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A/N: Thank you! Thank You! Thank you! I never thought I would receive these much reviews! I'm happy! I have writer block lately. I also have works but I get bored soon and write this.
For all of you,
Aiko: Oh?! Silk is a boy? I thought Silk is a girl since he is too affection with Noin. Well, Natsuki felt awkward since usually a father is very protective about his little girl. That's what I thought. Of course Finn and Access always meant to be together. ^_^ Sorry to confuse you. You may hate Noin. I don't like him much either. ( No offence though)
Aoyama Motoko: I'm sorry for not update soon. It's almost a month! There are many many reason for not updating. Well, perhaps I may give time for Motoko to read. Ganbatte! I hope you can English language soon. I think I would ask you about Brazil language? Hehe..
Rukato86: Thanks for your appraise! I'll try hard!
By Irisgem
Natsuki's POV
I touched the cold sparkling mirror with disbelieve. There stood a beautiful maiden with pretty face and slender body. Her bright green soft eyes and hair were similar like me. She looked worried and smiled sadly.
// I don't want to lose you again....//
I could hear her gentle breeze of whisper. Her gleam eyes were dull and closed. Then she continued with almost inaudible voice.
// I don't want us to be separated again.....still I would like to see you.//
When I tried to reach out for her reflection in glassy mirror, she disappeared and left without trace. " Wait! You're Finn, aren't you?! Please! Tell me about him and my past! Finn! Finn!! "
No one answered yet my own voice echoed in this empty room. I knew something had happened in the past. Something that kept concealed behind darkness and rising mist. I knew that past couldn't do anything, yet to call Shinji back, I surely needed these memories.
To be forgotten was the worst more than anything, even from death. Some bond that once we had on before life was still tied with red thread. Love that can transcend the reincarnation crossed the limit of sand of time. I missed him that made me realized my own feeling. Could I feel the same when I was Finn?
I didn't know how could Shinji carry his memory through his reincarnation to remember me. He was the only one to know everything. Mother said that I was also best friend with Celcia and Toki, the siblings of Uncle Kagura and Aunt Yashiro. I didn't remember though nor feel it.
Soon the break was over. I ran along the corridor to my class, hoping that I would not meet Miwari-kun on my way. Most students had known that I admired for Miwari-kun. But then I realized that he wasn't the one for me.
My classmates were also admiring him. How could you not? He was perfect. He was kind, smart, and gentleman. I changed my mind now though. He was really not a gentle one to treat a lady like that. Sometimes Shinji also rough, but it was also followed by 'sorry' afterward when Miwari-kun wasn't.
" Ara, Nagoya-san. Are you having a date with Miwari-kun? " Most girls watched me with jealousy looks. Someone said that the jealous woman was scarier than a monster. I walked to my seat and spoke surely.
" No. We're not in love. I have someone in mind already. "
" Oh, how picky. How could you reject Miwari-kun like that?! You're really not suitable for him! "
" Oh really? How about you? You even never tell your feeling for him clearly! "
We both stared in hot atmosphere, replying glare. Soon Miwari-kun entered the class and glanced toward me. I tried to shun our eyes to meet. He closed our distance and spoke in front of the girls and me.
" I won't let you go, Nagoya-san. Surely I would make you to forget that Minazuki-kun."
I glared menacingly and whispered under my breath at him. " Don't you dare to speak of his name like a thing, Miwari-kun. "
He smirked and smiled evilly. " I can do anything I like. You would be mine. "
A girl came front and confronted Miwari-kun. " Why do you choose her?! We love you more than her! Can't you accept our feeling?! "
Miwari-kun kept his dignity and watched the roaming girls. " She is mine, no matter what. I don't need the other. Just her. She is mine before you're even given birth. "
They glared angrily at me when I was stunned on my spot. Did he have some relation with me in past? No one seemed realized what he had told just now. But I knew there was something not right in here.
" Who....are you? " I looked at him curiously. He smiled again mischievously and whispered closed to my ear. " I would not let that black angel to steal you again. If I have to, I will kill Access Time for you. "
My eyes widen with shock. He knew Shinji's angel name. How could he? Who was he actually? I looked inside his eyes and met the hollow void of death and pain. I was scared. Of him. And he also warned me of....
