Mizu_Tenshi: Yeesh, this chapter is sad. Well, it is to me. In Takao's POV
but I promise to move on and do other people.
"..." Speech '...' Thought *...* Implied words
Disclaimer: I don't own this anime
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Do you know about her strength in convictions?
Or how she puts all her faith in religion.
Did you take the time to really discover?
How little we know about each other. - Less than Jake
Chapter 4 - Secrets and lies
(Takao)
Argh! Why do I have to tell you all this crazy stuff?! It's all in the past and it just doesn't make any sense!
I have to continue, don't I? Otherwise you wouldn't understand what happened next.
Okay, I'll try and go on. Just bear with me.
Well I stared at Kai in and he pretty much stared back at me.
I was so shocked that I couldn't even say anything to him. I was deciding whether I should be angry, upset or just plain confused.
"K - Kai! I...Tell me I'm dreaming!" I finally managed to utter.
"You're dreaming," he replied laconically.
I balled my fists and yelled, "Don't kid around, Kai! I'm being serious!"
"That's a first."
I clenched my fists even tighter in frustration. Of all the days he decided to be difficult he had to choose that one!
"Stop it! Give me a straight answer and be honest about it!" I yelled furiously. I don't know what it is about Kai that can make me go so mad!
"What's all the yelling about?" Kenny, accompanied by Rei, asked.
I looked at Kai and he gave me a 'whatever' shrug.
Why I did what I did next still puzzles me.
I glanced at Kai and then at Kenny and Rei and put on my best pout.
"Kai's being a meanie!" I huffed. "He won't help me! Tell him, Rei!"
Rei just smiled at my childishness and said, "maybe we should go; we're not going to help Max by hanging around here."
"Yeah, okay," I agreed and let Rei lead the way so I could walk next to Kai on our way back.
He didn't say anything, he just gave me this questioning look. I just responded with a "Hmpf!" and he turned away.
I tried staying calm but inside I was freaking out! I still didn't believe Kai was the one who shot Maxi's dad. Yeah, I know Kai's got all these bad connections and stuff but he really didn't seem like the guy who would do such a thing.
Maybe it was just false hope I mean how much did I know about the guy?
We did no training at all that day. When Max came back he just went straight to bed without a word or a second glance at any of us.
It wasn't until night that I got to talk to Kai alone.
The day dragged on for ages but night came pretty fast if you get what I mean.
Max was in bed; he had been sleeping since the afternoon, probably because he had nothing better to do.
I was trying to enjoy watching the little fireflies dance around the pound outside the dojo.
I remember when I was little I used to try and catch them in a jar but went a little too far and fell into the pound! After that I decided to just admire them from a distance.
It was on that beautiful night when the stars came out full that Rei decided to join my firefly gazing.
"Hey, Takao, can't sleep? That's not normal," Rei smiled, dropping himself right next to me.
"Yeah, well when was the last time our lives were normal?" I asked.
"Kenny's gone to sleep; you should too," Rei persisted.
"What about you?" I snorted. "Aren't you gonna hit the hay?"
I think I said something wrong because Rei's smile turned to a frown. He turned his gaze up at the stars and the moon. It really was a beautiful night.
"I don't have much time left," he murmured. "So I want to enjoy every moment of it."
I nodded then yawned. "Yeah, well maybe I will go to sleep. G'night, Rei."
"Night," he nodded and I left him alone.
It was just so unfair. We had been friends for ages; all five of us and now this was happening? It wasn't fair!
I didn't want us to break up. The Bladebreakers break up? Whatever happened to 'All for one and one for all'?
All these thoughts that hurt my brain were flashing through my head when I spotted Kai stargazing on the wall that surrounded the dojo.
"Hey, Kai!" I called up to him.
He stared down at me for a bit and then jumped down to meet me.
"Yeah what?" he asked as rude as ever.
"Don't play around! I want to know what happened! I want you to tell me everything!"
For some strange reason Kai suddenly became interested in what has going on around his feet. I looked down too but I didn't see anything remotely interesting.
"Tell me!" I demanded.
"It's my...it's Voltaire," he muttered.
My eyes widened. I learnt in Russia that there's an equation to work out situations between Kai and his grandfather, it goes like this:
Blackmail + Power + Force = Voltaire using Kai = Plans for world domination (Bitbeasts + Power) x Boris + plain evilness.
And people say I'm no good at maths.
"Why are you still working for him?" I asked though I had a pretty good idea why.
"My parents..."
"Your parents?" I had no idea Kai even had parents. I never thought about it; I just assumed Kai was a test tube baby or something. "What about your parents."
