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# When I use this sign "" it means that you're in Kagome's dream world thing she's in. "" the end of her dream.
============= Chapter Fourty-Nine=============
Sango and Miroku stared dumbly out the window into the night sky pouring rain. Sango bit her nails nervously,
"I'm worried....it's now midnight and InuYasha has been gone for hours and Kagome hasn't come back....." Sango murmured.
Miroku frowned, "Where can they possibly be at this time......"
"Something's wrong....."
Miroku nodded in agreement.
"We must go out and go search for them...I saw InuYasha heading towards the direction of the forest. Let's go!" Sango said determinedly.
Miroku and Sango walked towards the door. Sango stepped outside into the rain, she turned to see Miroku standing still inside the hut.
"LET'S GO!" Sango hissed.
Miroku nervously laughed and scratched his head,
"In....IN the rain?"
Sango hit Miroku across the head, "LET'S GO!"
"Hai, hai, hai !!!!!!" Miroku cried then stopped again, "walk ALL the way in the rain to the forest? Don't you think we should just wake Kilala up?"
Sango sighed, "OK!!"
They flew towards the forest, When Kilala landed on the ground of the forest, Miroku and Sango jumped off.
"Are you sure Shippo will be fine?" Miroku asked.
"Yes, Tsubaki and them are in the other room"
".....They're useless though!"
"JUST shut up!" Sango yelled with a stress mark on her head.
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They walked through the forest, their clothing drenched in cold rain.
Sango looked around the foggy forest with crystal clear rain dribbling to the ground. She closed her eyes, ~Kagome.....InuYasha.....I can sense something is really wrong.....~
Sango walked on with her eyes closed in thought, but her chest bumped into Miroku's stretched out arms. She felt her cheeks burn,
"BAKA!"
"WH-What?!" Miroku asked in defense, "I was just trying to make you stop walking"
"WHY?!"
Miroku looked forward, Sango's eye followed. She saw something blurry through the heavy rain fall. She squinted her eyes,
"What...is it?"
"I have no idea....maybe it'll lead us to InuYasha and Kagome" Miroku suggested.
"What if Kagome's not even with InuYasha" Sango worried.
"She'll be...I'm sure..."
They cautiously walked closer to the figure that was slumped on the ground. As they got even closer, they saw it was more than one figure.
Sango and Miroku gasped to see InuYasha slumped over Kagome muttering something,
"Kagome...I'll never leave you..."
"Come on Kagome....wake up.....Kagome..!"
Sango stared with open eyes at InuYasha holding Kagome with his head resting on her chest, using his Haori to keep her dry.
"I can still hear your heart beating......" InuYasha whispered, his voice strained from the tightness of his throat.
"InuYasha.....Kagome...." Sango quietly cried.
"InuYasha what happened?" Miroku asked.
"Let's just try and bring them back to the hut" Sango suggested as she ran over to them, "InuYasha, let's get Kagome out of here"
InuYasha didn't respond.
Miroku shook him, but he didn't respond, "InuYasha! What's wrong?!"
A dark gloomy shadow covered InuYasha's eyes as he kept a tigt hold on Kagome,
"It's.....all my....fault...." he whispered.
"Explain later! We have to get out of the rain! InuYasha! Let go of Kagome!" Sango yelled her heart beating with pain, ~Is...Kagome dead?!!!~
"I'm never going to let go of her.....never" InuYasha muttered.
"If you don't let go of her, you'll hurt her more by making her catch a cold!"
InuYasha's strength gave out as Miroku pulled Kagome out of InuYasha's tight grasp as he lay her gently on Kilala with the Haori tightly wrapped around her. Sango ran over and searched for the wounds, but found none.
Miroku stood in shock, ~Her body...felt lifeless.....~
"InuYasha, let's go" Miroku said as he pulled at InuYasha's wrist, but InuYasha didn't budge, "BAKA! WHAT'S WRONG?!"
"Kikyo took....all of her soul...."
They both stared at InuYasha then at Kagome.
"It's all my fault....if only....I had chosen faster"
"It's not your fault! Let's get out of here!" Miroku said loudly through the loud pouring rain, InuYasha unsteadily stood up and walked towards Kilala.
Sango stared over at InuYasha who sat gazing down at Kagome, his eyes trying to hide the pain he felt.
Miroku closed his eyes and started to pray,
~She has fallen into a deep sleep filled with darkness.....The glow of her soul is gone.....huh....what is this....I see a spot of soul left in her....~
Miroku opened his eyes and looked over at InuYasha, ~Should I tell him....no I shouldn't. The soul left in her is hardly there...But that means that...Kagome's soul was too much for such a powerful miko like Kikyo...can it mean that Kagome may be..stronger?~
Sango yawned from sleepiness.
Miroku looked over at Sango and suggested that she go to sleep, but she refused. He also felt tired.
They all continued to watch Kagome helplessly, as an hour passed by, Miroku dropped to sleep, after thirty minuets Sango dropped to sleep.
InuYasha continued to watch Kagome, holding her cold hands.
~Damn Kagome...you would have lived....if you hadn't sacrificed yourself for me.....But....if I had decided faster....this would have never happened. If I had loved Kikyo, and decided to choose her, you would have left to your world alive. If I had chose you, you wouldn't have gave up your soul thinking that I loved Kikyo more....I'm so sorry....And I feel so screwed cuz I feel so powerless at this moment to help you.....~
His heart continued to throb in pain, every beat his heart beated felt like a dagger stabbing into his heart. InuYasha lay down on the cold wooden floor and stared at Kagome,
~She might never return.....~ InuYasha painfully thought of that possibility, ~this is the same as if she were dead....her mind and heart is far away in a different dimension....far away in the darkness of her mind....living in her nightmare. Just for me, she chose to suffer....and now I'm suffering of my foolishness. The love I yearned for secretly in my heart, the love I never felt...had always been beside me, but I continued to stubbornly think that that person was Kikyo...but it wasn't. When I was with Kagome...I felt like a child learning new emotions, with her I felt so many new things I've never felt before....~
Kagome stayed engraved in his mind, her face wouldn't even fade away from his mind even if he tried....
"InuYasha" she said cheerfully with a warm smile.
~I'll never see that smile again.....~ InuYasha sadly thought, as he held Kagome in his arms,
~To get your soul back...Kikyo....what am I gunu do if she doesn't return it...No way in hell am I gunu try and kill her to get the soul out of her...I do love Kikyo....just....I want Kagome, if loosing Kikyo means that I can have her, then I will, but not in the way of killing...And I want for Kikyo to die with her soul in rest~
"I love you....Kagome.." he whispered.
Kagome weakly opened her eyes, but something was pulling her back into the forest. She saw a glimpse of InuYasha....holding her.
She pushed her hands towards InuYasha's face that lay asleep, Kagome touched his cheeks lightly with her cold fingers,
~What's going on...I was....in the forest....why does my body feel so heavy....I can barley move...~
InuYasha shot open her eyes,
"Kagome!" he gasped.
