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A/N: Hello there! Aiko, thanks for your review! I didn't get what you want to tell me for giving a flame to your beloved cousin, but it's okay. Sometimes I become rude if I get frustrated. She still hasn't continued her story! I want to read!!! Sob sob..Hehe your review becomes longer and longer. Thank you! Here is for you!
By Irisgem
" Eh? "
" Yes, I met him this noon. "
My mother blinked her chocolate eyes twice. She forgot already about the cups of tea on the flat tray. She seemed surprised and happy at the same time though.
" How could you meet him? How is he doing? Is he happy in Heaven? "
I stared at the beauty woman for a while. She smiled purely like angel. The image on the past flashed back then. My face was blank of emotion.
" I don't think so. He is wounded. " I jolted and stood up abruptly from my chair. " Mother! Is it possible for him to turn evil?!
" Of course not, Natsuki. He gives his devotion for Kami-sama only, right? "
" But when I saw him, he had no longer the white wings. His wings were like ravens. They were black, really pure black! "
She put herself in a big concern and looked up the ceiling. She put her hand beside her cheek and her mind seemed wandered on other place.
" I don't think so, dear. He told me once that it meant he was the black angel. The angels have their own level of power. . Maybe he lost some power to help Chiaki then he was back to black angel. "
" But is still he an angel? "
" Yes."
" I wonder if he would come back. I think Aunt Miyako misses him already. "
" All of us would miss him, right? "
I smiled widely toward her. " Yes! And I want to say something to him if he returns."
Mother lifted her face and her smile still didn't leave her face. " Oh, what would it be? "
I tried to shun her by changing the conversation. " I think I should wake by myself now. "
She didn't give up and sat beside me. " Okay, my lovely daughter, you shouldn't keep secret from your mother, right? What would it be? "
I put my hand on my forehead and sweat dropped. " Mother.. "
She stared meaningfully and silently smiled. I somehow drowned to her eyes to the deeper emotion. I gave up at the end and admitted it quietly.
" Don't tell Father, please? " She lifted her palm and entwined our pinky finger. I tilted my head little and spoke gently. Luckily father had to go to work earlier that he had left house this morning very early. Somehow I felt awkward to tell Father. I hoped he wouldn't get angry at Shinji.
I whispered on my mother's ears. Her orbs widened and stared into my eyes. She replied me with an expected answer. " Really? "
" Yes, I finally realize it. I like him though he is such a nuisance. But he is always kind and gentle to me when I really need him. " I closed my eyes and my mind flied to the faraway land.
Maron smiled at me and put her hand on my shoulder. " It's nice to know how you truly feel. " Suddenly she stood up and backed me. Then with a high spirit she raised her hand with a clenched fist. I stared at her helplessly.
" Then the only thing we should do is to get him here!!! " I sweat dropped and she looked so determined. Didn't she forget about something?
" How could we get him here? We have no wings. "
I didn't know where the spotlight came across that suddenly was above my mother's head. She squatted on the floor helplessly. I sweat dropped again.
" The only thing you have to do is praying to Kami-sama and don't lose your faith. Maybe He would allow Access to return for a while. "
Suddenly some words of our last meeting knocked my head. I tried to understand what he tried to say. Then I glanced at my mother.
" He said that it wasn't Kami-sama...I don't understand what he is talking about though. "
Her brows lifted and made her face frowned. " Huh? So he isn't at Heaven? Could it be that he is in temptation in some other country and doesn't find his way yet? But it's impossible.."
" He is also looked in pain."
Her worried face didn't match her pretty face. She dismissed her anxiety by looking at the clock. She was shocked and shouted.
" Natsuki! You're late!!! "
" What?!!" I saw the clock with big lime eyes and stunned. I used to be warned by Shinji that he was no longer here. Now I totally forgot about my class. I ran to grab my bag and opened the door hurriedly.
" BYE, MOM!! "
She waved slowly and closed the door that I left to be opened. Then she got back inside the apartment.
" It isn't Kami-sama..then.." She shook her head hard and walked to living room.
" It's impossible. I had seal Maou-sama already. He couldn't be...yes, it shouldn't be....oh well. I should go to hospital anyway. I'll talk about it with Chiaki."
