I don't own harry potter, if I did it would be much different
This is kind of Lily's diary, some of it is based on my thoughts, actually most of it is, but its changed so it fits Lily. Please review and tell me what you think, and if you think (as I continue to write this) that Lily is a stupid suicidal person who needs help, that's me, I don't mind you telling me this, I'm used to it.
27th December
I know I've said it loads of times but I want to die…seriously…this time I mean it. I hate my life, every single little detail about it, and have done so for as long as I can remember, which is not long (I can never remember anything, in fact I'm rather like a goldfish with a 3 second memory span).
Every word I say is wrong because I don't have a mind to think properly. I never usually say anything anyway because I can never think of what to say. That is the reason why everyone thinks I'm shy, quiet Lily, but I'm not! I hate being quiet, I wouldn't be quiet if I knew what things to say. I wish I was like Arabella Figg, she's so smart, funny and outgoing. She has loads of friends unlike me who has none.
I'm just the shadow of what I once was….I used to be like Arabella….hard to believe isn't it? Well I was, back in First Year. That was before……oh crap, why does it keep making me remember, I want to forget, forget it ever happened, forget what James Potter did to me.