a/n Btw…did I tell u that I would not continue my life…LILY'S LIFE if I do not get at least 5 reviews…come on..5 isn't that much
There is just one thing….person….that stops me from ending my life right here, right now……Alex. God I can't help smiling at his name….Alex…. I've known Alex for 11years, we were friends right from the start, mostly because we were in the same position, both our parents were split up and we were abused by our dads. We always hung out with each other, both at the weekends and when we were skiving school.
We were always there for each other and recently he's been there for me a lot. Helping me….guiding me through difficult times and decisions…..I could never have killed it…that would have just been wrong….
He is the bestest friend you could ever ask for….he is the one who has always been there for me…to stop my many suicide attempts (and murder attempts if you count….), and although he doesn't know it…I love him for it. But I can't tell him, I could never tell him. He has only got eyes for one girl…Frankie…his girlfriend.
Ending my life now would solve everything. I would die happy tomorrow knowing that I loved Alex…and not knowing that he definitely would not return my love but just knowing he loved me as a friend, rather then living forever with no love at all – him knowing that I loved him but not returning the love. That would be torture.
What do u think??
Which is worse??? Dying tomorrow after being with someone you loved, OR, Living forever without being loved??? Makes you think, doesn't it.
If you could live your whole life with love, just not with the one you truly loved, or if you could live for 2 hours, and be with the one you truly loved for the entire 2 hours, which would you choose???
For me I would live for two hours with Alex, but life doesn't give you choices like that…unfortunately.