Maron's POV
I tidied the rooms in this apartment before I left to Nagoya Hospital, the property of Chiaki's father. Since the birth of Natsuki, his father came routine to see his granddaughter. He didn't seem aging though. He still looked as young as Chiaki, only a bit older.
Shinji also came everyday and took turn to play with Natsuki. He seemed never left her alone. Even when Natsuki was deep in her dream, he held her little soft hand inside his. He ended up sleeping at her side though until the evening came. Then usually Miyako would come and punish him to disturb other people's house.
And he never gave up. On the next day, he would come and repeat the same thing. He stopped doing so after Natsuki was six as she usually slapped his face to follow her over the place.
* Ughhh, Access, where are you? *
* knock knock*
" Huh? " I turned my head back and looked at the window from kitchen. Then I saw the person that was so familiar to me. He smiled behind the window.
" Noin?! "
I opened the window to greet him. I was happy there was no Chiaki here or he would punch Noin's face already. They were once love rival. Chiaki usually got jealous just when I talked nice about Noin.
" Hello, long time no see. You too, Silk. " I watched the little dragon on his shoulder flied gleefully. Silk was so devoted to Noin as that little dragon liked him so much.
" Hello Jeanne, or should it be Maron? "
" Nagoya Maron. " I answered with happy tune. He just didn't look very happy about it but didn't say anything.
" Too bad that you love Chiaki already. If you're reincarnated again, I'll make sure of you to be mine. "
I sweat dropped. He was too obsessed about Jeanne d'Arc. I let him went inside and offered him some tea.
" What are you doing for all over the years? "
" Still same. I am watching over you. "
My face went to the sad one. " Then you know about what has happened lately, right? "
" Yes, and about that reincarnated noisy black angel. He still never changed that kept roaming around with your little angel Fin. "
" He is no longer here. "
He watched me lovingly with some concern inside her eyes. " I know. He turned to angel to save Chiaki, right? I don't know that Kami-sama still could save someone's life. " He took the cup of tea that I offered him. He gazed at the brown water with some mist.
" We want to see him, especially Natsuki. "
I stared at him. His hand shook a bit. " You may never see him again. "
" Eh? "
" Maou-sama returns from the seal. I don't know how. I just know it. He tried to collect some power to get back. "
" So? " I moved forward to listen more carefully.
" I didn't know how could it be happened. Silk was the one who saw the occasion. "
" What occasion? " My heartbeat went nuts as if it was going to explode. The sound rang loudly with sickening worried. It was the bad sign.
" His name is Access, right? "
I nodded then shook. " Not really. His name now is Shinji. "
" Whatever. Silk saw an intense evil power caught him. When Silk was in patrol to see the situation, Silk watched him flying. As Silk ( what gender does this dragon have? Is it a girl or a boy?!! AGGHHH!!) got curious, she watched from far. The black power swallowed him and he was nowhere to be found."
" Is..Is it Maou? "
" Maybe. I come to inform that also to see you without being hit on face. "
I laughed half-heartedly and went serious. " How could I find Maou? "
" You couldn't confront him! You lose you power that you can't even transform to Jeanne! " He warned me hardly. Silk that was sleeping peacefully on my lap, woke up with such noise.
I moved Silk gently to the fluffy sofa and got my jacket. I walked out to hospital without looking back. Noin tried to catch up by flying in the sky with sleepy Silk. This is going to be a big matter. I wondered how Maou came back from seal.
I had to hurry....
" Yes. I'm sorry, Miwari-kun. "
" Nagoya-san.."
" I'm sorry for hurting your feeling. I appreciate your courage and your feeling. But I finally realize that it isn't you who I love. I admire you so much. You make me feel so special by choosing me over the girls. But.."
" Why couldn't you just see me?! Don't you love me before?"
" I like you as friend. I try to hide my true feeling that I think I love you. But I can't keep everything like this. I am so cruel to give you a fake love. You deserve a better girl than me."
He grabbed my shoulder and his eyes were hardened. He was so scary that my body shivered with fear.