Kagome felt a stronger force sucking her back into the forest place,
InuYasha stared at Kagome in shock, his heart had stopped beating, he had stopped breathing.
"Kagome!"
He watched as she started to shiver, her eyes went vacant again.
"InuYasha....." She whispered.
"What?" InuYasha asked, slight hope warming his heart, not knowing that she was talking to the InuYasha in her dream.
"I....really did...think...."
"Kagome....nanda?!" InuYasha asked, holding her cold hands tightly, as he sat up and stared at her in desperation.
"I really did think...that you...loved me" she whispered.
InuYasha stared at Kagome, his eyes wide open in shock and pain. He shook Kagome's shoulders,
"NO! Kagome! You're in a dream! I do love you, Kagome!" InuYasha cried, trying to wake her. But she had fallen back into the world she'd forever live in.
A tear dripped down Kagome's cheeks.
InuYasha looked down in pain, "No...Kagome...I love you...."
"Kagome....." InuYasha quietly cried.
Kikyo watched through the window, as InuYasha grieved over Kagome.
~It wasn't supposed to be like this....~ Kikyo bitterly thought, ~InuYasha and I were supposed to be happily together....not like this~
Kikyo closed her eyes, ~now I feel rejected...from InuYasha's heart...~
Kikyo touched the foggy window pane with her fingers and wrote the thing she wanted so much, love, then erased it bitterly. She turned and walked away.
~Will we....ever be able to....be together....~ he wondered.
InuYasha lay holding Kagome's cold and soulless body,
"I'm right here Kagome....I'm right here....I'm not the one in your dream" InuYasha whispered, his eyes tightly closed, not wanting to see her sad and pale face.
~She's as good as dead~ a voice said in his mind.
Silence.
"Kkkk.." InuYasha slammed his fist into the wooden floor, causing everyone to shoot awake. Tomo, Tsubaki, and the master came running into the room.
"What happened?!" the master asked, "M-m-my floor! My beautiful floor!"
They all stared at InuYasha who glared down at the whole he had made, he slowly stood up and walked towards the door.
"InuYasha....." Sango called.
"I can't stand it.....to see her like this" InuYasha whispered in a strained voice as he left the room.
Sango looked at Miroku, they waited a while then got Kilala and followed InuYasha. Shippo screamed,
"What's going one?! Kagome?!!!!!!!" Shippo cried.
Miroku and Sango looked around, but InuYasha had disappeared into the foggy sky. Miroku closed his eyes and moved his staff around in the air to see if he could sense InuYasha.
A while had passed,
"I can't sense him..." Miroku muttered.
A distance away, they could see trees falling,
"Um....I have a really good guess that InuYasha is that way" Sango pointed at the direction of where the trees where disappearing.
InuYasha jumped through the air as the moisty cold wind blew against his face. He landed on the ground as he fell to his knees, his fingers digging into the soil,
"Why...did this have to happen...to her?!" InuYasha hissed. He felt his anger wanting to release, and the pain he had, gone. He growled as he ran his claws through the bark of a tree as it crashed to the ground. Then he got his fist and smashed it through another tree leaving a whole in it, as InuYasha stared down at his bloody hands.
He wanted to try and forget Kagome's face that wouldn't leave his mind, the face that he'd never see again....it hurted him so much.
InuYasha tried to forget by causing himself physical pain to forget the pain within him by continuously smashing the trees. Blood streamed down from all over him. InuYasha heavily sighed as he collapsed to the ground and stared blankly at the trees.
~I can't forget her....I'm afraid that....some day her cheerful face will fade away into the pale soulless face...the face I had created.....~
InuYasha closed his eyes. All the anger had gone out of him, leaving him empty with only the pain, loneliness and sorrow.
"InuYasha!" Sango and Miroku cried as they ran to him.
"What the hell do you think you're doing?!" Sango yelled at him.
"I needed to get it all out" InuYasha distantly answered.
"Get what out?!" Miroku questioned.
"My anger.....at myself...and at Kikyo. But it wont be gone for long...it'll come back...."
Sango sighed, "You're gunu kill yourself if you go further than this. Remember InuYasha.....Kagome isn't dead.....she's just asleep. We can wake her, don't worry"
InuYasha opened his eyes,
~Kagome....is still alive...just asleep~ he told himself, ~I might see her again....no, I will see her again. Then she'll wake. Kagome needs me, so I can't give up hope on her, not yet, not ever, as she had never given up on me~
"So stay alive InuYasha!" Sango said.
InuYasha stood up as if he had no wound,
"Keh, you guys are over exaggerating. Why the hell would I want to die?! Like I said, she's just asleep, so don't worry Sango" InuYasha said in his normal tone, but his heart still throbbed in pain.
Miroku stared blankly at InuYasha, while Sango stared at him with a stress mark on her head,
"I said that you BAKA!" Sango yelled.
"Shut up wench" InuYasha muttered, ~Kagome....~
"Stupid InuYasha" Sango muttered as she glared at InuYasha.
On their way back to the hut, Miroku suggested that they stay with Kaede while Kagome was in that state, and stop their search for the Shikon shards for a while. They all agreed.
"Miroku...." InuYasha asked, "Why did....Kagome come back alive?"
"N-Nani?!"
"When you guys were asleep, she came back for just a second or two"
Miroku stared at InuYasha in amazement, ~Kagome's stronger than I thought~
"I don't have forever for you to answer me!" InuYasha hissed.
"It means that Kikyo couldn't suck up all the soul, it was too much for her. But he soul Kagome has is as much as nothing" Miroku said.
"Oh...i see" InuYasha muttered, ~I had hoped.....that it was a sign..that Kagome had more soul in her....~
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The next morning they moved to where Kaede lived, after apologizing to her of their intrusion.....except InuYasha, as usual.
InuYasha gently layed Kagome on the matt. Kaede walked over, confusion written all over her face, not knowing what had happened to Kagome.
She walked over to InuYasha and sat next to him and looked at him in question. He sighed heavily and sat with his back against the wall. He closed his eyes as the warm sunlight relflected against him.
"InuYasha, what happened to Kagome? I can feel some sort of emptiness in her..."
"She took Kagome's soul...."
"She...as in Kikyo?" Kaede asked, her heart pounding fast.
"Yah, who else do you think....but Kikyo did give Kagome a choice. She could have left alive, but she didn't....."
"Are you...saying that what Kagome did was foolish?" Kaede asked, a little angered at what InuYasha had said.
"Keh, it was kinda foolish.....but then again...it does show how caring Kagome can be.....and that it can go a little too far sometimes..." InuYasha said, trying to sound uncaring.
Kaede looked away, her heart aching, ~My sister....Kikyo....I never knew she would ever have such a heart to do such a thing....~
"InuYasha, do not give up hope...she shall come back to us" Kaede said.
"Keh" InuYasha stood up, as he looked away, his eyes blurry with slight tears. He could feel his heart burning, ~I will..get Kagome back~
"Of course she's gunu come back.....I'll get it back" InuYasha muttered as he walked out of the hut.