" YOU! " He with haste closed my mouth and pressed hardly. I almost couldn't breath. I knew it! He was the one! The culprit! I didn't care how he did it! I had to demand him to return Shinji to me.
He dragged me to the outside of the class. When we were at the door, the teacher came. " What are you doing, Miwari-kun and Nagoya-san? "
" Sensei! " I was just about to speak before he silenced me again. " We have some business to attend so we are going to be absent for your class. " He was somehow looked the teacher on odd way. The teacher seemed hypnotized and nodded in agreement. He pulled my hand out of the class when the other classmates watched us curiously.
He took me to the roof again. Soon he set me free, I avoided him and ran from side to side. I had to keep at least two meters from him. He was really dangerous now. I gathered my courage and shouted at him.
" You're the one who kidnapped Shinji, right?! What do you intent to do?! Give him back!! "
" Oh, I couldn't do that, Finn Fish. "
" How could you know my name? " I waited for answer impatiently.
" Oh, you don't remember? How I save your life? How you betray me for that fool angel? How you actually respect me? "
" I don't care about it! Just give him back!! "
He remained silent. " I couldn't. I would have my revenge. He stole you from me. You're mine. You promised to be at my side. And you got reincarnated for Jeanne and him! I won't let you this time. "
" You're.....? "
" I'm Maou...Part of Maou that also got back to life as you left me."
Then I could see the flashback. * Why don't you returned? Why should Kami- sama choose you to be his messenger? *
* It isn't Kami-sama...I just couldn't return. *
So it was the reason for him for not able to return. It was also the reason for him to look in pain. My eyes burned with anger and hatred.
" Why are you torturing him?! "
He crossed his arm on his chest and looked the sky. His smirk was wide. My blood boiled that my head also felt hot. " I can do anything I like. That's how I get my revenge on him."
" Why don't you just hurt me?! Why should him?! I am the one who betrayed you from what you are telling me!! " I grabbed his collar and glared straight to his eyes. He watched my lime glittering eyes blankly.
" Because I want to see him to be hurt. I want to see you the result for betraying me. I just abhor him so much. "
My legs felt lose their power to stand up and confront him. I knelt down on hard floor. I was the reason Shinji to be hurt. I was the one who hurt him. My tears streamed helplessly from my face. I tried to hold these sparkling waters but nothing besides vain attempt. Without looking at him, I whispered softly.
" If I come with you, would you set him free? "
" Whoa, what kind of you to sacrifice yourself for him. You once again sold your soul for the nastiest thing called 'love'? "
He lifted my head slowly and raised his hand. Soon I felt a buzz noise ringing in my head. He slapped my cheek hard. I was surprised and watched him with hatred.
" What are you..?!"
He didn't allow me to finish my words. He retorted with scary and agony voice. " What am I doing?!" He pointed to my face and glared deadly.
" That is the biggest mistake I have done to help you! You vowed to be loyal yet you betrayed me, your savior once you met that black angel! Your hearts weakened and melt to the soft one! You met Jeanne and ended up with her. You lied to me that you try to help, but the truth is you try to find a way to return to him!! "
I looked him with pity and sorry. " I'm sorry, I lo.."
Then his hands strangled my neck that I started lose some air. I choked with the lack of oxygen. " Don't try to say it again, you impudent fool! "
" Miwari..." My eyes went blur. Suddenly I was free and tried to fill my lung with the hunger for air.
" You say that the ideal lover for you is me. Why you choose him over me? It was true that we both took advantage of our agreement to save your life. But in the end, I was the one who lost. From the beginning, you never have your heart with me. You just want to meet him again that you sold your life to me. Is he that important that deserve your pain?"
" I never know nor remember how once Finn loved Access, but Natsuki's feeling for Shinji is true. I want to give everything for him like he always does for me."
His eyes went far away with his mind. " So I will always be lonely. No one ever wants at my side. " He suddenly filled with pain, anger and anxiety.
" If....if no one would want to be at my side, then I'll force them. " His eyes glared at me.
