Darkness Falls - Chapter 3: Iris
You're beautiful. I'm sure you know that, though. Wherever you are, I'm sure someone has told you that again. There's no way they couldn't; no way they could miss you.
You're beautiful. And I love you.
I don't deserve to. Or maybe I do. Maybe it's right that a monster like me should only be allowed to love a dead woman. I would hurt someone too much if they were alive. Maybe that's why I killed you. I hope to god it isn't, but maybe that's what was going on through my insane mind.
She hasn't even been here a day and she reminds me of you. The way you were when you first came. Scared, easily startled. You were like some deer. A beautiful deer. I couldn't take my eyes off of you, though I'm sure that didn't help you. Your first day there, and you were being stalked by the Red Demon, a blood thirsty monster.
But you never felt that way about me. Or if you did, you hid it, and hid it well. Even when I killed your brother, even when I killed you, you never felt that way about me. You still loved me. Even though I don't, and I never will, deserve it.
Iris, I love you. I hate myself for never being about to say those three words to you. I hate myself for freezing everytime I had the opportunity to, and walking off, or stalling until I had to go. I envy you. You found it so easy to say those words to me.
Did I hurt you when I never returned the feeling? When you told me you loved me, did it hurt you when I only blushed, smiled, and nodded? Were you crushed that I didn't say: "I love you too?" I tried to. I really did. And I did love you. But I just can't express myself so easily. Even when I try.
Did I hurt you, or were you understanding? Did you understand that it just wasn't my way to be so open about my feelings?
It's killing me, being around her. She's just like you. She doesn't look like you, but she acts like you. And she doesn't even see what she's doing. I hate her.
But I love you.
You're beautiful Iris.