"InuYasha where are you going?" Kaede asked.
".....To look for Kikyo" InuYasha said. He stepped outside the hut, and looked around. The winter was slowly passing into spring.
InuYasha saw a bare cherry blossom tree, he walked up to it and saw Kagome sitting under it. She looked up at him and sadly smiled,
"InuYasha...I did this for you"
"Kagome!" InuYasha said as he ran up to her, he stretched out his hands to hold her, but his hands went right through. InuYasha looked, she was gone. It had just been his mind.
InuYasha sat under the tree and closed his eyes, ~I can see her whenever I close my eyes...I've memorized how she looks, how she smiles, how she feels when I hold her.....But it'll all fade away after a while....time will make me forget those times when I was with her and only leave the image of her soulless face.....~
InuYasha sighed, "No....Kagome will come back"
He remembered the time when Kagome and him had sat under a cherry blossom, watching it drift gracefully onto the ground. He could still feel the warmth of her hands that he had been holding.
InuYasha stood up, ~I have to get her soul back~
InuYasha walked through the village, searching for a scent of Kikyo. He continued to search with Kagome's image imprinted in his heart.
"Did you see that miko that just passed by a day ago?" said a villager.
"Hai, I saw her before, she was the miko who always stood on the hill waiting for something.....she looked so different now" said another villager.
InuYasha rushed up to the villagers, "Where did she head?!"
The two villagers started to shake in fear seeing a real live youkai. InuYasha shook them,
"WHICH DAMN WAY?!"
" Tha- that w- way" the villager cried, pointing down the road, "to.to the ..n-next village"
InuYasha let go of them as they tumbled to the ground,
"Thanks, that's all I wanted to know" InuYasha muttered as he rushed away.
InuYasha reached the next village and picked up Kikyo's scent. He ran after it and found Kikyo circled among a group of little children.
InuYasha looked secretly at Kikyo's face, ~It looks.....alive~ He heard Kikyo laugh as she touched the cheek of a boy,
"Yes, that was a very interesting story" Kikyo said with a warm smile.
InuYasha bit his lips, ~What am I going to do...Kikyo looks so happy....and I can't just barge in, in front of the kids and ask Kikyo to give up the soul...~
"InuYasha, there is no need for hiding.....I know why you have come" Kikyo's voice called.
InuYasha stepped out of the dark and looked emotionlessly at Kikyo, "I need to talk to you....."
"Kids, I will have to leave you for a moment" Kikyo said.
"HAI!" they all said in unison.
Kikyo and InuYasha sat apart on a mountain.
"I have been laughing more than my usual self would..." Kikyo muttered.
"It's because you have Kagome's soul....not yours" InuYasha replied in the same emotionless tone.
"We are reincarnations....so we are bound to be similar in characteristics"
"No...she's different from you in many ways"
"....I see. So why are you here? If you are asking for her soul back, my answer is no. You shall have to kill me to get it back"
InuYasha turned and looked at Kikyo,
"Kikyo! It's not your soul!"
"No....I guess it's not. But she's lived a happy and carefree life. MY life was unfair.....i lived a short life because I gave up my life for you...to be with you. And I was a caged bird all my life with all the duties and responsibilities I had. I was never an ordinary woman.....SHE WAS. But now....I am what I wanted to become.....and you wish to take it away from me?! Was our love so shallow, that your heart is now empty of me? It would have been better if we never had met"
InuYasha looked down, not knowing what to say.
"You......made me go through so much....so that I can be just with you. But then at the end.....i find out it was all for nothing. All I've wanted was to be with you...." Kikyo whispered.
"Kikyo......I don't know what happened to me...I just changed"
"If I had been with you, only for a bit longer....we would have fallen more in love! Do you not believe that? If we had known each other for a little longer, you would have loved me stronger and more truer. If you had known me for the period you had known Kagome, do you not think that our love would have been stronger?!" Kikyo asked.
"Kikyo.....I don't know.....gomen" InuYasha whispered a reply. His heart throbbing in pain, seeing the pain he had caused Kikyo, ~I've tried to protect you....and yet I hurted you~
"Then.....let us be together for a while to find out" Kikyo begged.
"Kikyo....I can't...Kagome ..."
"Bring her here, and stay with me just for a while....please....and you can take care of Kagome..."
InuYasha stood to leave, but Kikyo caught his wrist.
"Is this the love you felt for me? You just abandon me?! I just want to be with you for a while. Is that now too much to ask for?!" Kikyo cried.
InuYasha glanced down at Kikyo, ~that voice......is the voice of the woman I had once loved.....what if...I do stay with Kikyo..the real Kikyo, will I fall in love with her again?~
"InuYasha......" Kikyo whispered.
~If I do...it means that I do not deserve to be loved by Kagome.....~ InuYasha thought.
"Fine......i'll stay with you for a bit......and bring Kaede over. Kagome needs to be taken care of. But only for a bit.....no longer" InuYasha muttered as he turned and walked away.
"You will fall in love with me.....as you have so easily fallen in love with Kagome.....you will......I will remind you of all the memories we had shared together. You will love me......" Kikyo whispered.
InuYasha arrived at the hut, and looked down at the ground, ~What if.....I do fall in love.....with Kikyo.....then....what will happen to Kagome~
"Is my love for Kagome that weak.....as it was for Kikyo.....that it can so easily love another......I hope....it's not....." InuYasha prayed.
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They all stared at InuYasha after he told them of what he had agreed to with Kikyo.
"Ae you serious?! You made a deal with that- that bitch?!" Sango yelled.
"She's now the woman.....i had loved" InuYasha forced out, ~Love Kikyo~ the thought felt foreign to his mind.
Sango closed her eyes and bit her lips, "so....when you realize that you love Kikyo....what will become of Kagome....will you just treat her as you have treated Kikyo from before? Will you live with Kikyo and forever leave Kagome in the dark?!"
"No....if I am in love with Kikyo.....then.....I'll ask her to give the soul back....and I'll leave with her to hell"
Miroku hit InuYasha across the head, "snap out InuYasha! You know you love Kagome! You're just getting confused all over again because the person you had puppy love for is now back! But your heart is more sure of what love is.....don't go through this, just stay with Kagome!"
InuYasha sighed, "she wants me to be with her just for a while...it's not much she asked for. It's the least I can repay her with......and I do love her, just that I love Kagome more I guess....."
Miroku leaned over at InuYasha, "how come you never told us about your love life? You never actually told us you were in love with Kagome!"
"Keh, why would I tell you guys?!" InuYasha muttered, pushing Miroku away,
"Kaede- baba is gunu come with us"
"I- I am?"
"Yup you are old hag" InuYasha replied.
~I believe I shall have a serious talk with my sister~ Kaede thought.
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InuYasha, Kagome and Kaede arrived on Kilala at the village Kikyo was in. They saw Kikyo walking towards them.
