Disclaimer: More I write, more I feel that I don't own anything..-_-..
A/N: Hehe..I'm sorry, Aiko. My hand slipped and wrote your name in a wrong way. By the way, I actually had read Scarlet Rose 5's fic, but I couldn't access my Internet! It accessed sloooowly. So I couldn't review her fic. But she has delayed her fic too long! Could you tell her about this? Tell her to UPDATE SOON!!
Hey, why Access and Fin's fic are not much?! Is there no one there to write? Sob sob... And for that, I'll write aaaaaass muchhhh as I could!!
By Irisgem
Natsuki's POV
The pure white wing...
Feathers fell slowly like snow but warm...
Hitting gently like a loving embrace..
Leaving me alone in eternal tranquility..
Minazuki Shinji or Access Time..
I didn't care which one of you..
Just you..
Please come and protect me with your fluttering angelic wing..
And took me to endless freedom.
Out of the ephemeral pain in my stained soul..
" SHINJIIIII!!!! "
I saw him fled away. With spreading pure wings, he returned to the sky, where he should belong. I tried to reach him but he couldn't hear my voice. Why my chest was so hurt? I put my both hands in front of my chest. Trying to push away this torment, more the pain came like thousands of knives.
I tumbled on my knees dumbly under the rain pour. I was alone without someone at my side to console. No one was there for me to let out my distress. I tried to remember his smile, his silly laugh, his consoling hand, his playful embrace, and his lovely eyes. Why did it hurt so much just because your best friend left you? It wasn't the same pain that came to me when I knew the limit of my father's life.
My world was chained. I didn't know what to do next. Then a flash image of Miwari-kun came into my mind. There was nothing. My heart didn't react. Was it because of the sorrow? No...not only that. His image didn't do anything better. I just wanted to let out this urge of feeling.
Usually when time like this came, my silly best friend and also my brother since my childhood would hug me fondly and give his shoulder for me. It was never often, but I still remember when I cried and made his clothe wet with tears. I stuttered saying 'sorry' but he smiled gently like breeze in the forest.
"What comes into my concern is your condition, not my cloth. Are you fine now?"
He gave me so much comfort and I rejected him mostly. He became the place for me to take out my frustration. No matter I had done to him, he still chased me all over places and protected me from foul mood.
He was never been able to be substituted. Toki and Celcia weren't as close as him. He was too near to my heart. I became to rely on him so much, depend on him and trouble him. He was never seemed to mind. He was too sweet more than any people had done to me. There would be no one that vexed me all time.
It was helpless. My tears that welled in my eyes, spilled out and mixed with the twinkling diamond of raindrop. He left, leaving me here with the eerie darkness. The knob of roof door was turned. I didn't dare to turn my face back nor fleet a glimpse. I couldn't let my mother to worry about me. She had enough woe for my blue head father.
" Natsuki..."Her voice shrieked with tears and sob. She hugged me gingerly. It was different with his, but for a while it was enough. I just needed someone at my side. I cried along with her inside her welcoming arms.
" I'm sorry I couldn't protect you...I don't know what is in Access' mind all the time lately. "
I gazed her, but didn't free myself from her embrace. " You...You know his true self all this time? " She shunned the eyes contact between us. After a long consideration with cool water upon our head, she replied with voice that was almost inaudible.
"....Yes. " Before I could complaint, she continued her sentence in rush. " But it was for you and us and him. "
" Why...are you hiding this from me? "
" Because he wish so."
" Shinji-chan?"
" Yes. He didn't want your past became in your way of present life. Your ordeal shall last only until Fin Fish's death. Nothing in her past shall interfere you. You're Natsuki, my pretty daughter. Fin Fish is my best friend and family member. You don't have to live with memory that is no longer yours. It is his wish."
I could feel a tear dropped on my palm. She cried unstoppable, neither do I. " Baka Shinji. Why should he care? " I retorted angrily. I was angry with him for his one side decision. I was angry with me. For my cruel replied, my cold act to him.
" Don't he tell you? "
" About what? "
" Your relation with him in your past."
" You said that past don't interfere me. " I giggled a bit with tears fell from my face. Gently I swept the diamond pearls away with my shaking hand.
" He just tell me about your 'job' and father's with me as the banished angel. "
The chestnut head wife tilted her head and was deep in thought. " He acted like that again.."