" I just want you, Natsuki, not other girls!! "
" Let me go! Miwari-kun! " I tried to free myself but he didn't let me. He even gripped me harder. Even Shinji was never being this harsh. Though he was jealous, he never held me as rough as this. I tried to ask help but then I remembered. We were at the roof that there was no one here. No one could hear me. My fear swallowed me and made me lose power to push him.
He kissed me forcefully that I really didn't enjoy it. My eyes closed with pain and grief. I hated my weakness. I hated for being this weak. Why I couldn't do anything about this? Why Shinji should leave me alone? Why Kami- sama took him from me?
He deepened his kiss and cornered me to the wall. My tears welled on my eyes, streamed down from my face. I didn't know why I cried. It was so bitter. Could this be a betrayal feeling?
I couldn't think anything else. I screamed for his name. The name that I longed for.
" SHINJI!!! "
He stunned and loosened his hand. His eyes widen with shock and anger. I brushed my wet lips harshly with my uniform sleeves. My tears still fell endlessly. No one of us dared to make movements. I watched him with hidden anger and hatred. Though this wasn't my first kiss, I still didn't like that he snatched kiss in this way.
I suddenly missed Shinji more than before. It reminded me when I was seven. A car hit my dog. I cried when I buried its body on a park. I didn't do it myself. Toki and Celcia were on a summer holiday that only Shinji was at my side to help me. Actually he was the one who buried it since I wasn't that strong.
Then I sat on the swing and cried silently. I loved my dog very much that it was so cute and lovely. It was always at my side. When Shinji, Toki and Celcia went to school, I was alone. It was the only friend that accompanied me all the time.
Shinji washed his hand by immersing his hand inside the fountain in the park. Then he sat beside me on the other swing. He looked so worried.
" Natsuki-chan, let's go home. Your dog would be sad if you don't let it go. "
" I want to be here with it. I won't go home! You don't understand how I feel! "
" Natsuki-chan, even you are here, it won't back to life. Please, Aunt Maron would worry. Ne, let's go home. " He offered his dirty little hand in front of my face.
I slapped his hand hardly that made him winced with pain. " NO!! Just leave me alone! We will be together forever just like what it always does! "
Then he grabbed my hand and scolded. " You only make it couldn't go to the proper place! It deserves a better place to rest and you prevent it to find the place!"
I stared with shock and sadness. " So it doesn't want to be with me anymore? "
He smiled consolingly and put my hand inside his on my chest. " Your dog is always inside your heart that you are never alone. But now it should find some place first to rest."
" You lie."
" I don't. " Then he came near and kissed me gently on lips. I blushed and slapped him. He tried to wake and still held his red cheek.
" Ouch! You're so mean! "
" It's your fault! " Then I stood abruptly from the swing. He smiled gleefully.
" Ne, finally want to go home? "
I stared him angrily. So he tricked me. " Baka!! " I ran along the street back to our home.
He stood up to catch me up. I glanced back at the site where Shinji buried my dog. I was going to be alone from now on. I had to be strong, but....
" Natsuki-chan. "
" Would you please not talk to me? " I replied angrily. He rubbed his head with frustration.
" I couldn't at your side every time like what your dog has done. But I can promise to be your side whenever I could. "
I blushed madly without looking his face back. " Baka, I don't need you. " I answered him, but actually I was really happy when he said it. He ran in front of me and smiled widely. He took my hand and entwined our pinky fingers.
" It is a promise! " I pushed his hand aside and walked to home. He shouted from behind that rang inside my ears. " Natsuki-chan! Wait for me!! "
Secretly I smiled with tears and ran home with hollow feeling. I was thinking that I could fly that time as the weight burden on my shoulder had been lifted.
" Nagoya-san..." The voice snapped me out from memories.
" I'm sorry, Miwari-kun. " I ran from the roof and returned to my class. He shouted from upper stairs.
" I won't give up yet! I won't lose you! "
My body shuddered with his statement. Oh Shinji...where were you in time like this..?!
I went to the toilet and washed my face. My eyes were red with tears. I watched the mirror to see my messed face. Suddenly an image flashed inside my head. A young lady stood with a pair of white wings on her back. Her solemn lime eyes were so similar like mine. I touched the mirror with disbelief.
" Fin? "
Done! YAY! Review please. Nothing much to say.