"And where the hell are we supposed to stay?....Kaede" InuYasha asked, not meaning to swear at Kikyo.
"Your vulgar mouth at least has not changed" Kikyo muttered, "here, you may rest in this hut. My hut is just down the road. If you need anything, please come over. This hut is a spare this village had, and was given over to me"
"I see" InuYasha muttered.
Kikyo led them into the hut, "Place Kagome down on that matt, I'll bring some blankets"
As Kikyo left to get some, she glanced back at Kagome as an icy cold glare flashed in her eyes. Kikyo looked away,
~My heart has not yet all melted....but it shall in a little bit more longer time~ she told herself.
She walked over to her hut, suddenly she felt something in her paining her. She gasped from the pain as she clutched the frame of the door.
She closed her eyes, ~Kagome is near....and her soul wants to leave me.....but....how can this be, I had put a spell so that it would not do this~ Kikyo began to mutter the spell again as the pain soothed down. She took a deep breath, and stepped into the hut.
InuYasha looked down at Kagome and sighed, he felt so bored and lonely with her gone.
"I wonder InuYasha, if you will look this bored and lonely after you spend some more time with Kikyo" Kaede wondered out loud, ~I hope not, you have hurt these two women enough. It is best if you just chose Kagome since you made her fall in love with you...but then again....you seeing the person Kikyo as she was 50 years ago.....will be a danger to your heart~
"Shut up Kaede-baba" InuYasha muttered.
They both looked up as Kikyo entered with a stack of blankets in her arms. She set it down on the floor, took a thick warm blanket and gently covered Kagome with it.
InuYasha glanced over at Kikyo, she turned and looked at him, but he turned and looked away.
~What the hell am I going to do...~ InuYasha wondered, "I'm gunu go out for some air"
Kikyo and Kaede were left in the room.
"Sister, why did you take her soul.....?" Kaede asked.
"So you are now against me as well I see" Kikyo muttered.
"I am not against you, I am just against what you have done...stealing the soul of this girl who has done nothing wrong"
"Hah, stealing?! She is the one who offered it to me. And she has done things...she has hurt me by taking the person that is my life....InuYasha"
"She did not try to steal him.....it just happened. You MUST give her soul back, If you love InuYasha! This is tormenting him!!!" Kaede said.
"You disgrace me by calling yourself my sister. Hm, my own little sister...taking other's side?! Now, tell me what I have done to make you think that InuYasha is not right for me?"
"Kikyo....." Kaede whispered.
"I do not wish to hear anymore, I have been hurt enough. It seems that I do not deserve much now...." Kikyo whispered in a strained voice. She stood up and left the hut.
Kikyo looked up and saw InuYasha sitting not that far away on a hill. ~After becoming one of the living.....my heart feels more vulnerable...more emotional..... But I must get used to my old self and lessen the coldness in my heart in order to become perfect again~
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InuYasha sat watching up at the clear blue sky. He closed his eyes, all he saw was Kagome. He shot his eyes open, he could feel Kagome's presence nearing him....
His heart pounded fast, he slowly turned his head.
"Kagome...." He whispered, hoping it would be her...it had to be her. Her presence was so strong...
He turned to see....Kikyo. InuYasha looked straight ahead at the sky,
~How could this be...i swear it felt as if it were Kagome....is it cuz Kikyo now has Kagome's soul?~
Kikyo sat silently next to InuYasha. InuYasha sat silently with his mouth shut, he wanted to try and talk with Kikyo to ease the growing tension, but he didn't know what to talk about.
~What am I supposed to talk of....With Kagome I could talk of anything, not worry about what I say, I'd tease her if I wanted....I was able to speak my mind. But now what....50 years ago, Kikyo did most of the talking, of what she did in the village, of who she helped, teaching me about life and all....So...she's gunu have to be the one talking~ InuYasha thought.
"InuYasha....I'm sorry about Kagome" Kikyo whispered.
"Keh...." InuYasha spoke, trying to hide the pain it brought of hearing Kagome's name, ~what am I supposed to say now, it's ok that you took her soul?~
Kikyo sighed as she looked up at the sky,
"Oh..that looks like your fox friend...Shippo right?" Kikyo said, pointing up at a cloud.
InuYasha's heart thumped,
*****Flashback*****
InuYasha and Kagome lay back on the field, looking up at the clear blue sky with puffy clouds floating by.
"Hey, that one looks like Shippo" Kagome said with a cheerful laugh.
InuYasha glanced at her,
"Keh,....."
Silence.
"Oh ...it does" InuYasha said seeing the cloud more clearly, he felt himself smile....
******End of Flashback*****
InuYasha glanced at Kikyo,
"Yah...."
"Tell me what you are going to do with your life?" Kikyo asked, wanting to know everything she had missed for the time she couldn't be with InuYasha for.
"Me.....i don't know" InuYasha said, ~I want....to do nothing....but be with Kagome~
"You.....?" InuYasha asked, feeling rather strange. This was a question Kagome would have asked, and he would have answered freely, or would have just told her it was none of her business.
"This village is filled with injured soldiers and they asked if I may be of service to them, so starting from tomorrow I'm going to have to be busy Did you see those childerens? They were very adorable, do you not think?" Kikyo asked in her usual calm tone.
"Yah..." InuYasha muttered.
Kikyo picked a flower from the grass, and looked at the white flower,
~Pure white as I wish my heart turn back to~ Kikyo thought, she glanced over to InuYasha ~And as pure white as I wish InuYasha's heart to be for Kagome. Pure white with no trace of Kagome in it....~
"InuYasha" Kikyo said, handing him the flower.
InuYasha looked down at it....his heart started to beat fast....the way it beated when Kagome was next to him....
*****Flashback*****
"Here" said Kagome, giving him a small white flower.
"Huh?"
"It's for you, duh."
"....Wha....thanks" he replied and took it and put the delicate flower in his pocket.
*****End of Flashback*****
"InuYasha...are you feeling alright?" Kikyo asked.
"Huh....yah" InuYasha muttered a reply, ~Why can't I be able to feel the way I had once felt for Kikyo....is it cuz....maybe I found a love...that changed my heart....making it only want more of only that love...?~
InuYasha felt his heart freeze as Kikyo's warm hands held his.
"You shall see.....that time will bring back the love you had for me before...." Kikyo said with a warm smile.
InuYasha felt as if he wanted to pull his hands away, but for her sake he didn't.
"Kikyo.....would you give Kagome's soul back if I said that I'd go with you to hell" InuYasha asked.
"So...as she has sacrificed her soul for you, you are willing to sacrifice your life....to hell with me. I do not want it to be because you are doing it for Kagome....and also, now I can be a normal woman, and have the life I had always wished for. Why would I give that up" Kikyo asked.
"I see....." InuYasha muttered.