" What? What are you trying to do? " I took steps backwards. He laughed with the content of his heart that was full with the darkest feelings.
" I would have Access to be my doll forever. He would not remember anything beside me that he would be my slave with no mind. "
A sudden gust of wind hit my face. Soon I found that no one in front of me. Miwari-kun..no.... Maou-sama! He would erase Shinji's memory of us!! My head seemed spinning around that I got panicked. I went down stairs and ran out to school, leaving my bags and everything at school.
I countered a teacher. I didn't even mind to speak with him. I just flee and ran to hospital. Mother should be there at this time. I surely must to speak with them immediately!
Ãccess' POV
I stared the beautiful sapphire Earth from far. I wondered how long I had stayed here. I got bored without looking her beautiful eyes and angry voice.
// But I have no wings anymore to fly upon you....//
I covered my eyes with my right arms and held my sadness. I tried to conceal everything behind my weak heart, mind and body. I lost everything, my power, my life as human, and every possible thing to get away from here.
I stared the empty awkward ceiling impassively. I got weaker every day I spent my time in this prison. The fortress of Maou-sama was filled with evil energy. Evil energy was the greatest torture for Angel. No matter what your class was, you couldn't hold these much for long times.
I thought that Kami-sama wouldn't able to hear my prayer, so I never bothered to call him. He couldn't do anything about it either. He lost too much power and He perhaps couldn't spend another Holy power just for a black Angel, the lowest class of Angel. I couldn't wish so much. At least perhaps Natsuki was happy. Chiaki also saved. That was all I needed to know.
I couldn't let Chiaki died. He was once a good partner though he always hoaxed with me. He also flirted for Maron, I never bother to stop him since I knew the feeling. I smiled a bit. I wondered how many days I never smile. I almost forgot how to be happy. How could you not? All you can see was eerie darkness and far away dreamy Earth from here.
I had missed the sun with the comfortable heat of golden rays. I missed the beauty of silvery moon hung on the sparkling sea of stars. I missed the lime orbs and her pretty face. Hey, I also missed Toki and Celcia. Especially for Toki. Though we were best friend, we also the greatest rival on Natsuki.
Then my mind wandered to the school. My body went tired. Yeah..., actually we were no longer rival. We lost to someone called Miwari. Ugh, I'm jealous. But it was not important anymore. Anyway, I could never get home anymore.
I missed Miyako and Minazuki, Chiaki and Maron. I closed my eyes, trying to keep them remained alive in my memories. I would never forget them. Never.
Suddenly I could hear taps of steps. //Oh great, now my torturer would come in three seconds. // And those were really three seconds. But I was so surprised to see the one who came.
" You are...."
" Yes. I'm Miwari. The classmates of Natsuki. "
" How could you be here? " But soon I got curious about him. He was felt like Maou-sama. But it couldn't be....
" Yes. I also go to the Earth, as I know she is also given birth from the reincarnated Jeanne d'Arc. "
" So, what do you want? Are you happy and insulting me for having her?!" I glared directly to his void eyes. Somehow I gained some courage and power to confront him with the anger and jealousy I held.
He smirked and laughed loudly. The echo hurt my ears. I closed my ears to prevent his hurting overloud voice. " You know what? " He looked at me sharply, as if he would like to kill me. I wasn't in fear though. I got used since he arrested me for this long.
" She told me that she had someone in her mind already. I'm the greatest Maou lost to a low angel. "
I tilted my head and stared him calmly. He strangled me that I didn't make any gesture. I remained silent with lost of air. " You can't scare me already. I can't understand why you can't just suppress you hatred on someone else. " He loosened his hand and quietly smirked.
" You know. I hate to be alone. I also hate to be betrayed. So an idea came up. I have got a doll for me. "
" Oh really? Who is she anyway? " I didn't feel like to know. I just chatted reluctantly. I hope he got another toy that he would stop bother Natsuki's life and me. Then he held my forehead on my amethyst stone.