" What is so important? " I started to get interest. It was heard so interesting. I had some kind of relation with Shinji in previous life. What would it be?
She sighed and stood up. The drizzles began to stop. She offered her hand to help me to step back on the ground. " As you said, it is no longer important, especially without him, the one who should said it from his lips. "
I groaned with despair and curious. " Mother.."
She smiled meaningfully before she answered me back and wiped her tears from her jaded face. " Please, Natsuki. The truth would reveal itself. If you know it before the proper time, it would only leave you some scars that would not easily be healed. "
" I don't care. I'm hurt enough. If I could go through all of this, it means I could survive without him. "
She glanced over me to the boundless livid sky. The wet roof shone like a prism with the sunrays that warmly glimmered through the clouds.
" I just need a word to explain your relation briefly. "
" What is it? "
" Lovers...."
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Maron's POV
I could see a horror look that revealed inside her eyes. She seemed to surprise. No wonder. If there were people that became childhood friends for nineteen years together, they would always think about each other as friends, no less, no more. Though they might have another feeling, still they would not admit it to protect their precious jewel that called friendship.
Love was so vague. No one could tell about your feeling beside you. Many had to be risked to feel love. You had to prepare to be hurt. But at the same time, love was the only way to fill your heart to the fullest.
The past of mine flashed inside my mind. I still remembered those moments, when I was sixteen. I was taking a job to seal demons as the reincarnation of Jeanne d' Arc. Then I fell in love to him. He was my rival and partner at the same time that plagued me in all the missions. He mostly hurt me, but being beside him was the happiest time for me.
His blue eyes were too deep that choked me to the endless dream. He pulled me in distance from despair. I kept my forlorn hope that wished for the uniting of my beloved parents. I waited patiently in solitude for a simple letter. Then he set me free. I got back my deprived wings with his comfort love. He made me realize that I wasn't all alone.
He also helped me out from sorrow for losing Fin, as my close relation of family. I was able to survive this far because of him. Then I got back all I needed. My parents never hated me, I got back our Fin as my daughter, and especially I had him at my side.
Then it reminded me of Access. His patience didn't grow anything yet. He suffered so much though he never showed it. I didn't know whether he thought of it or not. If I was in his place, I couldn't endure such feeling. I would probably lose my hope.
I still remembered when Fin's genuine status and her betrayal, I wept on my husband's shoulder and fell in sadness. Then he scolded me to stand on my feet and do something. He was very strong. Maybe it was his best feature. I didn't know what he was really thinking. Maybe he never thought that far. But he was very smart enough to be careful.
It couldn't be that he was pretending as if there was nothing, right? He was very jovial angel that cheered every one he met. He put his solemn face sometimes though, when he explained the reason of Fin's betrayal. His belief stood strongly without anything could defeat it, even the harsh rain and storm.
His power of belief was one of the essential things that melted Fin's cold heart. Inside Fin's heart, there was love for me between the families. But what changed Fin's heart was his persistent heart. He was never failed to believe at his love. I could see the strong between them. I even thought that their love had exceeded the elapsed time.
When I brought Natsuki on the first time in front of that ex-black angel, I could see love in future. Fin also trespassed the time to be bound once more time with him. She kept Access earring as sign. She never let it loose from her hand before that made me curious what things that she held preciously.
I gasped softly when I saw the thing inside her small silk hand. A promise made to meet each other. The earring that was so important for Access. My trickled tears fell like drizzle with a smile. She was given birth with love and shall live with love. Her faithful prince had waited for her. I was so exaggerate to meet them soon.
I carried the lovely infant carefully. Her sleeping form made all person fell in love with her. I showed the baby to Access. He deserved to be the first person, which saw her beauty. He cried with happiness.
His love hadn't died through the reincarnation wheel. I chuckled gleefully when he engaged small Natsuki when he was still four years old. Miyako and Chiaki shocked and their face was pale. Then Miyako scolded him for his misbehavior.
I was thinking that someday Chiaki would kill Access to steal his daughter away from him. But now the situation had changed. Natsuki never thought Shinji more than friend. I didn't understand how that could happen, I just felt sorry for Access. I saw his winced face when she said openly that she would go with...who was that name? I couldn't remember, oh well.
