"InuYasha, you're lying. You don't have to keep it away from me.....you're thinking about Kikyo. See I'm not hurt" Kagome said with a smile.
InuYasha turned and gazed at her. Kagome felt a little shocked, she felt as if he was reading every bit in her soul.
"You're hurt.....I know Kagome......you're lying to me as well" he said quietly.
The stood face to face, close to each other.
"Kagome....." InuYasha whispered, holding her hands in his.
Kagome felt her heart pounding fast, but suddenly, she realized something.... She could feel InuYasha getting closer to her....
She pulled away, "are you like this because I remind you of Kikyo? First minuet you're thinking about her, and the next you're acting like this. Is it because I look like her and you want to be with her? So you think if you be with someone right now that looks like her, you'll feel as if it is her?!" Kagome cried.
InuYasha held her tightly as she tried to move away, but he kept on holding her.
"Kagome! You are you, I've never once tried to use you for Kikyo!"
Kagome stopped trying to move away, and leaned against him.
"It's hard to believe what you said....cause I know you love her more....every time you look at me warmly.....it's hard to believe that look was meant for me....."
"They're all true......"
"I've always wondered....ever since the day you told me that you kind of loved me....the way you look at me melts me.....but to Kikyo whom you love so much....I wonder how it would feel to have you look at the person you love so much......" Kagome whispered, and sadly laughed, "but I guess I'll never know....Maybe if me and Kikyo see each other some time, I'll ask.... But I wont tell her that you have a little room in your heart for me. I don't want to hurt her, cuz it'll hurt you then....."
"Will you stop talking like that?! You make me feel as if I'm hurting you so much....am I ?!" InuYasha asked in a strained voice.
"No....InuYasha.....you're not. I'm just hurting myself"
Kagome stepped back and smiled at him, "it's alright...all will be fine at the end. You'll see.....I'll be happy some how....."
InuYasha turned to see a Shinni-dama-chuu flying through the air with a dead soul clutched in its claws.
"Kikyo....." InuYasha whispered.
Kagome tightly shut her eyes, ~I wish I could disappear right now...~
InuYasha looked ahead and saw a distant figure of Kikyo walking further away.
Kikyo looked straight ahead, not turning back to look at InuYasha. She had heard InuYasha, he had told her that he loved her before...that's why Kagome had spoken of him having a room in his heart for her.
~Traitor.....~
She looked coldly ahead without any emotions on her face.
~And yet....I still cannot hate you enough to not be with you~
Kikyo clutched her hands into a fist as her nails dug into her palm.
~But I want revenge on you so bitterly....for betraying me. You say you love me, and yet you say that to another. Is that called love....that is not the love I want. Is this what I came to this cursed earth to get? To get your so called love and my revenge?~
Blood streaked down her palm as it dripped onto the high grass.
~Has the times we have spent together so easily left your mind....has the love we felt for each other so quickly faded away......Why is it so easy for you to hurt me, and yet so hard for you to please me....is it too hard? Too hard for the love you always said you had for me?! IS IT?!~
A tear dropped down her pale and emotionless face.
~My heart has hardened into ice....and can no longer beat with the passion the Kikyo that had once lived did....unless I have my soul back.....Or unless you can melt it....but you will not be able to......I do not think you can~
InuYasha stared at Kikyo's figure fading away,
"Kikyo......" he whispered.
"Go to her" a voice whispered.
He looked to see that it was Kagome who looked at him then turned, "go to her...the one you really love"
Kagome walked away.
InuYasha had tried to reach out for her, but hesitated. His arms dropped helplessly to his side....
"Kagome......gomen....."
He turned himself away from Kagome.
~.....I'm sorry Kagome.....but my fate....is with Kikyo~
He hesitantly turned to see if he could still see Kagome, but she was gone.
InuYasha tightly closed his eyes, ~ I'm really sorry Kagome.....~
He slowly walked after Kikyo...then broke into a run.
~Kikyo.....~
**~~ MWUAHAHAHA, I've putted my angst into this hahahahahha. Dun worry for the readers who are probably at this moment cursing me, DUN WORRY it's an InuYasha and Kagome fic ^^ Well, keep on reading and lets see how many ppl are actually reading this fic by how many ppl review -_-" COME ON review plzzzzzzzzzzz~~**