**~~ OK......here's da chapter. Wasn't that good though. SORRY. Hmmm....will InuYasha fall back in love with Kikyo?!!!!! OH NO, I hope NOT!!!!!~~**
# When I use this sign "" it means that you're in Kagome's dream world thing she's in. "" the end of her dream.
============= Chapter Fourty-Nine=============
Sango and Miroku stared dumbly out the window into the night sky pouring rain. Sango bit her nails nervously,
"I'm worried....it's now midnight and InuYasha has been gone for hours and Kagome hasn't come back....." Sango murmured.
Miroku frowned, "Where can they possibly be at this time......"
"Something's wrong....."
Miroku nodded in agreement.
"We must go out and go search for them...I saw InuYasha heading towards the direction of the forest. Let's go!" Sango said determinedly.
Miroku and Sango walked towards the door. Sango stepped outside into the rain, she turned to see Miroku standing still inside the hut.
"LET'S GO!" Sango hissed.
Miroku nervously laughed and scratched his head,
"In....IN the rain?"
Sango hit Miroku across the head, "LET'S GO!"
"Hai, hai, hai !!!!!!" Miroku cried then stopped again, "walk ALL the way in the rain to the forest? Don't you think we should just wake Kilala up?"
Sango sighed, "OK!!"
They flew towards the forest, When Kilala landed on the ground of the forest, Miroku and Sango jumped off.
"Are you sure Shippo will be fine?" Miroku asked.
"Yes, Tsubaki and them are in the other room"
".....They're useless though!"
"JUST shut up!" Sango yelled with a stress mark on her head.
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They walked through the forest, their clothing drenched in cold rain.
Sango looked around the foggy forest with crystal clear rain dribbling to the ground. She closed her eyes, ~Kagome.....InuYasha.....I can sense something is really wrong.....~
Sango walked on with her eyes closed in thought, but her chest bumped into Miroku's stretched out arms. She felt her cheeks burn,
"BAKA!"
"WH-What?!" Miroku asked in defense, "I was just trying to make you stop walking"
"WHY?!"
Miroku looked forward, Sango's eye followed. She saw something blurry through the heavy rain fall. She squinted her eyes,
"What...is it?"
"I have no idea....maybe it'll lead us to InuYasha and Kagome" Miroku suggested.
"What if Kagome's not even with InuYasha" Sango worried.
"She'll be...I'm sure..."
They cautiously walked closer to the figure that was slumped on the ground. As they got even closer, they saw it was more than one figure.
Sango and Miroku gasped to see InuYasha slumped over Kagome muttering something,
"Kagome...I'll never leave you..."
"Come on Kagome....wake up.....Kagome..!"
Sango stared with open eyes at InuYasha holding Kagome with his head resting on her chest, using his Haori to keep her dry.
"I can still hear your heart beating......" InuYasha whispered, his voice strained from the tightness of his throat.
"InuYasha.....Kagome...." Sango quietly cried.
"InuYasha what happened?" Miroku asked.
"Let's just try and bring them back to the hut" Sango suggested as she ran over to them, "InuYasha, let's get Kagome out of here"
InuYasha didn't respond.
Miroku shook him, but he didn't respond, "InuYasha! What's wrong?!"
A dark gloomy shadow covered InuYasha's eyes as he kept a tigt hold on Kagome,
"It's.....all my....fault...." he whispered.
"Explain later! We have to get out of the rain! InuYasha! Let go of Kagome!" Sango yelled her heart beating with pain, ~Is...Kagome dead?!!!~
"I'm never going to let go of her.....never" InuYasha muttered.
"If you don't let go of her, you'll hurt her more by making her catch a cold!"
InuYasha's strength gave out as Miroku pulled Kagome out of InuYasha's tight grasp as he lay her gently on Kilala with the Haori tightly wrapped around her. Sango ran over and searched for the wounds, but found none.
Miroku stood in shock, ~Her body...felt lifeless.....~
"InuYasha, let's go" Miroku said as he pulled at InuYasha's wrist, but InuYasha didn't budge, "BAKA! WHAT'S WRONG?!"
"Kikyo took....all of her soul...."
They both stared at InuYasha then at Kagome.
"It's all my fault....if only....I had chosen faster"
"It's not your fault! Let's get out of here!" Miroku said loudly through the loud pouring rain, InuYasha unsteadily stood up and walked towards Kilala.
Sango stared over at InuYasha who sat gazing down at Kagome, his eyes trying to hide the pain he felt.
Miroku closed his eyes and started to pray,
~She has fallen into a deep sleep filled with darkness.....The glow of her soul is gone.....huh....what is this....I see a spot of soul left in her....~
Miroku opened his eyes and looked over at InuYasha, ~Should I tell him....no I shouldn't. The soul left in her is hardly there...But that means that...Kagome's soul was too much for such a powerful miko like Kikyo...can it mean that Kagome may be..stronger?~
Sango yawned from sleepiness.
Miroku looked over at Sango and suggested that she go to sleep, but she refused. He also felt tired.
They all continued to watch Kagome helplessly, as an hour passed by, Miroku dropped to sleep, after thirty minuets Sango dropped to sleep.
InuYasha continued to watch Kagome, holding her cold hands.
~Damn Kagome...you would have lived....if you hadn't sacrificed yourself for me.....But....if I had decided faster....this would have never happened. If I had loved Kikyo, and decided to choose her, you would have left to your world alive. If I had chose you, you wouldn't have gave up your soul thinking that I loved Kikyo more....I'm so sorry....And I feel so screwed cuz I feel so powerless at this moment to help you.....~
His heart continued to throb in pain, every beat his heart beated felt like a dagger stabbing into his heart. InuYasha lay down on the cold wooden floor and stared at Kagome,
~She might never return.....~ InuYasha painfully thought of that possibility, ~this is the same as if she were dead....her mind and heart is far away in a different dimension....far away in the darkness of her mind....living in her nightmare. Just for me, she chose to suffer....and now I'm suffering of my foolishness. The love I yearned for secretly in my heart, the love I never felt...had always been beside me, but I continued to stubbornly think that that person was Kikyo...but it wasn't. When I was with Kagome...I felt like a child learning new emotions, with her I felt so many new things I've never felt before....~
Kagome stayed engraved in his mind, her face wouldn't even fade away from his mind even if he tried....
"InuYasha" she said cheerfully with a warm smile.
~I'll never see that smile again.....~ InuYasha sadly thought, as he held Kagome in his arms,
~To get your soul back...Kikyo....what am I gunu do if she doesn't return it...No way in hell am I gunu try and kill her to get the soul out of her...I do love Kikyo....just....I want Kagome, if loosing Kikyo means that I can have her, then I will, but not in the way of killing...And I want for Kikyo to die with her soul in rest~
"I love you....Kagome.." he whispered.
Kagome weakly opened her eyes, but something was pulling her back into the forest. She saw a glimpse of InuYasha....holding her.
She pushed her hands towards InuYasha's face that lay asleep, Kagome touched his cheeks lightly with her cold fingers,
~What's going on...I was....in the forest....why does my body feel so heavy....I can barley move...~
InuYasha shot open her eyes,
"Kagome!" he gasped.