With the speed of light, he pretended with his cheerful mask, as there was nothing. He even kept his relation with Fin in darkness. He always protected her by his own 'way'. Though Natsuki mostly was angry with him, I knew that inside her heart she didn't mind at all.
I saw the young adolescent that stood lingered in front of my eyes, like a statue made by freezing ice. She was so rapt that ignored my presence completely. I sighed. She snapped out of her deep thought.
" It's past, Natsuki. I know what he wishes. You should carry on with your life without him. Don't you have someone to be at your side right now? "
" Huh? Who? Where? "
My sweat dropped. " The one that you say that you love more than Shinji- chan! You said that you didn't walk with Shinji-chan anymore because you had found the person that was at your side. "
" Do you mean Miwari-kun?"
* Whatever his name, I am now more worried about Access than that boy right now. *
She was quiet. This cold rain has passed. Sun set with golden rays shone in the twilight. I watched this beautiful moment with grief. I wondered if Chiaki and Access were also seeing this beautiful view. Then my daughter beauty voice broke the silence between us.
" Mother. "
" Yes, dear? "
Hesitantly, she walked beside me, accompanying me in witnessing this everlasting sunset peace. Her hands trembled with doubt. She tried to clear her throat, but nothing came out. After a long pause and waiting, she finally decided to talk.
" How is the feeling of Love? "
I stared at her then raised my hand to hold her soft hands in mine. I closed the distance between us. With closing eyes, I spoke gently.
// Like the wind I shall blow...To cherish and protect this beautiful world and every happiness in it.//
" It is something that only you could feel it. Feel and listen what your heart tells you about. Don't turn your face from truth. Face it and believe. Then you shall find your happiness. No matter what you choose, don't mourn your decision. "
I fluttered my lids and looked at Natsuki's childish face. " Close your eyes and listen what your heart tells you. Then feel it. How do you feel when you think about Access, no, Shinji-chan and about Miwari-kun? " (finally I remembered his name!)
She followed my orders and closed her eyes. The cloudy sky flew slowly. The lullaby sang softly with tears. The song was for lost angel in Heaven. Could you hear the pain of Natsuki, Access?
Natsuki's POV
I closed my eyes as my mother commanded. I was too confused. My heart was ache to think about him. I replayed all his expression and kindness like a tape. My heart went warm and relieved. But when I saw the occasion that was just happened, my heart torn apart.
His beauty and long black purplish hair was so match with his mature face. His pair of wing that led him to Heaven flies with sadness. His face was so..I blushed deeply as red as the bloody rose. My heartbeat moved very fast. Something like longing was echoed inside me. But I couldn't believe it. Could it be?
But when I thought of Miwari-kun, my heart was also palpitated fast. I got more confused. But this feeling for Miwari-kun was different. Something that...
I opened my eyes. It was a failure.
"So? "
" Nothing. I couldn't understand anything though it is all about myself. "
Mother smiled gently. " You have to experience. Time will lead you, my dear. Come, we shall meet your father. I also have to explain to Miyako about her lost son. She would go frantic. " She looked in distress. I could imagine what would happen.
* Shinji-chan, how do I feel about you?..*
I stood beside the chestnut lady, in front of the amethyst hair woman. Her face winced with disbelief and sorrow.
" Maron? "
" That was what he said to me for last time. I'm sorry, Miyako. "
She lowered her face. No tears spilled out. Her strained face furnished with a small smile. " Is that so? I know that he would probably do that kind of thing. I would miss him. Our house would be felt empty without him. "
" Miyako...."
Then the tears burst out unstoppable. She embraced my mother, searching for comfort. With slender hand, mother hugged Aunt Miyako back. Uncle Minazuki stood helplessly. Leaning to the wall, he supported his exhausted body. Then hospital filled with despair with loss of a person.
Father sat on his bed, watching the crying ladies with sorrow. "I'm sorry, Miyako. If it isn't for me, he probably.."
" No, please don't continue it. " Miyako wept her eyes. She fled herself from Maron. With a single hand, she took his husband home and walked together, wishing to heal each other.
" Are you fine, Natsuki? "
Father's concern voice made me stared him. I laughed with pain.
" No, I am not fine. At all. "
He shunned any contact of eyes. "Baka Access..." I nodded curtly. I wondered how much had he been affected our lives.