" Whh...What? "
" Yes. You would be my doll. You would only listen to me. You would only hear my command. Since she doesn't want to be with me, so I'll make her suffer by losing your memories about her. I'll show her the result for betraying a Devil. The payment is enormous, more than what you thought. "
" I won't let you! You take everything from me, that you would also sweep my memories away of my happy life?! Do you have no heart, blood nor tears?! I couldn't believe that you are once Kami-sama's part!"
" Too much talking, ACCESS TIME! " He sent the great amount of power that hit my head. I could feel anything was fading. I didn't know why, I seemed losing something important. Yet the darkness won over my remaining soulless life and me.
" Finally I would have my loyal slave. Tell me, Access Time. To who do you vow? "
The glittering amethyst eyes soon lost to the blank eyes. " I have my loyalty for Maou-sama only. "
" Great! Now I command you! Disrupt human's beauty heart and make the Earth to the disaster. Don't let anyone bother you. Kill anyone who encountered you. " Maou remained silent. " Beside a little girl name Natsuki Nagoya. I would play with her for a while. I'll destroy her happiness to shattered pieces of mirror."
Access remained silent. Some doubt of strange feeling for his current state flooded him. Maou-sama stared angrily. " Well, Your answer is?! "
" As you command. "
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" What?! Miwari-kun is?! " Maron saw her daughter with widen chestnut eyes that she almost fell the apple and knife on her both hands. Chiaki watched intently.
" Yes! Now he also wants to erase Shinji's memory! What should we do?! "
Maron and Chiaki stared each other unsurely. " I also was informed that Access was caught by Maou-sama. He seemed loosened, as Finn got reborn. The seal broke. "
" But you can't transform into Jeanne anymore. I also couldn't transform to Sindbad since he isn't here. "
A long silence frustrated me that made me felt anger. "We should be able to do something!!"
" Yep, You're right!" My parents and I got curious for the unfamiliar voice. We suddenly saw someone that was stranger for me outside of the window. Maron opened the window in rush.
" Zen-kun!! You're an Angel?! " I blinked questioningly. My mother knew him. He had a pair of black wings on his back. " Umm..mother, do you know him? "
" Yes! When I was Jeanne, a demon possessed him. " Her voice weakened but smile. She returned her attention back to Zen-kun. " Why are you coming here? "
" Kami-sama sent me here to seal the demon on this world. "
" Huh? But there is no longer..."
" No, there still remain. Just now. "
Chiaki got lost. " What do you mean 'just now' ?
Zen-kun continued his story. " Kami-sama knows that one of his Angel doesn't return to Heaven safely."
I cut his words and whispered. " Access...."
" Yes. He was caught on the way back to Heaven. Though Kami-sama wants to save him, but he should wait. He tried to gain some power. But Maou-sama makes another movement already. He sent a demon to disrupt the beauty of human's heart. And he is in his mission already. "
The black angel stared the blue white head husband. " I need your help, Sindbad. Once again you would take the fake beauty of demon within the shimmering moonlight. But this time you are not with Access, but with me."
" I understand. " Father seemed determined that made my mother to worry.
" Zen-kun, couldn't I do something?" She saw him with pleading eyes. I knew she was really worried since my father was just gaining his health. " I'm sorry, Jeanne. You gave your power already. "
Suddenly I could feel an awkward presence. The world seemed cried for something. Zen-kun held his head. He was screaming with pain. I also could feel the enormous power of evil coming directly to this room. I tried to scan the area by peeking through the window. I was shock as well as my parents.
" Shinji? "
" ACCESS?! " Chiaki shouted angrily. Maron closed her mouth with fear.
" I come to greet you and challenge you as Maou-sama's command. " I saw his unusual eyes. He seemed different. " Mother, he isn't..."
" Yes, Natsuki. He looks like Shinji but he isn't."
Then Access looked at me expressionlessly. He used to be cheer and warm. " You're....Natsuki? "
I couldn't hear what he was just saying. I had to support my body by holding the window. He didn't remember me? Was it too late? Maou-sama had erased his memory.
" I'll challenge you. Tonight I'll come for the beauty of pure heart. It's up to you, Sindbad. " He left with the rustled wind.