Kagome felt a stronger force sucking her back into the forest place,
InuYasha stared at Kagome in shock, his heart had stopped beating, he had stopped breathing.
"Kagome!"
He watched as she started to shiver, her eyes went vacant again.
"InuYasha....." She whispered.
"What?" InuYasha asked, slight hope warming his heart, not knowing that she was talking to the InuYasha in her dream.
"I....really did...think...."
"Kagome....nanda?!" InuYasha asked, holding her cold hands tightly, as he sat up and stared at her in desperation.
"I really did think...that you...loved me" she whispered.
InuYasha stared at Kagome, his eyes wide open in shock and pain. He shook Kagome's shoulders,
"NO! Kagome! You're in a dream! I do love you, Kagome!" InuYasha cried, trying to wake her. But she had fallen back into the world she'd forever live in.
A tear dripped down Kagome's cheeks.
InuYasha looked down in pain, "No...Kagome...I love you...."
"Kagome....." InuYasha quietly cried.
Kikyo watched through the window, as InuYasha grieved over Kagome.
~It wasn't supposed to be like this....~ Kikyo bitterly thought, ~InuYasha and I were supposed to be happily together....not like this~
Kikyo closed her eyes, ~now I feel rejected...from InuYasha's heart...~
Kikyo touched the foggy window pane with her fingers and wrote the thing she wanted so much, love, then erased it bitterly. She turned and walked away.
~Will we....ever be able to....be together....~ he wondered.
InuYasha lay holding Kagome's cold and soulless body,
"I'm right here Kagome....I'm right here....I'm not the one in your dream" InuYasha whispered, his eyes tightly closed, not wanting to see her sad and pale face.
~She's as good as dead~ a voice said in his mind.
Silence.
"Kkkk.." InuYasha slammed his fist into the wooden floor, causing everyone to shoot awake. Tomo, Tsubaki, and the master came running into the room.
"What happened?!" the master asked, "M-m-my floor! My beautiful floor!"
They all stared at InuYasha who glared down at the whole he had made, he slowly stood up and walked towards the door.
"InuYasha....." Sango called.
"I can't stand it.....to see her like this" InuYasha whispered in a strained voice as he left the room.
Sango looked at Miroku, they waited a while then got Kilala and followed InuYasha. Shippo screamed,
"What's going one?! Kagome?!!!!!!!" Shippo cried.
Miroku and Sango looked around, but InuYasha had disappeared into the foggy sky. Miroku closed his eyes and moved his staff around in the air to see if he could sense InuYasha.
A while had passed,
"I can't sense him..." Miroku muttered.
A distance away, they could see trees falling,
"Um....I have a really good guess that InuYasha is that way" Sango pointed at the direction of where the trees where disappearing.
InuYasha jumped through the air as the moisty cold wind blew against his face. He landed on the ground as he fell to his knees, his fingers digging into the soil,
"Why...did this have to happen...to her?!" InuYasha hissed. He felt his anger wanting to release, and the pain he had, gone. He growled as he ran his claws through the bark of a tree as it crashed to the ground. Then he got his fist and smashed it through another tree leaving a whole in it, as InuYasha stared down at his bloody hands.
He wanted to try and forget Kagome's face that wouldn't leave his mind, the face that he'd never see again....it hurted him so much.
InuYasha tried to forget by causing himself physical pain to forget the pain within him by continuously smashing the trees. Blood streamed down from all over him. InuYasha heavily sighed as he collapsed to the ground and stared blankly at the trees.
~I can't forget her....I'm afraid that....some day her cheerful face will fade away into the pale soulless face...the face I had created.....~
InuYasha closed his eyes. All the anger had gone out of him, leaving him empty with only the pain, loneliness and sorrow.
"InuYasha!" Sango and Miroku cried as they ran to him.
"What the hell do you think you're doing?!" Sango yelled at him.
"I needed to get it all out" InuYasha distantly answered.
"Get what out?!" Miroku questioned.
"My anger.....at myself...and at Kikyo. But it wont be gone for long...it'll come back...."
Sango sighed, "You're gunu kill yourself if you go further than this. Remember InuYasha.....Kagome isn't dead.....she's just asleep. We can wake her, don't worry"
InuYasha opened his eyes,
~Kagome....is still alive...just asleep~ he told himself, ~I might see her again....no, I will see her again. Then she'll wake. Kagome needs me, so I can't give up hope on her, not yet, not ever, as she had never given up on me~
"So stay alive InuYasha!" Sango said.
InuYasha stood up as if he had no wound,
"Keh, you guys are over exaggerating. Why the hell would I want to die?! Like I said, she's just asleep, so don't worry Sango" InuYasha said in his normal tone, but his heart still throbbed in pain.
Miroku stared blankly at InuYasha, while Sango stared at him with a stress mark on her head,
"I said that you BAKA!" Sango yelled.
"Shut up wench" InuYasha muttered, ~Kagome....~
"Stupid InuYasha" Sango muttered as she glared at InuYasha.
On their way back to the hut, Miroku suggested that they stay with Kaede while Kagome was in that state, and stop their search for the Shikon shards for a while. They all agreed.
"Miroku...." InuYasha asked, "Why did....Kagome come back alive?"
"N-Nani?!"
"When you guys were asleep, she came back for just a second or two"
Miroku stared at InuYasha in amazement, ~Kagome's stronger than I thought~
"I don't have forever for you to answer me!" InuYasha hissed.
"It means that Kikyo couldn't suck up all the soul, it was too much for her. But he soul Kagome has is as much as nothing" Miroku said.
"Oh...i see" InuYasha muttered, ~I had hoped.....that it was a sign..that Kagome had more soul in her....~
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The next morning they moved to where Kaede lived, after apologizing to her of their intrusion.....except InuYasha, as usual.
InuYasha gently layed Kagome on the matt. Kaede walked over, confusion written all over her face, not knowing what had happened to Kagome.
She walked over to InuYasha and sat next to him and looked at him in question. He sighed heavily and sat with his back against the wall. He closed his eyes as the warm sunlight relflected against him.
"InuYasha, what happened to Kagome? I can feel some sort of emptiness in her..."
"She took Kagome's soul...."
"She...as in Kikyo?" Kaede asked, her heart pounding fast.
"Yah, who else do you think....but Kikyo did give Kagome a choice. She could have left alive, but she didn't....."
"Are you...saying that what Kagome did was foolish?" Kaede asked, a little angered at what InuYasha had said.
"Keh, it was kinda foolish.....but then again...it does show how caring Kagome can be.....and that it can go a little too far sometimes..." InuYasha said, trying to sound uncaring.
Kaede looked away, her heart aching, ~My sister....Kikyo....I never knew she would ever have such a heart to do such a thing....~
"InuYasha, do not give up hope...she shall come back to us" Kaede said.
"Keh" InuYasha stood up, as he looked away, his eyes blurry with slight tears. He could feel his heart burning, ~I will..get Kagome back~
"Of course she's gunu come back.....I'll get it back" InuYasha muttered as he walked out of the hut.