" Please, return to us...return to me, Shinji-chan. " All three of us watched outside through the window, searching the fallen feathers of an angel.
A shadow appeared in an ice castle's great hall. "Finally I get you. Don't you need my help? Don't you want to meet her? Don't you want to live? "
A vice-angel was chained with thousands of metals like whips. His long amethyst hair tangled in front of his handsome face. He winced with pain of injury. The shadow raised the head of the angel. With arrogant eyes, he spoke slowly.
" I could give you the power that you yearned to return to her side. "
The angel was closing his eyes, not wanting to hear more nor feel more. " What you could give is the power that separates me and her. Shouldn't you already been sealed, Devil? "
The shrill laugh echoed loudly that deafened Access' ears like fairies'. His jaded eyes were demanding a peaceful sleep, but nothing could satisfy his tiredness. His condition made him so weak. He even couldn't struggle when the devil came to pursue him. His power was so fragile that he could barely wield his Holy power.
The evil aura was too strong in the castle that made him in pain. It tormented him most of time. He couldn't save himself, neither Kami-sama. Kami-sama had transferred His most energy to save Chiaki's life with the Holy Power that had been collected since nineteen years ago.
" Do you want to stay like this forever? You couldn't survive in here with Holy Power. You would slowly die. You are also too weak already. If you die here, you would never meet her anymore forever. "
The amethyst orbs flared with anger. " I would never be a slave who makes Fin-chan suffered. "
The laughter even was louder. He closed his face to the angelic one. Whispering under his breath, he gave creep to Access. " You will give up, no matter what. And one thing, it was you, who stole her from me for something silly called love. "
Then the shadow left the vice-angel all alone with laugh. The angel didn't last long either to stay at his form. Soon the glow emerged inside Access body and gave pain to him. His hair was now tied with a ribbon like a ponytail. His head fell helplessly while his wings returned to the black one. His raven wings left feathers on the marble sapphire floor.
" Fin.."
Then he fell into the darkness, where no one ever liked to wake anymore.
Oh, dear! I am too cruel! Have no idea yet to save Access this time. I wanna to write fluff!! Review please!
A/N: Hehe..I'm sorry, Aiko. My hand slipped and wrote your name in a wrong way. By the way, I actually had read Scarlet Rose 5's fic, but I couldn't access my Internet! It accessed sloooowly. So I couldn't review her fic. But she has delayed her fic too long! Could you tell her about this? Tell her to UPDATE SOON!!
Hey, why Access and Fin's fic are not much?! Is there no one there to write? Sob sob... And for that, I'll write aaaaaass muchhhh as I could!!
By Irisgem
Natsuki's POV
The pure white wing...
Feathers fell slowly like snow but warm...
Hitting gently like a loving embrace..
Leaving me alone in eternal tranquility..
Minazuki Shinji or Access Time..
I didn't care which one of you..
Just you..
Please come and protect me with your fluttering angelic wing..
And took me to endless freedom.
Out of the ephemeral pain in my stained soul..
" SHINJIIIII!!!! "
I saw him fled away. With spreading pure wings, he returned to the sky, where he should belong. I tried to reach him but he couldn't hear my voice. Why my chest was so hurt? I put my both hands in front of my chest. Trying to push away this torment, more the pain came like thousands of knives.
I tumbled on my knees dumbly under the rain pour. I was alone without someone at my side to console. No one was there for me to let out my distress. I tried to remember his smile, his silly laugh, his consoling hand, his playful embrace, and his lovely eyes. Why did it hurt so much just because your best friend left you? It wasn't the same pain that came to me when I knew the limit of my father's life.
My world was chained. I didn't know what to do next. Then a flash image of Miwari-kun came into my mind. There was nothing. My heart didn't react. Was it because of the sorrow? No...not only that. His image didn't do anything better. I just wanted to let out this urge of feeling.
Usually when time like this came, my silly best friend and also my brother since my childhood would hug me fondly and give his shoulder for me. It was never often, but I still remember when I cried and made his clothe wet with tears. I stuttered saying 'sorry' but he smiled gently like breeze in the forest.
"What comes into my concern is your condition, not my cloth. Are you fine now?"