"Voltaire..if I don't listen to him I'll go back to my parents!"
"So," I paused, trying to work this out. "So you Voltaire ordered you to go into the hobby shop and - "
"I didn't kill him!" Kai burst out. "Well maybe I did in a way but it wasn't me with the gun. I.." He looked away.
I believed him, you know? I believed him but I was still so angry.
I've never blown my top before, at least I don't think I have, but I was just so angry.
"Y...you..you stupid.." I was struggling to find the right words to express how I felt at the moment. The anger was bubbling up in me and it didn't help when I began getting flashes of how sad poor Max looked.
"Takao?" Kai looked straight at me for the first time.
"You selfish, conceited...bastard!" I yelled. "I would never work for Voltaire no matter what he was threatening to do!"
"I didn't shoot him," Kai answered calmly.
His attitude just made me even angrier. How could he be so calm after what he had done? Didn't he have any sort of conscience at all?
"So what?! You as good as killed him, didn't you?" I snapped.
"I know."
"What were you doing in that shop anyway?" I demanded. "What did Biovolt need you for, huh? Tell me!"
I was livid; I grabbed Kai's shirt and pulled him closer so he could see all the anger in my eyes.
He snarled at me and pushed himself free of my grasp.
"It was some blade they had lost. They wanted me to recover it," he hissed.
"What was so important about this blade then? What was so important that they were willing to kill someone over it?"
"I don't know! I was just doing what I was trained to do!" Kai yelled. He was never as loud as he was that night. It was a real screaming match.
It was so horrible. I was too angry to feel it but once we calmed down I felt like I was going through a million hangovers at once.
"Does that make it right? No, that doesn't give you an excuse to do what you did!"
And then silence swept in.
We just stared at each other as if we were seeing each other for the first time and then Kai said softly, "I'm sorry."
It was the first time I had ever heard him apologise and normally I would have accepted it but not that time..I had no forgiveness for him that time.
"I know never deserved a team like the Bladebreakers," he continued in barely more than a whisper. "I can understand if you want me gone; I can't make up for what I've done. I'm sorry."
"..You should be," I said, turning my back on him. "You can stay but only because the others will wonder what happened if you suddenly disappear."
I was going to walk away from the person I thought I had known when another voiced joined us.
"No," Rei said emerging from the shadows.
Of course! I had been yelling so much he must have heard!
Kai cast Rei a glance and Rei shot back a glare.
"I know it's rude to demand something when this isn't even my home but." he looked at Kai again. "I want you gone."
Kai nodded, accepting his fate.
"Rei?" I asked uncertainly. From what I could gather Rei had always gotten on well with Kai.
"What you did to Max was inexcusable," Rei said, his arms were folded; he really did remind me of an elder. "Regardless of who had the gun or who pulled the trigger; you betrayed all of us!"
"I see," Kai spoke; his voice was a little strained but he put on a very convincing act. "Okay then, I'll go."
With that he jumped onto the wall but before he jumped off and onto the street he turned and gave us one last glance.
I'll always remember that moment; the way the moon covered his skin in silver mist, the way he stood there looking like the same old tough-on-the- outside-soft-on-the-inside Kai I had known but most of all, the way his eyes shined with emotion.
And then he went.
I was wondering how I would explain this to Max and Kenny.
Rei just walked off shaking with anger but I stayed a little longer to stare at the spot where Kai had once stood.
I didn't think I'd see him ever again and I wasn't sure if I was pleased about that.
However, I did meet him again but that's something I'll save for later.
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Mizu_Tenshi: I know it was stupid and boring to have a whole chapter on Takao and Kai but I promise the next one will be more exciting. Don't worry! That isn't the last you've seen of Kai.
Othela - I think things just got worse. What will the Bladebreakers do without their captain?
Tenma Koneko - I think Max will go ballistic if he finds out. I've reviewed your story too, I hope you got it.
Silver Swiftness -Yay, my story is actually on someone's fave list! Thanks a bunch.
Kiina - Yeah, we all need more dark stories.
DarkTwilightZero - I'm sorry, here, *Hands over a box of tissues*
DragonBlade - I know, how can this get any worse? Well the next chapter will be in the POV of someone I haven't done yet.
Vialana - Yep, you're right, things are going to get worse but once it hits rock bottom then at least it can't get any worse.
Kkornelia - Kai does think too much, doesn't he? I'm trying to lay off the Kai POVs for now.
Dawn35 - Max would probably try and kill Kai if he found out. Luckily he's gone before Max discovers the truth.
