A/N: While I'm not blocked, and while I have inspiration at my fingertips, I'm going to be writing lots of reflection pieces. This is from our Silver Ranger's point of view. Hope you enjoy, and don't forget to review!
Shattered Heart
I don't like them being together. Really now, I've known him so much longer than she has, why should she get all the time with him? I remember, back on KO-35, when we would spend hours together, playing with holograms and making out.
What happened to his feelings for me? I see pieces of them still there, but now Ashley's in the picture, and she's shattered what's there. I can seriously see why he'd want her, I mean, look at her, she's gorgeous and fun-loving. She's like the female me. What a thought. I'm glad I look that good as a girl.
But back to the subject of my Andros. He looks so good. I wonder what he went through while I was in that really small, dark box. I shudder every time I think about waking up in there. I hate closed in spaces. At least he saved me though. But for what? To see him fall in love with someone other than me?
I see him coming towards me now. He knows when something's wrong inside of me, but if it's taken him this long to realize it, then I know I was away too long. I look back to the last week and see how happy he is with her. How happy he used to be with me. It's really not fair. I didn't go through that time. I almost died, loving him, and I came back, still loving him. But it seems as if his love has changed for me. Has it?
"What's wrong?" he asks, his brow furrowed in that cute way that he does when he's worried.
I shake my head. "Nothing. It's just that… everything seems to have changed." I hoped he would get the hint, but knowing Andros, he might not.
"What kind of everything?" he asks, folding his arms over his chest and leaning against the wall.
"The universe," I said vaguely. "Home." And in barely a whisper, "You." I look down, carefully examining my shoes so that I don't have to see the look of pity on his face.
I sense his silent sigh. I feel a finger lift my chin, but my eyes stay downcast. He sighs again.
"Look at me," he commands, but very softly. I look into his brown eyes, the ones I used to get lost in. I seem to be using the phrase "used to" a lot. I wish it could be that way again.
"I still love you, Zhane. I will always love you," he starts. I can hear the 'but' coming. "But I love Ashley now too. In a different way than I love you."
He leans in, and kisses me softly on the lips. A farewell kiss. I guess I deserve one. Hell, I deserve more than that, but it seems as if I have lost for the first time in my life, something so important that I feel tears gathering behind my eyes as my heart shatters.
I yank my chin from his hand and stalk back to my room. If I can't behave like a 4 year old now, I don't know when else I could. Although I think I do sometimes anyway. I'll never get over this. My only love is gone.
I hear the alarm going off, and DECA saying, "Astronema is on Earth with Quantrons." I morph, and get ready to fight. Let's see Astronema deal with me now.