" Shinji! SHINJI!! "
// I don't want to lose you again....//
// But yet you flied far from Heaven for my sin....//
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A/N: Thank you! Thank You! Thank you! I never thought I would receive these much reviews! I'm happy! I have writer block lately. I also have works but I get bored soon and write this.
For all of you,
Aiko: Oh?! Silk is a boy? I thought Silk is a girl since he is too affection with Noin. Well, Natsuki felt awkward since usually a father is very protective about his little girl. That's what I thought. Of course Finn and Access always meant to be together. ^_^ Sorry to confuse you. You may hate Noin. I don't like him much either. ( No offence though)
Aoyama Motoko: I'm sorry for not update soon. It's almost a month! There are many many reason for not updating. Well, perhaps I may give time for Motoko to read. Ganbatte! I hope you can English language soon. I think I would ask you about Brazil language? Hehe..
Rukato86: Thanks for your appraise! I'll try hard!
By Irisgem
Natsuki's POV
I touched the cold sparkling mirror with disbelieve. There stood a beautiful maiden with pretty face and slender body. Her bright green soft eyes and hair were similar like me. She looked worried and smiled sadly.
// I don't want to lose you again....//
I could hear her gentle breeze of whisper. Her gleam eyes were dull and closed. Then she continued with almost inaudible voice.
// I don't want us to be separated again.....still I would like to see you.//
When I tried to reach out for her reflection in glassy mirror, she disappeared and left without trace. " Wait! You're Finn, aren't you?! Please! Tell me about him and my past! Finn! Finn!! "
No one answered yet my own voice echoed in this empty room. I knew something had happened in the past. Something that kept concealed behind darkness and rising mist. I knew that past couldn't do anything, yet to call Shinji back, I surely needed these memories.
To be forgotten was the worst more than anything, even from death. Some bond that once we had on before life was still tied with red thread. Love that can transcend the reincarnation crossed the limit of sand of time. I missed him that made me realized my own feeling. Could I feel the same when I was Finn?
I didn't know how could Shinji carry his memory through his reincarnation to remember me. He was the only one to know everything. Mother said that I was also best friend with Celcia and Toki, the siblings of Uncle Kagura and Aunt Yashiro. I didn't remember though nor feel it.
Soon the break was over. I ran along the corridor to my class, hoping that I would not meet Miwari-kun on my way. Most students had known that I admired for Miwari-kun. But then I realized that he wasn't the one for me.
My classmates were also admiring him. How could you not? He was perfect. He was kind, smart, and gentleman. I changed my mind now though. He was really not a gentle one to treat a lady like that. Sometimes Shinji also rough, but it was also followed by 'sorry' afterward when Miwari-kun wasn't.
" Ara, Nagoya-san. Are you having a date with Miwari-kun? " Most girls watched me with jealousy looks. Someone said that the jealous woman was scarier than a monster. I walked to my seat and spoke surely.
" No. We're not in love. I have someone in mind already. "
" Oh, how picky. How could you reject Miwari-kun like that?! You're really not suitable for him! "
" Oh really? How about you? You even never tell your feeling for him clearly! "
We both stared in hot atmosphere, replying glare. Soon Miwari-kun entered the class and glanced toward me. I tried to shun our eyes to meet. He closed our distance and spoke in front of the girls and me.
" I won't let you go, Nagoya-san. Surely I would make you to forget that Minazuki-kun."
I glared menacingly and whispered under my breath at him. " Don't you dare to speak of his name like a thing, Miwari-kun. "
He smirked and smiled evilly. " I can do anything I like. You would be mine. "
A girl came front and confronted Miwari-kun. " Why do you choose her?! We love you more than her! Can't you accept our feeling?! "
Miwari-kun kept his dignity and watched the roaming girls. " She is mine, no matter what. I don't need the other. Just her. She is mine before you're even given birth. "
They glared angrily at me when I was stunned on my spot. Did he have some relation with me in past? No one seemed realized what he had told just now. But I knew there was something not right in here.
" Who....are you? " I looked at him curiously. He smiled again mischievously and whispered closed to my ear. " I would not let that black angel to steal you again. If I have to, I will kill Access Time for you. "
My eyes widen with shock. He knew Shinji's angel name. How could he? Who was he actually? I looked inside his eyes and met the hollow void of death and pain. I was scared. Of him. And he also warned me of....