He gave me so much comfort and I rejected him mostly. He became the place for me to take out my frustration. No matter I had done to him, he still chased me all over places and protected me from foul mood.
He was never been able to be substituted. Toki and Celcia weren't as close as him. He was too near to my heart. I became to rely on him so much, depend on him and trouble him. He was never seemed to mind. He was too sweet more than any people had done to me. There would be no one that vexed me all time.
It was helpless. My tears that welled in my eyes, spilled out and mixed with the twinkling diamond of raindrop. He left, leaving me here with the eerie darkness. The knob of roof door was turned. I didn't dare to turn my face back nor fleet a glimpse. I couldn't let my mother to worry about me. She had enough woe for my blue head father.
" Natsuki..."Her voice shrieked with tears and sob. She hugged me gingerly. It was different with his, but for a while it was enough. I just needed someone at my side. I cried along with her inside her welcoming arms.
" I'm sorry I couldn't protect you...I don't know what is in Access' mind all the time lately. "
I gazed her, but didn't free myself from her embrace. " You...You know his true self all this time? " She shunned the eyes contact between us. After a long consideration with cool water upon our head, she replied with voice that was almost inaudible.
"....Yes. " Before I could complaint, she continued her sentence in rush. " But it was for you and us and him. "
" Why...are you hiding this from me? "
" Because he wish so."
" Shinji-chan?"
" Yes. He didn't want your past became in your way of present life. Your ordeal shall last only until Fin Fish's death. Nothing in her past shall interfere you. You're Natsuki, my pretty daughter. Fin Fish is my best friend and family member. You don't have to live with memory that is no longer yours. It is his wish."
I could feel a tear dropped on my palm. She cried unstoppable, neither do I. " Baka Shinji. Why should he care? " I retorted angrily. I was angry with him for his one side decision. I was angry with me. For my cruel replied, my cold act to him.
" Don't he tell you? "
" About what? "
" Your relation with him in your past."
" You said that past don't interfere me. " I giggled a bit with tears fell from my face. Gently I swept the diamond pearls away with my shaking hand.
" He just tell me about your 'job' and father's with me as the banished angel. "
The chestnut head wife tilted her head and was deep in thought. " He acted like that again.."
" What is so important? " I started to get interest. It was heard so interesting. I had some kind of relation with Shinji in previous life. What would it be?
She sighed and stood up. The drizzles began to stop. She offered her hand to help me to step back on the ground. " As you said, it is no longer important, especially without him, the one who should said it from his lips. "
I groaned with despair and curious. " Mother.."
She smiled meaningfully before she answered me back and wiped her tears from her jaded face. " Please, Natsuki. The truth would reveal itself. If you know it before the proper time, it would only leave you some scars that would not easily be healed. "
" I don't care. I'm hurt enough. If I could go through all of this, it means I could survive without him. "
She glanced over me to the boundless livid sky. The wet roof shone like a prism with the sunrays that warmly glimmered through the clouds.
" I just need a word to explain your relation briefly. "
" What is it? "
" Lovers...."
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Maron's POV
I could see a horror look that revealed inside her eyes. She seemed to surprise. No wonder. If there were people that became childhood friends for nineteen years together, they would always think about each other as friends, no less, no more. Though they might have another feeling, still they would not admit it to protect their precious jewel that called friendship.
Love was so vague. No one could tell about your feeling beside you. Many had to be risked to feel love. You had to prepare to be hurt. But at the same time, love was the only way to fill your heart to the fullest.
The past of mine flashed inside my mind. I still remembered those moments, when I was sixteen. I was taking a job to seal demons as the reincarnation of Jeanne d' Arc. Then I fell in love to him. He was my rival and partner at the same time that plagued me in all the missions. He mostly hurt me, but being beside him was the happiest time for me.
His blue eyes were too deep that choked me to the endless dream. He pulled me in distance from despair. I kept my forlorn hope that wished for the uniting of my beloved parents. I waited patiently in solitude for a simple letter. Then he set me free. I got back my deprived wings with his comfort love. He made me realize that I wasn't all alone.
He also helped me out from sorrow for losing Fin, as my close relation of family. I was able to survive this far because of him. Then I got back all I needed. My parents never hated me, I got back our Fin as my daughter, and especially I had him at my side.