A/N: Hello there! Aiko, thanks for your review! I didn't get what you want to tell me for giving a flame to your beloved cousin, but it's okay. Sometimes I become rude if I get frustrated. She still hasn't continued her story! I want to read!!! Sob sob..Hehe your review becomes longer and longer. Thank you! Here is for you!
By Irisgem
" Eh? "
" Yes, I met him this noon. "
My mother blinked her chocolate eyes twice. She forgot already about the cups of tea on the flat tray. She seemed surprised and happy at the same time though.
" How could you meet him? How is he doing? Is he happy in Heaven? "
I stared at the beauty woman for a while. She smiled purely like angel. The image on the past flashed back then. My face was blank of emotion.
" I don't think so. He is wounded. " I jolted and stood up abruptly from my chair. " Mother! Is it possible for him to turn evil?!
" Of course not, Natsuki. He gives his devotion for Kami-sama only, right? "
" But when I saw him, he had no longer the white wings. His wings were like ravens. They were black, really pure black! "
She put herself in a big concern and looked up the ceiling. She put her hand beside her cheek and her mind seemed wandered on other place.
" I don't think so, dear. He told me once that it meant he was the black angel. The angels have their own level of power. . Maybe he lost some power to help Chiaki then he was back to black angel. "
" But is still he an angel? "
" Yes."
" I wonder if he would come back. I think Aunt Miyako misses him already. "
" All of us would miss him, right? "
I smiled widely toward her. " Yes! And I want to say something to him if he returns."
Mother lifted her face and her smile still didn't leave her face. " Oh, what would it be? "
I tried to shun her by changing the conversation. " I think I should wake by myself now. "
She didn't give up and sat beside me. " Okay, my lovely daughter, you shouldn't keep secret from your mother, right? What would it be? "
I put my hand on my forehead and sweat dropped. " Mother.. "
She stared meaningfully and silently smiled. I somehow drowned to her eyes to the deeper emotion. I gave up at the end and admitted it quietly.
" Don't tell Father, please? " She lifted her palm and entwined our pinky finger. I tilted my head little and spoke gently. Luckily father had to go to work earlier that he had left house this morning very early. Somehow I felt awkward to tell Father. I hoped he wouldn't get angry at Shinji.
I whispered on my mother's ears. Her orbs widened and stared into my eyes. She replied me with an expected answer. " Really? "
" Yes, I finally realize it. I like him though he is such a nuisance. But he is always kind and gentle to me when I really need him. " I closed my eyes and my mind flied to the faraway land.
Maron smiled at me and put her hand on my shoulder. " It's nice to know how you truly feel. " Suddenly she stood up and backed me. Then with a high spirit she raised her hand with a clenched fist. I stared at her helplessly.
" Then the only thing we should do is to get him here!!! " I sweat dropped and she looked so determined. Didn't she forget about something?
" How could we get him here? We have no wings. "
I didn't know where the spotlight came across that suddenly was above my mother's head. She squatted on the floor helplessly. I sweat dropped again.
" The only thing you have to do is praying to Kami-sama and don't lose your faith. Maybe He would allow Access to return for a while. "
Suddenly some words of our last meeting knocked my head. I tried to understand what he tried to say. Then I glanced at my mother.
" He said that it wasn't Kami-sama...I don't understand what he is talking about though. "
Her brows lifted and made her face frowned. " Huh? So he isn't at Heaven? Could it be that he is in temptation in some other country and doesn't find his way yet? But it's impossible.."
" He is also looked in pain."
Her worried face didn't match her pretty face. She dismissed her anxiety by looking at the clock. She was shocked and shouted.
" Natsuki! You're late!!! "
" What?!!" I saw the clock with big lime eyes and stunned. I used to be warned by Shinji that he was no longer here. Now I totally forgot about my class. I ran to grab my bag and opened the door hurriedly.
" BYE, MOM!! "
She waved slowly and closed the door that I left to be opened. Then she got back inside the apartment.
" It isn't Kami-sama..then.." She shook her head hard and walked to living room.
" It's impossible. I had seal Maou-sama already. He couldn't be...yes, it shouldn't be....oh well. I should go to hospital anyway. I'll talk about it with Chiaki."
