Faith angst fic. I don't own anything. Fuck Joss, lucky bastard.
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You say you know.
You say you know what I've been through.
How I feel.
Why I feel how I do.
You don't.
You never will.
Who gives a fuck if you're a slayer too.
You have friends.
You have friends, you have family.
And if that's not enough, you have two guys that love you.
I fuck.
That's as close to people as I get.
That may be as close as possible, but you know what I want? I want someone to love. I want someone that understands me. Someone that didn't care what I did. Someone like the Mayor.
And you killed him.
The only one who ever loved me back.
You know, I never had a dad.
Neither did you, but you did have a mom.
The Mayor was my dad.
And you know what else? I wouldn't have gone physco if it weren't for you.
Fuck you.
You left me out of everything, lied to me, and told me I was part of the group. When I went to your place for Christmas. Remember that? I do. That's when I realized I wanted to be you.
That's right. I want to be you.
Either that, or I want to be the least amount like you as possible.
I dunno if that make sense.
I don't care.
Heard that before? You have. Don't believe me. You never should have believed me.
I hate you for that.
And I hate you for being perfect.
But you know what?
I don't want to hate you. I'd forgive you in a second. Fuck, I really would. But the Scoobies, they hate me more then I hate you.
But they have a reason.
I had a reason for hating my Mom.
I had a reason for hating my Dad.
I have a reason for hating myself.
I don't have a reason for hating you.
When we switched bodies, I realized how good your life is.
Why do you complain all the time. You shouldn't.
I don't get why you don't realize my life sucks.
You where me.
I just guess you didn't get beaten up. Or you didn't feel all the years before.
I wish I was you, B.
You're so fucking lucky.
I wish I was you.
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You say you know.
You say you know what I've been through.
How I feel.
Why I feel how I do.
You don't.
You never will.
Who gives a fuck if you're a slayer too.
You have friends.
You have friends, you have family.
And if that's not enough, you have two guys that love you.
I fuck.
That's as close to people as I get.
That may be as close as possible, but you know what I want? I want someone to love. I want someone that understands me. Someone that didn't care what I did. Someone like the Mayor.
And you killed him.
The only one who ever loved me back.
You know, I never had a dad.
Neither did you, but you did have a mom.
The Mayor was my dad.
And you know what else? I wouldn't have gone physco if it weren't for you.
Fuck you.
You left me out of everything, lied to me, and told me I was part of the group. When I went to your place for Christmas. Remember that? I do. That's when I realized I wanted to be you.
That's right. I want to be you.
Either that, or I want to be the least amount like you as possible.
I dunno if that make sense.
I don't care.
Heard that before? You have. Don't believe me. You never should have believed me.
I hate you for that.
And I hate you for being perfect.
But you know what?
I don't want to hate you. I'd forgive you in a second. Fuck, I really would. But the Scoobies, they hate me more then I hate you.
But they have a reason.
I had a reason for hating my Mom.
I had a reason for hating my Dad.
I have a reason for hating myself.
I don't have a reason for hating you.
When we switched bodies, I realized how good your life is.
Why do you complain all the time. You shouldn't.
I don't get why you don't realize my life sucks.
You where me.
I just guess you didn't get beaten up. Or you didn't feel all the years before.
I wish I was you, B.
You're so fucking lucky.
I wish I was you.