Then it reminded me of Access. His patience didn't grow anything yet. He suffered so much though he never showed it. I didn't know whether he thought of it or not. If I was in his place, I couldn't endure such feeling. I would probably lose my hope.
I still remembered when Fin's genuine status and her betrayal, I wept on my husband's shoulder and fell in sadness. Then he scolded me to stand on my feet and do something. He was very strong. Maybe it was his best feature. I didn't know what he was really thinking. Maybe he never thought that far. But he was very smart enough to be careful.
It couldn't be that he was pretending as if there was nothing, right? He was very jovial angel that cheered every one he met. He put his solemn face sometimes though, when he explained the reason of Fin's betrayal. His belief stood strongly without anything could defeat it, even the harsh rain and storm.
His power of belief was one of the essential things that melted Fin's cold heart. Inside Fin's heart, there was love for me between the families. But what changed Fin's heart was his persistent heart. He was never failed to believe at his love. I could see the strong between them. I even thought that their love had exceeded the elapsed time.
When I brought Natsuki on the first time in front of that ex-black angel, I could see love in future. Fin also trespassed the time to be bound once more time with him. She kept Access earring as sign. She never let it loose from her hand before that made me curious what things that she held preciously.
I gasped softly when I saw the thing inside her small silk hand. A promise made to meet each other. The earring that was so important for Access. My trickled tears fell like drizzle with a smile. She was given birth with love and shall live with love. Her faithful prince had waited for her. I was so exaggerate to meet them soon.
I carried the lovely infant carefully. Her sleeping form made all person fell in love with her. I showed the baby to Access. He deserved to be the first person, which saw her beauty. He cried with happiness.
His love hadn't died through the reincarnation wheel. I chuckled gleefully when he engaged small Natsuki when he was still four years old. Miyako and Chiaki shocked and their face was pale. Then Miyako scolded him for his misbehavior.
I was thinking that someday Chiaki would kill Access to steal his daughter away from him. But now the situation had changed. Natsuki never thought Shinji more than friend. I didn't understand how that could happen, I just felt sorry for Access. I saw his winced face when she said openly that she would go with...who was that name? I couldn't remember, oh well.
With the speed of light, he pretended with his cheerful mask, as there was nothing. He even kept his relation with Fin in darkness. He always protected her by his own 'way'. Though Natsuki mostly was angry with him, I knew that inside her heart she didn't mind at all.
I saw the young adolescent that stood lingered in front of my eyes, like a statue made by freezing ice. She was so rapt that ignored my presence completely. I sighed. She snapped out of her deep thought.
" It's past, Natsuki. I know what he wishes. You should carry on with your life without him. Don't you have someone to be at your side right now? "
" Huh? Who? Where? "
My sweat dropped. " The one that you say that you love more than Shinji- chan! You said that you didn't walk with Shinji-chan anymore because you had found the person that was at your side. "
" Do you mean Miwari-kun?"
* Whatever his name, I am now more worried about Access than that boy right now. *
She was quiet. This cold rain has passed. Sun set with golden rays shone in the twilight. I watched this beautiful moment with grief. I wondered if Chiaki and Access were also seeing this beautiful view. Then my daughter beauty voice broke the silence between us.
" Mother. "
" Yes, dear? "
Hesitantly, she walked beside me, accompanying me in witnessing this everlasting sunset peace. Her hands trembled with doubt. She tried to clear her throat, but nothing came out. After a long pause and waiting, she finally decided to talk.
" How is the feeling of Love? "
I stared at her then raised my hand to hold her soft hands in mine. I closed the distance between us. With closing eyes, I spoke gently.
// Like the wind I shall blow...To cherish and protect this beautiful world and every happiness in it.//
" It is something that only you could feel it. Feel and listen what your heart tells you about. Don't turn your face from truth. Face it and believe. Then you shall find your happiness. No matter what you choose, don't mourn your decision. "
I fluttered my lids and looked at Natsuki's childish face. " Close your eyes and listen what your heart tells you. Then feel it. How do you feel when you think about Access, no, Shinji-chan and about Miwari-kun? " (finally I remembered his name!)
She followed my orders and closed her eyes. The cloudy sky flew slowly. The lullaby sang softly with tears. The song was for lost angel in Heaven. Could you hear the pain of Natsuki, Access?
