Golden Sun: Nightmares
Oh man! I can't believe I left you all hanging here! o.O But my exams are very soon, and I'm studying like mad! I haven't really been able to squeeze this in, but I finally got around to writing it! So here it is! ^_____^
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Epilogue
Mia= P.O.V.
Even though the incidents in the Celestial Lighthouse happened 2 months ago, it hasn't been easy forgetting about what Isaac did. Yes, I know that Isaac most likely wasn't aware of what he was doing, but it was scary to hear Ivan and Sheba say that he probably was doing everything on his own.
Though Isaac remembers nothing of what happened, I'm still nervous to be around him. What if he were to turn back again? What if he killed me? I'm being selfish about this, but I'm only scared that everything would happen all over again. How would you feel if the one you loved could kill you any day, and that you would get no warning when it would happen?
As I look at everyone today, I can tell they're still a little shaken up about the events that took place those fateful 2 months ago. Even though they hide it for Isaac's sake, I think he's becoming a little suspicious. He's been locking himself in his room, and won't see anyone.
Not even me.
Even as my worry is starting to rise about him, I can't help but feel safer when he's not around. Everyone else also seems calmer when he isn't there. I've seen the whole room with just us in it be happy, and warm, but as soon as Isaac walks in, a smothering emptiness, and sheer alertness at anything that would happen blankets the whole room. Even I have to tighten my hand on my staff, just to reassure myself it's there.
But now I wonder if Isaac really would go back...Could it be that it was just an accident that this all happened? I asked Felix about it, and he responded with:
"Mia. Nobody's sure that whatever took place 2 months ago was an accident, or it was on purpose." Felix said, warily. As I stared into his brown eyes, even I was amazed at just how old he was. "Was it just a coincidence that Alex appeared when he did, so that the blame would be his? Or did he really do it all? I'm sorry that my response doesn't tell you anything, but the truth is, I don't know."
I'm thinking about what Felix said, but I'm still not reassured. Even if Alex is gone for real this time, it doesn't change the relationship between Isaac and myself. I love him, but it's impossible to be with him when I feel scared of him.
It doesn't happen often. When you're in love, you want to be with that person, no matter what, even if the person you loved died, and you take your own to be with them. But my relationship is different.
"How can you be afraid of Isaac?" Jenna asked me once, but I can't respond to that question. It's just to complicated for me to say. When I see Jenna, and Garet together, I feel...sad... And then I think to myself...
Why can't Isaac and I be like that?
Even Ivan, for the shrmip that he is, is with Sheba. Why is it that I can't feel fear whenever I'm with Isaac...? And why is it that I feel, that if I'm not with him, something bad will happen to him...?
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Isaac= P.O.V.
It's strange that I don't remember what happened 2 months ago, but no matter how much I ask the others, they don't want to tell me. Though, I do have dreams about what I think may have happened 2 months ago, that the others are so desperate to keep from me.
Blood. Tons and tons of it is always floating around me. And I'll see bodies. Loads od them, hanging from the ceiling, their blank eyes staring into my very soul. Even when I wake up, I shiver with fear. I can still see the eyes staring at me, even after the dream has ended. But what ligers above my head, is the fact that I may have caused all that death. Sometimes I'll have one where I nearly kill Garet. Though I know it's a dream, I can't help, but feel guilty.
And I see a sudden difference in everybody. As soon as I walk into their sights, they go tense, ready for anything. I can even see their hands tighten on their weapons, though they don't think I do. Then they try to act normal, as if their hands aren't ready to strike.
I've been locking myself in my room. I think it's best that I do that. I 'm refusing to see anyone, including Mia. Even though she seems concerned about what's wrong, I can sense the fear in her voice. I can almost imagine her eyes filled with fear, and her hand quivering. She says that she loves me, despite of what happened, but I don't really believe her. She goes stiff whenever I touch her, and when I kiss her, her body if shivering under my hands.
It doesn't take a great Alchemist to see that they're afraid. Even if they think I don't notice, I've been able to see that they're afriad, not just of a great threat coming back, but they're also afriad of...
Me.
Even if they think they're hiding it very well, I can see through them. As they say, the eyes are the windows into the soul. And even if I were a Jupiter Adept, I wouldn't have to delve into their hearts just to see that they're afraid.
But as I think harder about it, I think it would be better if I'm not there at all. Sometimes, I even think of running, or of even taking my own life, but there would still be a void in my heart. No matter what I do, there's no way that blood can just erase what has been happening.
I just wish we could go back to the way we were before...
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I think I may have left this a little to early on, but I'm running out of ideas here... Anyway, there it is... My very FIRST fanfic that has EVER been completed. After trying my hand at a Cardcaptor Sakura fic, and then trying the very first Golden Sun fic, the journey has brought me here! At last! I am done! WHEEEE! sorry, got alittle emotional there, but I'm just so happy! Especially for all the wonderful people who stuck out with me until the end. And now, here is Fury to say the thank you's!
Fury: **Reading off a cue card** "Thank you for reading this disgrace for a fic, and I hope to write another awful fic next time, so you should all run as far away as you can."
That wasn't what I wrote...Anyway, I hope you enjoyed the ending, and I really hope to be struck with another idea for a fic, and I hope to post it up as soon as I can! Goodbye, and thanks! ^_______________^
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