Maron's POV
I tidied the rooms in this apartment before I left to Nagoya Hospital, the property of Chiaki's father. Since the birth of Natsuki, his father came routine to see his granddaughter. He didn't seem aging though. He still looked as young as Chiaki, only a bit older.
Shinji also came everyday and took turn to play with Natsuki. He seemed never left her alone. Even when Natsuki was deep in her dream, he held her little soft hand inside his. He ended up sleeping at her side though until the evening came. Then usually Miyako would come and punish him to disturb other people's house.
And he never gave up. On the next day, he would come and repeat the same thing. He stopped doing so after Natsuki was six as she usually slapped his face to follow her over the place.
* Ughhh, Access, where are you? *
* knock knock*
" Huh? " I turned my head back and looked at the window from kitchen. Then I saw the person that was so familiar to me. He smiled behind the window.
" Noin?! "
I opened the window to greet him. I was happy there was no Chiaki here or he would punch Noin's face already. They were once love rival. Chiaki usually got jealous just when I talked nice about Noin.
" Hello, long time no see. You too, Silk. " I watched the little dragon on his shoulder flied gleefully. Silk was so devoted to Noin as that little dragon liked him so much.
" Hello Jeanne, or should it be Maron? "
" Nagoya Maron. " I answered with happy tune. He just didn't look very happy about it but didn't say anything.
" Too bad that you love Chiaki already. If you're reincarnated again, I'll make sure of you to be mine. "
I sweat dropped. He was too obsessed about Jeanne d'Arc. I let him went inside and offered him some tea.
" What are you doing for all over the years? "
" Still same. I am watching over you. "
My face went to the sad one. " Then you know about what has happened lately, right? "
" Yes, and about that reincarnated noisy black angel. He still never changed that kept roaming around with your little angel Fin. "
" He is no longer here. "
He watched me lovingly with some concern inside her eyes. " I know. He turned to angel to save Chiaki, right? I don't know that Kami-sama still could save someone's life. " He took the cup of tea that I offered him. He gazed at the brown water with some mist.
" We want to see him, especially Natsuki. "
I stared at him. His hand shook a bit. " You may never see him again. "
" Eh? "
" Maou-sama returns from the seal. I don't know how. I just know it. He tried to collect some power to get back. "
" So? " I moved forward to listen more carefully.
" I didn't know how could it be happened. Silk was the one who saw the occasion. "
" What occasion? " My heartbeat went nuts as if it was going to explode. The sound rang loudly with sickening worried. It was the bad sign.
" His name is Access, right? "
I nodded then shook. " Not really. His name now is Shinji. "
" Whatever. Silk saw an intense evil power caught him. When Silk was in patrol to see the situation, Silk watched him flying. As Silk ( what gender does this dragon have? Is it a girl or a boy?!! AGGHHH!!) got curious, she watched from far. The black power swallowed him and he was nowhere to be found."
" Is..Is it Maou? "
" Maybe. I come to inform that also to see you without being hit on face. "
I laughed half-heartedly and went serious. " How could I find Maou? "
" You couldn't confront him! You lose you power that you can't even transform to Jeanne! " He warned me hardly. Silk that was sleeping peacefully on my lap, woke up with such noise.
I moved Silk gently to the fluffy sofa and got my jacket. I walked out to hospital without looking back. Noin tried to catch up by flying in the sky with sleepy Silk. This is going to be a big matter. I wondered how Maou came back from seal.
I had to hurry....
" Yes. I'm sorry, Miwari-kun. "
" Nagoya-san.."
" I'm sorry for hurting your feeling. I appreciate your courage and your feeling. But I finally realize that it isn't you who I love. I admire you so much. You make me feel so special by choosing me over the girls. But.."
" Why couldn't you just see me?! Don't you love me before?"
" I like you as friend. I try to hide my true feeling that I think I love you. But I can't keep everything like this. I am so cruel to give you a fake love. You deserve a better girl than me."
He grabbed my shoulder and his eyes were hardened. He was so scary that my body shivered with fear.
