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Chapter 13: Patch
The next week was quiet. No one spoke much, Abby took care of the cave, and Alex would leave for a couple of hours occasionally. I, on the other hand, laid in my bed with the covers pulled up over my head.
I was glad for the peace. It gave me time to think.
Sara. I thought about Sara, a lot. Now that I had time to get my mind off fighting the war, I could think of why.
Sara would be ashamed of me. I'd rushed into this quicker than fire burns. And I knew then that I had been so consumed by this anger that I had disregarded all other options, going only for the one where I could inflict as much pain, physically, that had been inflicted on me, emotionally.
I lightly touched my shoulder where one of the bullet wounds had been, all that was left was a small scar, but the muscles there still ached when I moved.
I peeked over the edge of the blanket and looked out at Alex.
I felt nothing toward him now. Not anger, or hate. Just nothing.
He looked up at me, and smiled.
Abby came over and kneeled down next to my head, "Miss Rem, you have to get up, you can't lay here for the rest of your life."
I looked down at my fingers that were clutching the edge of the blanket, "Abby, I don't know what to do. I feel so... lost."
Abby's eyes softened, "Miss Rem you are a very smart person, I can tell, you'll figure out what to do. Say do you remember what I said to you back when we first met on the transport ship?"
I laughed softly, "You said a lot of things,"
She smiled, "Well one of the things I said was that your ticket to the future is always blank. And I don't think you will find out what to put on your ticket by just laying there. You have to live again. Please? If not for yourself do it for your sister. No offense, but I think you dishonor her memory by doing this."
I covered my eyes with my hand as tears began to form. She was right. Alex was right. Everyone was right but me. I had done nothing to earn their kindness.
"I'm sorry, Abby."
She tilted her head, "For what?"
"I've been so rude to you all the time. And yet you tolerated me."
Abby's smile widened, "Don't worry Miss Rem. That's all in the past."
I was outside again, thinking about everything that had happened recently, it was another clear starry night, I was beginning to like these.
"Hey,"
I turned my head. Alex.
"Hello." I looked back up at the stars.
"Pretty night, huh?" He said from my left.
"Mmm,"
Alex stood there, occasionally look from the sky to me, leaving it quiet.
Finally he broke the silence, "Um, look Rem, I think we kind of got off to a bad start, I'd like to try and ... patch things up between us." He moved a little to get a better look at my face, "If you're willing to give me another chance, that is,"
I looked him in the eye and gave him a small smile, "I'd like that, thank you."
He smiled back and reached out for my hand, "C'mon, I want to show you something."
Looking at his hand, I smiled again. I let him take my hand, and lead me along the edge of the cliff face.
I didn't know it then, but looking back now, I think this was when I finally allowed myself to like Alex. He sparked something in my heart that day that would change my life.
Muchos gracias, foo!
I thank foo! You thank foo! We all thank foo! Review!
Did that rhyme!? Goot grif.
Chapter 13: Patch
The next week was quiet. No one spoke much, Abby took care of the cave, and Alex would leave for a couple of hours occasionally. I, on the other hand, laid in my bed with the covers pulled up over my head.
I was glad for the peace. It gave me time to think.
Sara. I thought about Sara, a lot. Now that I had time to get my mind off fighting the war, I could think of why.
Sara would be ashamed of me. I'd rushed into this quicker than fire burns. And I knew then that I had been so consumed by this anger that I had disregarded all other options, going only for the one where I could inflict as much pain, physically, that had been inflicted on me, emotionally.
I lightly touched my shoulder where one of the bullet wounds had been, all that was left was a small scar, but the muscles there still ached when I moved.
I peeked over the edge of the blanket and looked out at Alex.
I felt nothing toward him now. Not anger, or hate. Just nothing.
He looked up at me, and smiled.
Abby came over and kneeled down next to my head, "Miss Rem, you have to get up, you can't lay here for the rest of your life."
I looked down at my fingers that were clutching the edge of the blanket, "Abby, I don't know what to do. I feel so... lost."
Abby's eyes softened, "Miss Rem you are a very smart person, I can tell, you'll figure out what to do. Say do you remember what I said to you back when we first met on the transport ship?"
I laughed softly, "You said a lot of things,"
She smiled, "Well one of the things I said was that your ticket to the future is always blank. And I don't think you will find out what to put on your ticket by just laying there. You have to live again. Please? If not for yourself do it for your sister. No offense, but I think you dishonor her memory by doing this."
I covered my eyes with my hand as tears began to form. She was right. Alex was right. Everyone was right but me. I had done nothing to earn their kindness.
"I'm sorry, Abby."
She tilted her head, "For what?"
"I've been so rude to you all the time. And yet you tolerated me."
Abby's smile widened, "Don't worry Miss Rem. That's all in the past."
I was outside again, thinking about everything that had happened recently, it was another clear starry night, I was beginning to like these.
"Hey,"
I turned my head. Alex.
"Hello." I looked back up at the stars.
"Pretty night, huh?" He said from my left.
"Mmm,"
Alex stood there, occasionally look from the sky to me, leaving it quiet.
Finally he broke the silence, "Um, look Rem, I think we kind of got off to a bad start, I'd like to try and ... patch things up between us." He moved a little to get a better look at my face, "If you're willing to give me another chance, that is,"
I looked him in the eye and gave him a small smile, "I'd like that, thank you."
He smiled back and reached out for my hand, "C'mon, I want to show you something."
Looking at his hand, I smiled again. I let him take my hand, and lead me along the edge of the cliff face.
I didn't know it then, but looking back now, I think this was when I finally allowed myself to like Alex. He sparked something in my heart that day that would change my life.
Muchos gracias, foo!
I thank foo! You thank foo! We all thank foo! Review!
Did that rhyme!? Goot grif.