"InuYasha where are you going?" Kaede asked.
".....To look for Kikyo" InuYasha said. He stepped outside the hut, and looked around. The winter was slowly passing into spring.
InuYasha saw a bare cherry blossom tree, he walked up to it and saw Kagome sitting under it. She looked up at him and sadly smiled,
"InuYasha...I did this for you"
"Kagome!" InuYasha said as he ran up to her, he stretched out his hands to hold her, but his hands went right through. InuYasha looked, she was gone. It had just been his mind.
InuYasha sat under the tree and closed his eyes, ~I can see her whenever I close my eyes...I've memorized how she looks, how she smiles, how she feels when I hold her.....But it'll all fade away after a while....time will make me forget those times when I was with her and only leave the image of her soulless face.....~
InuYasha sighed, "No....Kagome will come back"
He remembered the time when Kagome and him had sat under a cherry blossom, watching it drift gracefully onto the ground. He could still feel the warmth of her hands that he had been holding.
InuYasha stood up, ~I have to get her soul back~
InuYasha walked through the village, searching for a scent of Kikyo. He continued to search with Kagome's image imprinted in his heart.
"Did you see that miko that just passed by a day ago?" said a villager.
"Hai, I saw her before, she was the miko who always stood on the hill waiting for something.....she looked so different now" said another villager.
InuYasha rushed up to the villagers, "Where did she head?!"
The two villagers started to shake in fear seeing a real live youkai. InuYasha shook them,
"WHICH DAMN WAY?!"
" Tha- that w- way" the villager cried, pointing down the road, "to.to the ..n-next village"
InuYasha let go of them as they tumbled to the ground,
"Thanks, that's all I wanted to know" InuYasha muttered as he rushed away.
InuYasha reached the next village and picked up Kikyo's scent. He ran after it and found Kikyo circled among a group of little children.
InuYasha looked secretly at Kikyo's face, ~It looks.....alive~ He heard Kikyo laugh as she touched the cheek of a boy,
"Yes, that was a very interesting story" Kikyo said with a warm smile.
InuYasha bit his lips, ~What am I going to do...Kikyo looks so happy....and I can't just barge in, in front of the kids and ask Kikyo to give up the soul...~
"InuYasha, there is no need for hiding.....I know why you have come" Kikyo's voice called.
InuYasha stepped out of the dark and looked emotionlessly at Kikyo, "I need to talk to you....."
"Kids, I will have to leave you for a moment" Kikyo said.
"HAI!" they all said in unison.
Kikyo and InuYasha sat apart on a mountain.
"I have been laughing more than my usual self would..." Kikyo muttered.
"It's because you have Kagome's soul....not yours" InuYasha replied in the same emotionless tone.
"We are reincarnations....so we are bound to be similar in characteristics"
"No...she's different from you in many ways"
"....I see. So why are you here? If you are asking for her soul back, my answer is no. You shall have to kill me to get it back"
InuYasha turned and looked at Kikyo,
"Kikyo! It's not your soul!"
"No....I guess it's not. But she's lived a happy and carefree life. MY life was unfair.....i lived a short life because I gave up my life for you...to be with you. And I was a caged bird all my life with all the duties and responsibilities I had. I was never an ordinary woman.....SHE WAS. But now....I am what I wanted to become.....and you wish to take it away from me?! Was our love so shallow, that your heart is now empty of me? It would have been better if we never had met"
InuYasha looked down, not knowing what to say.
"You......made me go through so much....so that I can be just with you. But then at the end.....i find out it was all for nothing. All I've wanted was to be with you...." Kikyo whispered.
"Kikyo......I don't know what happened to me...I just changed"
"If I had been with you, only for a bit longer....we would have fallen more in love! Do you not believe that? If we had known each other for a little longer, you would have loved me stronger and more truer. If you had known me for the period you had known Kagome, do you not think that our love would have been stronger?!" Kikyo asked.
"Kikyo.....I don't know.....gomen" InuYasha whispered a reply. His heart throbbing in pain, seeing the pain he had caused Kikyo, ~I've tried to protect you....and yet I hurted you~
"Then.....let us be together for a while to find out" Kikyo begged.
"Kikyo....I can't...Kagome ..."
"Bring her here, and stay with me just for a while....please....and you can take care of Kagome..."
InuYasha stood to leave, but Kikyo caught his wrist.
"Is this the love you felt for me? You just abandon me?! I just want to be with you for a while. Is that now too much to ask for?!" Kikyo cried.
InuYasha glanced down at Kikyo, ~that voice......is the voice of the woman I had once loved.....what if...I do stay with Kikyo..the real Kikyo, will I fall in love with her again?~
"InuYasha......" Kikyo whispered.
~If I do...it means that I do not deserve to be loved by Kagome.....~ InuYasha thought.
"Fine......i'll stay with you for a bit......and bring Kaede over. Kagome needs to be taken care of. But only for a bit.....no longer" InuYasha muttered as he turned and walked away.
"You will fall in love with me.....as you have so easily fallen in love with Kagome.....you will......I will remind you of all the memories we had shared together. You will love me......" Kikyo whispered.
InuYasha arrived at the hut, and looked down at the ground, ~What if.....I do fall in love.....with Kikyo.....then....what will happen to Kagome~
"Is my love for Kagome that weak.....as it was for Kikyo.....that it can so easily love another......I hope....it's not....." InuYasha prayed.
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They all stared at InuYasha after he told them of what he had agreed to with Kikyo.
"Ae you serious?! You made a deal with that- that bitch?!" Sango yelled.
"She's now the woman.....i had loved" InuYasha forced out, ~Love Kikyo~ the thought felt foreign to his mind.
Sango closed her eyes and bit her lips, "so....when you realize that you love Kikyo....what will become of Kagome....will you just treat her as you have treated Kikyo from before? Will you live with Kikyo and forever leave Kagome in the dark?!"
"No....if I am in love with Kikyo.....then.....I'll ask her to give the soul back....and I'll leave with her to hell"
Miroku hit InuYasha across the head, "snap out InuYasha! You know you love Kagome! You're just getting confused all over again because the person you had puppy love for is now back! But your heart is more sure of what love is.....don't go through this, just stay with Kagome!"
InuYasha sighed, "she wants me to be with her just for a while...it's not much she asked for. It's the least I can repay her with......and I do love her, just that I love Kagome more I guess....."
Miroku leaned over at InuYasha, "how come you never told us about your love life? You never actually told us you were in love with Kagome!"
"Keh, why would I tell you guys?!" InuYasha muttered, pushing Miroku away,
"Kaede- baba is gunu come with us"
"I- I am?"
"Yup you are old hag" InuYasha replied.
~I believe I shall have a serious talk with my sister~ Kaede thought.
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InuYasha, Kagome and Kaede arrived on Kilala at the village Kikyo was in. They saw Kikyo walking towards them.