" YOU! " He with haste closed my mouth and pressed hardly. I almost couldn't breath. I knew it! He was the one! The culprit! I didn't care how he did it! I had to demand him to return Shinji to me.
He dragged me to the outside of the class. When we were at the door, the teacher came. " What are you doing, Miwari-kun and Nagoya-san? "
" Sensei! " I was just about to speak before he silenced me again. " We have some business to attend so we are going to be absent for your class. " He was somehow looked the teacher on odd way. The teacher seemed hypnotized and nodded in agreement. He pulled my hand out of the class when the other classmates watched us curiously.
He took me to the roof again. Soon he set me free, I avoided him and ran from side to side. I had to keep at least two meters from him. He was really dangerous now. I gathered my courage and shouted at him.
" You're the one who kidnapped Shinji, right?! What do you intent to do?! Give him back!! "
" Oh, I couldn't do that, Finn Fish. "
" How could you know my name? " I waited for answer impatiently.
" Oh, you don't remember? How I save your life? How you betray me for that fool angel? How you actually respect me? "
" I don't care about it! Just give him back!! "
He remained silent. " I couldn't. I would have my revenge. He stole you from me. You're mine. You promised to be at my side. And you got reincarnated for Jeanne and him! I won't let you this time. "
" You're.....? "
" I'm Maou...Part of Maou that also got back to life as you left me."
Then I could see the flashback. * Why don't you returned? Why should Kami- sama choose you to be his messenger? *
* It isn't Kami-sama...I just couldn't return. *
So it was the reason for him for not able to return. It was also the reason for him to look in pain. My eyes burned with anger and hatred.
" Why are you torturing him?! "
He crossed his arm on his chest and looked the sky. His smirk was wide. My blood boiled that my head also felt hot. " I can do anything I like. That's how I get my revenge on him."
" Why don't you just hurt me?! Why should him?! I am the one who betrayed you from what you are telling me!! " I grabbed his collar and glared straight to his eyes. He watched my lime glittering eyes blankly.
" Because I want to see him to be hurt. I want to see you the result for betraying me. I just abhor him so much. "
My legs felt lose their power to stand up and confront him. I knelt down on hard floor. I was the reason Shinji to be hurt. I was the one who hurt him. My tears streamed helplessly from my face. I tried to hold these sparkling waters but nothing besides vain attempt. Without looking at him, I whispered softly.
" If I come with you, would you set him free? "
" Whoa, what kind of you to sacrifice yourself for him. You once again sold your soul for the nastiest thing called 'love'? "
He lifted my head slowly and raised his hand. Soon I felt a buzz noise ringing in my head. He slapped my cheek hard. I was surprised and watched him with hatred.
" What are you..?!"
He didn't allow me to finish my words. He retorted with scary and agony voice. " What am I doing?!" He pointed to my face and glared deadly.
" That is the biggest mistake I have done to help you! You vowed to be loyal yet you betrayed me, your savior once you met that black angel! Your hearts weakened and melt to the soft one! You met Jeanne and ended up with her. You lied to me that you try to help, but the truth is you try to find a way to return to him!! "
I looked him with pity and sorry. " I'm sorry, I lo.."
Then his hands strangled my neck that I started lose some air. I choked with the lack of oxygen. " Don't try to say it again, you impudent fool! "
" Miwari..." My eyes went blur. Suddenly I was free and tried to fill my lung with the hunger for air.
" You say that the ideal lover for you is me. Why you choose him over me? It was true that we both took advantage of our agreement to save your life. But in the end, I was the one who lost. From the beginning, you never have your heart with me. You just want to meet him again that you sold your life to me. Is he that important that deserve your pain?"
" I never know nor remember how once Finn loved Access, but Natsuki's feeling for Shinji is true. I want to give everything for him like he always does for me."
His eyes went far away with his mind. " So I will always be lonely. No one ever wants at my side. " He suddenly filled with pain, anger and anxiety.
" If....if no one would want to be at my side, then I'll force them. " His eyes glared at me.