Natsuki's POV
I closed my eyes as my mother commanded. I was too confused. My heart was ache to think about him. I replayed all his expression and kindness like a tape. My heart went warm and relieved. But when I saw the occasion that was just happened, my heart torn apart.
His beauty and long black purplish hair was so match with his mature face. His pair of wing that led him to Heaven flies with sadness. His face was so..I blushed deeply as red as the bloody rose. My heartbeat moved very fast. Something like longing was echoed inside me. But I couldn't believe it. Could it be?
But when I thought of Miwari-kun, my heart was also palpitated fast. I got more confused. But this feeling for Miwari-kun was different. Something that...
I opened my eyes. It was a failure.
"So? "
" Nothing. I couldn't understand anything though it is all about myself. "
Mother smiled gently. " You have to experience. Time will lead you, my dear. Come, we shall meet your father. I also have to explain to Miyako about her lost son. She would go frantic. " She looked in distress. I could imagine what would happen.
* Shinji-chan, how do I feel about you?..*
I stood beside the chestnut lady, in front of the amethyst hair woman. Her face winced with disbelief and sorrow.
" Maron? "
" That was what he said to me for last time. I'm sorry, Miyako. "
She lowered her face. No tears spilled out. Her strained face furnished with a small smile. " Is that so? I know that he would probably do that kind of thing. I would miss him. Our house would be felt empty without him. "
" Miyako...."
Then the tears burst out unstoppable. She embraced my mother, searching for comfort. With slender hand, mother hugged Aunt Miyako back. Uncle Minazuki stood helplessly. Leaning to the wall, he supported his exhausted body. Then hospital filled with despair with loss of a person.
Father sat on his bed, watching the crying ladies with sorrow. "I'm sorry, Miyako. If it isn't for me, he probably.."
" No, please don't continue it. " Miyako wept her eyes. She fled herself from Maron. With a single hand, she took his husband home and walked together, wishing to heal each other.
" Are you fine, Natsuki? "
Father's concern voice made me stared him. I laughed with pain.
" No, I am not fine. At all. "
He shunned any contact of eyes. "Baka Access..." I nodded curtly. I wondered how much had he been affected our lives.
" Please, return to us...return to me, Shinji-chan. " All three of us watched outside through the window, searching the fallen feathers of an angel.
A shadow appeared in an ice castle's great hall. "Finally I get you. Don't you need my help? Don't you want to meet her? Don't you want to live? "
A vice-angel was chained with thousands of metals like whips. His long amethyst hair tangled in front of his handsome face. He winced with pain of injury. The shadow raised the head of the angel. With arrogant eyes, he spoke slowly.
" I could give you the power that you yearned to return to her side. "
The angel was closing his eyes, not wanting to hear more nor feel more. " What you could give is the power that separates me and her. Shouldn't you already been sealed, Devil? "
The shrill laugh echoed loudly that deafened Access' ears like fairies'. His jaded eyes were demanding a peaceful sleep, but nothing could satisfy his tiredness. His condition made him so weak. He even couldn't struggle when the devil came to pursue him. His power was so fragile that he could barely wield his Holy power.
The evil aura was too strong in the castle that made him in pain. It tormented him most of time. He couldn't save himself, neither Kami-sama. Kami-sama had transferred His most energy to save Chiaki's life with the Holy Power that had been collected since nineteen years ago.
" Do you want to stay like this forever? You couldn't survive in here with Holy Power. You would slowly die. You are also too weak already. If you die here, you would never meet her anymore forever. "
The amethyst orbs flared with anger. " I would never be a slave who makes Fin-chan suffered. "
The laughter even was louder. He closed his face to the angelic one. Whispering under his breath, he gave creep to Access. " You will give up, no matter what. And one thing, it was you, who stole her from me for something silly called love. "
Then the shadow left the vice-angel all alone with laugh. The angel didn't last long either to stay at his form. Soon the glow emerged inside Access body and gave pain to him. His hair was now tied with a ribbon like a ponytail. His head fell helplessly while his wings returned to the black one. His raven wings left feathers on the marble sapphire floor.
" Fin.."
Then he fell into the darkness, where no one ever liked to wake anymore.
Oh, dear! I am too cruel! Have no idea yet to save Access this time. I wanna to write fluff!! Review please!