" I just want you, Natsuki, not other girls!! "
" Let me go! Miwari-kun! " I tried to free myself but he didn't let me. He even gripped me harder. Even Shinji was never being this harsh. Though he was jealous, he never held me as rough as this. I tried to ask help but then I remembered. We were at the roof that there was no one here. No one could hear me. My fear swallowed me and made me lose power to push him.
He kissed me forcefully that I really didn't enjoy it. My eyes closed with pain and grief. I hated my weakness. I hated for being this weak. Why I couldn't do anything about this? Why Shinji should leave me alone? Why Kami- sama took him from me?
He deepened his kiss and cornered me to the wall. My tears welled on my eyes, streamed down from my face. I didn't know why I cried. It was so bitter. Could this be a betrayal feeling?
I couldn't think anything else. I screamed for his name. The name that I longed for.
" SHINJI!!! "
He stunned and loosened his hand. His eyes widen with shock and anger. I brushed my wet lips harshly with my uniform sleeves. My tears still fell endlessly. No one of us dared to make movements. I watched him with hidden anger and hatred. Though this wasn't my first kiss, I still didn't like that he snatched kiss in this way.
I suddenly missed Shinji more than before. It reminded me when I was seven. A car hit my dog. I cried when I buried its body on a park. I didn't do it myself. Toki and Celcia were on a summer holiday that only Shinji was at my side to help me. Actually he was the one who buried it since I wasn't that strong.
Then I sat on the swing and cried silently. I loved my dog very much that it was so cute and lovely. It was always at my side. When Shinji, Toki and Celcia went to school, I was alone. It was the only friend that accompanied me all the time.
Shinji washed his hand by immersing his hand inside the fountain in the park. Then he sat beside me on the other swing. He looked so worried.
" Natsuki-chan, let's go home. Your dog would be sad if you don't let it go. "
" I want to be here with it. I won't go home! You don't understand how I feel! "
" Natsuki-chan, even you are here, it won't back to life. Please, Aunt Maron would worry. Ne, let's go home. " He offered his dirty little hand in front of my face.
I slapped his hand hardly that made him winced with pain. " NO!! Just leave me alone! We will be together forever just like what it always does! "
Then he grabbed my hand and scolded. " You only make it couldn't go to the proper place! It deserves a better place to rest and you prevent it to find the place!"
I stared with shock and sadness. " So it doesn't want to be with me anymore? "
He smiled consolingly and put my hand inside his on my chest. " Your dog is always inside your heart that you are never alone. But now it should find some place first to rest."
" You lie."
" I don't. " Then he came near and kissed me gently on lips. I blushed and slapped him. He tried to wake and still held his red cheek.
" Ouch! You're so mean! "
" It's your fault! " Then I stood abruptly from the swing. He smiled gleefully.
" Ne, finally want to go home? "
I stared him angrily. So he tricked me. " Baka!! " I ran along the street back to our home.
He stood up to catch me up. I glanced back at the site where Shinji buried my dog. I was going to be alone from now on. I had to be strong, but....
" Natsuki-chan. "
" Would you please not talk to me? " I replied angrily. He rubbed his head with frustration.
" I couldn't at your side every time like what your dog has done. But I can promise to be your side whenever I could. "
I blushed madly without looking his face back. " Baka, I don't need you. " I answered him, but actually I was really happy when he said it. He ran in front of me and smiled widely. He took my hand and entwined our pinky fingers.
" It is a promise! " I pushed his hand aside and walked to home. He shouted from behind that rang inside my ears. " Natsuki-chan! Wait for me!! "
Secretly I smiled with tears and ran home with hollow feeling. I was thinking that I could fly that time as the weight burden on my shoulder had been lifted.
" Nagoya-san..." The voice snapped me out from memories.
" I'm sorry, Miwari-kun. " I ran from the roof and returned to my class. He shouted from upper stairs.
" I won't give up yet! I won't lose you! "
My body shuddered with his statement. Oh Shinji...where were you in time like this..?!
I went to the toilet and washed my face. My eyes were red with tears. I watched the mirror to see my messed face. Suddenly an image flashed inside my head. A young lady stood with a pair of white wings on her back. Her solemn lime eyes were so similar like mine. I touched the mirror with disbelief.
" Fin? "
Done! YAY! Review please. Nothing much to say.