" What? What are you trying to do? " I took steps backwards. He laughed with the content of his heart that was full with the darkest feelings.
" I would have Access to be my doll forever. He would not remember anything beside me that he would be my slave with no mind. "
A sudden gust of wind hit my face. Soon I found that no one in front of me. Miwari-kun..no.... Maou-sama! He would erase Shinji's memory of us!! My head seemed spinning around that I got panicked. I went down stairs and ran out to school, leaving my bags and everything at school.
I countered a teacher. I didn't even mind to speak with him. I just flee and ran to hospital. Mother should be there at this time. I surely must to speak with them immediately!
Ãccess' POV
I stared the beautiful sapphire Earth from far. I wondered how long I had stayed here. I got bored without looking her beautiful eyes and angry voice.
// But I have no wings anymore to fly upon you....//
I covered my eyes with my right arms and held my sadness. I tried to conceal everything behind my weak heart, mind and body. I lost everything, my power, my life as human, and every possible thing to get away from here.
I stared the empty awkward ceiling impassively. I got weaker every day I spent my time in this prison. The fortress of Maou-sama was filled with evil energy. Evil energy was the greatest torture for Angel. No matter what your class was, you couldn't hold these much for long times.
I thought that Kami-sama wouldn't able to hear my prayer, so I never bothered to call him. He couldn't do anything about it either. He lost too much power and He perhaps couldn't spend another Holy power just for a black Angel, the lowest class of Angel. I couldn't wish so much. At least perhaps Natsuki was happy. Chiaki also saved. That was all I needed to know.
I couldn't let Chiaki died. He was once a good partner though he always hoaxed with me. He also flirted for Maron, I never bother to stop him since I knew the feeling. I smiled a bit. I wondered how many days I never smile. I almost forgot how to be happy. How could you not? All you can see was eerie darkness and far away dreamy Earth from here.
I had missed the sun with the comfortable heat of golden rays. I missed the beauty of silvery moon hung on the sparkling sea of stars. I missed the lime orbs and her pretty face. Hey, I also missed Toki and Celcia. Especially for Toki. Though we were best friend, we also the greatest rival on Natsuki.
Then my mind wandered to the school. My body went tired. Yeah..., actually we were no longer rival. We lost to someone called Miwari. Ugh, I'm jealous. But it was not important anymore. Anyway, I could never get home anymore.
I missed Miyako and Minazuki, Chiaki and Maron. I closed my eyes, trying to keep them remained alive in my memories. I would never forget them. Never.
Suddenly I could hear taps of steps. //Oh great, now my torturer would come in three seconds. // And those were really three seconds. But I was so surprised to see the one who came.
" You are...."
" Yes. I'm Miwari. The classmates of Natsuki. "
" How could you be here? " But soon I got curious about him. He was felt like Maou-sama. But it couldn't be....
" Yes. I also go to the Earth, as I know she is also given birth from the reincarnated Jeanne d'Arc. "
" So, what do you want? Are you happy and insulting me for having her?!" I glared directly to his void eyes. Somehow I gained some courage and power to confront him with the anger and jealousy I held.
He smirked and laughed loudly. The echo hurt my ears. I closed my ears to prevent his hurting overloud voice. " You know what? " He looked at me sharply, as if he would like to kill me. I wasn't in fear though. I got used since he arrested me for this long.
" She told me that she had someone in her mind already. I'm the greatest Maou lost to a low angel. "
I tilted my head and stared him calmly. He strangled me that I didn't make any gesture. I remained silent with lost of air. " You can't scare me already. I can't understand why you can't just suppress you hatred on someone else. " He loosened his hand and quietly smirked.
" You know. I hate to be alone. I also hate to be betrayed. So an idea came up. I have got a doll for me. "
" Oh really? Who is she anyway? " I didn't feel like to know. I just chatted reluctantly. I hope he got another toy that he would stop bother Natsuki's life and me. Then he held my forehead on my amethyst stone.