"And where the hell are we supposed to stay?....Kaede" InuYasha asked, not meaning to swear at Kikyo.
"Your vulgar mouth at least has not changed" Kikyo muttered, "here, you may rest in this hut. My hut is just down the road. If you need anything, please come over. This hut is a spare this village had, and was given over to me"
"I see" InuYasha muttered.
Kikyo led them into the hut, "Place Kagome down on that matt, I'll bring some blankets"
As Kikyo left to get some, she glanced back at Kagome as an icy cold glare flashed in her eyes. Kikyo looked away,
~My heart has not yet all melted....but it shall in a little bit more longer time~ she told herself.
She walked over to her hut, suddenly she felt something in her paining her. She gasped from the pain as she clutched the frame of the door.
She closed her eyes, ~Kagome is near....and her soul wants to leave me.....but....how can this be, I had put a spell so that it would not do this~ Kikyo began to mutter the spell again as the pain soothed down. She took a deep breath, and stepped into the hut.
InuYasha looked down at Kagome and sighed, he felt so bored and lonely with her gone.
"I wonder InuYasha, if you will look this bored and lonely after you spend some more time with Kikyo" Kaede wondered out loud, ~I hope not, you have hurt these two women enough. It is best if you just chose Kagome since you made her fall in love with you...but then again....you seeing the person Kikyo as she was 50 years ago.....will be a danger to your heart~
"Shut up Kaede-baba" InuYasha muttered.
They both looked up as Kikyo entered with a stack of blankets in her arms. She set it down on the floor, took a thick warm blanket and gently covered Kagome with it.
InuYasha glanced over at Kikyo, she turned and looked at him, but he turned and looked away.
~What the hell am I going to do...~ InuYasha wondered, "I'm gunu go out for some air"
Kikyo and Kaede were left in the room.
"Sister, why did you take her soul.....?" Kaede asked.
"So you are now against me as well I see" Kikyo muttered.
"I am not against you, I am just against what you have done...stealing the soul of this girl who has done nothing wrong"
"Hah, stealing?! She is the one who offered it to me. And she has done things...she has hurt me by taking the person that is my life....InuYasha"
"She did not try to steal him.....it just happened. You MUST give her soul back, If you love InuYasha! This is tormenting him!!!" Kaede said.
"You disgrace me by calling yourself my sister. Hm, my own little sister...taking other's side?! Now, tell me what I have done to make you think that InuYasha is not right for me?"
"Kikyo....." Kaede whispered.
"I do not wish to hear anymore, I have been hurt enough. It seems that I do not deserve much now...." Kikyo whispered in a strained voice. She stood up and left the hut.
Kikyo looked up and saw InuYasha sitting not that far away on a hill. ~After becoming one of the living.....my heart feels more vulnerable...more emotional..... But I must get used to my old self and lessen the coldness in my heart in order to become perfect again~
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InuYasha sat watching up at the clear blue sky. He closed his eyes, all he saw was Kagome. He shot his eyes open, he could feel Kagome's presence nearing him....
His heart pounded fast, he slowly turned his head.
"Kagome...." He whispered, hoping it would be her...it had to be her. Her presence was so strong...
He turned to see....Kikyo. InuYasha looked straight ahead at the sky,
~How could this be...i swear it felt as if it were Kagome....is it cuz Kikyo now has Kagome's soul?~
Kikyo sat silently next to InuYasha. InuYasha sat silently with his mouth shut, he wanted to try and talk with Kikyo to ease the growing tension, but he didn't know what to talk about.
~What am I supposed to talk of....With Kagome I could talk of anything, not worry about what I say, I'd tease her if I wanted....I was able to speak my mind. But now what....50 years ago, Kikyo did most of the talking, of what she did in the village, of who she helped, teaching me about life and all....So...she's gunu have to be the one talking~ InuYasha thought.
"InuYasha....I'm sorry about Kagome" Kikyo whispered.
"Keh...." InuYasha spoke, trying to hide the pain it brought of hearing Kagome's name, ~what am I supposed to say now, it's ok that you took her soul?~
Kikyo sighed as she looked up at the sky,
"Oh..that looks like your fox friend...Shippo right?" Kikyo said, pointing up at a cloud.
InuYasha's heart thumped,
*****Flashback*****
InuYasha and Kagome lay back on the field, looking up at the clear blue sky with puffy clouds floating by.
"Hey, that one looks like Shippo" Kagome said with a cheerful laugh.
InuYasha glanced at her,
"Keh,....."
Silence.
"Oh ...it does" InuYasha said seeing the cloud more clearly, he felt himself smile....
******End of Flashback*****
InuYasha glanced at Kikyo,
"Yah...."
"Tell me what you are going to do with your life?" Kikyo asked, wanting to know everything she had missed for the time she couldn't be with InuYasha for.
"Me.....i don't know" InuYasha said, ~I want....to do nothing....but be with Kagome~
"You.....?" InuYasha asked, feeling rather strange. This was a question Kagome would have asked, and he would have answered freely, or would have just told her it was none of her business.
"This village is filled with injured soldiers and they asked if I may be of service to them, so starting from tomorrow I'm going to have to be busy Did you see those childerens? They were very adorable, do you not think?" Kikyo asked in her usual calm tone.
"Yah..." InuYasha muttered.
Kikyo picked a flower from the grass, and looked at the white flower,
~Pure white as I wish my heart turn back to~ Kikyo thought, she glanced over to InuYasha ~And as pure white as I wish InuYasha's heart to be for Kagome. Pure white with no trace of Kagome in it....~
"InuYasha" Kikyo said, handing him the flower.
InuYasha looked down at it....his heart started to beat fast....the way it beated when Kagome was next to him....
*****Flashback*****
"Here" said Kagome, giving him a small white flower.
"Huh?"
"It's for you, duh."
"....Wha....thanks" he replied and took it and put the delicate flower in his pocket.
*****End of Flashback*****
"InuYasha...are you feeling alright?" Kikyo asked.
"Huh....yah" InuYasha muttered a reply, ~Why can't I be able to feel the way I had once felt for Kikyo....is it cuz....maybe I found a love...that changed my heart....making it only want more of only that love...?~
InuYasha felt his heart freeze as Kikyo's warm hands held his.
"You shall see.....that time will bring back the love you had for me before...." Kikyo said with a warm smile.
InuYasha felt as if he wanted to pull his hands away, but for her sake he didn't.
"Kikyo.....would you give Kagome's soul back if I said that I'd go with you to hell" InuYasha asked.
"So...as she has sacrificed her soul for you, you are willing to sacrifice your life....to hell with me. I do not want it to be because you are doing it for Kagome....and also, now I can be a normal woman, and have the life I had always wished for. Why would I give that up" Kikyo asked.
"I see....." InuYasha muttered.
**~~ OK......here's da chapter. Wasn't that good though. SORRY. Hmmm....will InuYasha fall back in love with Kikyo?!!!!! OH NO, I hope NOT!!!!!~~**