Feelin Glayish - It does seem to be getting worse, doesn't it? Well every cloud has a silver lining...I think. Maybe something will come along.
"..." Speech '...' Thought *...* Implied words
Disclaimer: I don't own this anime
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Do you know about her strength in convictions?
Or how she puts all her faith in religion.
Did you take the time to really discover?
How little we know about each other. - Less than Jake
Chapter 4 - Secrets and lies
(Takao)
Argh! Why do I have to tell you all this crazy stuff?! It's all in the past and it just doesn't make any sense!
I have to continue, don't I? Otherwise you wouldn't understand what happened next.
Okay, I'll try and go on. Just bear with me.
Well I stared at Kai in and he pretty much stared back at me.
I was so shocked that I couldn't even say anything to him. I was deciding whether I should be angry, upset or just plain confused.
"K - Kai! I...Tell me I'm dreaming!" I finally managed to utter.
"You're dreaming," he replied laconically.
I balled my fists and yelled, "Don't kid around, Kai! I'm being serious!"
"That's a first."
I clenched my fists even tighter in frustration. Of all the days he decided to be difficult he had to choose that one!
"Stop it! Give me a straight answer and be honest about it!" I yelled furiously. I don't know what it is about Kai that can make me go so mad!
"What's all the yelling about?" Kenny, accompanied by Rei, asked.
I looked at Kai and he gave me a 'whatever' shrug.
Why I did what I did next still puzzles me.
I glanced at Kai and then at Kenny and Rei and put on my best pout.
"Kai's being a meanie!" I huffed. "He won't help me! Tell him, Rei!"
Rei just smiled at my childishness and said, "maybe we should go; we're not going to help Max by hanging around here."
"Yeah, okay," I agreed and let Rei lead the way so I could walk next to Kai on our way back.
He didn't say anything, he just gave me this questioning look. I just responded with a "Hmpf!" and he turned away.
I tried staying calm but inside I was freaking out! I still didn't believe Kai was the one who shot Maxi's dad. Yeah, I know Kai's got all these bad connections and stuff but he really didn't seem like the guy who would do such a thing.
Maybe it was just false hope I mean how much did I know about the guy?
We did no training at all that day. When Max came back he just went straight to bed without a word or a second glance at any of us.
It wasn't until night that I got to talk to Kai alone.
The day dragged on for ages but night came pretty fast if you get what I mean.
Max was in bed; he had been sleeping since the afternoon, probably because he had nothing better to do.
I was trying to enjoy watching the little fireflies dance around the pound outside the dojo.
I remember when I was little I used to try and catch them in a jar but went a little too far and fell into the pound! After that I decided to just admire them from a distance.
It was on that beautiful night when the stars came out full that Rei decided to join my firefly gazing.
"Hey, Takao, can't sleep? That's not normal," Rei smiled, dropping himself right next to me.
"Yeah, well when was the last time our lives were normal?" I asked.
"Kenny's gone to sleep; you should too," Rei persisted.
"What about you?" I snorted. "Aren't you gonna hit the hay?"
I think I said something wrong because Rei's smile turned to a frown. He turned his gaze up at the stars and the moon. It really was a beautiful night.
"I don't have much time left," he murmured. "So I want to enjoy every moment of it."
I nodded then yawned. "Yeah, well maybe I will go to sleep. G'night, Rei."
"Night," he nodded and I left him alone.
It was just so unfair. We had been friends for ages; all five of us and now this was happening? It wasn't fair!
I didn't want us to break up. The Bladebreakers break up? Whatever happened to 'All for one and one for all'?
All these thoughts that hurt my brain were flashing through my head when I spotted Kai stargazing on the wall that surrounded the dojo.
"Hey, Kai!" I called up to him.
He stared down at me for a bit and then jumped down to meet me.
"Yeah what?" he asked as rude as ever.
"Don't play around! I want to know what happened! I want you to tell me everything!"
For some strange reason Kai suddenly became interested in what has going on around his feet. I looked down too but I didn't see anything remotely interesting.
"Tell me!" I demanded.
"It's my...it's Voltaire," he muttered.
My eyes widened. I learnt in Russia that there's an equation to work out situations between Kai and his grandfather, it goes like this:
Blackmail + Power + Force = Voltaire using Kai = Plans for world domination (Bitbeasts + Power) x Boris + plain evilness.
And people say I'm no good at maths.
"Why are you still working for him?" I asked though I had a pretty good idea why.
"My parents..."
"Your parents?" I had no idea Kai even had parents. I never thought about it; I just assumed Kai was a test tube baby or something. "What about your parents."
"Voltaire..if I don't listen to him I'll go back to my parents!"