" Whh...What? "
" Yes. You would be my doll. You would only listen to me. You would only hear my command. Since she doesn't want to be with me, so I'll make her suffer by losing your memories about her. I'll show her the result for betraying a Devil. The payment is enormous, more than what you thought. "
" I won't let you! You take everything from me, that you would also sweep my memories away of my happy life?! Do you have no heart, blood nor tears?! I couldn't believe that you are once Kami-sama's part!"
" Too much talking, ACCESS TIME! " He sent the great amount of power that hit my head. I could feel anything was fading. I didn't know why, I seemed losing something important. Yet the darkness won over my remaining soulless life and me.
" Finally I would have my loyal slave. Tell me, Access Time. To who do you vow? "
The glittering amethyst eyes soon lost to the blank eyes. " I have my loyalty for Maou-sama only. "
" Great! Now I command you! Disrupt human's beauty heart and make the Earth to the disaster. Don't let anyone bother you. Kill anyone who encountered you. " Maou remained silent. " Beside a little girl name Natsuki Nagoya. I would play with her for a while. I'll destroy her happiness to shattered pieces of mirror."
Access remained silent. Some doubt of strange feeling for his current state flooded him. Maou-sama stared angrily. " Well, Your answer is?! "
" As you command. "
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" What?! Miwari-kun is?! " Maron saw her daughter with widen chestnut eyes that she almost fell the apple and knife on her both hands. Chiaki watched intently.
" Yes! Now he also wants to erase Shinji's memory! What should we do?! "
Maron and Chiaki stared each other unsurely. " I also was informed that Access was caught by Maou-sama. He seemed loosened, as Finn got reborn. The seal broke. "
" But you can't transform into Jeanne anymore. I also couldn't transform to Sindbad since he isn't here. "
A long silence frustrated me that made me felt anger. "We should be able to do something!!"
" Yep, You're right!" My parents and I got curious for the unfamiliar voice. We suddenly saw someone that was stranger for me outside of the window. Maron opened the window in rush.
" Zen-kun!! You're an Angel?! " I blinked questioningly. My mother knew him. He had a pair of black wings on his back. " Umm..mother, do you know him? "
" Yes! When I was Jeanne, a demon possessed him. " Her voice weakened but smile. She returned her attention back to Zen-kun. " Why are you coming here? "
" Kami-sama sent me here to seal the demon on this world. "
" Huh? But there is no longer..."
" No, there still remain. Just now. "
Chiaki got lost. " What do you mean 'just now' ?
Zen-kun continued his story. " Kami-sama knows that one of his Angel doesn't return to Heaven safely."
I cut his words and whispered. " Access...."
" Yes. He was caught on the way back to Heaven. Though Kami-sama wants to save him, but he should wait. He tried to gain some power. But Maou-sama makes another movement already. He sent a demon to disrupt the beauty of human's heart. And he is in his mission already. "
The black angel stared the blue white head husband. " I need your help, Sindbad. Once again you would take the fake beauty of demon within the shimmering moonlight. But this time you are not with Access, but with me."
" I understand. " Father seemed determined that made my mother to worry.
" Zen-kun, couldn't I do something?" She saw him with pleading eyes. I knew she was really worried since my father was just gaining his health. " I'm sorry, Jeanne. You gave your power already. "
Suddenly I could feel an awkward presence. The world seemed cried for something. Zen-kun held his head. He was screaming with pain. I also could feel the enormous power of evil coming directly to this room. I tried to scan the area by peeking through the window. I was shock as well as my parents.
" Shinji? "
" ACCESS?! " Chiaki shouted angrily. Maron closed her mouth with fear.
" I come to greet you and challenge you as Maou-sama's command. " I saw his unusual eyes. He seemed different. " Mother, he isn't..."
" Yes, Natsuki. He looks like Shinji but he isn't."
Then Access looked at me expressionlessly. He used to be cheer and warm. " You're....Natsuki? "
I couldn't hear what he was just saying. I had to support my body by holding the window. He didn't remember me? Was it too late? Maou-sama had erased his memory.
" I'll challenge you. Tonight I'll come for the beauty of pure heart. It's up to you, Sindbad. " He left with the rustled wind.
" Shinji! SHINJI!! "
// I don't want to lose you again....//
// But yet you flied far from Heaven for my sin....//
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