"So," I paused, trying to work this out. "So you Voltaire ordered you to go into the hobby shop and - "
"I didn't kill him!" Kai burst out. "Well maybe I did in a way but it wasn't me with the gun. I.." He looked away.
I believed him, you know? I believed him but I was still so angry.
I've never blown my top before, at least I don't think I have, but I was just so angry.
"Y...you..you stupid.." I was struggling to find the right words to express how I felt at the moment. The anger was bubbling up in me and it didn't help when I began getting flashes of how sad poor Max looked.
"Takao?" Kai looked straight at me for the first time.
"You selfish, conceited...bastard!" I yelled. "I would never work for Voltaire no matter what he was threatening to do!"
"I didn't shoot him," Kai answered calmly.
His attitude just made me even angrier. How could he be so calm after what he had done? Didn't he have any sort of conscience at all?
"So what?! You as good as killed him, didn't you?" I snapped.
"I know."
"What were you doing in that shop anyway?" I demanded. "What did Biovolt need you for, huh? Tell me!"
I was livid; I grabbed Kai's shirt and pulled him closer so he could see all the anger in my eyes.
He snarled at me and pushed himself free of my grasp.
"It was some blade they had lost. They wanted me to recover it," he hissed.
"What was so important about this blade then? What was so important that they were willing to kill someone over it?"
"I don't know! I was just doing what I was trained to do!" Kai yelled. He was never as loud as he was that night. It was a real screaming match.
It was so horrible. I was too angry to feel it but once we calmed down I felt like I was going through a million hangovers at once.
"Does that make it right? No, that doesn't give you an excuse to do what you did!"
And then silence swept in.
We just stared at each other as if we were seeing each other for the first time and then Kai said softly, "I'm sorry."
It was the first time I had ever heard him apologise and normally I would have accepted it but not that time..I had no forgiveness for him that time.
"I know never deserved a team like the Bladebreakers," he continued in barely more than a whisper. "I can understand if you want me gone; I can't make up for what I've done. I'm sorry."
"..You should be," I said, turning my back on him. "You can stay but only because the others will wonder what happened if you suddenly disappear."
I was going to walk away from the person I thought I had known when another voiced joined us.
"No," Rei said emerging from the shadows.
Of course! I had been yelling so much he must have heard!
Kai cast Rei a glance and Rei shot back a glare.
"I know it's rude to demand something when this isn't even my home but." he looked at Kai again. "I want you gone."
Kai nodded, accepting his fate.
"Rei?" I asked uncertainly. From what I could gather Rei had always gotten on well with Kai.
"What you did to Max was inexcusable," Rei said, his arms were folded; he really did remind me of an elder. "Regardless of who had the gun or who pulled the trigger; you betrayed all of us!"
"I see," Kai spoke; his voice was a little strained but he put on a very convincing act. "Okay then, I'll go."
With that he jumped onto the wall but before he jumped off and onto the street he turned and gave us one last glance.
I'll always remember that moment; the way the moon covered his skin in silver mist, the way he stood there looking like the same old tough-on-the- outside-soft-on-the-inside Kai I had known but most of all, the way his eyes shined with emotion.
And then he went.
I was wondering how I would explain this to Max and Kenny.
Rei just walked off shaking with anger but I stayed a little longer to stare at the spot where Kai had once stood.
I didn't think I'd see him ever again and I wasn't sure if I was pleased about that.
However, I did meet him again but that's something I'll save for later.
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Mizu_Tenshi: I know it was stupid and boring to have a whole chapter on Takao and Kai but I promise the next one will be more exciting. Don't worry! That isn't the last you've seen of Kai.
Othela - I think things just got worse. What will the Bladebreakers do without their captain?
Tenma Koneko - I think Max will go ballistic if he finds out. I've reviewed your story too, I hope you got it.
Silver Swiftness -Yay, my story is actually on someone's fave list! Thanks a bunch.
Kiina - Yeah, we all need more dark stories.
DarkTwilightZero - I'm sorry, here, *Hands over a box of tissues*
DragonBlade - I know, how can this get any worse? Well the next chapter will be in the POV of someone I haven't done yet.
Vialana - Yep, you're right, things are going to get worse but once it hits rock bottom then at least it can't get any worse.
Kkornelia - Kai does think too much, doesn't he? I'm trying to lay off the Kai POVs for now.
Dawn35 - Max would probably try and kill Kai if he found out. Luckily he's gone before Max discovers the truth.
Feelin Glayish - It does seem to be getting worse, doesn't it? Well every cloud has a silver lining...I think. Maybe something will come along.